
It is certainly possible to develop “Free Will, yet to acquire
such awareness and power requires a great deal of work and personal
understanding. Most people commonly assume because they can make an
arbitrary decision on some trivial, passing matter that they possess
Free Will. Here in the U.S. we believe we have the sovereign right
to choice because we can go in a supermarket and pick between 50
different kinds of breakfast cereal. Our ability to say yes or no in
any given situation is undeniable, yet the more important thing to
consider is exactly what is influencing our power of choice and to
what extent are we being controlled by the possibilities we are
offered? The simple fact of the matter is that before Free Will can
be something viable in our lives we must first understand what
constitutes the true nature of both “Freedom” and “Will.”
The basic misconception that most people have about what it means
to be Free is that they usually associate “Freedom” with some level
of escape. This is because most people are not “Free” so they make
the common mistake of defining Freedom based on their overall
experience of being slaves to circumstance. When someone says they
are “Free” it often means that they have managed to get away from
their job or some other activity or person they don’t want any part
of. What is rarely ever realized is that anytime we have to make an
effort to avoid something then we are definitely not free. In fact,
what we are trying to avoid is exerting a very powerful influence
over us by determining our behavior. In daily life this sort of
roundabout enslavement plays out through compulsive addictions to
our likes and dislikes. For instance, I might experience difficulty
in a group because I don’t agree with someone else’s opinion. The
overall dynamic of the group may suffer as a result and it is all
because I can’t manage to identify a greater purpose beyond a
perceived wound to my ego. In situations like this we often like to
convince ourselves of our intrinsic righteousness by believing that
our difficulties and the greater welfare of the group are the same
thing. As soon as we find ourselves in such a “blame game” a warning
flag should immediately go up making us aware of how our ego and its
“bullying” tactics are being used to camouflage our fears and
insecurities.
In any group situation each individual represents a “Denying
Force” for every other person involved. What this means in terms of
our personal evolution is that a clash of egos is ultimately
designed to transform us beyond the confinement of our self-limiting
beliefs. A confrontation should never simply be about victory or
defeat. The conflicts in our lives should serve as lessons on how to
transcend our likes and dislikes in order to reach reconciliation
with a Higher Truth. An unwillingness to acknowledge compromise is
often more about fear and inadequacy rather than strength. To be
drawn into stand-offs over matters of taste is never about the
victory of what may or may not be right; instead it is about our
adversaries gaining control by making us play their game. The fate
of any group as well as our own “Higher Evolution” rests entirely
upon our ability to act meaningfully in regards to reconciling our
desires with the welfare of the greater whole. This is often a very
difficult point for many people to understand because most of us
have been programmed to believe in the fable of rugged
individualism, when in fact the glorification of the loner or
“maverick” is merely a divide and conquer strategy aiding those who
would wish to control us. Glorifying the pursuit of individual ego
at all costs fosters a situation where everyone unwittingly
participates in the ascent up the anthill toward fame and fortune.
Benjamin Franklin summed it up best when he made the famous remark
“We must all hang together or surely we will all hang separately.
”Our actions possess “meaning” when they have come about through an
understanding of our role in the greater scheme of things rather
than on the emotional baggage and megalomania we are often willing
to make the situation about. The abilities to negotiate and
compromise therefore become an intrinsic part of being “Free”
because they manage to liberate us from the mechanical response of
giving our power away to either external forces or our own
insecurities. If a choice I make is based on either my
misunderstanding or ignorance and not on a greater understanding of
the overall situation, then I am not Free.
In order to begin to better understand what it means to be “Free”
one must transcend the limits of needing to feel “safe.” Safety as a
preoccupation is entirely about denying the life force. The power of
life is beautiful and nurturing, but it can also be frightening and
destructive. If we seek peace and harmony we must also come to
accept the “Denying Principle” of death and transformation. No one
can do the work for us to arrive at such an understanding of the
cycles of existence, though the average person will always be
vulnerable to any Messiah or system that claims to be able to. The
most obvious way this “Savior “ dynamic plays out for many people is
in the form of what is commonly referred to as “morality.”
The illusion of moral conduct is that it is derived from the word
of God, but “which God?” Any answer regarding the true Divine Law
would depend entirely on where you are in the world. What is a
ticket to hell in Islamic countries may be an accepted custom in
Christian countries. In truth “Morality” revolves around the premise
that human behavior needs to be restricted for social order. The
logic behind many such restrictions will often make no sense unless
one also takes into consideration that some people simply have a
pathological need to deny their own fears by projecting them on
others. This point is developed rather well by the late Wilhelm
Reich in his seminal work “The Murder of Christ” where he states
quite simply that the crucifixion was a symbolic murder of our love
nature by the jealousy of those who are impotent. By our love
nature, Reich was referring to our ability to go beyond what
restricts us in order to embrace what allows us to grow in harmony
with the surrounding world.
In a more contemporary context, the right to seek our freedom has
been hidden in the controversial moral minefield of the debate on
abortion. The Supreme Court legislation of Rowe v. Wade is neither
an affirmation nor a condemnation of abortion. The legislation
simply gives each individual woman the power to choose in terms of
her reproductive rights. Any argument made about the status of a
fetus is specious in so far as those who make such arguments have a
very definite fundamentalist moral agenda they wish to promote. They
argue the sanctity of life yet they support politicians who are
against social services and promote a war driven economy. The irony
of the whole situation rises to a crescendo when those who profess
to be pro-life allude to the fact that they are soldiers for God’s
Will. The right of choice is unalienable and it is the cornerstone
of true Freedom beyond what any government or notion of God can give
us. Christ did not die for anyone’s sin; he simply provided us with
an illustration of how we may work to redeem ourselves. Aleister
Crowley wrote, “Sin is the word of restriction,” though I think the
concept of “Sin” is nothing more than a synonym for experience.
At this point one might confidently say the foundation for being
“Free” rests in the awareness of the stifling limits of our learned
behavior and the knee-jerk mechanical responses that result.
The average person’s inability to understand “Freedom” arises
from the simple fact that most people are basically unaware. The
Philosopher P.D. Ouspensky once remarked that before we can begin
talking about “Consciousness” we must first realize that without
recognizing it we are all essentially unconscious. From birth we are
made subservient to the awareness of our parents, no matter how
limited that awareness may be, and after that we are socialized to
conform, educated to repeat, and ultimately programmed to follow and
obey. Aleister Crowley adds that true independence begins with
original thought, which results in being labeled a “Rebel.” If this
rebelliousness continues and one gains followers the next step is to
be branded a “Devil”. If over time one’s uniqueness is then
generally recognized and accepted by the majority the result then
becomes “Greatness.” While I generally acknowledge Crowley’s view,
his line of thinking can be misunderstood. In a general sense
“Greatness” is a relative term, usually understood in most cases to
mean either large or exceptional. In regards to understanding
“Freedom” greatness is essentially irrelevant. Freedom is not an
exceptional state it is a natural one. Slavery is an exceptional
state because it consists of an artificial restriction upon a
natural situation. It is therefore more important to first
understand in what ways we are not free before we can ever hope to
be “Free.”
If Freedom is a natural state then why would revolutions need to
be fought and blood shed in order to preserve something that
generally exists? The simple answer is because it was in someone’s
interest to convince another party that such a dynamic was
necessary. Freedom has much less to do with exterior events than
with interior awareness. The writer Maya Angelou once asked, “Why
does the caged bird sing?” The bird sings because it is the
creature’s nature and such behavior cannot be suppressed short of
killing the animal. William Faulkner’s comment at the end of “The
Sound and The Fury” regarding the slave woman Dilsey was that “She
endured.” Freedom endures because it is incontrovertible. Dilsey as
a fictional metaphor of the Blacks in the Southern U.S. endured
because her Spirit was never broken. Freedom is initially as
immaterial as a thought, yet everyone knows that what we think of
the world essentially changes its meaning and structure. If our
thinking is manipulated or controlled in some way then our behavior
will reflect that. The average American has been conned into
believing they can have “Free Time” even though their ignorance and
addiction to comfort makes a “Free Life” in the purest sense
virtually impossible.
The next important thing to realize in the pursuit of true
Freedom is that those who are not Free will often actively work
against you. If this is not realized, any subsequent attempt to
disengage from the domino chain of cause and effect that enslaves
others will fare no better than expecting your reflection in a
mirror to do something different. The reason for others resenting
the attempts of someone they know trying to be Free initially stems
from the fact that most people at some point in their life rebel out
of an ego driven self-righteousness that is always doomed to
failure. Once they have had a chance to experience the resentment of
others and reflect upon their own fear, they usually end up
conforming and adopting a cynical outlook as they continue through
life thwarted and frustrated. It is their mortally wounded ego and
inability to grow from failure that causes them to resent the
aspirations of another. In short, they have simply let their fear
get the better of them and every time they see someone else face up
to fear it becomes an uncomfortable reminder of their own cowardice.
The conformist mentality has never been able to evolve past the
initial mistake of having a knee-jerk reaction to being confronted
with a challenge. They just don’t see that reacting to criticism
based on insecurity results in subservience to the will of our
adversary. If someone comes up to me on the street and say’s,
“you’re an idiot” and I argue about it then I am an idiot. If I am
willing to first take responsibility for my emotions and
insecurities and then for my choices, up to and including rejection
by another, then the possibility exists for me to be Free.
Not everyone will be forthright in their rejection of our
attempts to be Free of what imprisons them. There is also the
situation of someone rejecting my choice by trying to make me feel
bad and saying their rejection is really based on their love for me
along with a concern that I am hurting myself. In a case like that
one needs to look very closely at how that person is living their
life. If they are generally following the herd and their actions
reveal a fear of taking responsibility for their Freedom, it is then
necessary to seriously consider if that person is merely trying to
manipulate you to keep you in the same quicksand.
Manipulation is an insidious act is because it often leads to
feelings of guilt on the part of the recipient, who then unwittingly
directs their anger at being unaccepted into self-hate. This is why
guilty people are often angry and/or inclined to confrontational
behavior. Or else the guilty individual will identify with their
oppressor and blame anyone who doesn’t also see the logic for why
they have given their power away. Lemmings run over cliffs and peer
pressure exists in human groups because it is easier to surrender
one’s responsibility and hide in the perceived safety of the
collective rather than to acknowledge our insecurities and work to
develop an original character of our own within the group context.
This whole dynamic of the status quo and conformity can get so
convoluted and complex that for the average individual the notion of
“Free Will” becomes hopelessly misdirected into either regular,
socially accepted periods of escapism or “the climb to the top”
otherwise known as “Being a Winner.” The individual who is “Free”
needs only to be happy with who they are, for they realize anything
else is tantamount to turning tricks for a master. As a result,
attempts at non-conformity by the average person often end up having
a hollow, canned quality that usually finds expression through some
sort of trend. When I encounter angry young men that mimic song
lyrics as they walk in the street or ride the train I want to ask
them, “Did you make that up yourself or are you conforming to some
image that was designed to manipulate you by providing a vehicle to
hide your fear and insecurity beneath a disguise of rebellion?
An interesting exercise to engage in at this point would be to
take a meditative moment and try to find one thought in your head
that originated within you and wasn’t implanted by some external
source. The headache you will probably get is equivalent to the cuts
the prisoner suffers when he or she finally decides to scale the
barbwire fence that imprisons them.
Now that we have a general perspective on what Freedom
essentially means in terms of individual behavior, what can one do
to change if one recognizes they are not Free? We are now ready to
discuss the concept of “Will.”
Freedom is only possible when the desire for it or our “Will” has
been identified and developed through hard work. There is no
“Initiation” or “Special Healing” that will instantly establish and
strengthen the will. We must work diligently to dismantle the
mechanisms that have been set up to thwart our natural development
from when we were children. Aleister Crowley wrote of a concept he
termed “The True Will,” which is not to be confused with either
simple ego or desire. One’s True Will represents the intrinsic “I”
instead of the many “I’s” that arise as a result of the stultifying
affects of education and conformity that are thrust upon us almost
as soon as we exit the womb. Crowley went on to say that if one can
successfully identify and follow their True Will then that
individual shouldn’t fear what they may encounter on their path
because whatever arises will represent their destiny. What this
means is that once we know who we are then it finally becomes
possible for us to freely choose and fully “Be.”
Like anything else in life, the discovery of One’s True Will is a
process and all transformational processes operate on the Law of
Three or “affirmation, denial, and reconciliation.” What this
effectively signifies is that the obstacles in life or “The Denying
Principle” constitute the road to growth, enlightenment, and
freedom. Every person we meet and every situation we may find
ourselves in represents a “Hazard” on the way to self-discovery. We
can only find out who we are by experiencing what we are not. When
this level of awareness has been acquired our “Will” has been
activated. The result then becomes the ability to recognize that all
the obstacles to understanding the true nature of freedom are in
fact necessary to living a truly free life.
Perhaps some readers may feel that I have spent a lot of time
listing the things in the way of Freedom and not enough time on how
to be “Free.” The reason for this is because no one can give you
freedom. You are not “Free “ because a designated “Master” or
“Author” has told you about what they think “Freedom” means and you
have followed those instructions. One is Free when responsibility
has been taken for the work necessary to find out who you are apart
from what anyone else expects you to be.
Freedom is not possible if we assume we already have it. We must
constantly question the reality thrust upon us and continually ask
ourselves, “Am I serving a truth or a master?” A truth is the
ultimate balance of any situation and will always challenge us to do
and be more. A master may be a person or an idea, but if we follow
that sort of lead unquestioningly then our seeming choices will be
nothing more than conforming to a set of predetermined variables.