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A Gnostic Childhood Part VII Berlin 1950-52
Uncle Ali
I Am A Nine Year Old Gnostic! ...Thankfully we got a new teacher in the fifth grade, Herr Schwartz, who didn't know about my "depravity" and what I did with Helga. He was a nice, middle aged, man who was also an excellent teacher. I liked him but didn't trust him as I would distrust all adults since my "experience." Being in the fifth grade now, I developed a definite desire to read stories and dream of adventures. The year was 1950 and I was nine years old...
This class-picture was taken probably in 1952. I am way back second from left standing against the wall. Our Teacher Herr Schwartz is also standing in back. These are almost all the same boys as were shown in an earlier picture with Fraulein Ziegle. My friend Joachim Bandmann is sitting in the last row, second from left. Another friend Karl-Heintz Fiedler is in third row, third from left and Juergen Lehmann, another friend is seated last row fourth from left. I have my left hand on his shoulder. Gerhart...(I forgot his last name) my "gay" friend is standing next to me on my right. Siegfried (Sigi) whose last name I also forgot, who was much older then the rest of us, was also a friend and is seated next to Juergen Lehmann in front to the right of Herrn Schwartz. Eberhard Galinsky, my Jewish friend, is in the front row second from left.
Uncle Ali Becomes My Mentor "when the pupil is ready the teacher will appear..." Next to my grandfather's bicycle store used to be the ruins of a bombed-out apartment house. When the rubble was eventually cleaned up and removed, there was a large open space where this building once stood. As if overnight, there were suddenly about six merchant's kiosks facing the sidewalk. These were canvas and cheap wood constructions which could be assembled and disassembled within hours. I remember one that sold candy, another that sold soaps and cheap perfumes and another that sold used books. This was actually in 1949, I believe. Naturally we kids were excited by this new presence in our neighborhood. We could get candy for a penny, or, if we were rich, for a ten penny coin called a "Groschen." For me, the book-stand seemed also very fascinating. I remember standing in front of the outside book-bins looking through these worn and often dirty looking books which had miraculously survived the war. Too shy to go inside the little wood-frame-canvas structure, I just peeked inside through the open door if I thought the strange little man who ran it wasn't looking. It had four walls of book shelves filled with books right up to the ceiling and seemed to me like a temple of knowledge only available to initiates. It was to me a world of forbidden treasures and secrets. Since it was winter and these structures had no heat, the salespeople tried to keep warm by rubbing their hands constantly over large kerosene lamps which lit their little shops. Some even wore ear-muffs and gloves with the fingertip parts removed. When no prospective customers were there, they often paced up and down behind their wares in an attempt to generate body heat. Watching them, I felt sorry for them in this cold climate with their open stands. One day, as I was looking through the outside book-bins once again, the strange looking little man came out through the door, asking me if I could get him a couple of "Schnecken" from the nearby bakery. Of course I was more than happy to do this for him since it would perhaps open the inner sanctum of his temple of secret knowledge to me. When I returned with the two pieces of cheap baked goods, he invited me inside the little store where he had three or four folding chairs. We sat down and he offered me one of the two Schnecken. We ate silently and then he asked me for my name and where I lived and we began to talk about books and life in general. I remember that he told me his name was "Ali" which seemed very exotic to me. Telling me a little about himself he must have realized my interest. Born in Palestine and having lived in Egypt, he told me that he, even as a child, was always interested in Religion and the Occult as well as in Germany and the German people and that this was the reason he was in Berlin. We talked a little more about what books I liked and what I was interested in and I told him about Jesus and the book where I had read his story. He was a good listener and very kind in his words and mannerisms. Not at all like most Germans who didn't like to listen to children nor gave them much room for self-expression. Being of small built and bald-headed he just radiated tolerance, awareness and a deep inner peace to me. Thus he eventually became a dear friend and much missed father-figure to me. Naturally, my mother and grandparent's were not too happy with my new friend and in retrospect I assume it was because they thought he might be a child-molester or worse. But, as it turned out, he never touched me "inappropriately" nor did he make lewd or suggestive comments ever. He liked me for my mind and my already loosely developed Gnostic perspective on life. This might seem odd to most "average" people who live in this world without asking many questions nor the need for answers to the mysteries of life, but as true, born Gnostics are so rare, an adult Gnostic who discovers a child with the necessary state of awareness, would rejoice in his discovery and try to befriend the child without any other motive than to help and guide it as a mentor. Uncle Ali, throughout the following years, gradually opened up to me completely and thus became the most influential person in my young life. Although his eventual influence reached well into my adulthood right up to this day. He was as remarkable as he was mysterious. Everything about him seemed shrouded in secrecy and to this day I ask myself what would have become of me without his influence? Sometimes I even think that he was an angel or messenger of God who had come to me in order to give me what I so desperately craved and couldn't get from anybody around me. Being in a precarious state of mind after the humiliation with Helga, I probably would have broken down emotionally if it had not been for this mysterious man from Palestine. Already deeply influenced by the teachings of Jesus and somewhat aware of the world as a place of evil and ugliness, I had opened at such an early age to spiritual perceptions and influences which I couldn't have handled alone without being able to talk to somebody I could trust about it. He was my teacher and "father confessor" who would listen to me with rapt attention and reassure me as only an awakened, aware and enlightened soul could. Never to humiliate me for my often very confusing psychic experiences nor for my thoughts about things pertaining to childish perceptions. Instead he would, ever so carefully, weave into my consciousness his own experiences as reassurance for my doubts and fears. Perhaps he really was an angel appearing just at the right time in my life to take me under his "wings."
Uncle Ali's Story So then, what was his story? He, as I already mentioned, was born in Palestine where he also grew up. As a young man he had gone to Cairo, Egypt where he went to University to study German literature, language and physics. Being a Moslem from birth, he developed a very strong interest in Sufism which led him to Gnosticism and the "Occult," such as Kabala and other disciplines which I forgot. Being initiated into a group which he called "The Gnostic Brotherhood," he attained first hand knowledge of Gnosticism in Cairo. Of course, when he spoke to me about this, I had not even heard the words "Gnostic" and "Gnosticism." Thus, it is difficult to recollect in my mind the exact words he used or even the concepts of Gnosticism he explained to me so patiently. What I did get though is more of a broad base of my own perceptions of it and an opening of my understanding about how the world "functions." He spoke not only of the Spiritual level, but also how it intertwines with political ideas and our human existence here on earth. In the course of his "teachings" which he transmitted to me through lengthy conversations over a three year period, often interrupted by customers browsing through his books, his own life story was perhaps the most fascinating aspect I could grasp and remember. Gnostic Initiate and Arab Language Nazi Propagandist Being a Gnostic "Germanophile" with the ability to speak and read the German language fluently, he was referred to the German "Abwehr," the Secret Service, operating in Cairo by one of his professors. Having made the mental connection of certain aspects of German National Socialism with Gnosticism and other spiritual disciplines, he was deeply intrigued by this political movement and eager to find out more. After a short time of meetings with agents, he was recruited and send to Berlin for training and indoctrination. I must mention here, that since the nazi era and everything connected to it was a "taboo" subject, at home and school, I had very little knowledge about it at age nine, when he first talked to me about it. But having seen pictures of "Hitler-Youth" in surviving albums and magazines, I was very intrigued and more than ready to learn more about it. To tell the truth, I was not only intrigued but fascinated to the point where I felt a pull and inner connection to this era which extends to this day. In other words, I felt drawn to it like a moth to the light. More than anything else, at such a young age, I loved the pageantry and marshal music which gave me goose-bumps of delight. At a later age, perhaps it was 1954, I went to a "Troedler Laden," a second hand store, owned by a big Jewish man with the name of "Levy" over the door, where I found a whole collection of brown colored "Telefunken" records with marshal music and songs of the nazi era. But that is way ahead of my story. Meeting Nazi Gnostics and Socialists Nazis: Otto Rahn, Ahnenerbe, Vogelsang and Wilfried von Owen In Berlin, uncle Ali was trained and taught in everything connected to being a good spy for the "Abwehr" and he also was gradually introduced to high-ranking national socialists who had connections to Alfred Rosenberg and the SS branch known under the name "Ahnenerbe." It seems that he was just the man they wanted and needed in this scholarly branch of the SS. Thus he became an officer in the SS wearing civilian clothes and given the opportunity to attend the Ordensburg "Vogelsang" for further training. After he finished his training at "Vogelsang," he was sent to Bavaria to the Ordensburg "Sonthofen," for more training and eventually to another place in Bavaria, outside of Munich (I forgot the name of the town), for studies with the SS-branch "Ahnenerbe." In the course of his research there he met many important figures of the nazi elite. One of his close friends there was Wilfried von Owen and Otto Rahn. Wilfried von Owen was very interested in the teachings and history of Islam and the Islamic nations, which, of course, brought Ali with his Moslem background to his attention. He met Otto Rahn through his Gnostic research and articles which he wrote for the "Ahnenerbe." At the time I had never heard of Otto Rahn, but I remember distinctly uncle Ali talking about him with affection. He also showed me a book he had which was written by Otto Rahn titled "Lucifers Hofgesind in Europa," ( translated "Lucifer's Court in Europe"). Uncle Ali talked to me about Otto Rahn and the Cathars-Albigensians. It struck me then how serious and reverend he became when he talked about these "Johannite Gnostics" and how their teachings related to certain aspects of National Socialism. Becoming slightly agitated he told me that there were various factions within the National Socialist movement who waged a bitter and hateful war from within for supremacy, and that the movement had come under the control of a faction allied with the big corporations and thus international Capitalism through the blunders of Adolf Hitler and the German Officers Corps which consisted mainly of "titled" aristocrats. The spiritual faction around Rudolf Hess, Carl Haushofer and Alfred Rosenberg was not only in official disfavor, but completely powerless by 1938. Himmler's SS had risen gradually to a position of control with Himmler's perverse racist beliefs and pagan occultism infiltrating the government and power structure through denunciations and murder. He told me that it was Heinrich Himmler, more than anybody else, who had destroyed the socialist ideals of national socialism through his secret alliances with international corporations and his extreme and perverse racist ideology. It was Himmler, he said, who was really in control of the nazi government after 1938 and who allowed the corporate interests, who had once financed the movement, to control and direct all affairs of the State, like a secret government behind the official government. Hitler was completely under the thumb of these capitalist manipulators and feared for his life from Himmler's SS. In fact, the whole movement, everybody of the Third Reich's elite, knew what was going on but powerless to change what was happening because of their fear of Himmler's SS. Himmler, a ruthless, spineless bureaucrat, soulless and merciless, controlled everything and no one dared to resist his power.
Internal
Struggles Against Himmler's SS Needless to say, uncle Ali despised the SS and Heinrich Himmler although he himself was an officer in the SS. He, when he realized that the SS had nothing to do with the ideals of national socialism and it's Gnostic roots, became completely disaffected. But knowing what his position was, especially as a Palestinian SS Officer, he was rightfully afraid for his life and thus remained in their ranks. He spoke to me extensively of the spiritual and socialist factions within the Third Reich and about their clandestine meetings to further their agenda in secret through a "brotherhood" network of like-minded officials in the government. Speaking of Otto Rahn, he told me how this gentle scholar and avowed Cathar hated and despised the SS and Himmler, as well as the whole course the national socialist movement had taken. Being neither a racist nor a ruthless person by nature, Otto Rahn decided that he wanted as little as possible to do with the SS and the nazi movement and resigned his commission as an SS Officer after a forced stint at a Concentration camp ordered by Himmler to "toughen him up." When this gentle Cathar scholar realized where National Socialism was heading through betrayal from within, Otto Rahn decided to commit suicide in the surroundings of his beloved alpine mountains in 1939. Alfred Rosenberg, the author of "The myth of the twentieth century," once considered the official party philosopher, was also horrified by the course the National Socialist movement had taken, but chose to remain in his position hoping for a change in the power structure which, of course, never came about. Heinrich Himmler is the Enemy! Heinrich Himmler, whom the population called by the derogatory name "Reichsheini," was in control until the end in 1945, when Hitler finally realized that Heinrich Himmler was his "Judas" and the ultimate cause of the collapse of the Third Reich. Too late did he finally realize that he had surrendered the ideals of National Socialism to his capitalist enemies with the by Himmler instigated and SS executed murder of his old party comrades in June 1934, of whom Ernst Rohm and Gregor Strasser are only two well known names out of hundreds. Too late did he realize, as the flaming inferno of Berlin and the advancing Soviet army, gave him no other choice than to commit suicide, that this non-entity of a man, this little bureaucrat had not only out-smarted him through lies, secret manipulations and flattery, but also destroyed the German people as a nation and the future of European culture. Thus opening the gates wide to the eventual establishment of a One World Government by his capitalist "sponsors" behind the scenes. Uncle Ali told me in so many words, that the atrocities committed by the SS in the "Einsatzgruppen" and the Concentration camps was all the work of Himmler and his influence over the whole movement. He said that Himmler was always on the secret payroll of powerful German and allied financial interests who used him to bring about the collapse of the National Socialist movement from within through outrageous racism and atrocities which would create a pretext, after Germany's collapse, for these atrocities to be used as an example and reminder, a warning, if you will, for the world to abandon any form of national identity in disgust and willingly submit to the establishment of an eventual One World government under the auspices of the United Nations which would later have to give way to the dictatorship of the One World Cabal. The Protocols of Zion Through his research, he told me, he had come to the definite conclusion that the "Protocols of Zion," were exactly what they claimed to be and that it was the outline of what has happened and what was going to happen. Naturally, I was much too young to understand everything he told me especially as I had never heard about the "Protocols," but his words are with me today as then in 1951 and I remember him telling me to get hold of them when I got bigger and read them very carefully as everything told there was going to happen in the near future. He especially admonished me to heed their implications and watch as a "neutral" bystander as everything would gradually unfold just as outlined and described in these "Protocols." No matter what is said about them and who said it, he said, if they deny the Protocols as forgery or nonsense, know that these people are either ignorant or part of the cabal. The Zionist - Nazi Axis In 1940 uncle Ali was asked to come to Berlin and become part of Goebbels' propaganda outreach to the middle east. He was to broadcast Arabic language commentaries and programs to the Arab world. This was done in a "half-hearted" and lackluster manner because of Zionist-Nazi cooperation with the aim to settle Palestine with Jewish refugees from Germany and Eastern Territories. He told me that he knew, from his contacts in the SS, that Zionists and the SS were working together as they had much in common as to their racist ideologies and worldview, and that the concentration camps were to serve as collection points for forced expulsion of Jews to Palestine, since the Zionists were painfully aware of the fact that most European Jews had no interest to settle there. At the same time Germany was also promising the "mufti" of Jerusalem support in the Palestinian cause. Thus Germany's dealings with Palestine were duplicitous and half-hearted. The SS under Himmler preferred the Khazar Zionists to the true Semites in the Arab countries and Palestine because of their similar racist-fascist ideologies. He also told me that the SS left the Jewish concentration camp inmates under Zionist rule and control by their own "capos" and that they were the ones who so harshly abused their fellow Jews. Of course, he said, that things gradually changed as the war progressed and resources and supplies dwindled because of Allied bombings and food as well as medical supplies became scarce. Diseases ravaged the camps and people began to die by the thousands. Also, Zionist groups in America and England were agitating against Germany which the German government perceived as duplicity. The fact is that, just as in National Socialism, the Zionist movement was splintered and split in opinion of how to bring about the planned nation of Israel on Palestinian territory. Eastern European Zionists were in favor of cooperation with German National Socialism, even to the point of willingness to fight with Germany during the second World War to insure German victory since Germany had promised, if not guaranteed, that Israel would be established for the Jews after the war was over. The Zionists in America and England had also reached agreements with the governments of the United States and England to establish Israel after the war and proposed to use concentration camp horrors as propagandized by the Allied powers to manipulate world wide sympathy for the establishment of a Jewish state on Palestinian soil. In the struggle between the various factions of the Zionist movement, it was the pro-Allied one which won, to the detriment of the German people who, to this day, have to pay emotionally and financially for it. The "One World Cabal" Winfried von Owen was working with uncle Ali as were other Palestinians whom he had already met before in various branches of the Abwehr and SS. At the same time, in Berlin, he also renewed his contacts with certain underground factions of the national socialist movement who had fallen in official disfavor. The Gnostic and socialist factions had found common ground and were co-operating with one-another in the desperate hope to change the course of National Socialism and the war already in progress. Some of them were caught by the Secret Service in the attempt to contact Gnostic and related connections in England and Russia which brought them into Concentration camps or, in at least two cases, execution by beheading. Others did succeed and realized that their connections weren't powerful enough to bring about a change in allied policies. The influence, in Germany, of Himmler's SS, and in England and Russia, of the One World Cabal was too strong and too feared. Churchill and his cabinet were completely sold-out to these fiends and Roosevelt's cabinet was also completely under control of either Communist-Soviet spies or the One World Cabal which worked through both, Communism and Capitalism and even more so through National Socialism in Germany. Rudolf Hess, Gnostic Initiate and Hero; Adolf Hitler and Himmler can not be trusted Rudolf Hess, knowing the stakes and the truth about the subversion of National Socialism by the Cabal, decided through the advice and connections of Prof. Karl Haushofer in England, to awaken the people and patriots of England to the plans of the cabal and, hopefully, change the course of history by stopping the war and bring about a unification between England and Germany. He knew that he couldn't trust any mediators from whatever nation, be it Sweden or Switzerland, with this important mission. He needed to talk man to man, initiate to initiate, in order to accomplish this almost impossible mission. Thus, he decided to fly to England himself and deliver his eye-opening message. He knew that he risked everything by this action, but idealist that he was, he saw no other way to do what he felt as a "call to destiny." Some select men within the secret Gnostic-Socialist faction knew of his plans, including Prof. Karl Haushofer. But Adolf Hitler was not included as a confidant, since he was still under deceitful spell of Heinrich Himmler and therefore couldn't be trusted. As I remember, it seems to me that uncle Ali believed that the mission of Rudolf Hess was betrayed to Churchill and that he knew in advance of his plans and arrival in Scotland. I can't be sure though as to what uncle Ali said about the details of Hess' ordeal and betrayal in England and him eventually becoming a defendant at the "kangaroo court," as he always referred to the "Nuremberg Trials." But I do remember his reverence and admiration of Rudolf Hess whenever he spoke of him, and also telling me to never forget the sacrifice and nobility of this great soul who was a born Gnostic before he ever came in contact with the National Socialist movement in Germany. Uncle Ali told me that Rudolf Hess was born in Egypt of German parents and that he felt, even without their Gnostic link, a certain kinship with him because of his own Arabic background.
Tibetan
Monks in Berlin Uncle Ali also went into detail about the Gnostic-National Socialist faction's connections to Tibet and the Dalai Lama's as well as the Panchen Lama's support of their spiritual and political aims. Of course he was talking about the Dalai and Panchen Lamas previous to the present ones. It was the Gnostic theory of mankind's origin and racial evolution, which is similar to "The Secret Doctrine" taught by the Russian-German Countess Helena Blavatsky, which attracted the elite of Tibet's spiritual hierarchy to certain aspects of German National Socialism which eventually led to Tibet sending, unofficially, high-initiate monks to Berlin in order to work with German Gnostic initiates, such as Karl Haushofer and Rudolf Hess to attain the power needed to steer the National Socialist Reich away from the influence of Himmler's primitive and dangerous paganism. Seeing this form of pagan brutality and blood-thirst as similar to Old-Testament worship of a false god representing materialistic tribalism, which would lead to the rule of the "Anti-Man," whom uncle Ali described to me as the "Anti-Christ" who would be the ruler of this world as described in the "Protocols" and the New-Testament of the bible. These Tibetan monk-initiates were also to take part in the, what they perceived as, final spiritual battle for power over the earth and astral plane which would soon engulf the whole world and where the role of the National Socialist Reich would be to represent and fight for the spiritual freedom of every living being and the evolutionary future of all mankind. There was even what could be called a regular Tibetan "colony" established in Berlin, he told me. Unfortunately, the Gnostic faction within the National Socialist movement lost more and more power and influence as Himmler and his pagan SS gained increasing power over all aspects and branches of the movement. Hitler being ignorant of the spiritual implications of Himmler's plans, fell completely under his spell. Both being bourgeois to the core and spiritual dabblers at most, were influenced by occult initiates of the "left hand path," who were Satanists of the old order and part of the One World Cabal. Karl Winnegut who eventually became Himmler's mentor and his occult consultant for the SS pagan Temple, the "Wewelsburg" in Wesphalia, and assorted sinister occult practitioners from the former "Thule Society," rose to prominence again after being neglected for a long time. Himmler's rise in the National Socialist hierarchy was unstoppable from then on as not only financial support from the International Industrialists of the One World Cabal, but also their occult-satanic practitioners were actively influencing their gullible victims Heinrich Himmler and Adolf Hitler. Naturally, with the rise of these occult pagan forces, the Tibetans in Berlin and their Gnostic National Socialist sponsors, especially Karl Haushofer and his circle, lost influence and respect. Still financially supported by the German Government, these Tibetan initiates, nevertheless, were kept under constant watch, viciously maligned and openly distrusted. Uncle Ali told me that these noble souls, so far away from their homeland, fought bravely in the ranks of the SS in the battle for Berlin and committed ritualistic suicide by "Hara Kiri," as Berlin fell to the victorious hordes of the One World Cabal in the form of Mongolian "Soviet" soldiers. Final Days In Berlin Surviving The Red Hordes During his last years as an Arabic language commentator and propagandist for National Socialism to the Arabic nations and people, he felt that he didn't want to represent this distorted form of Himmlerian (as he called it) National Socialism to his own people, but had no choice, short of death, but to continue his commentaries which were censored by other Arabic speaking members of the Propaganda Ministry. Still, he said, that he managed to word his programs in such a way that other initiates in the Arab world would get a vague idea of what was really going on in Germany. In early 1945 he was given the option to return to an Arab country of his choice or to stay in Berlin and fight with the other foreign SS brigades to stop the expected advance of the Red Army into Berlin. He knew that it was a hopeless fight and that there was no possible way that the Russians could be stopped short of a miracle. Through his contacts he had heard about secret weapons being developed or already in limited production which still could turn the inevitable seeming Allied victory around. But, he said, that at this point he really didn't care anymore who won the war, since he knew that even if Germany could manage to stem the tide and achieve an agreement for peace through these "Wunderwaffen," the One World Cabal would still be the ultimate victor. It was only his love for the German people and his fear for their ultimate destiny which led him to decide to fight till death if he had to. Thus, wearing a Waffen SS uniform, he was thrown into the final battle for Berlin. Fighting first in the outskirts of Berlin, in the general area of Zehlendorf and beyond, he and his brave comrades were forced to retreat further and further into Berlin proper. As the Russians advanced ever more, he fought in street battles and railroad depots and he saw the brutal fanaticism of the SS who not only sacrificed themselves in a futile battle, but executed those who tried to escape into civilian clothes and merge into the civilian population, mercilessly. He saw thus, first hand, how Himmler had not only drawn the best of the German youth, but also the worst. Sadists and Psychopathic characters had attained high ranking positions which made it easy for them to do whatever they wanted, especially during those chaotic last days of the war. He saw them commit unspeakable atrocities, summary executions, torture and beatings of the young boys of the Hitler Youth who were scared to death and wanted to return to their families. And he saw the indescribable suffering of wounded soldiers screaming in pain without possible medical attention, dying a slow and agonizing death and he heard the screams for help from people caught in cellars of bombed out buildings who couldn't be freed. He saw people writhing in agony as they lay burned and maimed within the rubble of collapsed apartment houses and children running through the streets searching for their parents. Berlin was a flaming inferno which can only be understood by those who lived through these days of cosmic evil. Ilya Ehrenburg And The Merciless Rape Of German Women and Children Uncle Ali told me that only his faith and Gnostic understanding gave him the strength to continue instead of taking his own life which almost seemed as the only way out. Little did he know then, how much more suffering the German people had to endure when the Red Army took over Berlin, raping, murdering and carting people off in open railroad cars to Soviet gulags in Siberia. The raping of German women and children that went on was beyond anything ever perpetrated by any victor in modern history. Very few women and young girls made it through those terrible days without being raped and beaten by Russian soldiers. Many were raped to death by hordes of participants. The "high command" of the Russian Army not only tolerated this beastly behavior, but ordered it's "brave Red Army soldiers" to rape every German woman they could find in order to impregnate them and thus destroying their "Aryan pride," by having to give birth to as many Russian babies as possible. I remember how this word "rape" puzzled me to no end as I could not really imagine what it meant aside from some childish idea. Uncle Ali carefully and with utmost sensitivity, explained to me what it was all about and I still couldn't grasp how anybody could do such a thing. Uncle Ali told me that, more than anything else, the words of a Soviet Jew named "Ilya Ehrenburg," who was a Soviet movie maker and propagandist, had caused this inhuman behavior, as he wrote in his flyers and posters to the Red Army troops that their Government "commanded" them to rape and dishonor every German woman as a NATIONAL DUTY! Going Underground As A Civilian Displaced Person
Then, one day, he told me, that he suddenly experienced a vision as he was laying hungry and injured at the Anhalter Bahnhof railroad tracks, which showed him the face of a friend and comrade he had known some time ago, and he heard a voice telling him "go there," "Geh zu Ihm." He managed to recollect where this friend was living last and preceded immediately to try to orientate himself and make his way stumbling through ruins and debris to the Schloss-Strasse in Berlin-Steglitz.
After
almost a whole day's ordeal, coming under fire from advancing Russian army
units, sometimes forced to crawl through sewer-pipes, court-yards, ruins and
bomb-craters, he
finally made it to Steglitz and the debris-covered "Schloss-Strasse."
He had to proceed cautiously up this street until he had almost reached the area
of the "Botanical gardens." This is where he remembered visiting his
friend and where he had to search for the right building as these apartments
were part of a huge "Neubau" area which housed many minor government
officials and also many SS officers and their families. All buildings seemed to
look the same to his tired eyes. As darkness settled in and he became more and
more exhausted and
Miraculously they made it and found refuge and relative safety at her home. And this is where he survived the advance and eventual occupation of Berlin by the Red Army. How he managed to shed his SS identity and avoid arrest and most likely execution or deportation to a Russian gulag, he never mentioned in any detail. Except that he told me that this was only possible through his "spiritual friends." I don't know if he meant spiritual beings or guides, or if he meant that Gnostic friends and their connections helped him. Unfortunately, I was too young to ask such pertinent questions of him. At this point I can imagine that many people reading this account are doubtful of its truthfulness. I can only say that it is absolutely true, uncle Ali is NOT a fictitious character and I believe that what he told me has proven itself over the last fifty years as absolutely TRUE. Since his story and insight was told to me over a period of three years, I have, naturally, condensed and edited his story. Some of what he has told me I have left out for many reasons. One of them being that quite a bit of his elaborations and details have slipped my mind over the years and that I do not want to add my own knowledge to his account, even if it is true and I "believe" that he said it. Another reason that I won't tell it ALL is, that I promised him secrecy until the time was right. This is especially concerning his "Apocalyptic" prognostications and elaborations on Gnostic teachings in view of politics and the coming of the "New One-World Order" which, actually, is not new at all but as old as time and the "Fall of Man." Need I say more? Since he told me that I would instinctively KNOW when the right time to release his information would be, and I believe that the time is not right yet, I have not mentioned any of it in any detail. I have hinted at it but not elaborated what I exactly meant, or better, what he exactly meant. Uncle Ali disappeared out of my life as mysteriously as he had entered it. In the summer of 1952 I said "good bye" to him because we were going to visit aunt Beumelburg in Erkner again. She had lost her marina to the Communist government and was living in a two family house not far from where her marina had been. It was also located right next to the "Daemmeritz see" where I made friends with a boy living in the other apartment below my aunt's. His name was "Holli," and we had many things in common. He had a "Paddelboot," with which we took extended trips along the lake and adjacent rivers. We had a great time together exploring everything around us like "Tom Sawyer" and "Huckelberry Finn." I missed Helga and secretly tried to find her in Erkner when we went on our "expeditions" around town, but never met her again. Next to the house where my aunt lived which was, incidentally, also on Beethoven Strasse, was a "Young Pioneer" summer camp and we used to watch them stand in a circle and sing at meetings. Later we even went over there and met some kids from Bulgaria and Romania. In short it was really a great vacation for me, as I was getting older and had attained so much knowledge and awareness through my mentor, uncle Ali. Little did I know that this would be the last time we could visit Erkner, since the Russians closed the "zone" area completely and visiting by West-Berliners became impossible.
Mein "Reisekamerad" When it came time to return to Neukoelln, I couldn't wait to see uncle Ali and tell him all about my adventures. As we walked down the "Sonnenallee" approaching the open lot where uncle Ali's book-kiosk was, I noticed with dismay that his kiosk was gone. The other's were still there, but my beloved uncle Ali and his "temple of knowledge," had disappeared. Frantically I asked my grandparents about the kiosk and uncle Ali and my grandfather told me that uncle Ali had stopped by at the store and told him to say "Auf Wiedersehen" for him to me because he had to move on. He had also given my grandfather a note to pass on to me which only said: "Sei nicht traurig, ich werde immer mit Dir sein." He had signed it with "Dein Reisekamerad." Which translated into English means something like: " Don't be sad because I shall always be with you," signed: "Your comrade on the journey." In German it has also a more mystical meaning as these words are based on a fairy tale written by Hans Christian Anderson in which the "Reisekamerad" is an angel or spirit guide. Despite his note, I was very sad for a long time, missing him as one would miss a father or best friend. Yet his words were true, as I have never forgotten him nor his "lectures." And even as I write for the first time about him and his life story, I get a "choked up" feeling in my throat as if I would break out in tears any minute. He was the second "father" figure taken, irrevocably, away from me. But I have seen him many times in visions and dreams over the many years of my life. So I know that his words were true and that he would be with me despite his physical absence. "May the true God of light and love bless you in all eternity, uncle Ali!"
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confused, he just mentally gave up and decided to seek
shelter for the night in the next building. As he tried to open the door he found
out to his dismay, that it was locked. To the right of him was a small board
with names of occupants listed and a bell-button next to each name. Not knowing
what to do he lifted his hand to ring any bell and ask for help, when he saw his
friend's name on the board. Stunned and instantly uplifted, thanking God, he
rang his friend's bell. Praying all the while for his friend to answer. And that
he did. He didn't answer the bell and release the door-lock, though, but came
down in person to see who was there. Both of them embraced in utter joy and his
friend led him up the stairs into his apartment. Ali's friend, also an SS
officer and member of the "Abwehr," the German Secret Service, was
also a secret member of the Gnostic-Socialist "underground" and a
reliable, honorable idealist. He gave Ali some civilian clothes which were too
large for him, but were better and safer than his Waffen-SS uniform and they decided
the next day, after a night of allied bombing and distant Russian gunfire, to
attempt to make their way to his friend's mother's home not too far away from
the government apartment complex they were in now. It seemed to both of them
that the Russians would come and arrest everybody living there as it was an easy
target to find "nazis."