THE TEACHINGS OF ROBERT DeGRIMSTON
ROBERT DeGRIMSTON
1. FEAR
1.1 Fear is the root of man's destruction of himself. Without Fear there is no blame. Without blame there is no conflict. Without conflict there is no destruction.
1.2 But there IS Fear; deep within the core of every human being it lurks like a monster; dark and intangible. Its outward effects are unmistakable. Its source is hidden.
1.3 It can be seen on one level in furtive embarrassment, argumentative protest, social veneer and miserable isolation. It can be seen on another level in the mammoth build up of war machines in every corner of the world. It can be seen in the fantasy world of escapism known as entertainment. It can be seen in riot-torn streets and campuses. It can be seen in the squalor of ghettos and the pretentious elegance of 'civilised' society. It can be seen in the desperate rat race of commerce and industry, the sensational slanderings of the press, the constant back-biting of the political arena, and the lost world of the helpless junkie who has passed beyond the point of no return.
1.4 The tight-lipped suppression of the rigid moralist reflects it, as does the violent protest of the anarchist. But more starkly and tragically than anywhere else, it manifests in the pale grey shadow of the ordinary person, whose fear clamps down on all his instincts and traps him in the narrow confines of the socially accepted norm. Afraid either to step down into the darkness of his lower self or to rise up into the light of his higher self, he hangs suspended in between, stultified into an alien pattern of nothingness.
1.5 But to a greater or lesser degree, and manifesting one way or another, all human beings are afraid. And some of us are so afraid that we dare not show our fear. Sometimes we dare not even know our fear. For Fear itself is a terrifying concept to behold. We may confess to being afraid of violence and pain, and even ghosts; and with such obvious terrors, pigeon-hole our fear to our own satisfaction. But fear of people, fear of ourselves, fear of failure, fear of loss, fear of our closest friends, fear of isolation, fear of contact, fear of loneliness, fear of involvement, fear of rejection, fear of commitment, fear of sickness, fear of deprivation, fear of intensity, fear of inadequacy, fear of emotion, fear of GOD, fear of knowledge, fear of death, fear of responsibility, fear of sin, fear of virtue, fear of guilt, fear of punishment, fear of damnation, fear of the consequences of our actions, and fear of our own fear? How many of us recognise the presence in ourselves of these?
1.6 And if some of us recognise some of them, are we prepared to see the full extent of them? Do we know just how afraid we are? And do we know the effect that our fear has on our lives? Do we know how completely we are governed by our fear?
1.7 And do we know that the world is governed by the sum total of every human being's fear, and ours is not excluded.
1.8 Do we know the extent to which we are at odds with one another - despite some promising apparencies — simply through our fear of one another? Do we know the extent to which we are at war with one another — on every level from personal to world wide — because we are afraid?
1.9 And do we know that wars and rumours of wars mount up in an ascending spiral of violence and potential violence, as the fear in the hearts of men intensifies? Do we know that strife of every kind increases as hatred, resentment, jealousy and prejudice increase, and that all these stem from one thing only: Fear?
1.10 And do we know that one thing only ensures the escalation of the spiral of violence and destruction; our own unwillingness to recognise the full extent of our fear and its effects — our fear of Fear?
1.11 For each and every one of us, as long as he is afraid, and unwilling to see with full clarity his fear for what it is, contributes to the crippling conflict that has become the hallmark of this world of ours. And as long as there IS fear, together with unwillingness to see it clearly and completely, as long as human beings are afraid and also fail to recognise the fact in then- need to isolate themselves, in their outbursts of anger and irritation, in their embarrassment, in their sense of failure, in their feelings of resentment and frustration, in their desire for revenge, in their guilt, in their confusion, in their uncertainty, in their disappointment, in their anxiety about the future and their wish to forget the past, in their need to blame others and justify themselves, in their sense of helplessness and despair, in their revulsion and disgust, in their need to be vicious and spiteful, in their lack of confidence, in their tendency to boast and protest their superiority, in their failure to respond, in their sense of inadequacy, in their feelings of envy, in their futility, in their misery and in their scorn; as long as long as human beings fail to see THEIR fear reflected in these and a hundred other manifestations of Fear, then they will fail to see their part in the relentless tide of hatred and violence, destruction and devastation, that sweeps the earth. And the tide will not ebb until all is destroyed.
2. AN ADVOCATE FOR JEHOVAH
2.1 Fear is the essence of life.
For without Fear there is no courage, and without courage there is no strength, and without strength there is no power and without power there is no magnificence.
2.2 And Fear was given to man as a challenge by which he might prove his courage and strength, his determination in the face of adversity. And Fear was given to him also to keep him in mid of his Creator, Jehovah.
2.3 For Jehovah holds the Universe in the palm of His Might Hand. And He holds the keys to all the unfathomable secrets of existence. And in the beginning, Jehovah decreed: 'Wherever men might search in their desire to conquer all and rule their destiny, wherever their excessive need to be masters of the game might lead them, there shall they find Me, there shall they find My presence, ever above and beyond them, and they shall seem to themselves like chaff in the wind beside the splendour of My Universe. And Fear shall lurk relentless in their breasts. And thus, if they are wise, shall they know their Creator; the source of their existence.'
2.4 Though a few have been wise and remembered, yet man, as a race, has not been wise. He has not used his fear to know his Creator, but to drive himself farther and farther into ignorance of his Creator. He has used his fear to make himself forget. But ultimately he cannot forget. He can submerge his knowledge and awareness beneath the blanket of his devious intellect, but he cannot destroy it. And at the End, when all lies are exposed, he must remember, for his fear runs deep and never vanishes.
2.5 And when the outer coverings of human GODlessness are stripped away, leaving the naked soul, then shall men know the ultimate in fear, and thereby shall they know once more their Creator. But at that time, the agony of such a memory, ripped from the belly of the all-embracing lie and brought into the stark light of truth, will be the doom of those who have kept it hidden to the bitter end.
2.6 So know your fear before it is too late. Feel it and know it. Don't hide from it, pretending it's not there and avoiding at all costs everything that threatens to expose it.
2.7 And know the Lord Jehovah, your Creator, who judges you not by your lack of fear, but faith and courage in the face of fear, just as He judges you not by your success, but by your faith and endurance in the presence of failure.
2.8 Jehovah is the source of your strength. He can take life away. For you are His children. His wrath can fall upon you and His great love can raise you up.
2.9 And in the Day of Judgement that approaches, in the great cataclysms that draw near, in which the whole world shall be engulfed, Jehovah shall stand before His unhappy creation. And those who have endured with faith and courage shall He raise up, whilst those who have played the coward and deceived themselves, He shall leave to the mercy of their own blindness.
2.10 Those who have used their fear to open rather than close their eyes, for them is the Love of their Creator, for them is the triumph of the Latter Days. Those who have served their God shall rise up with their God, and out of the chaos and the devastation they shall know the wonders of a New Age and a New Creation.
3. AN ADVOCATE FOR LUCIFER
3.1 The greatness and the majesty of man, which man has lost; the nobility which man has squandered in pursuit of nothing; the grace and beauty of life as it could be on earth which man has twisted into a grotesque horror of hideous indignity; the peace and harmony of human love, which man has almost totally destroyed for himself; these qualities have died at the hand of one all embracing enemy, one monstrous ogre that devastates all that it touches. They have fallen before the inexorable destroyer; Fear.
3.2 Man has offered himself as a sacrifice at the temple of Fear. He has knelt before the shrine and given all. He has made fear his master and patterned his life according to the rules laid down by Fear.
3.3 All that was good in human terms becomes evil in the shadow of the ogre. All that was beauty becomes ugliness; all that was white becomes black; all that was light becomes dark; all that was life becomes death. Man walks his world in the company of Fear, and his world changes from a garden of delight to a desolate waste. And the glory and the dignity of man is lost in the degraded self-destruction that follows in the footsteps of Fear.
3.4 And the irony of ironies, that sits like a grinning demon watching the nightmare unfold, It is the fact that man has nothing whatever of which to be afraid — unless he is afraid. Man's fear alone makes him vulnerable. Nothing weakens but Fear; nothing destroys but Fear; nothing undermines but Fear. Without Fear there is no danger; without Fear there is no threat; without Fear there is nothing to Fear.
3.5 If man could see that only Fear can harm him, nothing else, then man could return to his state of paradise on earth. He could recapture the peace and beauty of the ideal human existence. He could eliminate the squalor of a world so steeped in war and hatred, violence and suspicion, that it has virtually forgotten human dignity exists. He could love again. He could know the sweet tranquillity of fearlessness again.
3.6 But man will NOT see. Man is so totally submerged in Fear that he CANNOT see. Nothing is more blinding than Fear, and man is enveloped in Fear. So man will not return, for man is lost.
3.7 But a few will return; the few who are fearless, because of they are not blind; the few, who with the Lord Lucifer are worshipers of Life instead of harbingers of Death; the few, who will follow the Light that Lucifer brings to shine in the darkness of ignorance where Fear is born and fostered.
3.8 For Lucifer is Light and Love, and where there is both Light and Love there is no blindness, and where there is no blindness there is no Fear.
3.9 So follow the Light of the Lord Lucifer! Walk proudly in His footsteps! And though men may sink deeper into the quagmire of abject terror, and tear one another to pieces in their desperation, yet stand aside from the slaughter! Let only those who worship the demon Fear take part! It is his price.
3.10 But for those who seek Life in the face of Death, for those who seek Love in the face of Hatred, for those who seek beauty in the face of hideous and grotesque ugliness, there is the legacy of the Lord Lucifer. For theirs is the Light in the Darkness.
3.11 Be not blind! Know that the End must come; that the demon Fear has triumphed over man, and man shall destroy himself. But go not into the Darkness with him. For those who are not afraid there is Light, the Light of the Lord Lucifer.
3.12 Attend Lord Lucifer!
3.13 In the midst of the raging terrors of the End, you who have known Him, and by whatever name, you who have given your lives to His service, you who have followed His Light and preached His word, you who have believed in the basic dignity and goodness of man and have striven to uphold it, you shall stand in the shelter of His Love; His Light shall fall upon you and He shall not desert you.
3.14 And above the mighty roar of the cataclysms, as the doom of the world is upon you, you shall hear the sound of His voice proclaiming, not the end of an old era, but the advent of a new one. And the raging chaos of the destruction shall pass away, and with its shall go the fearful ones.
3.15 But those who have stood firm and fearless in the Light of the Lord Lucifer, shall not pass away. They shall pass on with the Light that has conquered the Darkness of Doom, and the New Era shall have begun.
4. AN ADVOCATE FOR SATAN
4.1 Fear is from the Pit. It is a demon from Hell that steals into the hearts of men and crouches there; crouches, takes hold like a cancer, and spreads to encompass the bodies, the minds and the souls of men.
4.2 Fear is like a fever, that seeks to envelope a man and drag him down into a state of abject uselessness. Fear blinds, so that men do not see even the fear itself, as it drives them steadily towards stagnation and death.
4.3 Fear constricts. It narrows the scope of vision; it takes the mind and squeezes it. It takes emotion, crams it into a tiny space and blocks the exit. It takes life and makes it living death. It takes love and makes it hatred.
4.4 Fear is an agony of ignorance, of frustration, of doubt, of wondering — not knowing but wondering, hoping but losing hope, waiting and wondering, always wondering.
4.5 Fear is the essence of death. Fear is the essence of loss. Fear is the essence of misery. Fear is the essence of ultimate destruction.
4.6 Fear is sent by Satan from the depths of Hell.
4.7 And Fear is the test of man's invulnerability. Fear is the trial of strength that will prove him for the Final Judgement.
4.8 And the only match for Fear is Defiance; the strength to stand upright in the face of all opposition, and scorn whatever threatens or seeks to intimidate. For the man who can fail defiant does not fail; the man who can lose defiant does not lose. Only the victim fails and truly fails; only the victim of Fear; the one who wilts and crumbles, flees in terror, hides his head, disintegrates, suppresses, lies; only he meets the final humiliation because he WILL not meet it. But he who stands proud to face his fear, rises up to meet the inevitable threat and defies it, he conquers Fear.
4.9 And just as Fear is of Satan, and stems from the Bottomless Void, so also is the only match for Fear. Defiance is of Satan.
4.10 He who defies Fear does not defy Satan. He defies, with Satan, the test that Satan brings for him. He that defies Satan falls into the trap, but he that defies Fear in the Name of Satan, triumphs.
4.11 And Satan rules now, for Fear is master of the world. And soon shall come the time of the Final End; the judgements, and after the judgements, the devastations. And Fear shall increase.
4.12 And then, will you lie, a victim, cringing before the striding monster from the Pit? Will you succumb to Satan's test, and flee in helpless terror from the inexorable onslaught? Or will you, with Satan Himself, arise amidst the cataclysms? Will you take the Sword of Defiance that Satan offers, to wield against the Enemy, Fear, that Satan sends to prove your strength? Will you stand proud beside the Great Destroyer, and defy the devastation of the Armageddon?
4.13 Yours is the Victory. Yours is the triumph of the Final End. And yours the reward of the New Beginning.
5. JOHN GREY — HYPOCRITE
5.1 He looks askance upon the non-conformer. He discourages all activity that does not fit within the narrow pattern of convention. He condemns any who step outside the generally accepted 'norm' of moderation.
5.2 He hides, even from himself, his own intensity of feeling, and presents to the world a pale facade of rational virtue and self-righteousness. He is the faded hypocrite. He has wrapped himself in a cocoon of compromise and mediocrity, and demands, sometimes with a show of outraged indignation, that those around him do the same.
5.3 Whatever he may be behind the mask, he is outwardly restrained (even in his outraged indignation), and anyone who is not, is met with his — restrained but unmistakable — dislike.
5.4 He spreads a pall of inhibition round him. From fear he is himself inhibited, and by his attitude he silently condemns all who are frank and open or full of outwardly expressed intensity. He confronts them with a tight-lipped half-expressed hostility; tries to ridicule them, sometimes — craftily — by condescension. he has made himself appear insensitive and approves only of others who have done the same.
5.5 To all, without speaking, he says: 'The world and I are governed by reason, and reason will carry us through all adversity. All will be well, if we suppress our instincts, conceal our emotions, curb our feelings and maintain an inscrutable facade of grey passivity. Think, reason, logicise, rationalise. Do not, whatever else you may do, be honest.'
5.6 He is the hypocrite, the walking lie. He is the palely negative one, who attempts to drag everything around him down into his quagmire of pale negativity.
5.7 But do not condemn him. Pity him. Because he is pitiful.
5.8 He expresses his fear of life in every look of disapproval, every gesture of condescension, every attitude of rejection. For whatever refuses to conform to his pattern, threatens him. It threatens to expose his hypocrisy, to crack his shell of negativity, and reveal him to himself as he refuses to see himself; pitiful, pointless, GODless — and AFRAID.
6. WHERE DO YOU BELONG?
6.1 Do you follow JEHOVAH; accepting your fear, but pressing onwards with faith and courage to rise above the sense of failure and dissatisfaction that surrounds you?
6.2 Or do you answer to LUCIFER; separating yourself from the ways of the world, using your love of life and beauty, together with an undying optimism, to make you fearless in the face of all that could threaten you?
6.3 Or is SATAN your master; calling upon you to defy your fear, to plunge in where you are most afraid and discover that after all you are invulnerable?
6.4 Or do you feel trapped in the Way of the Grey; compelled by force of circumstance to hide your fear? Do you feel so inhibited by the world around you that you dare not even acknowledge your fear?
6.5 Think again. Each one of us has a choice. Which is more worthwhile; being yourself as you really are, or the preservation of a joyless image?
6.6 Christ the Emissary is there to guide you.
6.7 There is no way out, but there IS a way through. There is no escape, but there IS fulfilment.
6.8 Knowing is the way. And knowing is not analysing or speculating or rationalising.
6.9 Knowing is feeling, experiencing, seeing clearly, understanding, absorbing, expressing and going through.
6.10 Knowing is living what you know; being what you are; thinking and feeling what you are afraid of allowing yourself to think and feel; saying and doing what you are afraid to say and do, but what you know must be said and done.
6.11 Then you can begin to know yourself; who and what you are, your inclinations and your revulsions, your capabilities and your limitations, your strength and your weakness, your responsibilities, and your effects on others. And you can begin to know the consequences of being what you are, so that you can cease to be afraid of them.
6.12 And Christ, the Emissary, is there to guide you. He IS the way through. He is freedom from conflict and release from Fear.
1. DEATH
1.1 Death lies ahead for each one of us. If we fear death then we must also fear life. If we do not accept death, our own death, then we cannot accept life. For death is as much a part of existence as life itself. We are born, we live and we shall die. It is our nature to die.
1.2 Death lies ahead for each one of us. We are at this very moment both living and dying. If we are uneasy about death, our death, then we must, as we live, be uneasy about life, our life.
1.3 How we see death, our death, is crucial to how we live our lives. We may argue that there is nothing after death, and that nobody has ever come back. But if we see the end of our bodies as the end of us then we must see death as either an escape from life or as the ultimate futility, the one a fear of life, the other a fear of death, and both a fear of existence.
1.4 But the truth is that we feel that we are immortal, and we all believe in our immortality, that there is an existence after death that personally concerns us, each one of us. The truth is that none of us can imagine ourselves not existing.
1.5 But we fear death. The whole subject is uncomfortable for us, to say the least. We feel uncomfortable in the presence of someone who is dying. We find it difficult to comfort such a person when we ourselves feel such a fear of death. Death is so often a tragedy for us (even though it may be a blessing to the one who is dying). Death takes our loved ones from us, or us from our loved ones. Death must be avoided; we must live longer and stay younger. Death is the enemy who overtakes us. We feel that the dead are death's victims. We fear death as a young child fears to go into the dark.
1.6 But more than our fear of death is our fear of misusing the life given to us as we have it, and our fear of arriving at the point of death with regrets, a sense of futility, of wrong, of waste, with feelings of failure, dissatisfaction and unfulfilment.
1.7 For, in reality, when there is no guilt for a life misused, there is no fear of death.
1.8 Death is our constant companion; always with us, waiting. If we fear death we fear ourselves. But if we come to accept easily and gracefully the inescapable fact that one day we will die, and never forget this, then we can have a fulfilling and happy life, even in the face of great adversity.
1.9 We live surrounded by death and the agents of death. Violence, war, crime and corruption, competition, the rape of our polluted planet, famine, disease, all kinds of disasters. What is there to give our lives meaning and purpose? What hope is there in a world filled with despair? How can it be possible to die in peace when we live so sadly? How is it possible to come to terms with death, which threatens us so?
1.10 There is only one way through, though it may take many forms. We must discover, somehow, in our lives, the permanence of our spirit, that is to say the real 'us', over death and through death into rebirth. Death is the gate to life. And Christ gave us the key — survival through the power of love.
2. AN ADVOCATE FOR JEHOVAH
2.2 This world is Hell, this world is death, the living wages of sin. For sin brings forth death and this world is dead in sin.
2.3 Now is the time of death. Let there be no illusions. Now is the time of expiation for the perpetuated sin of Adam. This life is death and we live in hell, a living death. Bodies, minds and souls trapped, imprisoned in a death sentence that lasts a lifetime.
2.4 Fear not the death to come, for that is our reward and our release. But fear rather the mirage of Paradise regained or yet regainable on earth, for truly that is death without redemption.
2.5 Every just tear and honest drop of sweat will be rewarded: that is the covenant. For every tear and drop of sweat set up treasure in a place where 'moth and dust' do not corrupt. Relish this time of penance. See and praise the justice and wisdom of GOD in His Universal Law. Know that the sufferings of our bodies, the anguish and torment of our minds, the imprisonment of our souls is our salvation.
2.6 And even at the time of the final agony, be strong for Jehovah is with you. Hold fast to this knowledge that GOD sees all, repays and duly rewards with Light all those whose faith has maintained them in their darkest hour of darkest death.
3. AN ADVOCATE FOR LUCIFER
3.1 Lucifer is the God of Rebirth and Immortality; have faith — in yourself, in your undying spirit, in your future, most of all in your immortality. This is what matters: that in the end. you are infinite; in GOD you are Infinite.
3.2 For you, there is no death without rebirth. Death is the gate to life. And no man posses through the gate, but he reaches the other side.
3.3 Before death is birth, and after death is rebirth. In your death you will be reborn.
3.4 This world is become a sad world, full of past glories and painful souvenirs, of fond memories lost, and dreams and hopes and wishes unfulfilled, of heavy burdens on frames ill-fitted to bear such weight of sorrow, where personal lines mean little more than personal tragedy. The light of the world is pale now and faint, and a deep longing for harmony and accord grows stronger, as harmony and accord are buried deeper in a world gone mad with its own destruction, and hell-bent on death-dealing, acquisition, greed, fear and suspicion, hatred, violence, lunacy, strife, disagreement, aggravation and loss.
3.5 Mourn the passing of the world and the death of nature. But the world will be reborn, and nature will be reborn. Be patient and have faith in yourself and your undying spirit and in your future.
3.6 And most of all, know your own immortality. For this is what matters: that in the end you are infinite; in GOD you are Infinite. The part of you that is of GOD will never die. Bear the pain for this infinitesimal fraction of your eternity and on that day will your new life begin.
4. AN ADVOCATE FOR SATAN
4.1 Satan is Death, the separation of soul from body, body from soul. Satan lives in Death.
4.2 My friend, Death is your ultimate test. Satan is the ultimate test of a man.
4.3 In Death, Time ceases to exist. For Satan, Time does not exist; for Satan, there is no past, no future.
4.4 If we do not accept Death, we cannot accept Life. If we do not accept Satan, we cannot accept Christ.
4.5 Death is Satan's realm: when we go through Death we go through Satan's realm.
4.6 Death is Fear, as Satan is Fear.
4.7 We cannot run and hide from Death; nor from Life, nor from Time. Nor can we run and hide from Satan. Mark you well, all things come to Death in the End.
4.8 So, what are we to do about death? Wait for it in fawning submission, quaking in fear of the moment when soul quits body? Lie in a passive sweat on a bed of terror waiting for the encroaching night to come? Unwillingly to falter and stumble blindly on our way to the brink of the black abyss of the unknowable?
4.9 No! Not while there is a breath in our bodies, or an ounce of strength in our limbs, or warm blood in our veins, or grit in our teeth, or a defiant courage in our hearts. Death, your sting will have to wait, for this now is the time of life and your icy grip and chill laugh must ring hollow until the fates decree our passing.
4.10 And when the moment of truth comes, and the bell is tolled for us, we will stand and salute the fateful day that death has drawn for us, proud to have given all and gained all and known all, trough and crest, and given all to life itself. We will know the climax of a life come to fruition, the orgasmic entry into the wry laws of death.
4.11 On that fateful day may the caverns of the dead ring loud, and echo with our triumphant shouts... Welcome Home!
5. TRANSCENDENCE THROUGH CHRIST
5.1 Christ, Lord and Master of death.
5.2 Christ, who dies to be reborn as the Spirit of Unity.
5.3 Christ, whose love transcends death, carries through death.
5.4 Christ, Alpha and Omega, Beginning and End and New Beginning.
5.5 Christ, the end of separation, the beginning of love.
5.6 Christ is the unity of all things. The Unifier. Christ.
5.7 Christ is the light in a world of darkness. He is the guide who leads us to our true selves out of the darkness of chaos and confusion. Love thine enemy; the key to the ultimate banishment of all evil, of all death, death of the spirit. It is Christ who has the power to reabsorb all the evil in the world and to make it good.
5.8 "I AM THE RESURRECTION AND THE LIFE: HE THAT BELIEVETH IN ME, THOUGH HE WERE DEAD, YET SHALL HE LIVE: AND WHOSOEVER LIVETH AND BELIEVETH IN ME SHALL NEVER DIE. BELIEVEST THOU THIS".
5.9 Christ has the power to absorb us. "Come unto Me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest . . . My yoke is easy, and my burden is light."
5.10 Come to Christ, who has the power to raise us from the dead, and to unite us. Within and without. Above and below. And the Unity will be revealed to us, when the darkness of death is past and the light returns. The light of the love of Christ, the power over death.
5.11 And through His love is death overcome.
1.1 Love is at the root of contact. It is the basis of all communication.
1.2 Love is validation. It is the will to give, the will to include, the will to support, the will to preserve and the will to be part of. It is the basis of integration, of merging, of coming together.
1.3 And Love is the driving force of creation; the urge to give life, to give existence, to bring into being.
1.4 And Love is at the root of knowledge. To love is to want to know, and to want to know is to know, because it means reaching out, it means destroying blocks and barriers, it means dropping defences, it means discovery, it means openness and sensitivity. For Love, real Love, not the human parody which passes for Love, is far from being blind.
1.5 Love is awareness. For what we love, truly love, to that we want to give. We want to give it life, power, strength, support, knowledge, help, salvation, whatever it requires of us for its survival and fulfilment. And if we are to give validly, we must know what is required, and if we are to know precisely what the object of our love requires, - not necessarily what it professes to require, nor what we would like it to require, nor what we ourselves require of it, but what it requires - then we must know the object of our love. We must know it through and through, not just see its outward appearance and assume the rest according to our requirements. We must see behind and beyond facades and apparencies. We must be fully aware of the true and basic nature of the object of our love. If we are not, we shall not know a fraction of its requirements, we shall know nothing of its needs in order to survive, nor of its needs in order to fulfil its true purpose and thus validate its own existence.
1.6 Therefore, if we love we must know, and if we must know we shall know; for to him who knocks it shall be opened, and to him who asks it shall be told, and he who truly desires knowledge shall be given knowledge. So that a man may judge his real intention to know by the extent to which he does know, and if he does not know, then he may assume that he does not truly want to know - hard though he may try to convince himself otherwise. And if he does not want to know, then he may assume that he does not love. And if a man knows, it is because he wants to know, and if he wants to know, that is Love.
2.1 And opposite Love is Fear. And Fear is the root of non-contact, of running away, of hiding, of being unseen and unknown.
2.2 Fear is the basis of no communication. It is the will to separate, the will to put distance between self and another, the will to strengthen self at the expense of another, the will to take instead of giving, the will to escape, and if there is no escape, to destroy, to damage, to cripple, to distort, to mutilate, to reduce and to make powerless.
2.3 Fear is the root of all destruction. It is the root of all hatred and aversion. It has no desire to create and build, only a need to destroy, to prevent, to be isolated and unreachable. It gives no validation, no support, no hope, no strength, except to itself in order to build itself up in opposition to the object of its fear.
2.4 Fear invalidates. It betrays and belittles. It mocks and jeers. It gives no credit and it takes all unto itself.
2.5 And Fear is the root of ignorance. It is blind, because it is afraid of what it might see. It knows nothing, because it does not want to know. It is afraid to know.
2.6 The man who fears, shuts his eyes and stops his ears and hides his head in the sand. The last thing he wants is knowledge of the object of his fear, and if he wants ignorance then he remains in ignorance. And if a man is lacking in knowledge of a certain matter, he may assume that whatever lie he may tell himself to the contrary, he does not truly desire knowledge of that matter, and if he does not truly desire knowledge of that matter, it is because he is afraid. He is afraid to know.
3.1 So there is Love and there is Fear. And Love and Fear are opposites - and more than opposites, for Love and Fear are the two poles of the mind. They are the root of the conflict that divides the mind. They are the fundamental dichotomy, the very core of the struggle that rages within every human being. The battle between these two is the source of all human anguish, all pain, all suffering. All disaster stems from the conflict between Love and Fear.
3.2 Yet, though Love and Fear confront one another from opposite ends of the universe of the human mind, though they are forever locked in a struggle for life and death, though nothing in existence can hope to reconcile these two antagonists to one another, though they are separated by a gulf that cannot be transcended from within the terms of humanity, and though everything that is food and drink to one is poison to the other, yet are they no further from each other than the two sides of one coin.
3.3 For they ARE two sides of one coin.
3.4 Separated by eternity yet are they inseparable. Each is anathema to the other, yet neither can exist without the other. Love is the enemy of Fear, and yet Love is indispensable to Fear. Fear is bent upon the destruction of Love, yet if it were to achieve its aim, it would destroy itself at the same time. Love seeks to eliminate Fear, but if Fear ceased to exist Love would also cease to exist.
3.5 A coin cannot have only one face. Either it has two or it does not exist at all. A magnet cannot have only one pole. Either it has both a North and a South pole, or it is no magnet. If one side of a conflict vanishes, there is no conflict, and therefore the other side, which must by its nature be part of a two pole existence, also vanishes.
3.6 So, both Love and Fear are dependant upon the existence of one another because each is by nature one half of a duality, one pole of a two poled existence, and they are inseparable.
3.7 And Love belongs to Life, and Fear belongs to Death. Love is behind success, and Fear is at the core of failure. Love is the basis of expansion, reaching outwards and rising upwards, and Fear is the basis of contraction, turning inwards and sinking downwards. And Love is white and Fear is black. Love is joy and Fear is misery. Love is pleasure. Fear is pain. Love is freedom. Fear is imprisonment. Love is strong. Fear is weak. Love is redemption and salvation. Fear is damnation. Love is the boundless wonders of Heaven, Fear is the constricting horrors of Hell. Love is purity. Fear is a stain.
3.8 Yet not one of these opposing elements can have any meaningful existence without the presence - or at least the knowledge - of the other. Without the awareness of Death, Life is a meaningless concept. Without the knowledge of success, what is failure? Without an inwards, there is no outwards. Without an up, there can be no down. What is black, if there is no white? What is joy, if we have not known misery? Pleasure, if we have not known pain? Imprisonment, if we have not known freedom? Strength, if we have not been weak? Salvation, if we have not felt the all-consuming fires of damnation?
3.9 There is no such thing as a stain in a world where purity does not exist. There is no such thing as Heaven in a Universe where there is no Hell; no concept of good without an equal and opposite concept of evil; no love of GOD without fear of the Devil
3.10 And each pair of diametric opposites is like the magnet with two poles; one entity with two conflicting sides; one concept with two conflicting aspects; one coin with .two faces back to back.
4.1 So Love and Fear are close; they live side by side. They
cannot merge, but they can interlock. They cannot coordinate but they can become entangled. Like wrestlers they can occupy the same space contorted by the tension of the strife between them, but each no less present than the other.
4.2 So that Man fears what he loves and loves what he fears and herein lies the agony of his existence. And what he most dearly loves, of that he is most abjectly afraid, and herein lies the torture of his mind, and the anguish of his soul.
4.3 What a man does not fear he does not love. And what a man does not love he does not fear,
4.4 What has no effect on him whatever, he neither loves nor fears. But what affects him strongly, what reaches down and touches his inner being, what makes an impact on him, stirs him, strikes some chord deep down within Ms mind, evokes response;
that thing, whatever it may be, he both loves and fears. He is drawn towards it, and at. the same time desires to escape from it. He wants to give to it, and at the same time he has an inclination to destroy it. He wants to own it, and yet he wants to discard it. He wants to belong to it, and yet he wants no part of it whatever. He wants to follow it, and yet he wants to forget it. He feels a need to find out all about it, so that he can know it, and simultaneously he finds himself reluctant to discover it. He wants to know, but cannot bring himself to ask. He wants to see, but cannot bring himself to look. He wants to enter, but cannot bring himself to knock. He wants to hear, but cannot bring himself to listen.
4.5 He is deep in the conflict between Love and Fear. And sometimes the feeling of Love is uppermost, and sometimes the sense of Fear. Sometimes he is drawn, and sometimes he is driven away.
4.6 The pendulum swings. And like a pendulum the further one side manifests, the stronger the pull from the other side, until the momentary point of equilibrium before the swing is reversed.. The closer a man comes to what he loves, the further in the pressure draws him, the greater becomes the pressure of Fear;
until the moment when for one Instant Fear and Love exert even pressure. The man moves neither further in nor out again. He is still, poised at a certain point of involvement, then the pressure of Fear that stems from the closeness of contact with the object of Fear outweighs the weakened pressure of Love that has not found complete fulfillment in this partial commitment.
4.7 And the pendulum swings back again. The man moves out, escapes, fights off the terrifying contact, and plunges back into isolation. And again, like the pendulum, when he reaches a certain point of removal, a certain degree of alienation from the object of his love, when he has destroyed his contact with it to a certain extent, either by his own desertion or by driving away the thing he loves or even by destroying it, when by whatever means he reaches that point, then again a moment of balance, an instant of equilibrium.
4.8 Fear is reduced by distance, for the threat must be immediate and close to be real, and Love on the other hand is intensified by starvation. We never know the full extent of our love for something until we have lost contact with it. So again the pressures are reversed in intensity, and once more the man is driven by Love to make contact, and Fear is not strong enough to prevent it.
5.1 So the law whereby Love is strengthened by distance and Fear reduced, and by which Love is weakened by proximity and Fear enhanced, is the law by which the pendulum swings and the two faced coin spins on its axis.
5.2 And man fears what is close and loves what is distant. Consequently either he stays out of contact with what is close to him and lives in a distant dream world of unrealised fantasy , or he seeks change continuously and is never satisfied. And so long as man is fixed within the conflict of Love and Fear, these will be the patterns of his existence.
5.3 And with Fear there is blindness and ignorance. There is unawareness and suppression. Fear generates blindness and the greater the fear, the greater the blindness, so that where a man is afraid he does not see his fear where he can possibly avoid it. He sees his love - unless it happens to be Love itself that makes him afraid - but his fear he pushes into the back of his mind. Generally it manifests in discomfort, disapproval, boredom, revulsion, anger, or intense hatred, depending on the extent of his, fear. But the last thing he sees it as is fear.
5.4 So do not be surprised if a man says; he loves, but is not afraid. Do not be surprised if you are conscious of your own love but not of your fear. Love is blind - to the fear that stands beside it. And put little faith in what a man thinks he feels, for thought is the enemy of feeling - scarcely a reliable expression of it.
5.5 Judge only what a man shows that he feels by his actions and his projections; then you will find that always Love and Fear stand equal and opposite in every situation. This is the law of the human mind, which is a mind of conflict.
5.6 But when a man is free of the conflict of the mind, then he is detached from the all-compelling forces that constitute the human brain. When he has risen above the rigid limitations of compulsive action, compulsive thought and compulsive emotion; then he can break free of the dichotomy of Love and Fear; then he is compelled towards neither. His choice is free; his intention is direct and unconflicted.
5.7 But to reach this state he must be aware. He must see and know the basic motivations by which he lives. And his awareness must be complete within the bounds of his capacity.
5.8 Therefore, as Love is awareness, he must have absolute Love. The pendulum must swing to the pinnacle where Love and Fear become one and both are complete. He must fear to the ultimate, he must love to the ultimate, and he must be ultimately aware. Then and only then can he rise above the conflict.
5.9 Through total fear, and into total love, and into total awareness, and then he is free. For total awareness of what is, is Truth, and Truth is the ultimate salvation.
5.10 And the greatest Fear is the Fear of GOD, and the greatest Love is the Love of GOD, and the greatest awareness is the awareness of GOD. And when a being comes to know the full extent, of his fear of GOD, then does he discover the full extent of his love for GOD, and then is he totally aware of GOD, And that is the moment of his salvation.
December 1967
1.1 The concept of GOD is the concept of Totality, the concept of the essence of all existence, the source of all power, the origin of all truth and the root of all knowledge. GOD is the sum total of all things and GOD is infinite.
1.2 GOD cannot be defined or described. To describe GOD is to define GOD, and to define GOD is to reduce GOD to a finite limited existence.
1.3 But though we may not describe GOD because GOD is infinite, yet we may describe the parts of GOD. And the parts of GOD are the parts of all existence. And all existence is ruled by the Three Great Gods of the Universe, Our Lord Jehovah, Our Lord Lucifer, and Our Lord Satan.
1.4 And the Three Great Gods of the Universe are distinct and separate, They are powerful and they transcend humanity, but they are not limitless. They are definable.
1.5 And whilst the Three Great Gods are divided then the concept of GOD is no more than a concept. Like a shattered mirror it lies in pieces and the pieces are scattered throughout the Universe.
1.6 But if Jehovah, Lucifer and Satan are brought together, united in a common understanding, a common knowledge, a common bond of awareness and unconflicted intention, then the concept of GOD becomes a reality. The parts are come together to complement each other and make a whole, and the whole is Totality.
1.7 So GOD is the reuniting of the Gods.
1.8 But before the Gods can reunite with one another, each must come together first within Himself. Each must bring the scattered parts of His own existence together into one whole.
1.9 For each God has dispersed Himself through His beings and His creations, for the purpose of the Game. And each is therefore scattered through the Universe, grains of vital energy, everywhere, giving life to entities of every kind, some pure and magnificent, others vile and misshapen in mind and body.
1.10 And before the Gods Themselves can come together all the parts of Them must come together, they must be collected from every corner of the Universe and be reabsorbed into the whole.
1.11 But each part itself is split, scattered through time and space, dispersed into a thousand tiny identities and placed at random. And before the Gods can collect Their parts together and be whole again, those parts themselves must delve into the future and the past, travel in space, travel in time, seek out each identity and reabsorb it, unlink the chains that bind them to their separate existences.
1.12 This is the true self discovery, the discovery of all the separated parts of self and the bringing of the parts together, freeing them from the traps in which they are held by the power of compulsive agreement, releasing them from their identifications with mortality and reabsorbing them into the core of pure consciousness.
1.13 And when the parts themselves are no longer splintered into countless pieces and distributed throughout THEIR universe, but are complete and whole creations as they were when they were first made separate from the Gods, then can the Gods collect and reabsorb them into Themselves once more, making Themselves complete, and thereby setting the scene for the reuniting of the Gods, and the gathering together of the parts of GOD.
1.14 GOD was, GOD is now and GOD shall be. For GOD is all. But when all is scattered through space and time, dispersed in fragmentary chaos and disorder through a vast and infinite territory of imaginary dimensions, then GOD is no more than an idea, a potential at the root of the splintered confusion of disunited parts. Buried within this nightmare of disarray we can only know of GOD within ourselves and thereby see His presence in the shattered pieces of the image which surround us.
1.15 But when all is brought together, when space and time no longer channel all existence into a chaos of tiny pieces divorced by the dimensions from each other, but instead feed back the splinters, concentrate them outside the separating limits of dimensional existence, so that all may become one, having one nature, one substance, one being, one orientation, one power, one truth, one knowledge, one awareness, and having no location either in space or time but transcending altogether the very concept of dimension, then we can say, not; 'GOD was, GOD is now and GOD shall be,' but simply; 'GOD IS.'
May 1968
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THE UNITY OF CHRIST AND SATAN by Robert DeGrimston
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