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Just wanted to give you the gnostic salute: "thanks for being yourself"
| Brett S...... <l.........@comcast.net> |
| Tuesday, October 17, 2006 11:14 PM |
| <discoverer73@hotmail.com> |
| I love GLF |
Just wanted to give you the gnostic salute: "thanks for being yourself".
Holger Responds to Brett:
Hi Brett, I return the "Gnostic
Salute" to you, my friend.
Your comments are so right and your "Gnostic BS Detective" is working well
indeed!
Thanks for taking the time to write me your letter of support. I appreciate
it very much.
Your Gnostic Reisekamerad,
Holger.
From Francis Donald Grabau...
To Holger W. Haffke....Gnostic
Liberation Front
Amfortas To Parzifal Concerning Fruitcakes
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Howdy, Holger
Brother, comrade, and old friend. How "funny" you should write me saying how I should write you. I've been immersed in a combination of Rachel Corrie, "Holocaust Denial", Nuremberg Trials, Norman Finklestein, Ernst Zundel, Germar Rudolph, Alfred Lilienthal, David Irving, and YOU! Plus, of course, the Black Hole of Censorship engulfing Planet Earth while the Grail fills up with cheap Thunderbird wine and the vulgarity of Condi Rice's filthy underwear full of baby vermin like Bush, Cheney, Rumsfeld, Negroponte, Gonzales, Chertof, and Rove fills the air. What a shit hole. What is Evil ?
Then, I took a whole day to read all over again -a whole day because I like to read slowly and feel and smell and taste what I read- your story of your Gnostic Childhood. Then came an email from Judy Marshall asking me if I knew what had become of John Kaminski and sending me a link to his tale concerning what that was (his sudden disappearance from Rense and elsewhere) and asking for money lest he be altogether "disappeared". And of course, Baby Jaye Beldo sprinkled me with lots of obtuse emails concerning esoteric issues concerned with his latest entourage of "alien-mind-control-invasions" by sinister astral forces lodging in all his private parts! His father's legacy of aspartame addiction; fake sweetness. And I think I may safely say I'm nuttier than a fruit cake and twice as stale. Mouldy, even. Ready to be canned away to wait for another eternal Christmas delivery. But let's not go there right away.
Let's talk about your writing, shall we? I really enjoyed reading your Gnostic Childhood ... if "enjoyed" is the right word for it. I mean, certainly watching you run around the room with your friends marching to old miltary trumpet tunes after carting a "victrola" in a wagon to your house was rollicking fun and quite enjoyable. I thought of how you and I have that in common: a love of rousing, stirring, pompous music! The more grandiose and blood stirring, the better! It's all that Sagittarius-Jupiter BRASS! Wagner sure knew how to handle it, -Tchaikovsky and Mahler did too. Beethoven was certainly no slouch! Eroica! Freude schone gotterfunken tochter aus Eliseum! Sumptuous vortices of sound swirling down the inner ear canal rousing all the red corpuscles of the blood! O passionate intensity, etc. The scenes you write so well -the outdoor "cafe" so close to the band/orchestra you didn't even hear the protests- are a joy to read. Vomiting all over yourself on that forlorn looking island in the North Sea (or somewhere!) hauling your tail over the sand dunes wanting so much to find folks of like mind. Idealists, hoping to change the world for the better. All of them coming down with food poisoning in the old barracks buildings. Your special concrete bunker by the sea. That odd object you found wedged in the rock that turned out to be what? I forget, an umbrella? A bicycle pump?
No, it was a magic baton and you waved it toward the sea, and the waves rose up in a gnostic dance carrying the Holy Grail to shore!
But suddenly the whole seaside is filthy with trash strewn about by poor black folk speaking foul language to each other in Georgia while you are landing in Peyton Place and some kind body gives you a job! Then this obnoxious street music starts up full of cheap sentimental lyrics which you confess you detest, lyrics all about how you lost your respect for your mother after Uncle Ali disappeared behind a kiosk and you rolled on the floor with Helga in juvenile bliss! You are condemned by Mom for your lust in puberty or pre-puberty (I can never tell exactly how old you are as these scenes unfold). Some bizarre voice emerges claiming it wishes you could be black for a week. But you are busy getting a couple of Schneken from the nearby bakery and can't even imagine where this voice came from. And, besides, your grandfather keeps calling you a Jew. But you give away all your reichsmark shekels and become a follower of Jesus till you die on the cross as the cursed outsider! The curtain falls with the grail descending in the guise of an etheric bicycle pump to the rousing tunes of socialist marches. All men are Brothers, comrades. Grace Metalios. Holger and Helga. Peyton Place.
Yet, just before the curtain begins that final descent we see rapidly unfolding before our startled eyes a vision of the Klu Klux Klan chasing Paul Robeson across the stage straight into the waiting arms of Diana Varsi. The two elope hurriedly in mutual bliss to the Jugendheim Bauer where they roll in ecstasy over endless juicy fruit wrappers mixed with the fallen feathers of Donald Duck strewn over the barrack's floor. Then, far in the background, we see the ghosts of Holger & Helga embracing as they ascend to heaven over the tossing waves of the North Sea to the majestic chords of Der Fliegende Hollander! At last, the thick velvet curtain really falls. It's Blood Red. The audience riots.
When it rises next, I find myself wandering with you over bombed out streets with scarce food, jumping into jeeps for a ride, begging for chewing gum and chocolate while our poor mother looks on terrified lest some GI Joe shoot us in the head so as not to be accused of "fraternizing" with the Nazi enemy! Then comes that mysterious voice repeating again, wishing this time that we could be black or jewish for a week so we could have all he chewing gum, the chocolate, and the jeeps. Russians are raping people right and left and Günter Grass sits by with a notebook writing it all down as his Blechtrommel Tin Drum. But hark, what's that other sound? Why, it's Uncle Ali's voice simply saying "Geh zu Ihm." We are once again in some dark hallway where the Golem appears offering us a mystical book full of abstruse squiggles drawn by Huckleberry Finn and a few stray Tibetans giving us the inside scoop on the Ahnenberg and the Vogelsang causing our sacredly confused blood to boil in a new frenzy of brass trumpets while The Protocols Of The Elders Of Zion unfolds revealing even darker conspiracies just around the corner. Shit, it's not easy being a suspect Nazi Gnostic even if we did grow up in downtown Baltimore-Berlin and thought we were One as children and brothers ...
Nothing I cared, in the lamb white days, that time would take me Up to the swallow thronged loft by the shadow of my hand, In the moon that is always rising, Nor that riding to sleep I should hear him fly with the high fields And wake to the farm forever fled from the childless land. Oh as I was young and easy in the mercy of his means, Time held me green and dying Though I sang in my chains like the sea.
I'm just getting my feet wet, ... more later, I must go now and make some food for my sick friend, Terry, out here in Atascadero California where I presently reside safe in my tin disguised as a fruitcake
Love to you, Brother Holger, from Donaldo...
"I know he's no such thing; but I'm
talking about how he 'sounds',
his 'tone' -how he may come across to others trained
(brain-washed) to hear the horrid judgement,
"ANTI-SEMITIC JEW-HATER" whenever the Holy Shoah is questioned"
Uh-oh, Brother Holger ...here comes Mister 'Nuance' !
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Brother Holger,
As I am never sure how my 'flight of fancy' or literary self might be taken, I shall refrain for the moment from commenting further upon your Gnostic Childhood lest you read into it some imagined slight. I do recall how you are born with Mars in Aries making you prone to haste and somewhat quick on the draw! Instead, Good Brother, I should like to take up some of the other themes you spoke of in your recent missive to me. To begin with, there is the theme of Brother John Kaminski and the 'Jewish' issue. What can I say ? Immersed as I have been in the writings of Germar Rudolph and Norman Finkelstein, I have also been noticing these last 6 months how Brother John inched ever closer toward the tendency to use the word 'Jew" in a grab-bag, catch-all kind of way not discriminating between factions or individual persons who are Jews or Jewish but using the word more and more inclusively to refer to all Jewish people as if the whole race were evil sluts bent upon exploiting the world for their own demented aims and profit. Let me say, right away, that I do not for even one minute think that Brother John is "anti-semitic" but I was becoming ever more worried at his increasingly sloppy (because imprecise) use of language and his ever angrier and more frustrated tone. Personally, I love John's writing especially because of his willingness to be forceful and direct. But I noticed, month after month, how his furious IMPATIENCE (which I know both You and I share) with the current global-political-psychic-monetary situation was driving him to cut corners, so to speak, seemingly hoping that by doing so HE COULD WAKE US ALL UP TO THE 'MAFIA' RUNNING THE PLANET! Arouse us, cause us to DO something useful that might change what looks surely to be our increasingly dire future. I appreciate that work on his part. Nevertheless, I worried.
Why did I worry? Because in my probings into the Historical Revisionists' efforts to clarify what's been going on in our collective History, -especially the last 300 years of that history, I was LISTENING to their writings, to their 'tone of voice' and their choice of words trying to discover what it is that seems to 'block' their message from being universally heard. [ Aside, of course, from the Mass Holocaust Propaganda. ] To do this, I had to also read many furious Zionists's (plus Zionist sympathizers') negative reviews and angry condemnations of their works. I am speaking here primarily about David Irving's work and Robert Faurisson's work as well as Ernst Zundel's work and several others. I noticed a lot of 'cheap shots' being taken on both sides of the argument, for example -even though some few facts occasionally get straightened out, as in the case of Anne Frank's notorious Diary, wherein ALL the original pages are published in facsimile side by side with translations into English, and the ball-point pen objection turns out to be merely a matter of ball-point NOTES appended by readers-publishers to the original pages- some revisionists persist in refusing to accept those facts. Not even mentioning those facts. Pretending that portions of it were written in ball-point pen. Nor will the 'Zionist' types give up their absurd claims to the 6 million number even though Finkelstein brilliantly 'disproves' it in The Holocaust Industry! [I know he doesn't claim to literally, factually disprove it, but he does ridicule the figure and shoots it full of holes by quoting Israeli-Holocaust documents.] You know how HOT that area of attempted 'dialogue' has been and still is, and WE both know how criminal and cowardly are the laws in place in Germany, France, and Switzerland (not to mention all the other countries) which prosecute & persecute Revisionists for even daring to express their opinions regarding the sacrosanct 6 million number and the hallowed DOGMA of the mass executions in 'gas chambers'! Kaminski has spoken out boldly condemning and mocking all this for which he has my undying gratitude and admiration. But Brother John eschews the studious, careful, 'scholarly' approach and in his zeal to denounce the obscenity of these unjust censorship laws he cuts corners. As I have said earlier, he's been increasingly cutting corners and therefore, increasingly 'sounding' to others ( I suspect -especially those newcomers who haven't read his earlier body of essays but simply stumble upon one or more of his most recent ones ) like a 'cheap shot' con-artist. I know he's no such thing; but I'm talking about how he 'sounds', his 'tone' -how he may come across to others trained (brain-washed) to hear the horrid judgement, "ANTI-SEMITIC JEW-HATER" whenever the Holy Shoah is questioned. I'm sure he knows this, but he persists in thumping away at it in his bludgeoningly direct way. He rails against the zionist lobby of holocaust hate-speech legislation which makes it practically impossible for anybody anywhere to say the words 'holocaust' or 'jew' without first praising the 'Chosen People' of dumb-dumb Yahweh the bugaboo Old Testament ONLY GOD!
Lately, Brother John has been summing up literally everything that's wrong on the Planet Earth with the word, "JEW". This will never do. This is crude, ignorant, and far too simplistic. Yet I repeat, Brother John is NOT a scholar, could never be called ignorant of history but does seem to be too impatient with that scholarly, detailed, and often tedious mode of communicating. And he rightly suspects it of 'hedging' or of often needlessly confusing issues which are otherwise in their central essence quite clear! I agree with him there, and I think he's a fine writer exactly as he writes. I don't think he should change his writing at all, as long as it serves him in his burning quest to get the truth (as he sees it) out to others. But it appears now as if this approach has ceased to serve him well and is beginning to alienate him from his global internet support base if it has not already done so.
Mind you, Brother Holger, all these thoughts were passing through my skull BEFORE your recent email reached me. I swear, it's enough to make one's head swim and one's heart shrivel when one dips into the history of Israel, Zionism, and the Israeli-Palestinian debacle. But, when one adds to that attempts to distinguish the historical evolution of the words ZIONIST from Zionist, or Zionist from Jewish, or Jewish from Jew one is almost certain to develop chronic brain fever! It's all very complex and subtle and I've come to see the word 'Jew', for example, as similar to the word 'Fire'; if you say 'Fire' in some places, at some times, in certain tones it's perfectly common place and not alarming at all, but if you say it in other tones in other places at other times it's enough to cause the panic of a stampede! Then, the "Powers That Be" simply arrest you. So it is, I think, with the word 'Jew'. And I further think that if any of us are going to get anywhere with the much needed REVISION of history we absolutely MUST take these differences and distinctions into account. We just cannot afford to go shooting off our mouths (at least not ALL the time and publicly) as if all these subtleties are meaningless or irrelevant. I don't think Irving, Rudolph, Zundel or Kaminski want to pass their precious time wasting away as 'martyrs' in Yahweh's jails! ( Am I driving you nuts yet? )
'Average' Americans taken 'en masse' or as a whole are NOT, I think, fond of subtlety and distinctly not gifted with attention to nuance. Certainly not in the way average Germans or the French seem to be. Americans tend to feel that their cowboy, rough shod ways are somehow more honest and true than 'European' nuance could ever be. Americans pride themselves, I think, on their BLUNTNESS. They celebrate their very lack of refinement, their brash and often simplistic-bumbling ways. I mean it's all about crude, down-home, hot dog, action in America, -the Nation of the Aries cry: "JUST DO IT!" Or, "Awe, shucks, just do it man ...don't be a botherin me wif all dem goddam phony details. I got needer da time nor da patience for dat BULLSHIT!" Americans, I fear, think subtlety and nuance are synonymous with insincere, pretentious, and hypocritical.
Lately, in my opinion, Brother John Kaminski has been lured out of his right mind (which is not at all averse to nuance or subtlety -though not particularly gifted in such areas, either) into the All-American-Just-Say-It headset. He's become something of a John Wayne of the Radical Left. He seems to think his unabashed sincerity confers upon him the right to linguistically swagger about waving a six shooter! Some of his verbal shots are ricocheting off the resistant steel walls of brainwashed Americans and moving in his direction. And of course he no doubt has the vile Mossad on his trail because other shots of his have hit their targets dead-on -in bullseye fashion- and begun to draw blood. I take it that Jeff Rense is high-tailin it up into the far hills ... and others, too. I'm worried about Brother John and would wish that he might let his six shooter cool off a bit for awhile. But Kaminski feels we have no time to beat around the bush what with weirdo anonymous phone calls plaguing his girl friend and a no doubt Zionist agenda to smear his good name and drive him down the same path the same folks designed for Gary Webb ... the "suicide" path. The more desperate Brother John allows himself to sound in his public writings the easier it will be for these killers to "off" him. He has (almost) single handedly pulled back the veil masking the "Arc of the Covenant" revealing that there's nothing inside except Hollywood and a grinning Indiana Jones!
Which brings up my concern for you after spending a few days again exploring your website... but it's 5:51 AM now and I must off to bed ... with warm greetings and hardy blessings ( I'll talk to you more, soon )
I remain -I hope- your friend, comrade, and brother Francis
From Holger:
May I publish them on my site? Without your name if you wish?
You are absolutely correct and I agree with you completely
about Brother Kaminski.
you don't know how very, very happy your letters have made me. God, you read me like a book and the love and comfort your word give me are like balsam on my heated soul. Well, let me not get too mushy...But really and truly, if there ever is such a thing as a soul-mate or soul-brother, somebody that loves you no matter what and who understands you no matter how crazy you are, YOU are to me that very ONE. Never ever have I found anybody so tuned in to who I am (or seem to be) than YOU. My heart flows over and my soul is charged with new energy and light whenever you communicate with me....Therefore if I ever Loved somebody through all the 65 years of my ragged life, it is YOU, dear Francis! Thank you for your insight and balanced understanding of me as I don't even understand my self as well... I only thank whatever kind spirit brought you into my life and of which you have been such an important part and influence and grounding anchor for so many years now. Please do continue your wonderful "letters" as they have brought tears of immense joy and laughter into my "jaded" soul.... I'm waiting with great anticipation for the next installment... May I publish them on my site? Without your name if you wish? You are absolutely correct and I agree with you completely about Brother Kaminski. I, being a little "mentally challenged" took his increasing condemnation of ALL Jews, as his evolved natural awareness....and actually thought that he really had "balls" to go into an "all out offensive"...even though I, deep within, don't agree with it either. Just thought in my Mars-Aries state of mind, that it "served the bastards right" after all the shit they pulled on quite a few generations of Germans...No, that is not nice! And Holger shouldn't think that way..., but I can not always be a "nice German boy" and eat my chicken soup without protest....Hell, I actually really like, if not even love, Jews. I did have many Jewish friends through the course of my life and was always drawn to their intellect and rebellious spirit. And they too were drawn to me as well. In a round and about way I believe that if any type of people are natural Gnostics, it is the Jews. But, but, but... and here comes the "if" and "but" stuff: why in God's name do they hate Germans so much and why do they form such a tribal united front when it comes to protecting "their own"? What I mean to express is: Why can't they be as individualistic and rebellious when it comes to the "tribe" and why do they cling together like a "persecuted minority", when in fact THEY themselves have all the "power and the glory" now as Jews everywhere, except in Arab lands? Why the lies and distortions and why the need for an Israel as a "home base" but living with dual citizenship all around the world? Nevertheless, I do prefer the "company" of Jews to the company of "Gentiles" anytime!!! Just like Wiesel preferred to flee with his German oppressors from the concentration camp, instead of waiting to be liberated at the camp by the Russian "liberators". If only they could see me as an individual and NOT first and foremost as an evil German. And to top it all off, oh gosh, A GENTILE....! So my love for Jews is something like a forbidden love:). Well, anyhow, when I was once in the 1970's flirting with the Communist Party USA in New Haven, CT, I met more Jews than I had ever encountered consciously before or since. And these were perhaps the nicest, warmest, kindest and most welcoming strangers I have ever found anywhere....Never was there any expression of Germanophobia, criticism or stigma sensed by me. We had meetings at a Marxist-Leninist book store which had a lot of space below the store for meeting and lectures. ALL of my "handlers" were Jewish and all of them had been in federal prisons during the McCarthy years....I was invited to their private homes and to meetings in NYC without reservation or stigmatism of any possible kind. But, of course, they were required by party "discipline" to renounce their "Jewishness" and their pesky religion and were thus free to be just like any other "comrade." In fact they all reminded me of Pete Seeger the folk singer whom I like immensely. That type of person and personality right down to the jeans and blue work-shirt. So I think there is hope for Jews and Gentiles to become just human beings :)
All my LOVE,
your devoted disciple, dear Bubba Don,
Holger the terrible
Francis responds:
Dear Brother Holger,
Well thank you for your very warm letter. Actually, it was hot! I'm glad you
feel that I understand and love you but I'm embarrassed to tears that you'd call
yourself my "disciple"!!!
I can't stand gurus, disciples, followers -that whole gamut of inanity, but your
sentiment I really do appreciate. I guess we two just have some hard to figure
out or name connection, and as I think we've speculated about 3-4 years ago it
might be through
previous lives as Cathars in Southern France. I don't know what it is, but it is
there. Here. Thanks again for your warm/hot letter.
It's fine with me if you post what I've written about Kaminski, and I'm
forwarding you in this email now something I wrote to Judy Marshall awhile back
after she called my attention to the sudden disappearance of Kaminski from the
Jeff Rense pages.
As I think I've told you, I noticed it ...but sort of like "out of the corner of
my eye". I hadn't really "grasped" it, thought I might just be "hallucinating"
or something. I mean, correct me if I'm wrong, but Rense rather prominently
displayed Kaminski as one of his LIST of regular writers until suddenly he was
not there. Just vanished. Rather like the way the Israelis surreptitiously swept
Mordecai Vanunu out of Europe after he blew the whistle on Israeli Nuclear
Weapons & Facilities! The kind of thing that really offends any descent
person's sense of justice or fairness. Sweeping people under the rug;
"disappearing" them. Doesn't Jeff Rense owe his readers at least some kind of
explanation as to why Kaminski is suddenly banished from his pages? But Rense
has increasingly become suspect for me as he has for you. Not only have I
noticed increasing amounts of "neo-con" crap cropping up on his website but he's
violated a promise he used to state and reiterate a few years back, -the
"promise" that he'd keep his radio show "free" and its archives, too. Yet, in
the last few years he's "quietly" gone ahead and made such access by
"subscription" only. And not just archived shows but daily live broadcasts. If I
try to listen live all I'm offered is a 20 minute stream if I can get it to work
properly and play! Mister Jeff Rense, I'm afraid, has simply become another
money lender in the Temple, right up there with Coast To Coast and its trivia of
distraction-disinformation!
Anyway, Brother Holger, I'm thinking maybe you've hit on a good idea with this
notion of posting our dialogue around Kaminski on your website. I think it might
help those who otherwise don't really know what to make of your very large
collection of information and articles and are "shocked" to find "words from
the Gospel of Thomas on the same page as a huge defense of Joe McCarthy! "
That's a quote you sent me from some pseudo-gnostic who found your Gnostic
Liberation Front to be an offense to his rather simple nature. Your webpage is
such a rich tapestry of articles woven about the theme of QUESTIONING so central
to the original Gnostic position on Life that it easily "offends" the modern day
internet, computer lounge lizard posers who claim they are "Gnostics" because
they "belong" to some little "gnostic" club or another. The very idea of
Gnostics conforming to ANY little Boy Scout Club Agenda with ANY protocols of
membership or ANY set dogma is ludicrous as you well know but, unfortunately,
many of those who stumble upon your pages do not! The fellow who wrote
objecting to the Gospel of Thomas being placed beside a defense of McCarthy
ought to broaden his horizons by familiaring himself (perhaps) with the
Surrealists Poets like Tzara, Duchamp, Valaoritis -all those who claimed
Lautreamont and his Maldoror as their own. The pataphysics of Alfred Jarry and
Ubu Roi! I wouldn't take this guy's rantings to heart if I were you because he's
simply about feeble mindedness and name calling -I mean he did have the nerve to
write: "...bigoted assholes have been using spirituality to defend their
exclusionist nonsense for years. The Theosophical Society essentially (some
argue purposefully) spawned the myth of the Aryan Super Race, and let’s not
forget how many modern white-separatist militias and other jerkoffs claim a
Christian basis for their exclusionist delusions." Now somebody please tell
me if that sort of writing isn't itself exactly what it purports to condemn!
You are born with Jupiter in Gemini squaring both the Nodes of your Moon in
Virgo and Pisces, so any astrologer can easily see that you delight in including
and posting via your Jupiter function all the Gemini data and information you
can find relevant to the theme of the GNOSTIC LIBERATION FRONT. I don't think
you are claiming to be perfect, nor that everything posted on your website is
ABSOLUTELY your point of view. You are merely offering information from various
unified points of view by innumerable authors on the universal Gnostic theme:
AWAKEN, QUESTION AUTHORITY! Yet your tendency to be "all-inclusive" may confuse
others who cannot live with apparent contradictions and seek to reduce your
entire website to some "hidden" central message about "white-seperatist
militias" and/or similar absurdities. Therefore, think I, your idea of
posting our mutual dialogue -which is certainly open to comments from others-
regarding speculations as to what's happening these days with John Kaminski
might be helpful for such folks to see and read so that they might come to a
better, clearer understanding of your work and your webpage. Though you,
yourself, have posted quite a clear statement of your purpose in creating the
Gnostic Liberation Front on your site, the site is so large that many, perhaps,
never see that message. They simply become overwhelmed at the surreal
juxtaposition of so much seemingly contradictory information in one place that
they shift into panic mode and may draw snap-quick conclusions such as the ones
cited above by a superficial reader who clearly doesn't want to question his own
"position" on the late Senator McCarthy. I, personally, find it difficult to
"like" McCarthy at all, but I do appreciate the insights that those who defend
him offer for our consideration. And I think we need to strive to keep our minds
open to new ways of looking at things, particularly these days when so much of
what we were taught in schools concerning the history of our past is proving to
have been false or to have been highly propagandized. Your Gnostic Liberation
Front like many other amazing web sites is part of the new democratic internet
tool that allows scholars and others to exchange and post information,
documents, or simply opinions that have never been available in the past due to
the limits of establishment media and publishing. People seeking to understand
the obtuseness of our modern world welcome the kind of questioning you do, a
kind of deep questioning innate to your nature, and the kind of questioning
which reveals you to be, in my opinion, a Natural Gnostic. Keep up your
wonderful work and please don't let the frightened, cheap, name callers distract
you.
Warmly Yours,
Brother Francis.
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From a friend who wishes to remain anonymous:
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My dear brother Holger: I have visited that website 3x in the last month, I found it juvenile and quite frankly so typical of these pseudo-gnostics we find so commonly in America. I went to the diatribe and saw but 3 responses, was yours taken down?
======= 3 Responses
1. Bogomil Says: March 29th, 2006 at
This’s universal problem - in Russia too… 2. bing Says: March 29th, 2006 at
heh–”Little Gnostic Footballs” 3. Dan Says: March 30th, 2006 at
This is weird, because I was actually gonna write a post called Gnostic Front on April 1st as a joke. The content was gonna be exactly the kind of thing on that site.
======== I rediscovered your site just yesterday and have been imbibing to my soul's content. May I tell you that I had all but given up any hope that your site would return, I asked and asked and no one would reply nor did they seem to know anything. I lamented its loss as it was, truly, unique. It was as if some genie had prepared for me a cornucopia of all the spiritual topics of which I have an interest. So as I was reading yesterday I came across the name of Otto Rahn and it brought to mind your outstanding archive. So I was determined to see if somehow or other somewhere on the web some worthy materials of Rahn were still online. Lo and behold on the search engine came up your website and with great trepidation I clicked the link and to my ecstatic joy GLF was up and functional.
What are the odds one wonders...to me it was Jungian synchronicity which is nothing more than the leading of the soul, the guidance of the Almighty Himself.
I have long learned that telling the truth is considered "anti-semitic", to what possible response would our enemies react with fairness and consideration---none.
These fashionable nouveau-gnostics are far, far from that which is depicted in the learned articles on GLF or amongst the martyrs of Montsegur.
You know, as well as I do, that there is something very wrong with this world and as Professor Kevin MacDonald had DOCUMENTED, it is primarily of a Jewish nature. Most recently, Holger, a Harvard Dean of The Kennedy School of Government was forced to step down due to Jewish pressure. SEE: http://www.antiwar.com/justin/?articleid=8787
What did they say about Jesus? All the false accusations, and against our brethrern of the Cathari and on and on. Did you think, for a moment, that you would be able, in your purity of dedication to TRUTH and SPIRITUALITY, to escape the same smears from the same gang or the mouthpieces?
Our gnosis is being hijacked by both dilettantes and agents of the Enemy of Humanity.
The humbleness, the humility, the spirituality which permeates your personal writings and is evinced in the selections on GLF, are demonstrably that of a soul of the Light in the eyes of those who KNOW.
That we are sheep amongst the wolves is certain. If we embrace and espouse the Light do we think the Darkness and its forces will not also seek to counter? That is why your work is so important, it is an oasis for true gnosis, that we can drink from its clear well.
So, my brother, do not allow those who bear false witness against you, to trouble you. It is a sign that you are doing the work of the Lord.
Was it not noted long ago John 7:24 judge not by the appearance. Those who ostensibly are "gnostics" may be something OTHER than that. I have noted that the genuine students of gnosis that have encountered your website came away, as I did, with a very positive view of it and that is what matters. Are we reaching those we are MEANT to reach; that is all that matters. They can delete your response, they can jail Ernst, Germar, David, and Siegfried Verbeke yet they call us the "bad ones." They accuse US of what they ARE, classic. There is no hate on GLF, there is, however, plenty of evidence and truth, and truth is the People of the LIe's greatest enemy.
This poppinjay that runs that pseudo-gnostic website filled with irrelevancies and distractions, is not going to stop those who are MEANT to find GLF and profit from its goodness.
I have read in the past and have been doing much reading since yesterday of the site and I can affirm that GLF is a rare jewel and a blessing to those who seek the Light of Gnosis.
I noticed that you remarked you had some trouble with the Process pages. There is a fellow Bainbridge, who used to have valuable photos and information about the 4P but it was a lure to his distasteful attempt to form a cult of his own something about UFOs but not of any worth but of a means of aggrandizing his own ego, when he learnt that the 4P material made his shabby second-hand goods look VERY bad he withdrew the 4P material. I often thought of Moore as a Prophet, misunderstood, but a prophet nevertheless and for some reason some fear his words. The Dawn of the Age of Truth draws near, lucky is the man who sees it. My prayers will be with you my brother. You are a rare individual in today's darkened world.
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Letter from another friend and
comrade
in response on the Jeremy Puma attack on Holger
Response
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Sent.
These reviews, in my opinion, typify the thinking of children. To illustrate :
First religous emotionalist : "God himself spoke to me last night, in a dream."
Second religious emotionalist : "I did no such thing."
People subconsciously get as far into the Bible as "And God said . . . And it was so." Then (having read enough for their purpose) they close the book and begin acting out this role. It is a game they play with each other, one diagnostic of their level of development.
Gnosis is a matter of direct, immediate, first-hand experience. Not of opinions, and still less of pseudo-words like "anti-semitism." No one can perform surgery with chainsaws.
An "anti-semite" is what ?
1) Anyone who hates Jews - even one, and with a good reason.
2) Anyone hated BY Jews - even by one, and for no reason.
This is purely and simply what politicians and propagandists call a buzz-word, used to bypass rational thought, creating an emotional impact which stampedes the herd in the direction desired by the manipulators.
To the extent that this term means anything at all, it does actually describe one group of people : Zionist Jews and their fellow-travelers. None of whom are, in any meaningful sense, "Semitic" at all (being descendants, in the main, of Ashkinazim - Khazars from Eastern Europe. See Alexander Koestler's "The Thirteenth Tribe"). These very people treat the Arab population of Israel - and even their own Sephardic co-religionists - both of whom are genuine Semites, like dirt.
It probably does not occur to the people who sling the term "anti-semite" around that there are Jews in the world who are having no part of this calculated deception. One who comes to mind immediately is Henry Mackow ( www.savethemales.ca ) Is he also an "anti-semite" ? As it turns out, probably yes - by definition number three :
3)A Jew who does not pledge allegiance to Zionist objectives and programs (defined by Zionism as a "self-hating Jew").
Which, curiously enough, brings us back to where we started : the supposed obligation of everybody everywhere to accept propaganda delivered in a tone of intense self-righteousness as the very voice of God himself. (And, of course it is - just ask the propagandists themselves. To whom "I think" = "God says").
Gnosticism, people, is a matter so entirely "other" than this ! When you taste something sweet for the first time, you know what sugar is. Gnosticism is this nuts-&-bolts practical. Until then, there is only wrangling and posturing - children's games.
Letter from Holger to "Skip":
WING tv, Rense, Jones and the "Chapel Perilous"....
Hey Skip,
thanks for the info, although I must admit that I already am familiar with wing tv and their expose' of Rense and Jones and Szymanski. In fact my friend the "Gnostic Astrologer" Francis Donald Grabau sent me this very same material a few month ago after an e-mail exchange concerning Kaminski and why he was removed from Rense.
In fact, I even mailed my very knowledgeable internet acquaintance "D...", author, amongst other articles, of my ........ article, about this and he related to me that he was on a phone interview with Jeff Rense when half way through it, the connection was suddenly cut. He called them back and couldn't get anywhere with them (I forgot what they told him) but it was an outrageous "excuse"...
He told me that he would never deal with rense again.... The reason that I still go to rense for research and material is that many of their contributors are nevertheless genuine. You just have to know whom to trust and read the material carefully!
You know many authors who send their material to Rense know what we know, but are doing so because Rense has a huge readership. So they keep on sending him their research and articles. I am not a radio or television person so I don't know about their radio program.
Jones too puts out some good research and polemical material, but I reproduce very little from them because I don't know if it's okay or not to do so.
Szymanski, I don't like because his nonsense is so obvious....
Quite
naturally, in this time of intense political warfare, internally and externally,
the "alternative" media is under special scrutiny by the powers that are....
In
order for Rense and Jones to stay afloat and to remain on the internet, they
have to play with the "big boys"...at least to a certain point. Like Jesus said:
"Give to Cesar what is Cesar's"...
The more you are involved, the deeper you
become enwrapped into the power plays of disinformation and power structures.
This is like the "oppressed" becoming the "oppressors" after a revolution...
It's always ego and other "unsavory" aspects of our human nature which come to
the fore during stressful times and character tests.
I don't believe that either Rense nor Jones are willing disinformation peddlers, in cahoots with the powers that are. I believe that they have to dance a tightrope to maintain their status in the "alternative" media as well as their reputation. Thus they might do some censoring when they feel that things mentioned might be dangerous to their status or their ability to remain on the internet...
As to Wing tv and Victor
and Lisa, I'm not so sure that they are angels either. I have never read their
book about 911 and thus don't know why neither Rense nor Jones want to promote
it.
It could be just competition and financial concerns, or that there is
something in it which indeed might be too revealing in regards to the truth.
But
I do know that these two don't give me a good feeling either...
To me, even a
little truth published is better than NO truth at all.
Why these two are so
active in besmirching the two main sources of "truth" on the internet, is, to
me, a source of deep concern (to say the least)...
Anyone involved in the search
for truth and into conspiracy theories should know that this field of knowledge
is like a mine-field and that he has to "dance" through it with utmost care and
often just rely on his or her intuition as a main source for discernment...at
their own peril.
Somebody called it the "Chapel Perilous"!
Nobody REALLY KNOWS
THE TRUTH with complete certainty and only a mentally deranged fanatic would
claim to have all the answers.
Thus, I personally, take everything with a grain
of salt and publish what I think might HELP TO LEAD TO THE TRUTH. Even if I know
that something sounds a little "off" and I have some suspicions about a piece, I
would still put it up because I like something, just something and not all of
it, about it.
Rense is afraid of the Jews. And I don't blame him because their power is beyond our imagination! If I wasn't retired and thus somewhat "independent", I too would be much more circumspect about what I publish concerning them, even though I knew better.
I'm 65 and figure "what the hell". But people in the "mainstream" must be cautious to survive financially and probably also physically. D...... is, as I have noticed, also quite cautious when it comes to "their" influence... And I assume that Jones too has felt the subtle threat of their "displeasure", to put it mildly...
Wing tv can not even remotely be compared to those two "giants" in the field. Their articles and news are very limited and I would damn the day that I would have to go to them to find the latest information.
So I am always rooting for Rense and Jones, no matter what their "shortcomings" are or might be.
Sometimes, (only sometimes), I
even believe WING tv to be what they accuse Rense and Jones of being...disinformation
agents of the power that is....
Just a gut feeling, intuition if you will, and I
have no proof as this is no accusation...just a gut feeling.
It's a perilous mind-field, my friend!!!
Welcome to the world of "CONSPIRACY" and intrigue...
Where NOTHING means anything and where EVERYTHING means something!
Accusations
and counter-accusations, personal egos and TRUTH, all thrown into a "grab bag"
for us to discern.
Just take all information as stepping stones and trust only
your intuition as the final arbiter and you won't go wrong, no matter where the
info is coming from and how limited or even muddled it is.
David, I got myself a lap top computer
and I can now sit on my front porch and do all my correspondence and even web
site work while smoking cigarettes and drinking strong coffee. This makes it so
much more "inspiring" to write and read. Before, inside, I couldn't smoke and I
felt always rushed to get done and back outside.
Silly, ha! Well, smoking has
always increased my ability to do mental work. Just recently I read some
material on a web site which dealt exactly with this phenomenon as not just a
mental thing but as a physical fact.
http://www.serendipity.li/_home.html This is a good web site run by
Peter Meyer (I think that's how he spells his name) who has some brilliant
material and research on "The Protocols" on his other website
http://users.cyberone.com.au/myers/toolkit.html
Of course, this
purchase on my visa card throws me even more in debt. But as I'm going down
already, I figure I might as well go down "in style".
My beloved dogs (I hate to call them that as I think of them more as my children) are with me on the porch and I love that a lot.
Well, time to go and eat some cereal for breakfast!
Your Reisecamerad and friend,
Holger, Jerry or HH
A neglected friend who is dead wrong about The Process
From: "Guy and Bebe" <guy_and_bebe@blacksheepmuseum.org>
To: "Holger W. Haffke" <discoverer73@hotmail.com>
Subject: Good item about thought crimes
Date: Sat, 25 Feb 2006 21:07:52 +0100
But you can't tolerate criticism about the Process, Hmmmmmm.
Response from Holger:
Dear Guy,
I am deeply sorry that I have not communicated with you and thus made you feel not only frustrated but downright angry. Really and truly, I am very sorry for being so neglectful of a good friend as you deserve better. Frankly, my life through my wife's illness seems to be spinning out of control and I just kept on delaying writing to you. The situation in this world, politically and spiritually, adds to my inner despair. The only thing that I have been doing is adding articles to my web site because an inner compulsion is prompting me to continue against all the odds. I have written very few e-mails in the last couple years and have responded to even less. It seems that I can not find the right words or thoughts to communicate with anyone. Of course this is wrong and again I can only express my being sorry to you. Please, Guy, do forgive me and try to understand! It's absolutely not personal as I like you very much. Concerning The Process I must tell you that on that account and accusation you really are dead wrong. True, I did have hope to help revive The Process with two former Processeans a few years ago...and only because at one point in my life, many years ago, in the seventies, I was quite obsessed with their mystique and philosophy as I then understood it...But, thank God, I then never could get hold of them...Well, you read that story on my Process page. When I started my website in about 2000, I decided to follow up on them and try to find out what REALLY happened with them and if there were any splinter groups still alive so to speak. I put up some Process material that I had still in my possession and sure enough, some people responded. This is how it started and my conclusions which I published some month ago are added to the Process article. You must not have read this, since if you had, you wouldn't think that I am some kind of secret Processean or what have you. I was contacted by some very strange characters who tried to dissuade me from persuing my Processean search and from bringing new attention to them. So obviously they are very much alive and involved in some very dark business indeed. Also involved is the Animal Sanctuary in Utah which is run by the former wife of DeGrimston, Mary, and the rest of the group which split away from DeGrimston. They do some incredibly good work, but it is also a multi million dollar business...from donations...and God only knows what else is going on there since they move heaven and earth to keep attention away from their Processean past. Anyhow, I began to realize that I was being deceived and that there was a real danger coming from these people...Also I have a strong feeling that Intelligence is involved with them and their activities. I have not had contact with any Processean in over two years and don't want any contact either. My intuitive feeling is that there is truly something evil going on which reaches far beyond Satanism...
So you are really wrong there Guy! As to not wanting to publish material relating to your beliefs, is only a personal dislike of tribalism and tribal religion related to Old Testament --- Torah-- beliefs. I just don't like it. Whoever the real "chosen people" are leaves me cold. I don't like Judaism, Islam and even orthodox Hinduism either. To me these are all instruments of our oppressors to keep mankind in line....So nothing personal, and I would even be willing to publish something of your belief system if you can give me some material which I can at least appreciate. As a Gnostic I believe in freedom and following one's intuition. All the rest is just people trying to have power over others by means of superstition and brain-washing. I have lots of material on my website with which I don't completely agree, but where I believe that there is redeeming value in it despite some disagreements on my side. Also I must tell you that I never removed any links to your web site...they are there and have been there for years on the Links pages.
I hope that all is well with you and Bebe and your child.
Your friend,
Holger.
Letter regarding Spirit-Possession and "Ascended Masters"
From: ANew........@aol.com
To: discoverer73@hotmail.com
Subject: (no subject)
Date: Sun, 2 Apr 2006 03:31:17 EDT
Hey I was reading up on your page and I had a few questions if thats ok. I was wondering if the Higher Self or an Ascended Master could cast out and protect you from spirit possession. Or does it have to be someone on Earth? Do they always have the power to help you in any situation? I read a part about the dark forces trying to trap people in 3rd dimension. How exactly could they do that? By continuing to hide their true nature? Is that the only way? Hope to hear from you soon. Thank you and God Bless.Austin
Letter from Holger:
you sent me a real tough bundle of questions which have bedeviled (no pun intended) me just about all my life. I have read a lot of material on possession and spiritual bondage to the third and lower fourth dimensions and have, after more than forty years of research, still not found a definitive answer.
From what I have gleaned though, it seems
that in general possession happens mostly to people who are pre-disposed to
it. This meaning, that I, as an example, can "walk where angels fear to tread,"
and you, as an example, might become possessed or obsessed doing the same
thing. Like, if I did use the Ouija board frequently, I might be "protected"
and nothing negative will come to me.
Now you might start doing the same thing
and you become obsessed by spirits, or even worse, possessed. I would say that
your Higher Self would be the main source of protection but also your
"guardian spirits" or "guardian angels," if you will , are, if permitted, going
to protect you also.
As to "Ascended Masters" I must admit that I don't
believe in them and would be very weary to take any advice from an entity
proclaiming itself as an "Ascended Master."
You can, in theory, be bound into re-incarnating into the third dimension,
which would be this earth plane, through diverse factors...such as Satanic
mind control (if you are dealing with Satanists) or through having a
completely materialistic mind set which makes it impossible for your Higher
Self or True Self or Spiritual Self to influence, guide and protect you.
Mainly, it is YOUR spiritual awareness of God as being ALL that is, and that
you are an eternal expression of God who is Good, and knows no evil, which
will, with some practice on your part, keep you balanced and in harmony with
the Ultimate Truth of God Being All in All, and thus liberate you from
negative influences and temptations.
This would be called "Self Realization". As evil or negative entities who have remained in disharmony are thought to "reside" mainly in the fourth dimension or in an earth bound state in the third dimension, they will attempt to obsess or possess those with whom they sense an affinity.
Thus to protect yourself from them you need to be in a
state of spiritual "grace" through your mental and physical life style
and Awareness.
As in
today's world you are exposed to so much subliminal, as well as open, mind
control in advertising, propaganda and spiritual manipulation by "illuminati"
thought control experts who work through intelligence organizations, cults and
even organized Religion, it is not an easy task to counter-act and neutralize
their aggressive workings to keep mankind in bondage to the third and lower
fourth dimensions.
But it is also not impossible. David Icke has done superb work in his books and articles and I would highly recommend them even if the "reptilian agenda" which he promotes so fearlessly doesn't appeal to you at this point in time. Also the mind-control material on my web site might help you in attaining a better sense of these factors which are aimed at all of us from so many directions. Brad Steiger also has done some superb research on the subject....Also Fritz Springmeier's and Cisco Wheeler's books on my web site are invaluable for your quest.
Well, I hope I was able to help you and hope that I didn't unwittingly add to your problem.
Sincerely,
Holger.
P.S. I have just read a new article by Brad Steiger relating to the Ouija board and have added it to this letter
To:
.........@fastmail.fm
Letter from Holger to Elaine:
Dear Elaine, I'm sorry to have gotten cranky on your comment about Germans and Germany. I really don't mind criticism of either, but your comment seemed so flippant and unfounded to me at the moment that I felt like I had wasted a lot of time corresponding with somebody whom I had misjudged completely. The comment just didn't seem in line with your intelligence and awareness. And that is what kind of upset me.
As to Germans, they, like any other people, come as all kinds. Some are nice and flexible and others are stoic and self-righteous, if not arrogant. I much rather deal with Americans than with most Europeans as well as Germans. My destiny has always been America and I don't feel very comfortable when visiting Germany. By Germany I mean actually Berlin since that was the place of my childhood and young adulthood, before coming to this country with 200 bucks in my pocket in 1963. And Berliners are as different from the rest of Germans as New Yorkers are from the rest of Americans.
Berlin is, and always has been, the center of culture and everything that goes with it, good and bad, of Germany. Just like New York in many ways. Not as big, of course, but big enough. It even is in a sense the heart of Europe and has a history of being as bohemian as Paris. Many Germans that I have run into in this country or at other places in the world, are not my kind of people. They seem to be loud, boisterous and even arrogant. My wife despises them when they come as tourists into her store because they make a mess and are very demanding. So I am not upset at your comment per se, but was taken aback by the flippant manner in which you seemed to express them.
I know that I could have never
evolved as a person to the degree that I feel I have, had I remained in Germany
or Europe. I have been in Amsterdam, in the 60's and felt the same way there as I did in Germany. The same goes for any other country in
Europe. They always felt stifling to me.
Still, I always am aware of my roots, so
to speak. For one thing, I am aware, more than most Americans and even most
Germans, of the importance, the geo-political importance, of Germany through the
last couple centuries. You see, Elaine, with all the negatives, Germany has an
inner spirit and discipline which has made her into the envy of England and
France.
I'm talking about industriousness and the market for trade which is all
important to any nation. When all the small German kingdoms, were united under
Bismarck she became a threat to English trade and colonial rule. The same goes
for France. England and France are "Atlanticist" nations with orientation towards
the Atlantic, westward reaching, in culture and spirit. Germany is Eurasian.
Eastward reaching, in culture and spirit. Eastward means Poland, Russia, and even
China.
Thus, being located in the heart of Europe, with borders in all
directions, Germany has been, and still is, the battleground between East and
West. Culturally this is wonderful and has produced such great poets, thinkers,
philosophers and composers as no other nation or culture.
Of course, in today's
capitalist democracies, this means very little, as most people in the world have
no need for classical music, operas and deep philosophical thinking.
Nevertheless, both, America and Russia, have been and still are, to this day,
fighting for the German soul.
Because they know very well, that without having
Germany's support their grip on Europe is lost. With few exceptions the Poles
despise Germany with a hatred based on their fanatical Catholicism which leaves
no room for flexibility. Although Germany has many Catholics, they are mostly
located in the southern and south-western parts. Poland borders on Prussia
though, which is mostly Protestant.
Also there have been endless fights over
land by both, Poland and Germany. So Poland is the weak link, to the eastern
outreach of Germany. Thus Poland, in order to remain independent, has often
played their weak, but nevertheless unique, power over Germany as a trump card. Like
forging alliances with Britain and France against German "aggression.'
Yet, there
are so many connections between Poles and Germans that this is almost laughable.
For example, I read that 60% of all Berliners had Polish blood in them with even
Polish family-names. I too probably have some Polish blood in me since my grandparents
on my mother's side came from a fought over region which changed hands
uncountable times, "west-prussia".
Many of my friends in school had Polish sounding names also. Anyways, it
all leads to the fact that to
understand what happened during the first and second World War, is based on so
much more than we think and are told.
Communist Russia (or should I say Zionist-Jewish
Russia) knew that in order to take over the world, they first needed Germany
under their control...
But I can't go any further because it would lead me
deeper and deeper into a realm which I can't tackle right now. The reason I went
into this stuff in the first place, is to make you understand why, what I
perceived as a flippant remark, really disappointed me.
Otherwise I don't mind
at all what anybody says about Germany or the German people as long as it is
reasonable. We all have our experiences
which form our views, correct or incorrect, we shouldn't worry about expressing
them.
This is enough for now though, I have to go shopping (which I hate with a passion) and take care of news for the web site.
All my best, Holger.
Jeffrey Mylett, the movie "Godspell" and Meher Baba...
From: velvetfog0001@comcast.net
Subject: Jeffrey Mylett Date: Fri, 30 Jun 2006 01:51:14 +0000
To whom it may concern, Hello! I found
your email address at the bottom of this website:
http://www.gnosticliberationfront.com/meher_baba.htm I thought I'd
contact you, since I noticed that the late actor Jeffrey Mylett was mentioned in
this article. You see, I run a tribute site on Jeff Mylett, and I'm aware that
he was a devoted follower of Meher Baba. I was just wondering if you could
possibly tell me about him at all, or if there's anything you'd like to
contribute to the site. The link to my Jeffrey site is at
http://itsayskeds.bravehost.com
if you're interested. Thank you so much for all of your time.
All the best!
Sincerely, Annette
Response from Holger:
Hi Annette,
what a wonderful job you did with your
memorial web site for Jeffrey Mylett!
I'm so grateful that you did this labor of
love for him, because he was a great artist and great soul who very much
deserves to be remembered.
Of course, it came as a great shock to me to hear
that he died of Aids in 1986... I often wondered what became of him but have
never attempted to search the internet.
God, it made me so sad when I read on
your web site that he died so young. And that Jenniffer his sister died so young
too...
I met Jeff in 1973 after contacting the Meher Baba House in New York City
by phone asking if there were any Baba Lovers (that's how we called ourselves
then) in the Danbury, CT area. They gave me the name of Jeffrey Mylett and his
phone number.
At that time I had no idea who he was and I didn't even know
anything about the movie Godspell either. -Don't forget in those days there was
not as much movie hype and television advertisement as today. And there were no
videos, video stores nor dvd's.
Anyhow, I called his number and he answered and
I explained the reason for my call to him and that the Meher Baba House had
given me his phone number. He was very gracious and invited me over to his home
in Ridgefield, CT.
Now, Ridgefield is a rather small, upper-class, New England
town about 10 miles south east of Danbury on route 7 going to Norwalk and easy
to find.
So we agreed to a meeting the next day and I went there. Jeffrey met me
at the door and invited me in. The house was an unassuming colonial and he told
me that he had just recently bought it. We settled down at his kitchen table and
he made me a cup of coffee. He pulled out a pack of Lucky Strike, non-filter,
cigarettes and asked me if I minded him smoking. Of course I was delighted
because I was itching to smoke one of my, non filter, Camels with my coffee.
After
some small talk and exchange of cigarettes, he told me about his love for Baba
and about the movie Godspell of which I hadn't heard yet.
He spoke of the cast
of the movie and that many of it's members were also Baba Lovers and that the
movie, as he saw it, was dedicated to Meher Baba spiritually.
I was "blown away" by the fact
that I was in an actor's home and speaking to him in person...
He was so natural
and un-assuming that it just seemed totally unreal...something only Baba could
have concocted. (Please don't forget those were the days when mysticism, the New
Age and unlimited possibilities seemed so incredibly realistic).
You see it also
in my e-mail address, "discoverer73" ...What a wonderful, magical year it was
for me!!! Not because of meeting Jeffrey alone, but just with so many things
opening up in my life spiritually).
I also had no idea that he was gay and thus
there was no possibility of feeling awkward or inhibited on my part.
Jeffrey
told me to make sure to go and see the movie and watch for "the taxi-driver with
the flute" (his role in the movie) .... Naturally I couldn't wait to go and see it.
After some more talk
about how he bought the house with money from the movie and how others from the
cast had bought houses in Ridgefield also, he told me that he had worked as a
shoe salesman in Ohio, when he found out that he had gotten the part in the
play. I thought that he was talking about the movie part, but after reading on
your web site that he was already in the off Broadway production, I believe now
that he meant the play and not the movie.
So, after a couple hours I said "goodbye" and drove back to Danbury still under the intoxicating influence of this great, exuberant and charismatic guy whom I had met through Meher Baba. I believe that I went the next day to see the movie and was, of course, blown away by it and the great songs, the love and joy and also the deep sadness of it's anti establishment crucifixion scene of Jesus on the fence surrounded by police cars with lights flashing....
Oh those were the wonderful early seventies!
Anything seemed possible and the world seemed to open up into the depth of the
divine realm. I remember having tears run down my face, tears of joy and of
infinite sadness when I left the theater... Yes, I remember Jeffrey with joy and
with infinite sadness now also.
"Farewell, Jeffrey! I'm sure that Baba was
waiting for you on the other side of consciousness with a big hug and approving
smile".
And thank you, Jeffrey, for being so kind to a complete stranger and thank you
for the joy you brought through Godspell to millions!
You shall never be
forgotten!
PS Annette, thanks again for contacting
me!!! You don't know how sad and yet also Happy I am for having received your
e-mail.
Oh, memories...sweet memories... If you want to, you may gladly add my little "homage to Jeffrey" to your web site. I would be honored and I think Jeffrey would approve :)
Love,
Holger.
A friendly letter from the Pacific Northwest:
|
Hello D....,
thank you so much for your kind letter! And greetings from ......... in the deep south. Well, Gnostic type people come with the same type of "baggage" as everybody else. Some are deeply into politics and those usually negate the spiritual aspects of life and some are "spiritual" and negate the political....The quest for Knowledge - Wisdom - Gnosis should eventually lead into the realms and depth of both. Have you read any of David Icke's books? Also William Bramley's "The Gods of Eden" is, in my opinion, one of the best. But, the true Gnostics journey through life is a lonely one indeed....
Have you ordered any of the Astro Reports? I would especially recommend the "Sky Within" report which can help you in self understanding...It's free, so you have nothing to loose.
Thanks again,
Holger.
| From : | D.... C....... <d........@comcast.net> |
| Sent : | Tuesday, April 18, 2006 3:59 PM |
| To : | "Holger W. Haffke" <discoverer73@hotmail.com> |
| Subject : | Re: Enjoying Your Website |
Letter from Holger to Dorie:
Mary Baker Eddy, the Bhagavat Gita and the Old Testament
thank you for your detailed letter. You surely are an accomplished writer and I enjoy reading about your many spiritual pursuits. Right now I only want to quickly answer some of your questions to the best of my limited ability.
Yes, I agree with you about Mary
Baker Eddy's use of the old testament in her teachings. I also had a hard time
with that. But I have come to understand that she only did what she felt she
needed to do to get her message across to an "audience" steeped in "old time
religion."
In other words, she compromised....
Most likely, had she lived in
today's world she would have formulated the framework of her concepts in a
much different language and religious basis.
For one thing, I believe, she would probably have avoided the old testament like the plague. People today would be much more receptive to her work if she would be much more up front about what she really believed without the need of drawing upon such negative source.
One thing though, I don't think that she ever equated the god of the old testament...Jehovah..or Yahweh, with her all good God which is Spirit and Love and of whom all that is is an expression.
Meaning that God is All in All and therefore expresses himself through his spiritual Idea which is creation. Thus God expresses himself as D.... or Holger or whatever there is....as Spiritual Idea but never material expression.
So the old testament quotes Christian Science uses could as well be quotes from the Bhagavat Gita or from the "Aquarian Gospel of Jesus the Christ". Her concept of God is definitely NOT that of organized Christianity or Judaism but is the Gnostic concept of the All Good God who is the Beyond, Beyond God who is totally oblivious to our earthly material existence and who because of Him being All Good, can not know evil.
Since matter is evil...because it is an illusion...a Mesmeric (Hypnotic) condition of solid matter...Mary Baker Eddy came to the solution that man must learn how to overcome matter and its inherent corruption through Knowledge, Wisdom, Gnosis and understand the unreality of matter through disciplined thinking and constant awareness of the Truth.
This could be considered as a form of mental yoga to compare it to eastern religions.
The first few editions of her "Science and Health," had in its
introduction and heading all subsequent chapters, quotations from the Gita and
other Vedic texts.
So she had been exposed to eastern philosophy...perhaps
through her first husband's membership in a Masonic order and I think she also
was a member of the women's auxiliary.
This was when she had moved with her
husband to Charleston, SC and lived there for a short while until he died, I
believe.
Of course, South Carolina, and especially Charleston was a hotbed of
Scottish Rite Masonry, home to Albert Pike's Southern Jurisdiction at the
time. So MBE was not as naive as she perhaps comes across in Science and
Health and in popular Christian Science myth.
She most definitely was exposed
to Gnostic thought and accepted it as her spiritual basis.
Dorie, I also agree with your thoughts about the meat eating comments in CS. That is something which MBE didn't quite have time to work out, or she was unwilling to deal with it's implications. Perhaps she thought in terms of matter and death as an illusion, it didn't really matter what one ate? Of course, had she been exposed to the suffering and painful death of animals in slaughter houses, she would have given vegetarianism more consideration...I hated to eat meat as far back as I can remember as a child and only ate meat in the form of Wieners and Bratwurst (growing up in Germany). Now I still eat meat only if I have to as it repulses me still....But I smoke cigarettes like a chimney (only outside) and drink black sweet coffee by the gallons :)...It stimulates my thinking ability as a ritual as well as from the caffeine and nicotine. So I am definitely not an angel or saint...and definitely not in sync with all her teachings, as she was opposed to both. But as David Icke says, "I'm me and I'm free..."
My daughter who is 27 years old is a vegan and she quit smoking before it became too much of a habit to her. My wife is battling cancer right now and it is a horrendous experience for her and me. As I feel so helpless in view of what she is going though with chemo treatments and constant pain. She had one lung removed in February 2005 but cancer had already spread to other areas....She is not a very spiritually inclined person and therefore I feel even more helpless because any suggestions coming from me fall on deaf ears....So I'm somewhat stressed-out not knowing what the next day could bring. I do understand your situation quite well. The battle with doctors and orthodox medicine is more than just frustrating. Diagnosing an illness and getting the proper treatment is difficult to obtain in this day and age. Doctors have no time and no inclination to heal anymore. All they want to do is, give you some pills and get you out of the office within minutes after waiting for hours to seem him. Thank God I have excellent Insurance coverage as a retired state employee of the state of Connecticut where I worked for 22 years. And the coverage is free...with 5 dollars deductible for doctors visits and three dollars for prescription medications. I can not even imagine how some people can see doctors and get medications and pay sky high insurance costs...
My gardening experience is very limited. What I meant by yard-work was cutting grass and raking leaves which here in the deep South come down from November to May or June even. I have one half of an acre to take care of and that is quite a bit of work. Also I have three wonderful dogs whom I love more than most people...
Please do send me links to your web-sites as I would love to take a look at them.
Sincerely,
Holger.
Letter from Holger to Dorie:
Christian Science, Vedanta, Israel Regardie and the "Supreme Gnosis"....
Dear Dorie,
yes, the birth time is so important
for a correct astrological report. But I think, just for "entertainment," an
Astro Report like "Sky Within" could give you some insight if I set your
birth time arbitrarily at 11: 55 am. Steven Forest (name might be misspelled
by me) is one of the best astrologers around with a deep spiritual insight
to boot and he wrote the interpretation for the computer program.
Really,
you might be surprised at what you get even without the correct birth time.
You are correct, Mary Baker Eddy didn't believe in astrology but that is
only in relationship of Christian Science as the "crown" of understanding.
I
call it the "Supreme Gnosis". ...Meaning, that as a final understanding, and ONLY
as such, Christian Science in it's original teaching supersedes all other
teachings including astrology, spiritualism and even Gnostic theories and
sophistries.
This does not mean that astrology is worthless or untrue on
it's level of understanding or better put, human understanding.
What I
believe is: that Christian Science is basically western Vedanta, which was
confirmed by Israel Regardie, the long time secretary of Aleister Crowley (I
don't like him or his ideas).
Regardie is a very intelligent and open
Gnostic and as you probably know, he wrote many books relating to the
"occult".
He, in one of his last books before his death, called: "Teachers
of Fulfillment", deals very admiringly with Mary Baker Eddy and her
teachings and compares them as almost identical to the higher aspects of
Vedanta.
So what I'm saying is, that in the light of "quantum physics" and
even more evolved physics, matter isn't really matter as we have come to
understand it to be....but in its final analysis illusion...
Which
shows that Mary Baker Eddy truly attained something very precious...perhaps
even "the pearl of great price", which I call "Supreme Gnosis", way ahead of
her time and understanding.
The only problem with her Christian Science is
the "healing aspect", which she, I think, over-emphasized.
Yes, marvelous
healings have been reported and verified, but there were also many
failures.... But let's face it, even though there were some great souls who
served as healers, called "practitioners", there were also many who didn't
quite measure up.
Some of the great ones were Joel Goldsmith who left the "Church" and went on his own, writing many deep, insightful books and also lecturing on "metaphysics," Richard Bach the author of "Jonathan Livingston Seagull" and many other works, and, of course, the author of "Christian Science Class Instructions", Arthur Corey.
Unfortunately too many people took up Christian Science to find healing without learning and comprehending the deeper aspects of its metaphysics.
Healing should be a secondary consideration
since by necessity it is a possible "by-product" and not the main teaching.
LIBERATION should be the goal of becoming involved with such a demanding
spiritual discipline as Christian Science, with healing as a secondary
possibility....
Thus, I believe strongly that as we evolve spiritually and
attain deeper insight into The Supreme Gnosis, astrology, medicine,
holistic-medicine, spiritualism, numerology etc., all have a valuable place
as guides and steps helping us advance to the point where we understand, and
I mean Truly Understand, that matter indeed is an illusion and that we have
the power to overcome and correct what we still perceive as solid reality
until we reach that moment of realization which will be our Liberation.
This would also go into the realm of alien control and even our possibly hybrid nature and possible creation by aliens...We can only find Liberation from all of this in the truth of The Supreme Gnosis.
I'm sure you can figure all
this out as you seem to have quite a grasp on all of these subjects already.
What amazes me is that David Icke has come to just about the same spiritual
conclusions as those taught by Mary Baker Eddy....
I only wished that he
would acknowledge it, if he is at all aware of the similarity.
Dorie, on my
web site you probably have seen a lot of material which some people would
call anti this or that...I have been accused of being a nazi, a communist,
an anti-Semite and an asshole...
Yet these accusers don't understand that all
this material is only presented on my web site to raise people's
consciousness!
Yes, I have strong opinions and am quite sensitive to conspiracies and the so called New World Order. But I don't hate any one! People judge me severely because I present, unhesitatingly, what I consider to be the facts about what is really going on in this world. As I know that in the final analysis it is all nothing but "maya", Illusion, and that the NWO only has the power which mankind allows it to have.
I believe strongly that
it is important to show and document the evils of material existence coming
from mankind's material mental state. I want to demonstrate, more or less
effectively, that no matter what political or spiritual system or philosophy
rules on this material plane, it always turns into oppression...
And that
"good" has existed even in the most maligned political-spiritual
concepts...such as National Socialism, Communism, Capitalism-Democracy,
Zionism...As well as unmitigated EVIL.
And I think it is important for people on the path to know what is going on in this world in order to be somewhat forced to rise above the material conception of matter. Showing that matter, if seen as the ONLY reality, is evil by its very nature and that it is NOTHING when seen from the higher perspective of The Supreme Gnosis.
And that Liberation can ONLY come through our inner struggle with these theories and through our Final Rejection of it all as just "maya" - illusion.
We must break free from the hypnotic acceptance of "reality" as it is "drummed" into us from birth to grave and from generation to generation. We must free ourselves from all hypnotic suggestions which we are bombarded with from parents, children, family, government, race, nationality, tribe, television, movies...and on and on it goes....
Mary Baker Eddy calls these
hypnotic suggestions "Animal Magnetism" in the language of her time. And she
teaches how to overcome these "malicious" suggestions. This teaching has
been used to malign her teaching and was rejected by the Filmores of Unity
and by Ernest Holmes of Science of Mind...and by almost all so called New
Age teachers who have emerged from Christian Science.
Yet it is, in my
opinion, one of her most valuable tools, mental tools, for overcoming the
malicious attempts the establish the New World Order dictatorship.
And I
also believe, that this teaching was the reason the Christian Science Church
in Boston was subverted from within and virtually destroyed....
Dorie, I thank you for your last letter and hope that my "rant" didn't overwhelm you. I am sorry to hear of you being house-bound and virtually shut in. Would you feel comfortable about letting me know more about your situation? Please feel free to write anytime. Sometimes it might take a while for me to respond because my web site requires constant updating and work and I must also do a lot of yard work...So I'm not always in the right frame of mind to write letters.
Sincerely,
Holger.
Response from Holger:
An Inquiry about Hanussen
and my journey into the Communist Party USA...
Hi David,
you probably expect me to know a bit
about the Hanussen deal in connection with the Reichstag's fire, but
unfortunately I had all but forgotten about Hanussen. My mother and relatives
used to talk about him and about his connection to high ranking nazis.
I
remember this now after you asked me about Hanussen and kindly send me some of
your material about him. You inspired me to do a little research on the
internet, but genuine, credible information is very scarce.
I put some material
up on my web site, but it leaves me cold so to speak....not deep enough.
Overhearing my relatives talk when I was young, I do remember that they spoke
about Hanussen having known too much about the often more sordid details of high
nazi officials and especially their wives and girl friend's escapades...
And that
he was believed to have been genuinely "psychic" and therefore became a threat
to many officials.
They spoke also about the Reichstag's fire connection rumors...But nothing that I remember which would make me believe these claims. Nevertheless, I brought back some "conspiracy" books from my last visit to Berlin in 1996 and I am in the process to comb through them regarding information on Hanussen.
Conspiracy books are rare, at this time, in Germany, mainly because the political
climate there allows only the publication of carefully worded material.
I have a
book by a Jan van Helsing (which is a pseudonym), with the title "Secret
Societies" (Geheimgesellschaften und ihre Macht im 20. Jahrhundert), which by
now is outlawed and unavailable.
Perhaps I find something there, although I
don't remember Hanussen mentioned when I read it in 96.
I also got some books by
Dieter Rueggeberg dealing with the same general themes. These might have
something in them as I also read them a long time ago and don't remember many
details.
Otherwise, researching Hanussen is a tough matter. Rueggeberg would be a good candidate because he deals with a lot of mystical material. He specializes in Cabbala, and specifically with this Cabbalist and Magician named Franz Bardon who was active during the third Reich years...So let me see if I can find something regarding our friend Hanussen in Rueggeberg's books.
I have re-posted your book on ..... ......... and did some re-vamping of my website.... But I still have so much to do that it overwhelms me at times. Regarding the movie "Private Ryan" I must confess that I never saw it and don't even remember the article posted on my web site. But I hope that I will get to see Taeguki if it's available for rental. Right now this Hanussen thing is very much on my mind and I really hope to find some reliable, good material somewhere!
Regarding Reed's book Controversy of
Zion, and his apparent satisfaction with Forrestal having committed suicide, -I
noticed that also and believe, like you, that he was taken in by the deceptive
news coverage.
Nevertheless, his book is pure dynamite, especially because I
have come to the same conclusions... and his book only makes my fragmented
awareness more organized and provable.
One of my favorite books has been
Whittaker Chambers' "Witness". Not only for the information in it, but also
because it is so well written and emotionally touching.
Douglas Reed calls him a
"somewhat whimsical" person. But I don't see him that way at all. I have read
Witness probably four times and know that I will read it again....just because I
really love to share his story...
Perhaps it is so interesting for me because, at one time in my life, I
too became involved with the Communist Party USA.
Back in 1974 I attended weekly
meetings in New Haven, CT above a "Marxist Leninist bookstore" as it was named.
The people I met there were truly wonderful and not the "ogres" one expects.
It
was a very difficult period in my life and these people took me in like a
family. And you know what? They were just about ALL Jews.
There was usually a
pot luck dinner there in the evening and then the "initiated" would break off
into work groups in separate rooms and the "un-initiated", like me, would just
hang around talking to old-timers about the McCarthy era and their imprisonment
in Danbury, Lewisburg and other Federal prisons.
They all were very un-assuming
and genuinely kind...looking somewhat like Pete Seeger in flannel shirts and
corduroy pants...
Joelle Fishman was a younger woman, an attorney I believe, and
she seemed to be the head of the group and was running at the time for Governor
of Connecticut, I think, ...or was it for Mayor of New Haven? I really don't
remember.
I do remember that one Professor of Theology, of all things, took me
under his wings and we often had long discussions about whatever I wanted to
talk about. He had studied in Germany for some time and spoke German. I think he
studied at the German university of Tuebingen.
We all went on a bus trip, one
time, to a large meeting in New York City at the Stadler Hilton hotel in downtown
Manhattan. The occasion was "50 years of Marxist press".
There, this professor
introduced me to the second secretary of the German Democratic Republic (East
German) Mission.
Pete Seeger was there as well as many other entertainers and
also, one of the many speakers was Angela Davis, who was very prominent at that
time.
Back in New Haven they asked me if I would be interested in working with a
group called something like "German American Friendship Society". I said "sure",
"why not," but was at the same time getting a little "concerned" because I really
knew better than to get involved with anything "East German."
At that time I
also was taking classes in New Haven preparing me for membership in the party.
After a while of attending the classes, after the pot luck dinners, I became
more and more "concerned" with my involvement...
..I loved the people, but I didn't
like the Communist party teachings anymore...I think I had a "hang-over", so to
speak.
My sense of "adventure" was more than satisfied and I had learned all I
wanted to learn about "The Party" and things connected to the party, and I really
hated what the Russians had done in Germany during and after the war...So I just
dropped out.
Which already wasn't easy. I just stopped going there and I didn't
answer my phone most of the time. After a while they stopped bothering with me
and I felt relieved as if from a nightmare.
So you see, David, I know that Reed
is correct and I can deeply understand Chambers. It's so easy for a young person
to get sucked into something from which it could become very difficult, if not
almost impossible, to come free.
But that's me, if I want to learn something I go
after it with full force, often going where "angels fear to tread"....
Well, enough for today, I got more work to do...
Please stay in touch,
Holger
Another letter from a friend in California....
| From : | D.... D....... |
| Sent : | Saturday, April 22, 2006 10:59 PM |
| To : | discoverer73@hotmail.com |
| Subject : | From one Gnostic to another |
Brother Holger,
In my opinion your website Gnostic Liberation Front is absolutely....I'm not
sure how to put it....
Its astounding, bewildering, breathtaking, extraordinary, impressive,
marvelous, spectacular, staggering, startling, striking, stunning, stupefying,
wonderful, wondrous, world-view-shattering. and perception altering! In other
words I love it!
By the way, last night I was reading the correspondence's between Yourself and
the ignorant fools at Fantastic
Planet.com
and immediately a few things became obvious to me.
For one thing, you shouldn't even feel the need to defend yourself against their
pathetic attempt to discredit you, we true Gnostic's who have done our research
and our homework can see directly through their lies. They are not like us, they
are not from the light, they are not Gnostic's, they don't understand, and they
don't even KNOW it! And that is all I have to say about that.
My friend, I can't begin to tell you how many countless hours I've spent reading
and absorbing the knowledge you possess, so many late nights, so many hours of
nonstop reading....sometimes I'll loose track of time and won't quit till I
notice the dawn's first light, the sun of God!
But from the looks of your website it is apparent that you too must have spent
many a late night engrossed in hours of nonstop reading. And yours isn't the
only website I research, What Really
Happened.com, David Icke and Jordan Maxwell are
some of my other favorites. In fact it was one them that led me to you, that was
the point at which I truly began to know myself!
From the moment I read the first essay on GLF "What is a Gnostic" I realized who
and what I was.
Even as a young boy going to Catholic school, I saw through the lies of the
Church, so many contradictions it defies all logic,
literally! Even as a young boy I knew that something just wasn't right with the
human race and society. And was I ever right!
But I digress...
Allow me to introduce myself,
my name is David D....., I'm 34 years old, I was born of flesh on September 11,
1971, in San Diego California, and have lived in southern Cal all my life. On
the surface I'm just an average American, down to earth, married-no kids, hard
working, blue collar, a machinist by trade and an adventurer by nature, my
interests are varied and many, but my real passion is researching occult
knowledge and spirituality.
However, It wasn't until September 11, 2001 that I was reborn in spirit . So
ironic in a way. Yes on that awful day a spark ignited a fire within me that
has been growing ever since, a fire that can never be quenched, a fire that will
never die!
But enough about me, I want to conclude by thanking you sincerely and
whole-heartedly for sharing your knowledge, thank you for being one of the
lights that has guided me on my quest. and may our creator continue to inspire,
bless and protect us both while we are on this journey.
Thank You, your brother, David
P.S. I would love to know all about you, if you have the time to respond.
P.P.S. All rights reserved
(yes I know what it means)
Letter from Holger to David:
My arrival in America and first impressions
My dear friend and "Reisekamerad" David!
You know your letters are so exceedingly enjoyable for me to read that it really does seem that we must be spiritual twins...if there is such a thing. You are so young and already have such deep insight and "Gnostic" awareness! What more can I say than that there is a link between us which is mystical, to say the least.
I have been meaning to write to you about a week ago when I received two e-mails from an "AV" which were quite interesting...if not fascinating. He, being Jewish, wrote to me in order to ask me to "publish" his articles. Which, when I read them, made me very happy indeed, because he expressed exactly what I feel and have failed to be able to express regarding the holocaust, Hitler, Judaism, National Socialism, Zionism, seen from the very unique perspective of a Gnostic Jew. Really, "Skip", think about it, a Jew who seems very young and who has studied my website obviously and who is able to express what I never could. Not because of "racial" restrictions or stuff like that but because he simply perceives in a clearer, more concise sense, what I always wanted to write but never was able to....
It shook me to the core and since his introductory letter was very, very, very LONG, I felt that I had to answer him the sooner the better lest he might think that I shunned him or didn't like Jews. What a crazy situation, here I publish a lot of "anti-semitic" material and yet I am not at all in any way or shape against individual Jews. In fact, I like and appreciate the keen Jewish intellect and inherent sense of rebelliousness more than I can express here.
So this is the reason that I had to
spend two days writing him my response and thus cutting you, my dear brother,
short. Well, I will forward you his two e-mails so you can perhaps see why his
material put me into such a mental spin. I want to answer your question about
"Jerry": yes, you are quite correct in assuming that it is because of my German
background but it is also because the name Holger which is actually
Danish-Scandinavian, comes in rough translation to Gerold..."ger" meaning lance
actually.
Of course why I didn't choose "Gerry" is, because in 1963 when I came
over here I didn't know better. Thus "Jerry" became my calling name wherever I
worked. Makes it so much easier to tell somebody "Jerry" instead of the
awkward "Holger".
In fact I never liked my name...even in Germany as a child and
young man.
Anyways, I came over here sponsored by the "Lutheran Immigration
Service" in NYC. My first place of residence in the US was Arlington, VA where
the Lutheran congregation was which picked me from a "line-up". Pastor Schumann
or Schumacher (can't remember for certain). He boarded me with two eccentric
ladies, mother and daughter, in Arlington.
Very nice people both and I remember
my first TV program which I watcher with them... "Sing along with Mitch Miller"
in which, of all things, German and Polish polka and folk music was featured.
The
two ladies had family over to meet me and there were a lot of kids who called me
"Hogan" after Hogan's heroes because of my name Holger. We all got a big kick
out of that, for me especially, since I didn't know that program.
In Germany I had
watched "Leave it to Beaver" and a program with Wally Cox of which I can't
remember the name. But they never showed "Hogan's Heroes" over there perhaps
because they thought it would be "offensive" to the new German allies.
I never
thought it was offensive but actually loved it. The pastor got me a job at a
"Hot Shoppe" which was a drive-in restaurant owned by Mariott Hotels right
across from the Pentagon, as a "car-hop".
A lot of officers, who had been in
Germany, ate there in their cars and when they heard my German accent were
delighted to be served by me...and left me a large tip of more than a dollar
(some even as much as 20) which was a lot in those days. Heck, I made on average
30 dollars a day there in tips which was truly good money. Although the pay from Mariott's was $1 an hour.
Blacks were not allowed to serve food and only worked in the kitchen cooking, which they resented very much. They were very ugly towards me especially because I was an alien working where they were not allowed to. Sometimes they would screw up my orders and even throw the wrapped hamburger at me. I didn't know what was going on until a guy from Nicaragua, who worked there, invited me to his home to meet his family and there told me what it was all about.
Well anyhow, this might explain the situation as nothing personal but it was nevertheless hurtful and ugly. When an acquaintance from Berlin came over here a month after me he wrote me from Danbury, CT and I decided to take a bus and visit him up there in New England. To make a long story short, I ended up staying there and getting a job in a mental hospital called "Fairfield State Hospital", a huge complex of buildings and acreage.
Did I write you about this
before? Somehow I have a feeling that I did. If that is the case please forgive
my forgetfulness...as I'm getting old and write so many letters that I sometimes
forget whom I wrote what to.
It was at that place, where I ended up working for
22 years, that I first made many friends amongst employees and patients. These
new friends, one especially, Jerry Hatchey, started calling me "Jerry" because
of the Gerold thing I mentioned previously... I went along with it and my new
name took roots....
I want to thank you, dear David, for the Fathers day greetings also and want to wish you the same belatedly. Also I want to offer my "congratulations" to the birth of your niece! You have so much family stuff going on. What a wonderful environment for you!
Of course I'm aware how you feel
about the things you mentioned in your last letter. Hitler, National Socialism,
uncle Ali's influence at an early age and my natural inclination to get to the
depth of things have led me on a path which is not only fraught with danger but
also with much emotional self ananlysis...
It is a never ending struggle to
learn, understand and interpret with my own self-awareness what happened in
those desperate years of the Third Reich.
Unfortunately, I haven't had the inner
peace to continue my "Gnostic Childhood," and therefore there is much, much more
to tell about those years back in Berlin. Having met and spoken to so many
people involved with the NS movement and the neo-nazi movement, I definitely
feel that I can speak with some authority on the subject.
Nevertheless, I'm
often torn in my own heart and soul how this should be presented. Being a free
"Gnostic" spirit, there really is no mold for me to fit into. I don't like
racism or "racialism," but I also am not blind to what I see and observe around
me. And what I see is not pretty to say the least.
S....... is 75 or more percent black and I must say that I have never, ever anywhere in the world, seen such low life as what passes for human here in this city. Really, it hurts my heart and soul to be so crass...but no other word can describe the evil and black racism that I have experienced here in the last eight years.
These people, not all of them of course, but a huge majority, are indescribably primitive, criminal, ugly and hateful towards whites. The older ones are fine and descent people mostly, but the younger ones up to their forties I would say, are beyond hope and reason.
So am I a racist? Sometimes I think I am and sometimes I deny reality and try to find reasons for their shortcomings. But then another and yet another thing happens and I'm back to square one....
The nazis did some horrible things and the holocaust, of course, did happen. -Not the way as it is exaggerated by the Holocaust religion nowadays, but Jews were killed and put into horrible camps to die there of starvation, exhaustion from slave labor and disease. No doubt about it, some elements in the nazi movement were sadistic bastards!
And as I think I mentioned to you in another letter, the movement was betrayed even before it came into power.
..Hitler was a mystic and a Gnostic,
no doubt about it. But he was also too bourgeois, too much of an artist and
unseasoned, un-traveled, idealist to be entrusted with running a country.
Don't get
me wrong, I do think that he was a great soul in many ways with a mission and an
incredible amount of charisma to boot and that he did his best to live up to his
role...But he should never have been in this awesome position of power because of
his narrow-minded obsession with race and stupid German nationalism.
In my
opinion being a great soul doesn't necessarily make a good leader...especially
in politics. He became a patsy to the ambitions of "Reichsheini" Himmler and
that fat, pompous fool, Goering.
They were the ones who instigated him to order
the arrest and murder of so many left wing National Socialists, National
Bolshevists and advocates of true revolutionary "National Socialism" like Gregor
Strasser, Otto Strasser (who escaped to Prag) and broadcasted from there to the
German nation for his outlawed "Black Front" (Schwartze Front).
Josef Goebbels for whom I have a certain affinity also belonged in that "Northern" left NSDAP wing, but he switched his alliance to Hitler literally at the last minute and thus was saved from execution.
The nazi movement would have never ever become such a
murderous racist clique had Strasser become the leader. There would have been no
war with Poland and Russia as the left wing of the party wanted to work with
Russia and Poland to build a power base called Eurasia...
Not subduing the
eastern nations but to form an alliance which would be the basis for a noble New World
Order.
There was still a strong "anti-semitic" sentiment but it wasn't so much
an issue of race but of criticism of Jewish influence and power not only in
Germany's Weimar Republic, but also all over the world.
It wasn't so much based
on race but on influence and power-peddling...Just as what is going on in the
USA now with AIPAC money running Congress and Senate and Jewish influence
through its private spy-agency ADL and all the laws passed which enforce
"thought control" and Politically Correct behavior from the American "sheeple".
Nevertheless, recognizing and criticizing Jewish influence peddling and Zionist ambitions to rule the world...doesn't mean one must hate Jews as individuals. Many Jews during the Weimar Republic in Germany were even connected to the left wing of the nazi movement! Just as later they were connected to the Third Reich which was rapidly becoming an SS State with European ambitions (to unify European nations into one European "Reich"). What I mean is that the only other movement allowed beside National Socialist organizations and groups, was the Zionist Herud or Betar movement and the Israeli flag could be seen flying in Hitler Germany before there even was a State named Isreal.
So things aren't black and white as official historians want us to believe. Many nazi leaders had Jewish blood in them or were married to Jewish women. Hitler is believed to be a quarter Jewish and I have to agree to this assessment from what I could find in different books and from what I heard in Germany from people connected to the movement.
So
all this so called hatred which was artificially build up by the nazis during
the Third Reich was also a lot like the posturing of a bunch of rowdies...And
can not always be taken too seriously.
Only after the war began did it become
dangerous to be a Jew in Germany.
But, I'm drifting off into a subject much to deep and too lengthy to deal with now. What I wanted to say is: I believe that National Socialism in its original meaning, without the dreadful genetic, biological racism, like the left wing of the party under Gregor and Otto Strasser, and Ernst Roehm and so many others preached, was a great and inspiring revolutionary movement which unfortunately was destroyed by Hitler, Himmler and Goering...
Had it survived and had Strasser become the "Fuehrer," the world
would be a much better place today. There would have been no second World War
nor holocaust and no New World Order a' la Bush and accomplices...
The United
States of America would still be a cherished Republic for Americans and the rest
of the world...and Zionism would not have grown into the menace it is to the world
today and Israel would still be a dream of Jewish fanatics.
The Mid-East would
be at peace and there would be no Jihad nor hatred of the West by Arabs. At
least that is what I believe....for what it's worth....
But since Israel does
exist I believe that we should try to find a balance and fair settlement between
our dealings with Zionists and Arabs as well as protecting Israel from
destruction by Arab fanatics...but not to the point of handing the Zionists the
key to the White House, as has been done under ALL Presidents after Kennedy.
And NO dual citizenship to Jews or other nationals ever!
You can only be
loyal to one "master"!!! America must be ruled by the white majority without
apologies! And All immigrants must assimilate or leave the country....
.....David, I have ranted enough!!! I'm getting tired and weary and I still didn't get to the point I wanted to make, because I forgot what the point was :)! I'm going to mail you the two letters from this guy...See what you think. All my love and greetings to your wonderful family and of course to YOU also.
Your "Reisekamerad" Holger...Jerry
Hitler was "ein
Spiessbuerger"..Left wing of his party
and "the night of the long knives"
Dear AV,
I am happy to tell you that I finally finished working with this page. It was a
lot of work as some of your sentences are quite "muddled" and I have to try and
find a clearer expression. Aaron, I know that your mind races faster than your
writing and this is common to people like us. We are already way ahead but
detest the labor of writing in a acceptable manner. But I must urge you to slow
down a bit and think of me trying to fix the material. What I also mean is that
you have a tendency to assume that the reader knows instinctively what you mean
to express. Unfortunately this is not always the case and thus some of your
material will make no sense to them unless you refer to sources of your
"knowledge."
I think you know exactly what I mean though and you know also that
my "criticism" is not meant to hurt but to help you on your path.
You have keen
insight and instinctive understanding, no doubt about that. Your analysis of the
Hippy movement is right on target. But you must also understand, that your love
and admiration for "uncle" Adolf is a bit overblown in my opinion.
Yes he was an
artist and had an artist's insight into life...but, unfortunately, he was also
hopelessly bourgeois...,"ein Spiessburger" we call it in German.
And he also was
a mystic and born Gnostic...but, but, but, here comes the inevitable "but," he
trusted like we tend to do, the wrong people, in his ranks.
He was NOT politically
astute and could thus be easily manipulated by the wrong people. -By the
political "sheisters" and the power-hungry aristocracy and reactionaries.
In fact,
two of these "sheisters," sold out the original left wing of the northern
German NS movement because of the political pressures of the reactionaries, the capitalists, junkers,
industrialists and reactionary officers corps in the Wehrmacht.
These two sheisters were Hermann Goering and, of course, Heinrich Himmler of the dreaded
SS.
Himmler ended up with more power than Hitler and Goering eventually lost out
to him completely. He became a laughingstock because of his fat body and his greed for
medals and uniforms.
These two were the ones behind the "night of the long
knives" in June 1934 when about one thousand SA people and their Berlin leaders, Gregor Strasser and Ernst Roehm
amongst many others, were ruthlessly executed
by the SS.
Goebbels, who also belonged to the Berlin northern party leadership, and
who was very left wing, escaped because he had ,after smelling "where the wind
came from", switched
his alliance from Strasser to Hitler.
Hitler was an artist and a reactionary!
Believe me I have met and talked to many people including the brother of Gregor
Strasser, Otto.
The only thing which kept Hitler in control was his charisma and
the mystery surrounding his monkish personality. And, of course, his oratory
gift. Although even in that important aspect Goebbels was much, much more
gifted.
In fact, Goebbels, despite his appearance (his small stature and his
clump-foot) was much more in line with what you so lovingly ascribe to Hitler.
No, Goebbels was no Avatar and no monk, but he was a man who had not only charisma and who was not
only a most powerful public speaker, but who was also a smart, if not a super intelligent
fighter, who loved the arts and the movies...
He knew more than Hitler or any
other early NS leaders about the value of motion pictures and radio as a
propaganda tool!
There are so many aspects to National Socialism that you must still learn to understand before you set out to write polemical articles.
For one, It was NOT a homogenous movement, but was torn, even after 1933 by internal fighting amongst leaders and spiritual as well as political circles.
You should
learn more about Rosenberg and his Gnostic belief system and the group around him.
The circle of "initiates", like Haushofer, Friedrich Hielscher and even Niekisch
the "National Bolshevist" !
Goebbels also was involved with the "National
Bolshevist" clique way before 1933 though...As he definitely was
more Socialist than National (in the reactionary sense).
This group around Niekisch and Hielscher and Strasser and Goebbels even made advances to the German Communist Party, the KPD at one time....And admitted many of the former "Red Front" fighters into the SA.
Now you kind of think of the SA as a bunch of
ruthless street-fighters and that they were indeed, but you must understand that
these were violent times in Germany and especially in the big "proletarian"
cities like Berlin, Essen, Hamburg etc..
Without the SA, the NS movement would
have never ever been able to attain any worthwhile attention from the public as
the Communist "Red Front" fighters (who were similar to the SA), prevented any
and all public meetings and events.
So the SA was there to fight fire with fire and fists with fists and guns with guns.
Himmler's SS was then only a small,
almost laughable, little group formed to protect the "Fuehrer."
Only later around
the early 1930s did they gain influence and power along with their assigned leader
Heinrich Himmler who was hated by the German population like no other NS leader.
This all came about when Hitler started to plan his destruction and murder of the party's left wing...
..The very people who, more than any others, would fit your ideals of a more or less "free-flowing" National Socialism.
The SS became the "Templar's"
alright, but their leader, corrupt to the core and secretive as can be was a
manipulator against any one perceived by him as a barrier to his unlimited
ambitions.
He was a malignant, treacherous, snake who eventually, beginning in the early 40s,
plotted to betray his "beloved" Fuhrer, Adolf Hitler, to the allies.....
So,
Aaron all this is a mixed bag and difficult to comprehend.
But please, don't be
deceived by appearances and accept blindly what you read.
Explore the truth and
start by reading about the many "undercurrents" in the early and even later NS
movement.
Hitler was no angel, and neither are you and I, but we don't gamble
with the lives of millions either.
Nevertheless, he is an amazing person, no
doubt.
Perhaps he even was the Avatar in the form of Shiva, who can say for
sure...
But he failed miserably, because he trusted the wrong people and that was
literally (in his case and the case of the German, Jewish and other people)
deadly.
He is reputed of having realized his mistake related to the June 1934 massacre of his own people by exclaiming in the final stages of World War II, confined in his Berlin bunker, "I have been betrayed by those whom I trusted the most!"
Yes, had he only understood the words in the NS hymn "The Horst Wessel Song" which goes like: "Comrades who were shot by Red Front and REACTION (reactionaries)" and if only he had formed an alliance instead with the left wing, the revolutionary wing of the party, there would have been neither World War II, nor the holocaust and the final destruction of the entire National Socialist idea.
The real idealists were the left wing of the party!
The right wing, the
reactionaries, were nothing but pragmatists dedicated to power and finance!
Even
Horst Wessel, the NS "martyr" after whom the "Horst Wessel Song" was named,
would have been murdered in the June 1934 massacre! He was closely involved and
ideologically aligned with the group around Strasser, Goebbels and Niekisch.
Had he not been murdered by the "Red Front" in the form of a professional
criminal named Ali Hohler, he would have definitely been murdered in 1934 by his
own "comrades".
Just my own thoughts,
your friend, Holger.
My Grandfather was a survivor of the Gulags...
From: "A"
To: "'Holger W. Haffke'" <discoverer73@hotmail.com>
Subject: RE: Gnostic Childhood Date: Thu, 3 Aug 2006 16:19:47 -0400
Hi Holger,
I read your piece over a few days and found myself immersed in your impressions, quite likely due to the similarities between our childhood perspectives. I presume that writing what you did must have been quite an experience for you, what was it that prompted you to share in such detail?
I myself am 27 years old and live in Canada. My grandfather who passed away several years ago was Russian and survived the gulags of Zionist Communism. He used to tell me his stories of the Stalinist regime. What stands out was the description of the disappearance of his brother, a brilliant engineer, after a ‘fellow worker’ witnessed him accidentally stepping on Stalin’s picture which was on the shop floor in the form of a newspaper article. Such stories wrench the soul, and I know the loss of his brother affected him greatly. He used to repeat that the Jews were the ones responsible for the revolution, though I simply shrugged it off as being a form of old school racism, myself being thoroughly brainwashed in the fully propagandized Canadian education system.
Though his words stuck with me always, hidden and waiting.
As an adult after many experiences and difficulties I came to find myself questioning the disparity between what I saw as the German people and the image created of them by the media machine. I came to question many things, I always did, but now, the fundamental racial tones of my questioning was something that required a deeper sense of justice and maturity.
My best friend growing up was a Jewish boy by the name of Jonathan, his family and I became very well acquainted, I having spent much time during sleepovers and the outings that come with childhood. We grew up together, and though I eventually moved away we stayed in contact, meeting from time to time. I always felt comfortable in his home, however the sense of being ‘less’ was always prevalent, like a subtle undercurrent.
This sensation too stuck with me, like a hidden revelation.
In my interest to discern the truth of things, and having come to the conclusion that history, and life in general, had been framed by certain agenda setters, I sought out for the truth of World War Two. I knew for certain that what I had been told about the war, however superficially I had accepted and absorbed it, was not at all complete. There was more, much more that remained untold. I have been questing after these truths for many years now, seeking after the occult roots of the Nazi ideology and other such fields of interest pertaining to Nazi Germany. My interest was especially peaked after coming across the work of certain Historical Revisionists who elaborated the idea, with associated facts, that the gas chambers of the ‘holocaust’ did not in fact exist. Even more astonishing was the fact that during World War One the story was floated that six million Jews had perished at the hands of the Germans, only the implementation of this propaganda did not having staying power yet. It seemed clear to me that the stories of lampshades, soap bars and ‘six million’ which were residues of World War One skullduggery were resurrected some thirty years later.
In reading your material I found a thread which I had rarely been exposed to, the thread that I have intuitively felt for so long. This thread spoke to a certain spiritual undercurrent which, at least initially, may have existed within the movement of the German peoples to liberate themselves from internationalist economic serfdom - the outcrop of this attempt being the National Socialist Party. What became of the movement is still unclear to me, it does seem in retrospect to have harboured some unsavoury leaders and some unsavoury deeds, though war is war and it is a matter of higher perspective to sort out.
My intent in sending you these emails was to perhaps gain a deeper perspective on your ideas of Germany, its people and World War 2 under National Socialism. I felt very compelled by your dialogues with Uncle Ali and his deeper understanding of the intricacies and hidden currents of the time. The trip of Rudolf Hess has always seemed strange to me and I feel it was never presented in a truthful light, until perhaps now. Many of the investigations of German intellectuals and scientists were so revolutionary and at odds with American directives that I wonder where the world might be right now if Germany had indeed become the leading nation in higher thinking and technology and education implementation. It seemed as though an alternative way of perceiving the world was stamped out midway through the 20th century.
~
Before I go I wanted to share with you a similarity of our youth. I recall as a young man feeling as though I was tremendously ugly, that my face my disproportionate, I strained my face endlessly to compensate for what I felt was an abhorrence. This experience was very trying, it grew in difficulty upon entering high school where I came to hate myself, I could not effectively socialize and felt ‘cursed’ by some force. It was an obsession for me that coloured a good many years of my life and it required tremendous effort and work to transcend. The suffering I endured was very great in a society made to worship beauty and disdain ugliness. Though I can say in full awareness that much of my current strength derives from that experience, from that struggle.
Wishing you well and looking forward to your reply,
"A Z"
From Holger:
Zionist are behind "all the wars"
Hi A Z,
first of all I want to tell you that I
am sorry to leave you waiting for a response to your extensive letter. I had so
many "projects" going on, all at the same time, that I kept putting my letter to
you "on the back burner" so to speak.
Not because you are not important enough,
on the the contrary, I wanted to have enough time and inner peace to respond to
you appropriately. One of the "projects" is to put material written by a young Jewish man on my web site.
It is a daunting job, to say the least. His
material and his thoughts related to his writings are quite interesting, if not
fascinating. Nevertheless, he writes poorly with many, many mistakes and
endless, often confusing, sentences which makes it an extensive project to work
on and thus to help him along.
Why then do I do it at all? Because I believe
that he has something important to tell... True, his material is not well
thought out and often half-baked, but he somehow stirs an interest in me,
perhaps because I feel a kinship with his search and inner fire. I have added to
this letter to you one that I just wrote to him today. Perhaps you find it
interesting and even informative especially in regards to my opinion on the
Third Reich and Hitler.
You tell me the story of your grandfather being a
prisoner in a Soviet Gulag and you refer to it as Zionist. How right you are of
course.
I also believe strongly that Zionist are behind "all the wars" as Mr.
Gibson, the director and actor, said so bravely just a few days ago.
Unfortunately he was "drunk" and "regrets" his statements deeply with special
apologies to the Jewish powers that are.
In fact, it is exactly my rekindled
awareness of the "New World Order," and the indisputable predictions found in
the "Protocols," which motivated me to create my own web site and write my
"auto-biography".
It was more my intuition than my intellect which brought about
this awareness.
Another factor was my growing awareness of the inexplicably growing number of "immigrants" here in the US and in Europe. Of course Canada should be included as well, and also Australia.
My thoughts were becoming more and more drawn into the nefarious realm of conspiracy...
For one thing, I couldn't understand why, in God's name, all these nations, these western nations, would be so interested in overpopulating their living space and putting up with all the problems created by "third world people" when the populace didn't want any part of it.
Why were the national leaders and politicians of
these nations so interested in bringing in these people, in in ever growing numbers,
when even their "constituents" were against it?
Then I found articles by Prof.
Kevin McDonald, a very credible researcher and published sociologist, about
Jewish influence and pressure on the government to open their immigration
policies. Why? Because they feel more secure and also more powerful when there
is a "multi-cultural" environment!!!
Again, the Protocols come to mind.
Of course, I'm "preaching to the quire".
I'm sure you have followed the same path
in one way or another and come to similar conclusions, as I can see from the
content of your exceedingly well written letter.
And here I want to pause and
ask for your indulgence. -Please do forgive me for not editing this letter after
writing it. I just don't have the time and I think that you are not the type of
person who would judge me too harshly for misspellings or "typos." You know,
this web site is lot of work and a daunting task.
Not only do I
feel that I have to keep up with the latest "alternative" news, but I also am
constantly searching for articles of value which I can add to my collection.
Sometimes, just to find the right picture, I go through more than 70 google
pages. And all that is very time consuming.
Also then there is the never ending
correspondence!
I get hate mail and letters like yours. It is a matter of
constant amazement to see how many people do like my web site and write to me
about it.
Of course, some of the hate mail is just unbelievable and downright
frightening. Especially since it is relatively easy for a knowledgeable and
resourceful person to find out my address.
Death threats are not totally
uncommon either.
And then there is the fact of my free "Astrology Reports" which
are actually quite good for being computer generated. In fact I would suggest
for you to order one as I believe you will be amazed even if you find this sort
of thing stupid and a waste of time. The "Sky Within" report is really the one I
would recommend. It was written by a re-known Astrologer and when you read and
analyze it you will see why I recommend it.
Now, to get back to your letter, I understand exactly what you mean by your inner struggle with "racism". Of course this is only a term used by the "forces of darkness," the "multi-culturalist" New World Order functionaries, to make you feel ashamed for paying attention to what your eyes, ears, heart and soul tell you in regards to your surroundings.
No one, well almost no one, is a "racist" by design and liking.
Even the nazis were quite cautious to express their ideology very carefully.
What I mean is, that the
Nuremberg Laws and other "racial" laws were not really that drastic and
un-flexible.
For one, they concerned the influence of Judaism after the German
experience with Eastern Jews flooding into the Weimar Republic in droves and
wreaking havoc to the point that even the German Jews hated their guts.
Sure, the nazis believed in the superiority of the Aryans which is understandable when one observes the world, third world countries and their "culture" and today's "multi-culturalism" and government enforced "political correctness".
Now, as to who
these "Aryans" really are is quite debatable, but in general it is the so called
"white" race.
Perhaps even the "Khazar Jews" who are the majority of the Zionist
movement.
So it gets all a little muddled, the more one delves into the subject
of "racism" and who the good and bad "guys" really are.
Nevertheless, it seems
to me quite obvious that there is a distinct difference between the races
populating "third world countries" and Western Civilisation as we one knew it.
What is deplorable, to me, is that the Jews by their tribalistic hatred,
supported by their Talmud and Torah, regard ALL others, ALL non-Jews as Goyems, as mere "cattle".
This is the main problem with
Jews and with Zionism.
Of course, not all Jews are true believers. And
not all Jews subscribe to the tribalistic code.
But those are the exception, no
matter how "liberal" many of them come across.
You can find them very "liberal"
and politically flexible indeed, as long as it doesn't concern Israel and the
holocaust.
But I'm sure you are very aware of all that also.
Often, these days, one
reads about the NWO conspiracy as being perpetrated by the "Illuminati" and that
the Zionists and Jews in general are just, hapless victims of
Illuminati" Rothschild lies and deception.
This, to me, is like asking the
proverbial question, "which came first, the chicken or the egg?"
The founder of
the "Illuminati," this legendary Mr. Weisshaupt, was, as you can tell by the name,
a Jew, a marano who studied to become a Jesuit priest, I believe...
So there
they are again!
Even so far back, before even the American and the French Revolutions!
Now, who wrote the Protocols?
Were they the minutes of a Zionist convention? Or was
it a clever forgery?
What do the events followed on a time-line basis show?
They
show, quite clearly, to me, that who ever was the author of those "Protocols,"
had a hell of an insight into future events!!!
And wouldn't it have to be
someone who "belongs" to the group or cabal which made it all happen and is
still working feverishly to bring it to it's final conclusion with the coming rule of "God's Chosen People" over the rest of the world?
What more is
there to say? Oh, and by the way, one must also remember the "handwritten Kabbalistic symbols and the quotation of words by Heinrich Heine (a German
Jewish poet, philosopher and author of fame)" on the wall of the basement room
where the Czar and his entire family, including sevants and family dog were
ruthlessly murdered by "Russian" Bolshevist guards.
One guard, especially, comes
to mind. I believe his last name was Rastow or something like that.
Now this guard was about as
"Russian" as the "Russian Mafia" is today.
He was a Jew, just as the so called
"Russian Mafia" should be called the "Jewish Mafia from Russia".
I can not, off
hand, remember the words of the Heine passage, but it is something about revenge
based on the Cabbala,
and you can find it on my web site if you check the book by Douglas Reed "The
Controversy of Zion".
This book is perhaps the most powerful, clearly written,
convincing and extensive work on Judaism and Zionism and it's influence in
world affairs. He was a correspondent for the "Times" news paper in England
before, during and after the second World War.
And he was not just any
correspondent but "THE" correspondent for this paper and he was known for his
other books not only by Times readers but by millions.
This man, who is no lover
of the nazis by any means, puts it all into perspective.... And there is no
other work like it!
It is a long book, and if you want to print it, I would
suggest you have enough ink handy for your printer as well as paper.
I owned
this book once, about 20 years ago, and lost it to a "friend" who borrowed it,
moved away, and thus never returned it.
It was printed on very thin paper and
still was as heavy as an Encyclopedia.
About 500 pages very tightly printed.
If you haven't done so already, I strongly suggest to you to go to this book on my web site and start reading...!!!
As to your question why I wrote my
"autobiography" for all to read on the internet, I thus must tell you that I
meant to find myself through writing down what I remember about my life. And
the story is not finished by any means.
The best, I believe, and the most interesting part, is yet to come. If ever I find the time and inner peace to sit
down and continue what I started. But I believe it will be soon.
Your letter has brought my attention back to it and I printed it out and read it
through in six hours.
This was the first time that I really read it ALL in one
sitting and thus got a good overview and deeper insight as to where I must
continue.
Thank you!
I was quite pleasantly surprised how well it read to me
despite some "glitches".
It actually read very well, I must say in all honesty.
Usually I don't like to read my own writing just as one doesn't like to hear
one's voice on a tape recording or even see one's own picture...
But, despite
this aversion, I liked what I wrote.
Actually my entire web site is a journey through my life where I wrestle with the demons of my past and deal with the insights I have gained through the almost 65 years of my life.
An internet friend called the front page of my web site, quite insightful. my "magicians table".
Yes, I do believe that much of my life has been a "magical mystery tour," and that the many pictures you find there are like mosaics of the whole, which is my self.
And there you have the reason for not only my "Gnostic Childhood," but also for my entire web site!
Another motivating factor was that I wanted to help
all those who are, in a round-about way, like me.
---All those whom I call true
Gnostics.
But you could also call them true Idealists. To me both are
interchangeable.
I want to encourage those "outsiders," those "stones which the builder has rejected," to find themselves where they really belong, as "corner-stones" of mankind's evolution...
Yes, it might sound kind of self-glorifying, but it is very true: I am an idealist and I want to help where I can!
As to the "holocaust", I would refer you to a book by Rassinier who
himself was an inmate in a concentration camp and who was also one of the first
people who voiced their true opinion as a "revisionist".
He said, in so many
words, that the places he was in were horrible and the experience of living
there was beyond horrible...
Not so much because of sadistic SS guards, but
because of the Communist "capos" (prisoner-trustees) and even Jewish capos who
maltreated the other prisoners in the most brutal, sadistic manner and are thus
the ones to blame for much of what went on there during the final years of the
war.
He said, that these "capos" withheld food and red-cross packages from their
fellow prisoners to either eat the stuff themselves or use it for barter and
more power in the camp.
Since Germany didn't have enough soldiers to fight on more then two
fronts, they lost control over the camps almost completely towards the last
couple war years....
And he also tells his readers, quite clearly, that there
definitely were no gas chambers in the camps he was in, and that from listening
to other prisoners, he came to the conclusion that there were no gas-chambers in
any of the many camps.
Now, there is no doubt that people died of typhus and
other diseases in droves by the hundred thousands.
TB was another most prevalent
disease.
I myself contacted TB after the war as you read in my story.
For God's
sake, this little country, Germany, was fighting the whole world, so to
speak...How could they keep oversight over the camps in the final war years?
One
could ask why didn't they let the prisoners go instead?
How could they throw
these people out into a totally devastated country? Or even send them somewhere
else?
Who would have wanted them?
I was in Berlin in 1996 to visit an old aunt
and do some sightseeing with my daughter. One day I decided to visit Hitler's
bunker area which had been in East Berlin and thus inaccessible to me years ago.
I went to the general area which is not far from the "Brandenburg Gate", the
symbol of Berlin, and asked somebody for directions. After being reluctantly
directed from the "Freie Universitaet" library area by a student, I saw that it
was just a huge field with a pile of rubble.
Sitting
down on the ground I reflected and sensed the terrible time which those living
there, Hitler included, went through during the very final days when the Soviet
Army was fighting in the streets only blocks away....
What an overwhelming
experience!
Now, I read on the internet that this is just about the same place
where "they" are either starting to put the Berlin "holocaust" museum or where
it is already!
I don't really want to know which is what, because it hurts....
Holocaust museums are, in my opinion, the Jewish temples for the Goyim cattle.
They are the "crown" on the head of every Jew and the "mark of the devil" upon
the face of every nation which has built them.
That's how I feel.
Good God, A....., I think I have written enough for today, and hope that I have answered all of your questions also. Please do write me back sometimes soon!
Your friend,
Holger.
From: Zelentsov Dmitry
<rjs@list.ru>
Reply-To: Zelentsov Dmitry <rjs@list.ru>
To: discoverer73@hotmail.com
Subject: contact
Date: Wed, 08 Mar 2006 16:58:09 +0300
Dear Sirs!
I represent a group of young Russian explorers of European esoteric tradition.
We have the professors, students, journalists, musicians and writers in our
group. Its aim is the resurrection of authentic European sacral tradition in
Russia.
Therefore we would like to work in contact with you and to participate in your
activities. We ask your permission for translation and publication of articles
and texts from your site on our site (
www.jungian.narod.ru ).
Yours truly,
Dmitry Zelentsov.
Thank you for your letter of inquiry. It is indeed my pleasure to cooperate with you in any way I possibly can. Please feel free to re-publish any of the material on my web site on your site or wherever you like. I am honored by your interest as I am an admirer of Russia and of the Russian people and, naturally, of Russian tradition and politics.
Sincerely yours,
Holger.
From: "Onofrio Sperandeo" <........@cheapnet.it>
To: <Thomas1@gnosticliberationfront.com>
Subject: Home-page and others
Date: Wed, 30 Nov 2005 14:19:19 +0100
In your home-page, you getthats "Secrets Of The Federal Reserve And The London Connection" By Eustace Mullinsif you click not on an image of the cover of this book, but of the one of "State Secret" by Léon de Montaigne, count de Poncins.I thank you for your work.I didn't understand why you call your site "Gnostic Liberation Front", as gnostic are our enemies, who (like the ancient and every times' gnostics) want to establish a world without own identities: an One World Government instead of single states, an so on. I belong to the same school of de Poncins, that's the catholic counter-revolutionary one.Best Regards,Onofrio Sperandeo - Pisa
thank you for your kind letter. I understand exactly what you mean by "Why choose Gnostic Liberation Front, as they are our enemies"? There are indeed various reasons. I agree that as most people understand Gnosticism, your statement is correct. But, not all Gnostics and those who are considered "Gnostics" fall into that category. My point being that yes, Gnosticism and Catholicism are "arch-enemies," but aside from the Gnostic belief that the Old-Testament is a Jewish tribal account of their concept of God and their relationship to God. Gnostics in general dispute that Jesus Christ was referring to Yahweh as his Father in Heaven...but was referring to the Gnostic vision of an all loving God who in his total goodness could not possibly have created the evils which our planet earth and our material existence is plagued with. So my point in choosing "Gnostic Liberation Front" as title is to challenge the Jewish power and influence upon Christianity and, of course, upon the affairs of this world. I feel that it was a mistake of the early Church to have connected the New Testament with the Old Testament of murder slaughter and brutality and a god who calls for this. Otherwise I appreciate the Catholic Church and just wished that the Vatican had not become corrupted by the adepts of Luciferian evil. Be that as it may, I have also chosen to use Gnosticism in the sense of "Ur-Christian" or "basic-Christian". Perhaps in the sense of Alfred Rosenberg's interpretation as found in his "Myth of the 20th Century". Also I should mention that basically I mean to apply Gnosticism to a Neo-Gnostic political approach in the sense of idealism. I see Gnostics, in our day, as nothing but born idealists who want to "set things right" this would include the whole range of idealistic political philosophies which attract idealistic people looking for a change of the "established order" which today is, of course, the left and right caught up in Illuminati-Freemason-Zionist manipulated movements. Since they too are considered "Gnostic", I am attempting to fight fire with fire, so to speak. We are approaching now a time of total New World Order rule and people need to understand what is really going on. Perhaps I'm skirting disaster in my approach, but I feel it is an acceptable way to reach those who are the most vulnerable, by their inherent personality and character, to be mislead by New World Order fronts. Thus I mean to literally liberate Gnostics or Idealists from this danger. I hope this attempt by me to explain to you why I chose Gnosticism as a vehicle to transmit the truth as I see it.
Sincerely yours,
Holger.
From Berlin, Germany:
From: A...... ....... <..........@.....berlin.de>
To: Thomas1@gnosticliberationfront.com
Subject: from Germany
Date: Wed, 23 Nov 2005 13:29:23 +0100
Hello Thomas!
You have a so interesting page.
but my english is not so good.
do you now some german spoken
internetpages with the same themes?
Thank you very much and
EWIG HEIL THULE
A........
Lieber A......!
Na Sie sind ja ein Berliner. Endlich einmal ein Berliner der mir schreibt. Mein Deutsch is schon ziemlich rostig doch ich kann noch sehr gut Deutsch sprechen. Ick bin ja och een Berlina und bin in dem Berlin der fruehen Nachkriegsjahre aufgewachsen. In Berlin Neukoelln in der Gegend um den Bahnhof Sonnenallee und der Sonnenallee wo mein Grossvater ein Fahrradgeschaeft hatte. Zuletzt, bevor ich nach Amerika auswanderte in 1963, wohnte ich in Berlin Mariendorf, Alt Mariendorf 44. Das letzte mal war ich in Berlin in 1996 mit meiner Tochter. Zum glueck habe ich mehr als 8 Stunden video aufgenommen von meinen alten Schulen und Wohnungen und Gegenden die bedeutend fuer mich waren, denn ich kann ja nun nie wieder nach Deutschland kommen wegen meiner Internet aktivitaet. Herr Zuendel zur Zeit is ja ein gutes exemplar fuer was einen in Deutschland erwartet. Bezueglich Ihrer anfrage kann ich Ihnen leider nicht viel helfen da ja viele webseiten nicht mit dem computer erreicht werden koennen in Deutschland. Hier habe ich eine addresse aber ich weiss nicht ob Sie die kriegen koennen. http://www.vho.org/D/Geheim2/ Es ist bezueglich eines Buches das ich in 1995 in Berlin kaufte und das dann spaeter in Deutschland verboten wurde. Es ist: "Geheimgesellschaften und ihre Macht im 20. Jahrhundert." von Jan van Helsing (Pseudonym). Es ist grossartig und entspricht auch sehr dem was ich glaube die Wahrheit ist. Auch die webseite des Horst Mahler ist sehr gut.
Leider ist das so alles was ich Ihnen mitteilen kann. Vielleicht kennen Sie die ja auch schon. Bitte, wenn es Ihnen genehm ist, schreiben Sie mir mehr in Deutsch. Es ist so gut mal von einem Berliner zu hoeren.
Viele herzlichste Gruesse aus ........ .. USA
Holger
Process letter from an old friend which refers to a previous letter which I unfortunately lost...
From: "Belial" <n...........@netzero.net>
To: ....@hotmail.com
CC: discoverer73@hotmail.com
Subject: Re: The Process Church
Date: Wed, 15 Feb 2006 19:37:45 GMT
Its: http://www.gnosticliberationfront.com
Watch out for the Process E-lists, there are lots of people that do not want that group starting up again.
Abolish "Mad Cow Disease".... Ban Dr. Laura!
Thank you, "Belial," I know about THAT from my own experience. I have come to conclude that any effort to re-start the Process is hopeless. Have dealt with a lot of liars and weird people and have come to the conclusion that the Process still exists...only under different local groupings and names. They seem to be in bed with some renegade intelligence groups and Illuminati spooks to do their bidding in regards to causing chaos and despair and hopelessness as well as in child abductions-porn and "Finders" kind of stuff. Naturally they are underground satanists and don't want the old Process back in the spotlight. Maury Terry in his "Ultimate Evil" is quite right and on the right track but seems to have given up or what have you. I wished I could find his address (e-mail) to correspond with but have not been able to find him. Had some correspondence with somebody who seemed to have access to him and who was dedicated to "expose" the Animal Sanctuary" in Utah....but he too dropped "out of sight" all of a sudden. E-mail comes back and no more listings on google etc. Maybe he too was one of the underground Processean spooks trying to find out what I knew, who knows?
Now, let me come to something which makes me very sad and concerned...Your falling into the realm of "hard-core" satanism! Why would you do such shit? You must know by now that I really like you from the way you write and think...and I have been there and know from dealing with the Process people that you are going where angels fear to tread!!! Please, heed my warning and stay clear of evil as a solution to the problems of material existence. Of course evil rules, but that means that the evils of humanity, of mankind, are part of an inferior creation which was produced, so to speak, by renegade angels...archons (remember the name) and what have you. The god Yahweh is nothing but Satan... el shaddai as you must know from your Jewish heritage. So what you are thinking is the other side of the coin is actually the same old same old. Goodness, compassion and mercy will not get you anywhere here on earth because this earth was created by the same evil archons and fallen entities whom you think would bring about a new world or the abyss of annihilation. So you are being deceived by thinking that chaos, evil, mayhem and human and animal sacrifices would be right and useful to destroy this earth and the material realm forever....But I strongly believe that you are making a dreadful and perhaps irrevocable mistake in that assumption. By worshipping Satan you are worshipping El Shaddai...Yahweh-Jehovah the "god" of the Old Testament the Torah. The Gnostic belief in that regard is quite clear and when the "Christians" adopted the Torah as their basis Christianity became perverted and evil. Certainly you won't get anywhere here on this evil planet worshipping compassion, mercy, forgiveness and yes, Love, but it is the only path which leads to Gnosis and transcension. Well, dear Archonis, I didn't mean to rant or put your beliefs down...far from it as I too have, at least intellectually, traveled your road and KNOW what your reasons are. But since I really and truly like you and feel a strong bond with you, I just had to tell you what I thought and warn you about the dangers ahead of you unless you change course. I am now almost 65 years old and a total failure in the eyes of the world and sometimes even in my own eyes and I have experienced and seen a lot of "mystical" things. Thus my warning to you is not coming from any sense of imagined superiority or missionary delusion, but is simply a genuine concern for a fellow traveler on the path. Stay with Light and Love, compassion and mercy, please, and forget Satanism and Chaos Magick as they are a ruse of Lord of this Earth and are meant to wrap you even more in the chains of slavery, the very slavery you think you are escaping by embracing this deceitful "gospel" of darkness. I was so happy when you wrote that you were on the path of Buddhism which is very close to Gnosis. What happened?
Your friend,
Holger
Another inquiry about The Process Church
From: "Madalyn" <.......@hotmail.com>
To: discoverer73@hotmail.com
Subject: The Process..
Date: Tue, 21 Mar 2006 14:17:57 -0700
Hello,
I have visited your website and believe I am/or have been on a similar quest. I too, have been in search of The Process for quite sometime. They are "rebuilding..", as you know..... for quite sometime now. I was wondering if you have discovered any new information on how to contact them? I have inquired all over the place, to no avail. If they are re-forming, somebody must know something? The only "positive" response I have received stated, "perhaps when the time is right, they'll find you." If you have found any current contact information for them, I would appreciate it if you might share it with me.
Thank you very much for your time and consideration,
Madalyn
Hi Madalyn,
thank you for your inquiry about The Process. Unfortunately I can not be of much help to you since I have not dealt with any Process related matters for quite some time. My experiences with people who claimed to have been former members have been quite discouraging to say the least. Much disinformation and paranoia as well as secrecy have lead me to believe that there is definitely something "unholy" going on with The Process. What I mean is, that there seems to be an underground Satanic circuit made up of some former Processeans and other elements, who don't want to bring attention to the former Process under any circumstances. This, of course, also has to do with the "Animal Sanctuary" in Utah which harbours the original group who caused the schism in 1974 under the leadership of DeGrimston's former wife Mary Anne. They are supposedly doing a remarkable job with homeless animals and apparently make a fortune in donations and don't want to see the re-birth of The Process under any circumstances. Since their operation deals with millions, you can easily understand their reluctance to have The Process re-appear. But there is also another angle, as I understand it, which deals with "bigger and better things", like what is described in the book "The Ultimate Evil." My reason for coming to this conclusion is based on what I dealt with over the internet relating to such a desperate effort from some former Processeans to mislead, lie and deceive anybody interested in a re-birth of The Process. For all I know, you too (sorry for thinking the possibility) could be one of "them" who want to find out what is going on with the attempt to re-organise. You see, I hope, what I mean in regards to paranoia and distrust. When I started out with this project I had no idea where it would lead and no suspicion at all about the truth as speculated by Maury Terry the author of "The Ultimate Evil." Well, I was naive....And now I know better. Something is definitely wrong with the people of the former Process. Some are of course innocent and know very little, but there is an element of them whom I wouldn't trust at all, to say the least. So, any advice I can give you is to just forget about them as something which started out beautiful but turned ugly eventually, very ugly indeed. P. Orrige (don't know if I spelled his name right) has much of former Process material in his group or cult. I can't remember their name...but if you "google" his name you'll find more material on it.
Sorry to disappoint you,
Holger
Here is a splendid example of mindless "Anti-Faschist" Anarchist mentality:
What a guy! This letter would be laughable if it wasn't so very sad to see how crazy some people really are!
| From : | rudolf rocker <gnosticantifa@hotmail.com> |
| Sent : | Tuesday, June 6, 2006 3:30 AM |
| To : | discoverer73@hotmail.com |
| Subject : | anarcho-gnosticism |
America belongs to the
Aztlan (mexican) people. You advocate with your support of "national anarchism"
racial segregation and a return to ancestral lands. Get the fuck out of america
then you fucking hypocrite immigrant white. What are you doing on somebody elses
land if you believe in "natural" racial purity? Fuck your peckerwood texaco
ameriKKKa. Anybody with half a mind knows anarchism has never had a color or
race so why don't you just take off your sheep's outfit? I hope you enjoy all
the interracial gay porn mailing lists I signed you up for you stupid fascist
cunt.
That you dare to call yourself an anarchist, gnostic, or even liberationist of
any kind is nothing more than an insult to anybody that really cares about those
things. Your life and the contradictions you propagate are pathetic lies. Why
don't you fucking hang yourself you piece of shit. Better yet, put a bullet in
your mouth like your daddy's fuhrer so nobody has to discover your ugly bloated
face.
No solidarity for racialist-nationalist scum, we will never be free from tyrants
as long as your kind remains.
Ein Edelweiss Pirate
(ps: we'll be watching you....)
"A [...] person owned a vineyard and rented it to some farmers, so they could
work it and he could collect its crop from them. He sent his slave so the
farmers would give him the vineyard's crop. They grabbed him, beat him, and
almost killed him, and the slave returned and told his master. His master said,
'Perhaps he didn't know them.' He sent another slave, and the farmers beat that
one as well. Then the master sent his son and said, 'Perhaps they'll show my son
some respect.' Because the farmers knew that he was the heir to the vineyard,
they grabbed him and killed him. Anyone here with two ears had better listen!"
Response from Holger:
And here is my answer:
I'm impressed though that you did so much reading on my site.
That's better than most people who either can't or just won't read.
I don't know why you carry so much hatred within you and I really don't care...But why don't you get a better understanding? I'm definitely not promoting National Anarchism and I'm definitely not promoting nazism. What I do promote is INSIGHT. What the hell do you promote? Signing people up to porn sites is your answer to a different view point? Well, if your mind is in the mud, keep it there and don't bother me with your self righteous politically correct platitudes and labels. If you are a self hating white brainwashed idiot, you should do what you want me to do. I neither hate you nor myself or anybody else so why drop your negative nonsense upon me? If, on the other hand, you want to have a dialogue with me, I'm ready for it at anytime. But I have a feeling that you are much to cock-sure as to how things are in this world, to be open to somebody else's opinion. Nevertheless, I rather deal with somebody on fire than with numbed sleepers... Unless, you are a shill trying to get me to say something in anger which could cause me problems...And who knows these days anyways... Perhaps if I was your age right now I would have written the same crap to somebody just like you wrote to me. Anyhow, I hope you get over your "bad hair" day and tell me something that I don't know...
As it is so be it,
Holger
Another letter from Rudolf Rocker:
Holger
| From : | rudolf rocker <gnosticantifa@hotmail.com> |
| Sent : | Saturday, June 10, 2006 1:06 AM |
| To : | discoverer73@hotmail.com |
| Subject : | RE: anarcho-gnosticism |
Herr Haffke,
All apologies if youn have no ideological sympathies with National Anarchism or
Mr. Frosty "k.k.k." Wooldridge. However, I sincerely doubt your objectivity it
since you've been dedicated enough to mirror the bastards. Perhaps I've been
excessive but I reserve the right to attack a barrier when I come across
one."Awareness", so far as I know it, is universal and not exclusive. It is
certainly not objective. I sincerely doubt that a person's nationality, skin
color, heritage or language can limit their capacity to be intelligent or
percive truth, and this is where I find fault in your site. The answers to the
following questions might clarify things:
1. Do you subscibe to Henry Ford's theory that the jewish people collectively
have an international conspiracy to dominate the earth?
2. Do you consider mexicans as foreigners to the north american continent?
3. Do yo value feudalism as an economic structure in harmony with nature?
4. Do you think that the monarchist family of any country deserves the right to
control or govern?
5. Do you belive in the right of any social group to control or govern any
region of land?
-An edelwiess pirate
"A [...] person owned a vineyard and rented it to some farmers, so they could
work it and he could collect its crop from them. He sent his slave so the
farmers would give him the vineyard's crop. They grabbed him, beat him, and
almost killed him, and the slave returned and told his master. His master said,
'Perhaps he didn't know them.' He sent another slave, and the farmers beat that
one as well. Then the master sent his son and said, 'Perhaps they'll show my son
some respect.' Because the farmers knew that he was the heir to the vineyard,
they grabbed him and killed him. Anyone here with two ears had better listen!"
Letter from Holger to Mr. Rocker:
My Response to Mr. Rocker's letter and questions:
Herr Rocker,
no need for apologies since they would be misplaced in my case. Mr. Woodridge's articles are definitely my sentiment also and I have them on my website because I believe exactly as he does. That he is KKK is news to me as I only know that he is heavily into bicycling around the country....Nevertheless, even if he were a member of the KKK, I still would publish his articles even though I am not in sympathy with KKK philosophy or whatever you want to call it. A "national anarchist" though I'm not, although I very much appreciate the "anarchism" of Bakunin instead of the concepts of the illuminati conspirator and dupe, Karl Marx.
If only the noble, honest and
courageous Bakunin had won the battle of the first international! Perhaps the
world wouldn't be where it is now....But that is neither here nor there. When I
read your self-righteous prattle I can not help but wonder who or what you
really are. For one thing, of all the "fascist" (in your opinion) authors on my
web site and in my correspondence with Herrn Zundel and others of the so called
"far right," I have never encountered anyone, and that included other hate mail
writers, who proclaim their "anti-fascism" like you.
In fact you sound and act
(mailing me porn-site memberships) more like the ultimate stereo type of a
fascist or even nazi mentality then any of those whom you so self-righteously
condemn with that very label.
And talking about "racism," again, I haven't encountered anyone as racist as you with your "aztlan" (which, I believe, means something like "All for the race") rantings. Of course these are "indigenous" people, brown people and then it's okay in your screwed-up mind! Do I believe that Mexican people have the right to live anywhere in North-America, you ask? Hell no! Why should they? Just because they have some "Indian" blood? Well then the Jews are, of course, justified for stealing Palestinian land and calling it Israel! Or perhaps that is a crock because the majority of Jews in Israel are Ashkanazi....Khazar imposters.
Anyhow, the whole concept of this kind of
thinking is not only absurd but outright crazy.
I have nothing against Mexicans
as a people, but to come illegally to the United States is neither right nor
feasible in the long run.
But, of course, the concept of even simple economics
is of no interest to you as an "anarchist".
Besides I have seen what has
happened to this once quite wonderful country since the so called "immigration
reform" of 1965. To put it bluntly, it has gone to hell. And who was behind this
incredible feat? Of course, Jewish interests and pressure!
This country, just like every other civilized country and nation on this planet, is flooded with immigrants who have no interest in national affairs, culture, language and have only come here, as in all the other western nations, because living conditions in their own nations are so god-awful that they want to believe that it is easy to make a good living here and there.
Of course, this is utter nonsense, the
program of worldwide distribution of mass immigration is nothing but Marxist
philosophy in action. Brought about by the Illuminati New World Order cabal. So
that you only have the very rich and very powerful and then the "Lumpen-Proletariat".
Divide and rule....And that is the REAL fascism you should worry
about!
That's the reason for mass-immigration on an almost world-wide scale!
If you destroy the racial and ethnical hegemony of nations and countries, through immigrants who don't fit into those nations, by culture, genetics and sentiment, you have a simmering time-bomb with those people resenting everything about those nations and their peoples no matter how accommodating and even self-effacing the population is towards these people. Das Deutsche Wort "Artfremd" kommt einem in den Sinn. Of course you will immediately say that this is a nazi-fascist term. Nevertheless, it describes the mentality perfectly and it can hardly be overcome by enforcing all kinds of double-talk and politically correct "Massnahmen". Whish full thinking does neither change nor correct reality.
Why do you think
Bush is so reluctant to take any border action that could be considered
meaningful? Despite people being searched at airports like criminals...Even
elderly "white" people (They more then even Arab looking ones).
The border was
open like never before from before 9-11 to just recently. And only "KKK" people
like Woodridge and others have, over the internet, created such stirrings that
Bush with his weak and still falling ratings has picked up the call for
border-control.
But you and I can tell that his heart and soul is not really in
it, can't we?
Just a little setback for the cabal! Just some more show and no go.
As to your question about Henry Ford's theory, I really don't know if he
condemned the Jewish people collectively. Actually I don't think so. And in the
end he recanted under Jewish pressure or pressure from his Masonic lodge.
I
think that Henry was used to incite what was wanted by the cabal in Germany and
here also.
To condemn the Jewish people collectively is wrong. Just as it is
wrong to condemn the German people for Hitlerian excesses and the American
people for slavery. The picture in all cases is much more complex.
Of course
you, with your "anti-fa" Fascist mentality have done just that in your last
letter to me. Regarding my father, non the less, if I might remind you. So
again, I can not help but wonder! Are you German?
If you are, I feel sorry for
you because you are a brainwashed shell of a person...
"Anti-Fa" my ass! You are
just one screwed up dude!
But I have a suspicion that you are working for
another Fascist "Anti-Fa" organization calling itself ADL.
Really, I think you
are a "shill," if you know what that means. If not, then don't worry about it.
Yeah,
only a fanatical Zionist Jew could be so crude and ferocious.
It's the Talmud,
you know....You should get over it and free yourself from this terrible bondage
and begin to see the world as it really is and realize what it could be without
it's dreadful influence on so many minds.....
But, I must ask your forgiveness
for this little outburst on my part....
After all, isn't that expected from a "nazi-fascist"
schwein?
Not that I really consider myself one, but getting the drift of your
sentiment, this is what YOU will call me surely, right?
Well, do I think that a
monarchist family of any country deserves the right to control or govern?
Geese,
I haven't lived under a monarchy so I don't know what to say...
Actually, let me
say this, the monarchies of all countries are just as corrupt and beholden to
the NWO cabal as any president, congress and what have you!
So what's the
difference to the average person?
What I really mean is: No matter what
government you have, whether monarchy, democracy, communism, fascism, national
socialism....and yes, even anarchism of whatever banner, you still have
oppression because you are dealing with people.
Is the "Lumpen-Proletariat" any
more noble than the so called "Liberal," or even the Nazi?
I don't think so!
People are people and people in power are corrupt no matter what or where or
how.
David Icke, whom I respect and like very much, made a wonderful statement
which is, "I'm me and I'm free" and that dear Mr. Rocker is about all that can
be said to government and all the "isms" of this world!
Meaning, of course, that
only in my self, in my mind and spirit, can I be free....
But even that is
becoming more and more questionable as the NWO cabal has found many ways to
screw with our mind and thus our state of consciousness.
And THAT is what I'm
REALLY worried about.
Brainwashing has been going on, on a large scale, since
World War I and has escalated into such a sophisticated, electronically
controlled form that even a superb psychologist can not detect it anymore.
Surely you know what I'm talking about and surely you have worked this through
your intelligent mind.
Nevertheless, I mention it as of foremost importance
since this is the last frontier of total control.
Totale Kontrolle! Herr Rocker.... Just think, no more "Die Gedanken sind frei!" because your "Gedanken (Thoughts)" might not be your own at all!
So you worry about who is what, fascist,
anti-fascist, and you want to fight everyone who has come to different
conclusions than you, instead of working on your own mind and your total
understanding while you still can.
Do you, in all honesty, really believe that
Anarchism as such would make any difference to NWO cabal????
Do you really think
that Mexicans in North America and Turks and Africans in Germany and a world
without borders would alleviate human suffering?
Just think, how would you
yourself be as a communal leader, as a person who has quite a bit of power over
others?
I fear, that in your present state of mind, you would be a ferocious
killer and destroyer of everything that YOU deem unworthy of
existence...
...especially all those people who don't fit into your image of a
"better" anarchist society based on what???
Look at Pol Pot, didn't he want to
"cleanse" his country of all undesirables?
Unfortunately those undesirables in
his world-view were all those who had some kind of "higher" education.
In other
words, all those who might have been a threat to his claim to power and to his
vision of a "better" society.
Doesn't it all register with you? People are
people, whether poor, disenfranchised, indigent, homeless, Mexican, black,
brown, asian......
....People are fucking PEOPLE. And people have faults, racial
preferences, hatreds as well as astonishing qualities of goodness and
compassion.
But nevertheless, it's all a mixed bag and unpredictable.
And people
are capable of doing anything in order to survive!
When brought down to the
lowest denominator, as the New World Order is planning to do and has already
done in all western nations to some degree, people of different races will stick
together no matter what.
I see it here in the deep south where just about all my neighbors are
black and where crime has reached proportions where you would want to pack up
and leave for somewhere....
But where?
You see, white people, at least
the ones that I have met in my life, are very rarely racists.
It is the black
and Hispanic peoples who show their racism without any fear!
So, if the shit
comes down, dear Mr. Rocker, do you believe that, wherever you live, in Germany,
Israel or the USA, these artificially "whipped up" masses from all over the
world, living in your country, would differentiate between you the "good"
anti-fascist and "real" fascists?
To them you are only "whitey" and that's
enough to get you killed.
That is reality!!!...Your mental picture of a wonderful paradise like world, of all races peacefully living together and sharing everything is, like the cover drawing of a Jehovah's Witness "Watchtower" drawing,...a pipe dream... which would be wonderful, if it weren't for the ugly reality of living, thinking, judging, and always "prejudiced" PEOPLE.
Perhaps,
in the other dimension, after death, this IS a reality....
I would certainly hope
so, but, right now and in the future on earth, this will never happen.
In my
"fascist" opinion, to destroy all nation states and their racial and ethnic
identity through mass immigration, is an irreparable crime against nature,
spirit, future generations and hope for an evolved humanity.
Only ugliness, and
unimaginable evil will be the final outcome of this crime!
Why would this be?
I'm sure you know the answer in your heart and soul, although you would never
want to admit it, because on the Machiavellian principle of "Divide and
Conquer," the dictatorship of the international Financial, Corporate, Racial
Elite of Illuminati stooges will put you, me and all the rest of us suckers into
a slavery which will make the concentration camps of the third Reich and the
gulags of Stalin look like Disneyland!
The "fascism" and "nazism" you so
diligently and ferociously profess to fight DOES NOT EXIST ANYMORE!!!!!!
You are
like Don Quihote fighting a wind-mill....
I'm not the enemy and neither is
Frosty or other patriots.
Perhaps you strongly disagree, but all your babble
about the rights of Mexican people to North America and most likely to other
immigrants to wherever they landed, is total nonsense.
What would the Mexicans
gain? Another corrupt country to barely survive in?
If they would make something
out of Mexico by turning their ingenuity for survival to bring down the corrupt
oligarchy of Fox at all, instead of coming here into an already screwed up
country without industry for decent jobs, perhaps they could do what Hugo Chavez
did in Venezuela instead of playing the "race card" and wanting to be taken care
of by already over-taxed Americans.
Wars and conflicts have always robbed
peoples of land. It is true that much of the south west was Mexican once...
But the USA won that battle and the land became part of the US.
If
you applied your "logic" on a fair basis, many parts of Poland should be
returned to the German people also.
But why not let it be and concentrate on what IS, instead of wanting to change those things over again and creating more
friction and hatreds.
The world is not perfect and war was always a large part of human existence and suffering and it is still going on in the name of "democracy" and "freedom".
No matter who, where, when and how,
people are just people and their leaders are without exception corrupt, if not
downright evil.
Anarchism isn't going to create a better mankind, nor is
mass-immigration and a return of land to indigent populations who have neither
the qualification, knowledge nor inner discipline to take over from a however
faulty and corrupt western civilization.
You see this clearly in South Africa
which is, along with "Zimbabwe", completely and hopelessly destroyed by crime and
tribal warfare.
There is no "noble savage"! Only corrupt leaders and exploited masses even more so than under colonialism.
Perhaps instead of fighting "paper
tigers" you could turn your energy and skill to fight the coming international
fascist (emerged from the international Socialist) New World Order
cabal....although you will probably choose to target me or other "patriots" (and
there is no other name for us at this point in time, although I don't
particularly like it) with your bullying, death threats and insidious
pornography (how infantile), like I would see something I haven't seen before!
Christ, I was married to a black women in 1967 before you were even born....in
the state of Connecticut.
Yeah, you ferocious freedom fighter, I have seen and
done, explored and studied...lived and...EVOLVED, for God's sake!
Please try to
do the same before you judge, condemn and if you could, hang others.
Good God,
open your mind and spirit and learn from life....
Holger
A friendly, positive note regarding our Enid Blyton page:
| From : | Mike ......@tpg.com.au> |
| Sent : | Tuesday, June 6, 2006 7:36 PM |
| To : | <discoverer73@hotmail.com> |
| Subject : | Enid Blyton |
Letter from Holger to Mr. T...:
Suicide,
Evola, De Grimston, Chaos Magick, Gnosticism and Christian Science:
Hi Mr. T...,
unfortunately I know nothing about the three people suicide you mentioned. Evola is a hard nut to crack though and I find it interesting that you found a transformation in your own life through his writings. I don't particularly like him because I can't really tune in to his philosophy. It is to esoteric and to elitist in my opinion. But that is neither here nor there...He is indeed a man of superior intellect and perhaps I'm to much of a "bleeding heart" to appreciate his cold logic. You seem to be somewhat touched by suicidal pre-occupation? The Process material is also so negative. Please be careful and don't take DeGrimston's writings too seriously. Of course you know that it's all metaphorical, the positive and negative, the yin and the yang, the gods and the devil etc.? Many have taken his material to literally and ended up in Satanism and chaos magick. Not good at all!!!! It's fascinating all right, but it's a dangerous flirtation which all to often ends in mental as well as physical slavery and death. If you want to travel the "royal road" to spiritual liberation, I would strongly suggest that you read and study Arthur Corey's "Christian Science Class Instructions". Really and truly it is the Supreme Knowledge made understandable and workable. Forget "Christian Science" and pre conceived ideas about it. Anyhow, I'm glad you are an open minded and interested soul and am always ready to communicate and exchange ideas with you.
Best wishes,
Holger
Dear Mr. T...,
thank you for sharing your deep insight! Indeed, I'm so happy to have come into contact with you, as I agree with everything in your letter except your understanding of "Christian Science". Please understand, that there is a deep abyss between New Thought and Christian Science. In your assessment of New Thought you are absolutely correct in my opinion. But Christian Science is a whole different "ball game". And I'm, of course, not talking about the Christian Science Church and it's "churchianity," but about the deeper teachings as presented by Arthur Corey in his class instructions...and other literature available from such places as The Bookmark. These books are banned by the church organization who is utterly and completely under the control of the Rothschild New World Order. The pure teachings of CS are comparable to the highest teachings of Vedanta as taught by Vivekananda. Please do read the articles on my web site under Christian Science and Vedanta. I see it in the light of Supreme Wisdom or Gnosis because it metaphysically transcends the cruder Gnosticism of the lowest level of their dualistic teachings and explains so clearly to us "Western Christians" of European ancestry the facts relating to the illusion of material perception and thus LIFE. We are "fallen" spiritual beings....who have not literally fallen but have succumbed to a material mind-set. And we must, in order to liberate ourselves (as no one can do it for us) from this form of "programming" by attaining Knowledge, Wisdom, Gnosis. In order to make this possible, I use various forms of shocking articles (which are true in my opinion) on my web site to cause SPIRITUAL CHAOS and thus an AWAKENING to the "evils" of this world in all its sordid aspects...And hopefully showing the futility in attempting to fight the New World Order Chaos with SPIRITUAL fire, and thus, hopefully, leading open minded people to search for a "higher" path than the materialistic, revolutionary path of any political "ism." I believe strongly that this fight with the New World Order Cabbalists and Occultists has to be first and foremost SPIRITUAL, starting in each individual being before anything else could or should be done.... Believing that duality...good and evil, does not exist beyond the dualistic concept of the "reality" of materialistic existence, of life in this dimension and the lower fourth dimension, I see in the "higher" teachings of Christian Science and Vedanta the only hope for Liberation. True Gnostics are not necessarily enlightened. In fact, most are on a quest to change the world, the material world I should say without having attained balance within themselves and are thus easily drawn into the "evils" of different extreme political and religious philosophies. See Hitler, Lenin, Roosevelt, Pol Pot, Mao, well, you get my drift.... They are all born, true Gnostics alright, but have failed so miserably because of having been bound to the material realm by their own Spiritual ignorance. See also DeGrimston and his creation the Process Church. He has insight but not enough of it... too much too soon....He was very successful in drawing people to his philosophy through his charisma and vision. But he hadn't attained GNOSIS! His articles and writings are fascinating as his concept of the Unification of Opposites comes near the realm of Truth....but, unfortunately, he remained there instead of taking the jump, the Spiritual jump into true Gnosis, which would mean: the understanding of the illusion of matter as solid and workable... And like you so insightfully stated in your last letter, "one has to continue to find usefulness in him because of his critiques as opposed to anything positive he might put forward." And the same with Evola and the "Conservative Revolution."
Your comrade,
Holger.
Regarding John Kaminski, Edgar Steele and "Birdman" John Bryant:
----Original Message Follows----
From: Donald Grabau To: Holger Haffke Subject: John Kaminski on things Jewish Date: Wed, 12 Apr 2006 01:59:01 -0700 http://www.adelaideinstitute.org/Dissenters1/Zundel1/kaminski.htm John Kaminski on things Jewish
Fredrick Töben says: Don't blame the Jews, blame those that bend to their pressure in the battle of the wills!
Here are two definitive writers: John Kaminski and Andrew MacGregor with their worldview - Weltanschauung
-added, John Bryant's response, below.
my dear friend, thanks for sending me this stuff about Kaminski Steele and Bryant. In all honesty, I must side with Kaminski as I always have. Steele and Bryant to me are true racists in every sense of the word. Which is okay, but I always had a deep antipathy towards both when reading their material. This is not to say that they are all wrong. Far from it! But that they seem to me like abhorrent remnants of the "red-blooded American" syndrome, to say the least. Bryant seems to have a "Superman" complex and he always gives me the cold shivers when reading some of his articles....which I finally gave up completely. He seems to me like a mix of Heinrich (Reichsheini) Himmler and von Ribbentrop...with a little Mengele thrown in for good measure. Steele is not so bad and sometimes, I must admit, I even enjoy his insight and articles....Nevertheless, Kaminski, is "right on," and I appreciate him more and more even with his faults and mistakes....
Your brother and friend,
Holger the terrible.
Gnosticism, Jesus, "Family Values" and Politics
Letter to an inquiry from a Jewish lady from Holger:
Thank you for your honesty and the compliment. What happened to your grandmother, is an evil of human nature and tribalistic hatred which needs to be addressed and hopefully eradicated. In these time of G.W. Bush's arousal of man's most basic emotions through 'patriotism' it is especially important. Please do understand the motive for my web site. My aim is to address exactly those people whom you say are 'pandering' to my web site. The reason is not to excite their emotions because that already has happened before they came to it. What I want to do, perhaps not always successfully, is to make them aware that yes, many things are wrong in this world, injustice abounds in all 'systems,' but that in order to change things one must first understand him self and realize that no revolution can be beneficial to the human race unless the 'revolutionaries' have come to terms with their own nature and the 'dark side' inherent in all of us.
I want to somehow demonstrate that all political 'isms' have good and evil within them just as the men and women who as idealists ( or, as I call them Gnostics) have within themselves. Thus, I want to show that people shouldn't hate each other for having embraced a certain 'ism' which appealed to their idealistic (Gnostic) nature, but instead embrace each other in love and compassion as brothers and sisters on the quest to improve the human condition on this material plane. Which means that we as idealists who are willing to perhaps even risk our own lives for this desire coming from deep within, are a 'special breed' of people on this earth. I call it 'having fallen through a cosmic crack.' We might, through pre-disposition, adhere to totally opposite 'isms' or philosophies, but we are still brothers and sisters of the 'idealistic persuasion' and Gnostics all and we should bury the old beliefs and delusions of 'the other' being evil and deluded.
As human beings on this dark planet we are all victims of the same cosmic evil which has ruled mankind since the beginning of man. We as Gnostics are somehow 'special' because we are 'different' from the masses or the 'herd,' because we were born with the inner drive and absolute compulsion to change things as we have found them to be. Naturally, this makes us 'revolutionaries' or 'heretics' to the establishment. Jesus the Christ was one of us (even if he never existed, because he is a Gnostic 'archetype' of what man can be) as were all those considered good or evil depending on who interprets their message and works.
Most of these 'Gnostic' attempts to change the world through an 'ism' have failed miserably, as many charismatic 'revolutionaries' have never come to terms with true Spirituality and their own 'dark side.' In other words they weren't able to understand themselves and their deepest motivations aside from the inner compulsion to 'rebel' against the 'system.' Well-meaning perhaps, but not emotionally prepared for the onslaught they were to set into motion, being unaware of the fact that the 'innocent' masses were not driven by the same ideals, concepts and motivations they were. Thus releasing an unintended or miscalculated force within 'the people' which they never anticipated and couldn't change no matter what.
At first these charismatic 'Gnostics' were elated at their 'magical' ability to rouse the masses and driven to 'experiment' with their newly discovered ability, realizing only too late, that they had created a 'monster' and released an 'evil' force which would eventually destroy them in disgrace. The same masses which eventually would turn on their leaders, becoming their judges and henchmen imbued with the very hatred and fanaticism which they, the Gnostic leaders, had awakened in them.
My motivation for this web site is to awaken the Gnostics or future 'revolutionaries' to their 'higher' calling and thus lead them subtly through the labyrinth of their own minds and their spiritual state of awareness. Thus, you find at the beginning of the web site the statement "Unification of Opposites." Of course these opposites, Nazi versus Zionist, Communists versus Nazi and Zionist, Anarchist versus Communist and Nazi and Zionist and so on are only the 'visual' expressions these 'Gnostic' revolutionaries have chosen according to their environment and psychological pre-dispositions.
Yet they are meaningless in the larger picture of their brotherhood as heretics (Gnostics) against the 'system' of their 'oppressors.' Once Gnostics can comprehend in their deepest nature and beingness that they are 'brothers' no matter what the 'ism' is which they have consciously or sub-consciously chosen as a vehicle for their inner compulsion to set things 'right' in this world, they will perhaps understand, even if only subtly, that they can find a much 'higher calling' through transcendence of all 'isms' and a truly Spiritual understanding of their role as heretics. This being the comprehension that 'mankind' as a whole can not be 'saved.' Neither from themselves nor from the corruption and injustice of any existing system on earth.
Only individual beings can individually save themselves through their own effort and open-mindedness in conjunction with compassion for those who are not yet ready to understand the dimensions of Spiritual life. My intent is to show Gnostics, who are heretics by nature and revolutionaries by choice, that the path to Liberation is not the material, political path, but the spiritual path.
All fanaticism is the result of inner conflicts and insecurity...All true Wisdom is the result of spiritual and worldly Knowledge...Gnosis. Having experienced many 'isms' myself, such as National Socialism and Communism, I can from my own experience say, that I'm amazed by the people who are associated with both movements. They were not monsters or cranky 'dictator' types at all, but deeply honorable, aware and kind people who genuinely wanted to help free mankind from the inherent evils of injustice, misery and hopelessness.
In the Communist Party USA which I was associated with in New Haven, Connecticut, most of the leading people were indeed Jewish and were people of extraordinary warmth and character. Never did they let me feel unwelcome because of my German background and accent and I shall always cherish them as a group of truly wonderful human beings. Most of them looked and acted like Pete Seeger, unassuming and plain, yet infinitely talented and genuinely motivated to help mankind. Only when it came to party ideology and dogma did they become fanatical, defensive and almost 'robotic.' The same, in general, goes for the people associated with National Socialism. Although much more 'restricted' in their acceptance of 'newcomers,' because of the 'racial criteria' one had to pass, they too were eventually warm and 'human.'
What does this lead me to believe? That foremost these 'Gnostics' were, on both sides, genuine in their mission and driven by their 'Gnostic' awareness that something was very wrong in this world which needed correction by any means possible.
The same, I'm sure, goes for Zionists although their criteria is also, like the Nazis', racial first and thus 'limited' by tribalistic concepts. Now these 'fanatics' were all 'nice' people, aware and intelligent, disciplined and motivated...The same 'type' of people, Gnostics or idealists, are found in all three of these opposing 'isms.' Yet they are hating each other because of the different directions their analysis of life has led them to and because of the choice of vehicle they use to accomplish change.
Indeed, they All are driven idealists, Gnostics, moved by their inner compulsion to help mankind, thus being brothers in a spiritual sense. Yet they would do anything to destroy each other for the 'isms' of their choosing, forgetting along the way that their motivation was the desire to 'help' mankind attain liberation from their oppressors on this earth without having attained their own Liberation. Which should be Liberation from their own dark inheritance of myopic vision, intolerance and all the other baggage everyone is born with or acquired through environment, heritage and mis-interpreted experiences.
In my opinion, this is a lack of Spiritual Knowledge (Gnosis) first and foremost which manifests itself in fanaticism and unrelenting hatred for other beliefs and concepts. I believe that Gnostics, idealists, are born as such, but that they don't necessarily have to have attained 'Gnosis.' They might not even have considered themselves to be Gnostics, or even know what it means, but are nevertheless born Gnostics. Their potential for good or evil, on this earth-plane is much more pronounced, like the proverbial 'double-edged sword,' than that of the 'average' person as they are driven by a force and inner intensity which is not much present in the masses of human beings.
The name "Gnostic Liberation Front" signifies exactly what is meant. It is for the Liberation of Gnostics and not for the masses. Appealing to their 'revolutinary' needs of expression I attempt to present the basis of many concepts and ideas and the evils of earthly, material existence.
There is no preaching or attempts to 'convert' people but a subtle sense of Spirituality pervading the web site. You can not 'convert' true believers but you can present facts and ideas in order to appeal to their curiosity and need to explore and discover. Highly intelligent, passionate idealists, need more than just ordinary articles and mainstream news. We Gnostics need to roam the infinite realm of ideas and feed our inherent desire to 'rebel.' Thus all articles reproduced on this web site have an aim to present the most exciting variety of articles and reports from many different sources. Often contradictory they should be understood in the sense of 'Unification of Opposites' and the uncensored expression of thoughts, facts and possibilities.
The Gnostic belief is, that this earth is an 'abortion' of the true spiritual idea which should have resulted in an expression of spiritual existence on a spiritual plane, envisioned in Gnostic myth, 'by the true God of Light and Love' who by necessity is Spiritual and thus not able to interfere or even know of the material plane where we find our selves 'exiled' in darkness and bondage to evil forces, so to speak.
Thus, from the perspective of 'enlightened Gnosis,' we can not change the material course of this material realm through material action such as 'revolution' and violence. We can not 'liberate' people from themselves and their own ignorance. We can point in a spiritual direction and gently encourage open-minded search for answers, but we can not force 'Gnosis' or Knowledge on anybody by any means what so ever.
All 'isms,' if based only on material and false spiritual concepts, must fail by necessity and usually end in a massive cataclysm of 'counter-revolution' and immense amounts of blood being spilled. The only true and lasting 'revolution' against the evils of material and thus dualistic existence must come through individuals on an individual basis.
Which means that we as individuals, predisposed to idealistic interpretations of justice on this plane of duality, whom I call 'Gnostics' and 'heretics,' must clearly understand our situation here on earth and fight the 'dragons' and 'devils' in our own psyche and sub-conscious mind without regards for the outcome in the eyes of the world successfully before we should promulgate 'isms' which are only based on emotion, tribalism and inherited traits.
Gnostics must FIRST strive to Liberate themselves before reaching out with true compassion, which can only be found through self-knowledge and self-acceptance, to the masses. Sometimes just hearing the message of the Gnostic world-view can help people find answers to their most confusing questions in terms of the obvious evils of this world and 'why god let these things happen.' Thus they can find not 'pie in the sky,' but genuine answers which not only lead away from 'isms' based on false spiritual concepts (since all material things and ideas are first and foremost expressions of spiritual concepts) but instead, lead them on the path to Gnosis (Knowledge) and possibly Liberation. We must overcome the world not by material and violent 'revolution,' but by genuine Knowledge as to why things are the way they are.
You will find articles here which are highly controversial as well as true to fact and research and you will find other articles which are speculation and meant for you to think on your own and interpret them from the depth of your own understanding. 'Draw your own conclusions' and 'fill in the rest' from your own state of awareness. Anything and everything we as human beings in bondage to this material realm are capable of thinking of, good or evil, is not only a possibility, but has been, most likely, expressed in deeds. Nothing must be taken for granted and nothing must be assumed. First the idea, then the thought and then the action must manifest somehow and somewhere.
Ideas and thoughts travel through the infinite seeming realm of the 'collective human un-conscious' and someone will eventually express these ideas through action. Thus, 'no man is an island' and things happen that we never expected to happen. Revolutions to 'liberate' people come and go and we witness in frustration and horror as these 'liberators' become oppressors. This frustration comes from our ignorance of the spiritual 'facts of life.' Otherwise we would KNOW that all material action on this material plane is by necessity dualistic and eventually self-destructs. Then is it that all material action is doomed to failure in the long run, or end in futility? The answer is, of course, conditional. Because everything begins with the spiritual aspect of 'idea,' it depends on the purity or Knowledge of the originator who with his 'idea' is connected to the outcome as material manifestation. Pure ideas attract pure people who will, through pre-disposition, act on them. Ideas derived from un-enlightened individuals will, by necessity, attract un-enlightened individuals who will feel compelled to manifest them. 'We attract what we are,' or 'it takes one to know one' are sayings which express clearly what I am attempting to express.
Jesus, whether 'archetype' or 'real,' addressed many of the deepest needs of mankind and so did other teachers throughout the course of human existence. Even though the New Testament might be distorted and falsified by the temporary needs of religionists and the Church, its pervading spirit is still there if one is open-mindedly in search of truth and understanding. Jesus' counsel to 'not be part of this world,' and his admonition 'to love one another and to forgive unconditionally,' are the essence of all true Knowledge and must be taken without reservations of any kind.
Meher Baba and countless others taught the same message relentlessly....But people are neither willing nor able to do just that and bury themselves in endless squabbles over 'doctrine' and 'laws.' instead, not understanding that the exaltation of 'law' and 'doctrine' over compassion and love were exactly the things these enlightened masters condemned so vehemently.
Of course all these teachers and masters were Gnostics and heretics to their respective societies and establishments. Jesus said: "Take up your cross and follow me," which means that the path to Gnosis or Enlightenment is not an easy path and that the risk of angering the established 'authorities' might end in physical death...There is no 'New Age' kind of feel-good message here but a sense of resignation to the evil and uncertainty of material existence. But there is a promise instead which means more than all the gold in the world, which is: "That no worldly 'authority' can rob us of our genuine Knowledge or Gnosis." And furthermore, that this enlightened Knowledge will have definite meaning in the spiritual realm and that 'the first shall be the last and the least in this world will be exalted.' This is definitely no 'pie in the sky' promise to ignorant fools, but has been proven through age after age of reports from 'mediums' and people who have returned from 'near death experiences.' Remember: "We draw to us what we are," and we shall attain exactly what we honestly struggled for. Call it 'Karma' or 'pre-destination,' chutzpah or fate, the higher spiritual realm is neither fickle nor can it be deceived. We are our own judged and harsh ones indeed. If push comes to shove, can we honestly say that our motives were always pure and honorable? If not, our material acts and our material hopes are indeed doomed to failure and duality. But, 'if our foundation is in heaven,' is spiritually pure and noble, we shall definitely attain what we struggled for and even risked our lives for.
We might be 'failures' in the eyes of the world as we are not 'competitive' and ruthless enough to succeed within the concepts of worldly success. We might not attract 'beautiful women' or 'handsome men' or even true friends...as there are indeed few who would feel drawn to what we think and desire...But we are in the 'hands' of the true God and the highest and noblest 'angels' are guiding our steps...IF we remain true to our Gnosis and open to their subtle guidance, as "Many are chosen, but few are Elected."
You can meditate all you want and be consciously 'spiritual,' but you will never ever attain Gnosis unless you live life with compassion and unconditional love for all life that is and suffers endlessly on this material realm called Earth. Spiritual pride and false 'enlightenment' are common and will lead to a hard fall. Delusions of 'chosenness' and 'us against them,' are also common and must bring about bloodshed, hatred and nothing but evil.
Pride in one's race, ancestry or heritage are tools of bondage used by hateful 'fallen' spirits as well as establishment rulers to divide and destroy those who might usurp their rulership. In Gnostic cosmology this world is ruled by inferior 'angels' who themselves have fallen because of their pride as well as their imitation of God's idea. The true God knows nothing of this material realm as pure spirit can not comprehend matter. Thus, on this earth, as we as human beings know it, dualism rules mercilessly. Matter can not manifest without the negative, positive and negative together create matter as such. Therefore we have duality, good and evil and all shades in-between.
Can we fight this or even overcome this bondage by relying on material concepts to guide us? Can we expect to find justice or even 'harmony' here? No, but we can grasp true harmony through music such as the Beethoven's ninth symphony or through Mozart and many of the other classical composers. While listening and surrendering to the magic of their music, we can attain a small glimpse of perfection. Good literature, poetry and ballet might do the same...Still, we are in BONDAGE here and better well know it.
Were these inferior 'angels' who created us in reality alien beings who interrupted the course of our gradual evolution and genetically created us 'in their own image'? Many deep thinkers and researchers as well as scientists think so. Does it not all make sense? Gnostic cosmology lends itself clearly to such theories. Perhaps it sounds 'outlandish' to you and even stupid. Study the claims and counter-claims, analyze myths and fairy tales, go 'where no man has gone before' and don't close your mind to the possibilities inherent in this theory. Just read and understand all the material available and consider everything carefully. One book which must be highly recommended is 'The Gods of Eden,' by William Bramley. Others are the many books by Zecharia Sitchin and the articles and books by David Icke. Don't 'blow it off' as 'fantasy' and 'speculation,' before you read what they have to say, you might very well become a 'believer.'
It is my belief that indeed this is what happened and that the ancient Gnostic cosmology is a somewhat concealed account of it. There are too many overwhelming facts which lead me to believe that we are indeed the outcome of a planned genetic manipulation. Are we not 'created' with a slave mentality no matter how 'revolutionary' our dreams might be. Are we not 'product' instead of autonomous individuals with the capability to think clearly and act in accordance with our understanding? Are we not 'bound' by inherited traits and concepts and unable to 'do the good we know we should'? Are we not mostly motivated and driven by genes and hormones confusing sex with love and love with ego-satisfaction? Are we not mostly motivated by our material needs such as possessions, property and the 'satisfaction' we derive from having them? Do we not, more or less, cheat and lie constantly about our true feelings and beliefs? Do we not revel in the 'acclaim' material possession and wealth give? Do we not thrive on lies, hypocrisy and deception. Are we not proud of our 'cleverness' and ability to deceive others as we make our finite path through this life?
We are indeed, made to serve a purpose, slaves, who can be programmed and re-programmed at will by those who know how to do it. Be their tool 'Propaganda', in its many forms or subtle manipulation used by 'intelligence agencies,' we are all just puppets on a string dancing to the tune of whatever master is in charge...Unless we attempt to free our-selves from their iron grip through attainment of Knowledge.
The prisoner, in order to free himself, must first KNOW that he is in prison. Only then can he proceed to work on his Liberation. Gnosticism, the oldest 'heresy' offers this Knowledge and with it also the path to Liberation. But you and I can only follow this path INDIVIDUALLY. No mass-movement, however attractive on the surface, can do this for us. All organized religions, Christianity, Judaism, Islam, Hinduism and even Buddhism are part of the 'game of deception' which is part and parcel of the establishment's rulership. Popes, priests, ministers and apostles are nothing but representatives of the establishment powers. Squabbling amongst themselves over so called 'revelations' and 'points of doctrine,' their 'theology' leads no-where except into return upon death to the 'concentration camp' earth. These figure-heads are intended to mislead your desire for escape from slavery right back into the their cosmic slave-camp. Do you honestly think that God in the immensity and infinity of His beingness would favor certain people and bestow his 'blessings' on them because they can recite the ten commandments or genuflect before a picture of Jesus, Mary or a saint? How could infinitely, infinite Love even contemplate 'chosenness' or restriction of this INFINITE LOVE only to some of His creation? What 'religion' is envisioning and teaching is a limited human slave, elevated to god-hood by his fellow slaves! This false god is a 'jealous' god indeed! And a sadist thriving on man's 'sins' and imperfections... Did he not supposedly 'create' this man, this human, in his image? How then can he condemn him for 'missing the mark'? How could he persecute and punish his creation for his own flaws and failures?
Mankind, at this time, is on the verge of self-destruction or of becoming a Fascist type of government of the 'elite' which in reality is no 'elite' at all, but a cabal made up of corporate and religious conspirators who are part of an self-proclaimed 'elite' heavily involved in cabalistic magick guided by high degree Freemasons, Rosicrucian's and other Occult initiates. These initiates of the 'left hand path,' are sometimes by the uninformed called Gnostics, which is possible since Gnostics come are not a unified group or cult. Gnostics are followers of the 'Path of Knowledge,' where this Knowledge leads them is entirely up to the individuals themselves. Cabala has been a part of Gnosticism and Gnostic philosophy. But that does not mean that true Gnostics would pervert these noble teachings to attain worldly power or possessions. That is why Jesus the Christ is so important. He is the way shower and example of the true Gnostic image of a man, who attained Liberation and became Christ. His example, as far as can be understood and practiced, is of utmost importance to prevent us from getting lost in speculation, ritual and initiations which lead us no-where but to more bondage and eventual disaster.
The Gnostic path is fragile indeed and many who followed it, having attained some deeper understanding and mistaken it for 'enlightenment,' have fallen by the way-side. Pride, spiritual pride and desire for power and wealth are within all of us. If this craving has not been understood and overcome, the 'Gnostic,' no matter how well intentioned, will inevitably fall prey to the 'archons,' the 'powers and principalities' of this material realm and willingly return to abject slavery for promises of power, glory and wealth on this earth. Becoming thus a 'black' magickian, he has signed and sealed his fate in this life-time and most likely many more life-times to come. Actually he has betrayed no one but him-self and it is he him self who must bear the consequences of his 'deal' with the spiritual and material forces of evil.
How easy it is to get lost on the Spiritual path! No one is immune to it and no one is perfect enough to claim complete Liberation on this earth plane. Occult and quasi-Cabalistic rituals and 'initiations,' are extremely dangerous and should be avoided at all cost. The emotional setting opens one up to unknown and often 'hateful' entities who will possess and, if possible, destroy their victim. Whether these evil entities are spiritual beings, demons, or aliens from another dimension is unknown at this point in time. That they exist and are a definite reality and threat to mankind is known and documented by psychic researchers as well as enlightened sages.
Accounts of possession go back to antiquity and have been written about in many cultures throughout the ages. Jesus dealt with them, according to the New Testament and aprocryphal texts, as well as some Gnostic texts, on a frequent basis with clarity and authority. He was neither fooled nor enticed by their worldly promises nor was he afraid of them. For this reason, I believe, he condemned spiritual deceptiveness and secret teachings. It is most likely that he did have a 'secret' gospel, not to be deceptive or ritualistic, but to avoid persecution for as long as possible for his heretical and anti-establishment message. The establishment 'churches' have perverted his simple and direct teachings by twisting his truth, his Gnosis, into a message of submission to 'authority' and tribal rituals glorifying just about everything he taught against. He was an 'outcast' from society and a 'nomad' with no home of his own. Traveling the high-roads of Samaria he identified openly with whores, despised tax-collectors and the poor. He said plainly that 'it was more difficult for a rich man to go to heaven than for a camel to go through the eye of a needle.' In the Gnostic 'Gospel of Thomas,' he said that it is the stone which the builders have rejected which is the 'keystone.' And he also said in the same Gospel of Thomas: ' I have cast fire upon the world, and look, I'm guarding it until it blazes.' These are not the words and intentions of a 'Christian' like Jerry Falwell or Oral Roberts, nor are they the words of Popes, priests and ministers of 'his' church. Jesus is no New Age guru nor would he amount to anything but rejection by today's churches and congregations. He was an outcast and still is an outcast in terms of this world.
He did not preach 'family values' nor did he institute 'sacraments' and bless marriages. Simply put, he was against them because he knew quite well that one's family is insurance to the establishment of obedience for the sake of one's wife and children, inevitable dragging the disciple down to the realm of mundane existence and surrender to the powers which are. Making his point clear when his disciples told him that his mother wanted to see him, he said something to the effect that his followers were his mother and father and that he had no intentions of seeing his mother. 'Family values' indeed, for those with a sense of humor.
Religion is evil because it is a means of enforcing mindless obedience to worldly 'authority,' from its believers. That this 'authority' comes from somewhere else than just the 'church' should be understood clearly. The 'powers and principalities' of this world are well disguised and unknown to most. It is they who 'run' the world through material and 'spiritual' means. They are 'black magickians' with incredible wealth at their disposal. Cunning and worldly 'wise,' they use any and all means possible to attain their agenda. What we see today as the emerging of the New World Order, has been around since the beginning of time. Conditions change, cultures change, religions change, races who dominate the world change. But the secret cabal waiting in the wings never changes. Conspirators may die and new ones are born into the cabal or are recruited through deception, lies and promises of wealth and fame, but their AGENDA never changes as it is passed on carefully from generation to generation.
Having 'infiltrated' every movement or political party, one can find them in government as well as universities as presidents, fuehrers, left radicals, right radicals, pacifists, greens, nazis, communists and monarchists. They are teachers, deans, scientists, intelligence agents and military officers as well as priests, monks, ministers and popes, kings, queens and other 'nobility,' cops, revolutionaries, mercenaries and diplomats. In short, they are to be found everywhere. They have the 'power and the glory' and fear no-one except those above them in the hierarchy of the cabal and Gnostics. True Gnostics that is, who have proven their incorruptibility and spiritual integrity through many temptations by the cabal over many years and possibly over many life-times on earth. Gnostics are so dangerous to them because they are like seeds planted into the realm of the 'collective unconsious.' Just being here and thinking clear and concise thoughts, thoughts born out of Knowledge and Awareness, they threaten the conspirator's agenda more than all the revolutionaries in this world and their 'revolutionary' actions, because the cabal is represented there and controls what is planned and what happens. But true Gnostics....who can control them and pull the strings behind the scene. Since they are not really organized they can not be 'infiltrated' and to control their thoughts is not as simple as the mind-control programs which intelligence agencies use to control 'average' people.
The Gnostic 'Christian Science' movement of Mary Baker Eddy became a threat to them when she formulated and taught her esoteric theories, which happen to be spiritual facts. Especially her concept of "Malicious Animal-Magnetism" and her teachings of how to counter-act its effects, became an immense threat to the cabal as it exposed and counteracted their mind-control practices. Subsequently 'Christian Science' was subverted from within after her death. Now this movement is as dead as a rock and worthless as to it's intent as taught by her. Her teachings were very similar to the pure teachings of Vedanta, except that she, being a practical woman, used Christian terminology to convey her Gnostic message which not only taught theory, but proved, through practical application, that the Truth does heal and does Liberate! Yet, the cabal was not only able to infiltrate this once glorious movement, but to utterly destroy it from within.
Only the individual Gnostic can effectively resist the iron grip of the cabal over everything else and the spiritual evil connected to them.
Thus Jesus said in the Gospel of Thomas:
"The Pharisees and the scribes have taken the keys of Knowledge and hidden them. They themselves have not entered, nor have they allowed to enter those who wish to. You, however, be as wise as serpents and as innocent as doves."
Jesus said, "Blessed are the solitary and elect, for you will find the Kingdom. For you are from it, and to it you will return." Jesus said, "If they say to you, 'Where did you come from?', say to them, 'We came from the light, the place where the light came into being on its own accord and established [itself] and became manifest through their image.' If they say to you, 'Is it you?', say, 'We are its children, we are the elect of the Living Father.' If they ask you, 'What is the sign of your father in you?', say to them, 'It is movement and repose.'"
Thank you for your honest inquiry,
Holger.
Dear Holger,Sorry to hear that you are not doing better than us, I hope everything eventually works out for you financially, as for you wife, I'm sorry to hear she is struggling with cancer.I have lost a family member and a friend's friend to that disease, and the only advice I can give you is to try herbal remedies.Someone I know said that he knew someone who beat cancer in a month by the use of the plant named "Graviola", but then again he's an old Jewish-Buddist pothead, so he may not be the most credible advisor.Anyway leaving on a lighter note, I visited the Aryan Nations website for the first time in over 6 months and was struck to see not only the support of George Carlin (half Jewish comedian), but also a new writer that advocated "Gentle National Socialism".He rejects the racist actions taken by White Supremacists against black people claiming that "a true National Socialist would come to the aid of a poor negro being assaulted by a gang of cowards".The name of this great man is David Matt.I was very surprised and I am very proud of August Kreis for reforming his site even through he is still bigoted when concerning Jews of any kind.I am not a National Socialist writer, I just occasionally write on the subject; but as a writer on National Socialism, I must confess that in many respects David Matt is a better and more improved version of myself, and I am glad to see that August chose him as a representative of his movement's--way of life.It seems as though our thoughts have been traveling through the "information source"--earthly psyche-- and I almost feel guilty because the fact that the leader of Aryan Nations called for a union between colored nationalists, socialists, anarchists and all common enemies of ZOG. Which can make the ADL seem correct when they claim that the "new anti-Semitism"=new evil" resides on the political left and all critics of Israel.Needless to say that I do not believe Aryan Nations has received any response from all those who they have sought to ally with; the fact that they are reaching out to them (leftists)-making it clear that they are capable of such a move and insinuating that they and leftist anti-Zionists are essentially on the same field against a common enemy, united by a common hate for Zionism--and when a more realized hate for Jews, may seem to prove the Jewish paranoid's correct .Well, you know that I know what anti-Semitism really is, and on some level, the paranoia of the ADL is based in a truth, but I believe that in the end truth will win, and in reality the Zionists have done this to themselves and are thus putting all Jews in danger.The only Jews who will be safe will be those who surrender to the rule of the Gentiles--Aryan and non-Aryan.I will always say that we must always tell the truth whether about Arab problems, Zionist crimes, or Anglo-Saxon conspiracy.In the end no one will be able to hide from the truth, and no one will be able to blame anyone or anything but themselves, how ever much they contributed to whatever state of affairs they-(the world) find themselves-(itself) in.So all the blaming will in the end be a waste of breath, whether by brainwashed anti-Semites or the ADL-JDL.The truth is that everyone with eyes to see can see that the Zionist agenda is effecting much of humanity in an unfavorable way, and this revelation does transcend creed, ideology, and political agendas; so the more Jews look to blindly support international Zionism and clamp down on all criticism, the more trouble they will face, this will be the natural reaction to their ways of defending their Global support for Israel.The only thing they can do is either face the music or continue fighting the law.Anyway, do not think I am trying to get my little writing post back, I think I fully understand why you deleted me, and in any case I am just way to pre-occupied to devote myself to something that does not really benefit me, and I would probably come off as too impersonal if we started dealing with each other again.As you know it would be too much trouble for the both of us.So again I thank you for responding to my message and for giving me your support,and since there is no real way we could help each other, I guess this is good bye.If I can find the other herbs that helps beat cancer I will let you know.Good luck with everything.Peace, love and hope from your friends and sympathizers in New York:Aaron and ......
You are a great soul and I
knew that from the beginning of our correspondence.
And I did see great potential in your views about Judaism and National Socialism
- My dear friend Aaron,
- your letter has touched me deeply, almost to
tears!
Thank you for your kind words in regards to my wife's suffering. You are a great soul and I knew that from the beginning of our correspondence. And I did see great potential in your views about Judaism and National Socialism... Also I saw even more, that you could become a great author one day. You know, it actually "broke my heart" to "cancel" your contributions to my web site. But I felt that you just weren't ready for such a confusing and deep subject... Otherwise, we both would become the laughingstock of our "enemies", of which there, due to the subject matter, would be many. You see, when you write about such controversial material, you need to be in complete control of your facts and figures, so to speak. And although I knew exactly where you were going with your writing, because we are in sync, others, the readers of your material, would not....And they would tear us both apart! So I felt it important to tell you how I saw it, in all it's brutal honesty, and I knew it would hurt you to the core. But, please do understand, that it hurt me just as much, if not more though.
You see, I love you like a son and a dear friend, because I see myself, in my younger years, in you... And I love the Jewish people, their spirited and rebellious attitude more than I can tell you here... No, I don't like what they did in history and to the German people with their, what I perceive as, lies and manipulations... Not coming from individual Jews...just as the misdeeds of National Socialism didn't come from the "German people" but from an organization gone wild with lies and accusations... And I would love nothing more then to see a true bond formed between the Jewish people and the German people. A bond though based on true understanding and true appreciation of their historic mission for a better world. A bond which must rest on Truth and admission of the true facts and not on hypocrisy and government enforced Lies....
Both peoples have so much in common and both peoples are so creative and passionate...
I believe that the wedge of false testimony and lies about the historical facts, has been purposefully driven between our people in order to create this monster called the "New World Order" by the agents of a false Judaism, the Rothschild's and their minions in so called Jewish organizations everywhere... And it is THAT more than anything else, which I want to demonstrate on my web site... Never would I claim to have the complete truth, that would be ludicrous, but I KNOW that the ideals of National Socialism were not what historians, under Jewish control, try to make us believe... And I also KNOW that a true and heartfelt "reconciliation" between these two great peoples is more than necessary if we want to be able to fight off the looming New World Order, which eventually would show its true face and thus make Jews and Germans and the rest of humanity aware WHO THE REAL ENEMY OF BOTH is....
We, Germans and Jews and all the rest of mankind, are just pawns in a game of ultimate POWER AND DOMINION over all mankind and the artificially created wedge between its most talented and creative peoples, the Germans and the Jews, served neither of them but only those conspirators who want them BOTH destroyed. Why? Because there is no room for creative and intelligent people in the New World Order once it is established upon this suffering planet! They need born slaves, sluggish, materialistic and stupid people to believe their doubletalk propaganda and are thus no threat to their dictatorship... And it is my opinion that if Jews and Germans don't reconcile on an honest, historically TRUTHFUL, basis, the Jewish people, more than anybody else, will have a rude awakening when "their" NEW WORLD ORDER.... as they might perceive it at the moment with all positions covered, in Press, Publishing, Politics, Movies, and Television, shows its true face and turns out to be their greatest enemy and persecutor. Then the "Holocaust" will be much more than they ever imagined....
Right now, the New World Order looks to be a Jewish creation and a Jewish dream come true. But I believe strongly that this is only a "planned deception" coming from the real cabal, still hidden in obscurity, but with all power already in their hands... And there might be many deluded Jews involved in it, and many Gentiles... but neither has any interest in their people as they actually see them as a great danger to their ultimate goal, which is the enslavement and downgrading off all humanity. It will turn out that in the often quoted words from some Jewish texts, "The best Gentiles must be destroyed", will, in its brutal meaning, INCLUDE the Jews as Gentiles in the New World Order!!!! - So YOU, dear Aaron were my link to the true and noble Jewish people, and you still are. For I know exactly how you feel and what you wanted to convey in your writings. And, again, I must tell you how much it broke my heart to tell you that I couldn't publish your articles! All I wanted for you to attain a deeper and more historically "seasoned" insight FIRST and then set out to write your material. And I know, from your letter, that you, deep down, understood. Which only shows me what a great soul you really are! Please be careful though and don't fall in with the "wrong" crowd. Stay independent and do your research. Some of these groups and web sites are fake and would lead you into an intellectual abyss, if you are not careful. This whole "conspiracy field" is what I call "a chapel perilous" and is thus to be entered only by the "purified" and weary... You, being a born Gnostic, are "on fire" with idealism and an extraordinary will to action... and are thus in great danger to be misled or misused. Tread cautiously, my friend, and don't surrender your beautiful spirit and inner fire to a group of misfits and pretenders... Remain independent and thus FREE...
- I don't know this David Matt, you mentioned, but could it be "David Myatt"? I have many of his articles on my web site and think of him highly. But I must also caution you about him. He is a deep and superb thinker, but his actions, sometimes, I don't understand. Like his involvement with Satanism and his eventual "conversion" to Islam... Yes, he is definitely a born Gnostic blessed with a great intellect and insight...and yet, he has also a very "checkered" history which I find quite worrisome... So, again, don't surrender to somebody else's ideas and journey... as you are so unique and so driven that you can be inspired and appreciate the nuances of his journey while you surely can see that he is not always right nor inspired but noble ideas...
- Aaron, please be sure that you remember always that I am your friend and that I want to help you to the best of my abilities. And I am deeply sorry that I can not be of more material benefit to you at the moment. Please do stay in contact and let me know, once in a while, when you have the time and inclination, about your journey... I am truly interested... and will publish your material anytime if it is "right" for my web site. I do love you like my own son, and mean what I say!
- Your friend and comrade,
Holger.
Two Letters From David:
There
is no doubt in my mind that the WTC towers were brought down by explosives,
and that it is the N.W.O. elite who orchestrated it...
Dear Jerry,
Words can't describe the magnificence and the spectacular beauty that is Glen Canyon, the Glen Canyon Dam and The Grand Canyon!!! Especially from an airplane!!! What an awesome sight they all are!
For once I am at a loss for words! Words can't adequately convey what I saw on my little 4 day adventure. Like you, I also love the desert for the incredible natural beauty, but in my entire life I've never seen such incredible desert scenery as that found in Arizona.
Our trip started out early Friday morning. We prepared and loaded the plane and then left Santa Paula Airport around 10:00 am. After flying a little more than an hour, we finally caught a glimpse of the Northern-most part of the Grand Canyon! This was the first time I had seen it in real-life, and to see it from the air was quite a privilege! The canyons, and cliffs are even more vast than I ever imagined, unbelievably gargantuan, on a scale all its own. There was no end in sight to this colossal jagged scar that has been carved into the Earth over the many eons. It is absolutely breathtaking Jer, I highly recommend you go there if you haven't already done so, you'll think you've died and gone to heaven!
Next we came to Glen Canyon and it's Dam. This too is a wonder to behold, but on a less gargantuan scale than the Grand Canyon, but NO less astonishing a sight. Glen Canyon, like its big brother (Grand Canyon) cuts a jagged, zig-zag trench in the earth that must be 500 ft deep in some places! and at the bottom is a river of crystal clear, ice cold water, which looks greenish-blue from the air, because of all the moss at the bottom. An oasis in the desert it is.
About this time is when we started our descent to the landing strip, I say landing strip because it wasn't an airport at all, just a very rough strip of asphalt and gravel! No air traffic tower, no security, no baggage claim, NO anything, except for the landing strip, and old Gerald the drunk to meet and greet us!
So as we made our descent to land there were cliff walls we flew past that were higher than our altitude! some must have been over 1,000 ft high. Unbelievable! Now these weren't mountain's mind you these were vertical walls of rock that dropped off from a flat plateau, and scattered all over the base of the cliffs were gigantic boulders, and rocks which fall from the cliffs from time to time, and other places had mountains of sand and gravel that gets washed down by the rain and accumulates at the base of the cliffs. This has been going on for thousands, even millions of years, and has created a landscape that seems other-worldly, a place that time has forgotten, and just incredibly beautiful, God what a place!
So we landed safely, met up with my dad and bro, and left for our lodge. We weren't in the city either, the lodge sits beneath some relatively small cliffs, probably just over 200 ft high or so, but still huge. We rented a pretty big house that easily accommodated our group of 7 people. A short distance from the house we rented there's a fly-fishing/convenience store, a little cafe and a short row of bungalows behind which sit 10 mobile-homes where the lodge workers and river guides live, and that's all that was near us.
As we settled in we began to hear thunder in the distance, a few of us went outside on the back patio and were treated to one of the most spectacular lightning and thunder shows I have ever witnessed! Fabulous arcs of electricity ripping across the sky lighting up everything, with the thunder crashing and echoing off the walls of the cliffs, up and down the entire valley, what a rare treat for us Californians who rarely see & hear electric storms of such magnitude! All of this, and only the first day of our trip too! That night (and all other nights) we cooked dinner at our rented house since my dad and bro brought all the food, and beer and alcohol, we spared no expense and had a ton of food left over too, we really went all out.
Saturday morning we all got ready and headed out for the river, we rented 2 flat-bottom aluminum boats to get us up and down the 5 mile stretch of water we would be fishing on. By the time we got both boats in the water and everyone ready, it was almost 10:00 am, and the best fishing had past, but the sight seeing had only begun. As we motored up river, it didn't take long for us to enter the canyon. The river never gets more than 100 yards or so across, and its maybe 20 ft at its deepest in a few areas, but the cliff walls on both sides have got to be at least 500 ft straight up on both sides, they are enormous, and mind boggling in their size, I could only stare in wonder and amazement as we rounded each bend not knowing what awaited with every turn. I forgot about the fly-fishing till we stopped at a spot where the fishing looked good. My brother had been there before and went with a river guide who knew all of the best spots to fish, we all hoped that he remembered the good spots! Now I don't know if you've ever been fly fishing before, but it really is quite an art, and for me being that it was my first time, it got to be frustrating at times, because as a beginner you spend more time preparing and UNTANGLING fishing line than actually fishing!!!
O.K. its like this, you have a 7-9 ft pole with a "fly-reel". on the reel there is "backing" which is a thick plastic line approx. 50-70 ft long, close to the diameter of a piece of spaghetti or angel hair pasta. attached to this is the "leader" & "tippet" which is tapered from the size of really thick fishing line down to the thickness of one of your hairs to which you attach various "flies". Now to get the "fly" cast, you have to flick the rod back and forth overhead to the "10 o'clock & 2 o'clock" positions, which is easier said than done! Back and forth, back and forth all the while letting out more line with one hand, while the other hand flicks the rod. If not done right it doesn't take too many flicks before the line is tangled beyond all recognition at which time you either cut it loose and retie another "leader, tippet & fly" or attempt to untangle it by hand, either way you're looking at 10-15 minutes.
If done properly the fly falls gently on the surface of the water and floats downstream with the current, and at some point in time a fish snaps it up (rainbow trout). If you're able to "set" the hook before the fish spits the artificial fly out, you must carefully pull the fish in before it can shake itself loose, because the hooks you use -by law- can't have any "barbs" to keep them set in the fishes mouth. This makes it quite a challenge really, and I only caught one lousy trout!!! Oh well I don't like killing the fish anyhow, and the other guys got enough for us to eat each night, that combined with all the other food my dad and bro brought ensured we wouldn't starve. Let me just say that fresh cooked rainbow trout has got to be one of the best tasting fish there is!!! MMMMMMMMMMMM GOOOOOOOOOOOD!
So there you have it, 2 days of fishing and sightseeing and 3 nights of eating, drinking , telling stories, reminiscing, joking, "trash talking", stargazing, and having a good time! What a place Jer!
Now since I don't have a digital camera I can't send you any pic's just yet, I took a lot with my bro's camera and knowing him, it will be a while before I see any of them, so I bought some postcards of the dam and surrounding area that I've sent with this email, enjoy them, and I'll send more pic's as soon as I get them.
Well once again Its way past my bedtime so I must say good-bye for now my reisekamerad, you do your best to take care of yourself and your wife. My thoughts and prayers are always with you,
Your gnostic brother, Skip
On 8/30/06, David D...... <> wrote:Dear Jerry,
I can see you've been busy with your work on GLF! Outstanding!
I've been reading your material from/about Chris Bollyn! Just when I thought I had heard it all when it came to theories flying around about 9-11! I never heard that the WTC towers had to be deconstructed due to "galvanic corrosion" Since I work with Aluminum and steel on a daily basis I will be checking into this.There is no doubt in my mind that the WTC towers were brought down by explosives, and that it is the N.W.O. elite who orchestrated it.
I saw The best scientific evidence for this on the website/dvd video Reopen911.org
Science and the laws of physics do not lie!!!
FACT: The laws of physics say that if an object is thrown off the top of a 110 story building, like the World Trade Center for example, it will hit the ground in approximately 9 seconds, IF and only if its fall is NOT IMPEDED BY ANYTHING on its way down. ( Read that again.)
FACT: Both World Trade Center Towers, #1 & #2 fell in approximately 9 SECONDS.
QUESTION: HOW CAN A 110 STORY BUILDING COLLAPSE PERFECTLY DOWN, UPON ITSELF, IN ONLY 9 SECONDS??? IT CAN'T, ITS IMPOSSIBLE -PERIOD!
(WITHOUT EXPLOSIVES, THAT IS.)
EVEN IF IT TOOK ONLY 1/2 OF A SECOND FOR EACH FLOOR TO COLLAPSE ON ONE ANOTHER STARTING AT THE 50TH FLOOR, IT WOULD TAKE A BUILDING AT LEAST 25 SECONDS TO FALL, NOT 9 SECONDS! A NINE SECOND FALL MEANS THAT EXPLOSIVES WERE USED TO BRING DOWN THE 3 BUILDINGS! YES 3!
In case you didn't know W.T.C. building #7 also completely collapsed in upon itself even though it suffered minimal damage from the collapse of the other 2 towers, and only had minor fires burning in it throughout the day.
To this day the government can't explain why W.T.C. building #7 collapsed !!!
In my opinion there are many connections to Israel, Zionists, and those who claim to be Jews but are not really Jews but are the synagogue of Satan, just like it says in the Book of Revelations! Its completely obvious that the "terrorists" who were set up for this crime are not the ones who are guilty. I read everything I can about 9-11, everything from ALL sides, when one does this it becomes so blatantly obvious that there is a massive cover-up still at work today, the propaganda machine is running scared and they keep getting sloppier and sloppier!
The truth can't be hidden forever! And it is a tragedy what happened to Mr. Bollyn! Remember when I said writers who tell the truth don't write too long!!! People are being harassed, beaten and Jailed for telling the truth and for THOUGHT CRIMES!
When laws are made to uphold a certain point of view, I hear alarms, bells and whistles blowing-up in my head!!! Because a wise man once said.."The truth needs no laws to defend it, it stands on its own."
" Lies and falsehood dread an investigation, the Truth demands one."Oh, that reminds me of a premonition I had a few days before 9-11!O.K. now since my birthday is sept. 11th I usually celebrate it by spending time with my family out in Las Vegas. Driving out there takes us between 5-6 hours depending on traffic, the distance is just over 300 miles, while flying there takes less than an hour.
Well, a couple of weeks before my 30th B-day in 2001 my mom figured she would buy plane tickets for my wife and I to fly out there, since my uncle worked for United Airline we got tickets really cheap, she told me to call my uncle to figure out which flight I wanted. I'm not a jet-setter,I've only flown commercial 10 times or so, and I'm not at all afraid to fly, however when my mom suggested that we fly out there, a feeling of apprehension immediately hit me, and for some reason flying didn't seem/feel to be the right way to travel, something just "felt" wrong with the idea, I can't explain it, I just got a very real feeling that flying anywhere on my birthday was a bad idea, My inner voice was screaming to me as loud as it could " Don't fly... DON'T FLY!"
But what could I do? My wife wanted to fly, what was I gonna tell her?
"Hey I'm psychic and I don't think we should fly." ??? I kept dismissing my premonitions as nonsense coming from an overactive imagination and a few days before we were to to leave on our trip I telephoned my Uncle to see what time and day we could get tickets. Since my birthday fell on a tuesday that year, we would be celebrating it the weekend before that so we decided to fly out there on Friday 9-7-01 and return the following Monday 9-10-01. My uncle said there were 2 flights open on fri. night if we wanted them. I dared not pick which one to take, for my choice would surely doom April and I, so I half-jokingly said to my Uncle Jim,
"I'm having kind of a bad premonition about flying this weekend, which one sounds good to you, which one would you take?" After the decision was made we sort of laughed at my paranoia, and he assured me that it is so rare for something to go wrong, and that I shouldn't worry. But my feelings didn't go away. I spent most of the time leading up to our flight envisioning different ways that the plane was going to crash...perhaps during take off, maybe on approach to land, or would we go down in the ocean, the lake, or the mountains? A flock of birds clogging-up the engines? Hydraulic failure? cabin decompression? TERRORISTS???
Yes I do have a colorful imagination sometimes, but this time felt different! All I knew is that we were going to have to survive 2 take-offs and 2 landings! I would not rest easy until we landed safely back in L.A. and we were OFF the plane!
Friday 9-7-01 had arrived, and as we drove to the airport the butterflies in my stomach were swarming in masses, "You shouldn't do this!" I kept saying to myself over and over in my head. But I said nothing to April, I didn't want to scare her, and she would just laugh it off, like I kept trying to do. We arrived at the airport, we checked-in, we waited...we boarded...we sat, and as I peered out the window, I was relieved to see that our seats were forward of the wings, which meant that in the event of a crash on the ground, I wouldn't be sitting in the path of the fireball that would erupt from the wings on impact, NICE! I told this to April, and this is when she sensed my uneasiness. Nothing to fear we assured each other as the plane took-off, and I had a beer to help ease my nerves a little during the flight. After about 45 min or so the pilot announced we would be descending shortly, fasten your seat belts BLA-BLA-BLA, "Just land this dam plane safely!" I thought to myself.
After our successful landing I was only slightly relieved because there was still the trip back home to survive! The flight there was uneventful, maybe this was all my own paranoid little delusion.
As always, the time flies by so fast when were out in Vegas the weekend and the celebrating was over before we knew it, For my 30th b-day April, and my parents bought me a "Racing School Package" at the Lav Vegas Super speedway driving NASCAR style stock-cars! I got to drive 18 laps in a car with 650 H.P.! But that's another story! After all was said and done, the weekend was fantastic. However the ride to the airport at 6:00 A.M. monday morning was very depressing. Every time I leave my family a wave of depression crashes on me, and there's no surfing out of it! So we said our good-byes and then we got on the plane, I was SO anxious as we waited, and during the flight, and during the landing, which was executed perfectly by the pilot.
I made it! I survived! So much for my keen intuition I thought! Then I began to beat up on my little voice inside! "Thanks for getting me all freaked out over nothing, I'll never listen to YOU [my intuition] again!"
Monday 9-10-01 leaving the airport, I was not looking forward to the drive home, because the freeways in L.A. are never free of congestion, especially on Monday, during 9:00 am rush-hour madness! But this Monday was different! Imagine our surprise and relief when we were able to drive from L.A.X. intl' airport to our home some 70 miles away, and NOT HIT ANY TRAFFIC?????
In fact, I distinctly remember the freeway traffic had NEVER been lighter than it was on this morning, April and I even talked about it while we drove home, where are all the cars? we kept saying to each other! I've driven to and from L.A.X. and the L.A. area more times than I can possibly recall throughout my life, but I can say, without doubt that on Monday 9-10-01 there must have been a record set for fewest cars on the 101 Freeway in L.A. -EVER! Was today some holiday that we forgot about? It was surreal driving home that day, not getting caught in L.A. in stop-and-go traffic!!! To further emphasize how rare this lack of traffic congestion is in L.A. I invite you to ask anyone in southern Cal. if it is possible to leave L.A.X. on a monday morning at 9 o'clock and not hit any stop-and-go traffic on the infamous "101", "10", and "5" freeways, I guarantee they will say hell no 100% of the time, without hesitation. It isn't a matter of maybe we won't hit traffic, when driving to and from L.A. you WILL HIT STOP-AND-GO TRAFFIC. Unless it is between 2-4 am! But on monday morning 9-10-01,
I, David Arthur Davison drove from L.A.X. to my house without hitting any stop-and-go traffic, cross my heart, and hope to die. I'll never forget that drive!
Most unusual, but WHY, WHY, WHY???
Now imagine the shock I experienced on the morning of 9-11-01 when I heard the news, and realized my intuition WAS right, it was at this point I began to really start questioning traditional beliefs of mine which led me to the quest of quests.
Gnosis!
And my intuition re: AAron W. told me that there were definitely 2 people involved in "his" writings, not to mention he only answered ONE of the questions I had for him, which had nothing to do with him personally. What I still want to knew is where he gets all of this Info? Give me SOURCES! I agree with you on him(s).
Something doesn't "feel" right to me, "My spider sense is tingling" As Spider-man would say!
Oh, speaking of sources, that reminds me, the article I questioned you about in a previous email http://www.gnosticliberationfront.com/you_are_all_slaves.htm
I've been to the website that the article gives... http://www.indybay.org/news/2005/12/1792167.php
However, what I'd like to know now is how it found its way onto GLF?
Did someone send it to you? If so do, you remember who? When?
Or did you find it yourself? If so, do you remember how you came across it? Or what lead you to it? Do any of your other Comrades know anything about this topic? Please Jer, I need to know everything you can remember about the origins of that article, for my ongoing investigation of the Law. It is VERY important to me.
But , enough of all the heavy talk, I want to apologize for not finishing this letter sooner, but I knew it was going to be a lengthy one, and I've had little free time.
Also, the "end of summer scramble" to enjoy the last few weeks of perfect weather in So. Cal. is coming to a close, so this Friday, I am going on a fly-fishing trip with my dad & younger bro. and some of my younger bro's friends and family. We'll be on the Colorado river in southern Utah, near the dam that contains Lake Powell. (Lake Powell is in Arizona, and it is HUGE).
Just the "boys" on this trip Jer, and I'm really looking forward to it. My brother's friend's cousin is a pilot and has his own little plane so he is flying part of our group out there, I'm included in that group, and my bro and dad are going to drive there from Vegas to meet up with us at the river. I'll send you some pic's and tell you all about it when I get back. I Wish you could be there with us! do you fish?
(By the way I'm not having any premonitions about flying this weekend!)
Another thing keeping me busy is the Hummingbirds! they empty the feeders faster than I can fill 'em almost, and I've been burnin' through the "Nectar" in the past 10 days I've gone through 6 GALLONS of sugar water! and just made another 3 gallon batch today, which will last about 5 days! (mix ratio= 4-parts water/ 1-part sugar)
(3 gal batch approx 5 lbs of sugar) Yes, they have indeed returned in full-force, but haven't pet ant since last year! And I lost one to the Dewi demon Cat! Little bastard! I saw him snag a little baby hummer that was buzzin too low in the flowers, oblivious and unaware of the dangers that awaited it if he/she flew too close to the deck! I just happened to see this occur from the kitchen window when I was doing the dishes one afternoon last week. As fast as I could, I ran out to try to stop Dewi's instinctual assault on one of MY HUMMERS! but he ran away with the little bird in his mouth, and I couldn't see its head either, by then I pretty much knew that the hummer was a gonner, but I couldn't let Dewi tear it to pieces! So again I gave chase and When I caught Dewi to assess the hummer, I found cat jaws clamped tightly shut on a hummer's neck, and when I went for the bird Dewi cave me a low snarl, the equivalent of a dog growling if you tried to take away its bone. This was the proverbial straw that broke this camel's back, and with an open palm to the top of a furry little head, the little hummer flew for the last time, LOL!
Poor little thing, this is only the second or third time I've found a dead hummmer, and it is the only one I've got to see relatively intact, so I got a chance to study it a little. They really are an amazing little bird, perfectly designed to do what they do, a perfect flying/flower sucking machine! They never cease to amaze me, I'll never tire of watching them.
Anyway, anything new and exciting to tell me? I'm still anticipating the release of the rest of uncle Ali's knowledge that you spoke of in your "Gnostic Childhood".
I dare not enquire about your wife, but know that I think about her when I write you, and pray for you both. As always, take care my reisekamerad, your brother in time and spirit,
Skip
p.s. What do you think about David Ike's and other's theories about "reptilians" who can move in and out of our "universe", time travel, and are the guardians of our prison planet, they are the 4th density "predators" who manipulate us and world events in order to harvest our negative energy produced from war and suffering, in a nutshell.
First Letter From Michael:
Saturday, October 7, 2006 7:49 AM
Letter from Holger to Michael:
Theosophy, Alice Bailey, My Time in the Army
Dear Michael,
thank you so very much for your interesting letter! We, indeed, have a lot in common and I am so sad and angry that my first and truly inspired letter to you got lost in "cyberspace". You surely understand that one sometimes after reading a letter or book feels very inspired to respond in the moment of clear thought and driven purpose...The momentum there and words flow of almost incredible super-natural ease. What can I say? I spent almost four hours of uninterrupted typing (and I type pretty well using all ten fingers) lost at the click of a button!!! I still can't believe that this could happen, but it did. And I did write to "hotmail" and received a response within 24 hours...which in itself seems almost "miraculous" in today's computer world. They told me that it must have been a "browser glitch" and advised me to, while writing, save text every once in a while to the "draft" file... Or, to write in "notebook" and transfer it when finished to the letter as then I have it on file and can send another letter. Well, this doesn't get me my letter back and you will never get to read it. Nevertheless, I am writing this on my web site program "Front Page" and will copy it to the e-mail letter when finished. This I have done before but I was just so inspired by your letter that I just responded immediately and didn't think that there could possibly be a problem.
So here we are again trying to write effectively, but today I woke up with
a massive headache which happens to me every time the weather changes
(Sinus). I took my 12 hour "Sudafed" and two "Tylenol" and hope that it
will go away. Needless to say that I feel sluggish and the words just
don't seem to want to flow.... So please bear with me as I try to
recapture in my mind and on the computer screen what came so easy
yesterday.
Theo, you are so correct in stating that most Germans are "...........".
God, we grew up steeped in Greek Mythology with the Greek pantheon of
Gods everywhere! Our history teachers in school were literally "glowing"
when talking of Greek history. Athens and Sparta, the Acropolis, and
naturally the influence of ancient Greece on German romanticism...Novalis,
Goethe, Schiller, Heinrich Schliemann the obsessed, compulsive
Archeologist...Stefan George and his "ring", even Hitler, Rosenberg and
Hess were literally obsessed with Plato, Aristotle and the severe
lessons of Sparta. Yes, yes, yes, we Germans are obsessed with Greece
and the "Aryan Path", although the latter was taken from Madame Blavatsky's
writings and is not "Politically Correct" anymore.... Too bad that people
are so easily brain washed and manipulated by Jewish Zionism! Because it
is THEY who are behind all this nonsense in order to literally "destroy
the BEST" in order to establish their Zionist dominance of the world.
And they did succeed, didn't they? With America as their arm and face, they have by now almost the whole world under their control. With holocaust museums (I call them temples) as focal point and worship center for the ignorant and believing masses. God, people are so stupid and unwilling to open their eyes, to AWAKEN and really SEE what is going on!
Michael, as you could probably glean from my web site and articles, I have always been a rebel with a cause. I am somewhat "psychic", and I can "smell a rat" from a mile away, so to speak. This can be a blessing and a curse, because it has made me perhaps far to outspoken and angered by other people's inability to see what I see....I just can simply not fathom why others can't understand what seems so OBVIOUS to me. Even my wife and children don't get it and think that I am far above their heads... And I don't think that it is at all complicated or visionary to perceive what is going on not only in this country but in the whole world. It baffles me and frustrates me to no end.
Some people think that
I'm some kind of querulous prick who criticizes everything just
"because"...for no good reason whatsoever.
I can very well understand that
you broke contact with former "friends" who probably made you feel the
same way as I described my situation. I remember that when my wife and I
saw what happened on 911, "live" on television, I said to her that this
had to be an inside job. She wouldn't believe me and called me
"paranoid". Well, you can see today that this awareness isn't all that
unusual anymore.
I still have the old articles on the internet at the
time on my web site which were written by people of the same mind-set as
myself. Yeah, I'm paranoid alright and so should everybody else be!
Michael, I came to the US in 1963 and was drafted into the US Army in February 1964. Before being drafted I knew with my classification being 1A, that the draft wasn't far away and so I took the Navy test at the Bridgeport, CT train station and was subsequently accepted as a "Medic" (I asked for that field). When I went for my "physical" at the New Haven, CT induction center in November 1963 one of the Navy medics there took me aside and told me to reconsider because, he said, "the war in Vietnam, of which I hadn't even heard then, was escalating and as a Navy medic I would be attached to the US Marines and most likely sent there as a Marine medic". He said that I stood a good chance to be killed there as medics were more than vulnerable. I thanked him and still, to this day, can't believe that this medic Sgt. risked his job and probably more telling me the truth. He must have been an angel in disguise and probably saved my life...because after the physical I wrote a letter to the Navy telling them that I had changed my mind and would wait until I was drafted in the Army to serve. You see, I hadn't been sworn in yet and thus could still withdraw. Whoever this medic was, he is probably in his mid-seventies now or he died in the Vietnam war, I would want to tell him how thankful I am that he did this for me! Great souls are everywhere and miracles do happen...It is people with this kind of courage, honor and concern for others who can also change the course of history!
Of course it didn't take long for me to get my draft notice in the mail.
On February 15th, I think, I had to go to New Haven again to be inducted
into the army and was sent with a whole bunch of others, by train, to
Fort Jackson, South Carolina and from there, for basic training, to Fort Gordon,
Georgia. My English wasn't exactly good in those days and I
had a hell of a time trying to comprehend what the drill sergeants where
screaming at us. Fortunately we had a Puerto Rican drill sergeant who
had been stationed in Berlin, Germany for more than three years and who
had enjoyed German hospitality and especially the "Frauleins" there. He
called me his little "Dutch boy" and helped me to get through the whole
mess without too much abuse and suffering.
Another angel in disguise,
indeed! Then I went to Fort Leonard Wood in Missouri for "AIT" (advanced
infantry training) and after 8 weeks there, I was sent to be attached to
a National Guard training unit at Fort Knox, Kentucky. There I had a
Polish Sgt. Major and a Lieutenant who took a strong liking to me and
told me various time, after inspections, that I stood the best
inspections they had ever seen. I guess we Germans are natural soldiers
and it must be in my blood :)! The Lieutenant wanted to send me to
"Officers school" but I didn't feel qualified, mainly because of my
still limited English and small physical appearance, for such an
"honor".
Vietnam was still just a far away place and not much more, at that time. I remember that we had a company clerk named Donald Metz, who became a good buddy with whom I had many long conversations and discussions about politics and life in general. He was from Chicago. One day we were talking about Hitler and concentration camps and I told him frankly what I thought about the whole matter... I remember him turning toward me while we were walking in Fort Knox, and saying to me: "Do you know that I'm Jewish"? I told him that I hadn't known that but that that wouldn't make any difference to me anyways and that I was just telling him of what I knew and also had read. He just smiled at me, since he was a splendid, honorable fellow, and put his arm around my shoulder with the words, which I shall never forget, "I appreciate your honesty." And he indeed did, as he never held anything I said against me and we remained friends for the rest of my time at Fort Knox.
Then in 1965 I received orders to
go to Tappan, NY for training with Nike Hercules missiles. I was happy
because I was sick of Fort Knox, the Dixie Highway (going to Louisville)
and Louisville itself... God, I spent so many nights at the Louisville
YMCA just to get away from post. One time in Louisville, I went into my
favorite book and magazine store downtown and saw a magazine there
called "The Aryan Path"....intrigued I opened it and I discovered that
it was published by the Theosophical Society. Imagine a magazine today
named "Aryan Path"! But then it was just normal.
This peaked my interest
again in Theosophy. If you read my "Gnostic Childhood" you will probably
remember that as a teenager I had owned a book from the
Theosophical Society in Great Britain specifically issued for German
prisoners of war and that it was this book which had led me to my first
deeply mystical experience where with the music of Beethoven's 9th, I
found myself at a beach, looking at what seemed to be a "protoplasm"
with a voice telling me that that was me and that I was a "Baustein"
(literally translated: building stone)....
Anyways, I bought the magazine and Blavatsky's "Isis Unveiled" in two volumes and got ready to return to the New York metropolitan area... A friend from Connecticut, John Kilpatrick, whom I used to call "uncle John", came by car to pick me up at Fort Knox and we drove leisurely through West Virginia, Virginia, Washington D.C., Delaware, New Jersey, New York to Connecticut where I stayed with friends who had worked with me at Fairfield State Hospital in CT. I had three weeks vacation from the Army and I felt like I could set the world on fire...
Reporting to a very small missile post in Tappan close to the Tappan Zee
bridge and the George Washington bridge, I was asked if I would like to
become a General's orderly with the army designation of "steward". The
Brigadier General who had asked for me was stationed at Ft. Hancock, NJ which was located on the
tip of "Sandy Hook State Park", a peninsula reaching into the Atlantic
ocean in New Jersey....close to Asbury Park and Fort Monmouth. The
General as our commanding General had seen my orders and papers and
probably due to the glowing reports of the Sgt. Major and Lieutenant in
Fort Knox, had taken an interest in me and wanted to interview me for
the job.
I was intrigued, as I had never dealt with such an "exalted" being as a General was to me, and after a short moment of thought, I said "sure". And that's how I came to be a "respected" member of the General's household. Both, the General and his wife were wonderful human beings. No pretense, and no false "nobility", just regular people in an extraordinary job.
Living on the third floor of his old and regal house located on post, I did everything: cooking, (although I had to use the immense collection of cook books belonging to his wife, as I knew very little about it), serving, with jacket and bow tie,....answering the phone, coordinating appointments and last but not least, "confidant" to his wife. I didn't have to drive since he had a driver and I didn't have a driver's license then. All personnel on post "shunned" and "respected" me because of my closeness to the General....from Privates to Colonels. I felt like the "king on the hill" so to speak and it was indeed a "heady" situation for a 24 year old immigrant from Germany.
Of course, the General and his wife had been stationed in Heidelberg, Germany and were thus very much in love with my home country. Which, naturally, made my job much easier too. The General's wife and I used to have long conversations while smoking and listening to WQXR's classical music... She was very "religious" of the Southern Christian kind and I, at the time, subscribed to the home study course from AMORC (Rosicrucian's)...This made for some heady debates as she thought of them as evil and "occultic". Both of them, the General and his wife weren't happy with me getting and reading Rosicrucian material. Since they meant well from their own perspective and upbringing, I wasn't angry, disturber, or worried.
One day, while both were on a trip to some Army conference, I was "lounging" in the large parlor room which also served as "ballroom" for receptions watching television re-runs in the morning, when suddenly a transparent looking woman came floating out of the wall on my left, floated about ten inches above the ground through the entire length of the room, to just as suddenly disappear through the wall on my right. Stunned, but not frightened, I couldn't believe what had just transpired! Now, I had seen visions of people before and experienced poltergeist activity as a young child in Erkner (Gnostic Childhood) but had never, ever seen anything like this, in daylight non the less. The woman who floated so peacefully through the room, seemed to have been totally unaware of my presence and of her surroundings, she was just "blissfully" floating through the room without noticing anything. Needless to say that from this moment onward I became very "cautious", especially at night when the General's Siamese cat used to run up and down the large stairway howling like a baby...The whole place became scary to me, like a "Halloween" fear house for children. As much as I used to like it when the General and his wife went on trips and I could relax and take it easy, I now dreaded those time of me being all alone in this huge house.
Well, enough reminiscing. I was discharged from the Army in February 1967
and not too early as the Vietnam war was getting "hot" and I feared the
the General would have to go to Vietnam and I would have to accompany
him as his "orderly".
I went back to work at Fairfield State (later
Hills) Hospital in Newtown, CT and that is worth a whole new letter, if
you are interested. Throughout my whole life I always felt that there
was "someone" looking out for me. Especially since I am an idealist and
care little for money or possessions....except when things get too
tight, then I feel distressed and accusatory towards myself for not having
done this or that which would or could have put me in a better
situation. And money and making ends meet has always been the source of
endless frustrations and even a few "panic attacks". And usually I am
rescued by my "guide" but always just barely leaving me with no more
then I absolutely need to survive.
I am not an artist, but I certainly have an artist's temperament and disposition towards worldly things.
With my Hippy years coming after returning to civilian life, I had a lot of wonderful experiences coming and also a lot to learn. What wonderful years they were, from 1967 to 1977...A whole new world of hope, love and "peace" came upon me and probably upon all of us of our generation. Meher Baba, the Maharishi, the Process Church, the Divine Light Mission of Guru Maharaji (the 13 year old "wunderkind" from India), Jesus Christ Superstar, Godspell, Mao and his little red book, the Progressive Labor Party, the Communist Party USA, Bubba Free John, Bhagvan Shree Rajneesh (later Oshu), Jonathan Livingston Seagull...and so much more. I was involved up to my neck in all of them. What heady times indeed! We thought that utopia was coming any day and that the whole world would change overnight and become Paradise. And still to this day I find Jesus Christ Superstar, Godspell (not as much) and Jonathan Livingston Seagull as my most favorite spiritual experiences and inspirations. God, what promise they held!!!
Michael, the book you mention by Annie Basant and Leadbeater, I have
unfortunately never read. But Theosophy as such has always influenced my
thoughts and conclusions. Now, this is not to say that I have read the
"Secret Doctrine", because I could never make it through, but I did read
"Isis Unveiled" and other books.
I also know, though, that many researchers identify the Theosophical
Society with the occult elements of the rapidly approaching evil "New World
Order", especially in regards to
the Theosophical offspring the "Lucis" or "Lucifer" Trust of Alice
Bailey and their meditation room in the UN building in New York City.
Of Leadbeater's vision: could it be that it was an early glorification of
what he knew was to come? I honestly don't know though. Wasn't Basant
involved with the British Fabian Socialists? I believe so.... And aren't
the Fabians connected with the Roundtable of the Rhodes Society and
aren't they connected to Zionist aspirations before Israel's
establishment in 1947?
Michael, I don't want to break your bubble, but couldn't it be that Leadbeater didn't see this in a "prophetic vision" but simply expressed
what he KNEW from his political connections to the previously mentioned
organizations and groups, to prepare Theosophists and other readers of
his books to the "future" to come as it was already being in the
planning stage?
But, again, that is just my "guess" and not worth much
in regards to a factual opinion. I can not, for the life of me, see any
good in this Globalization and New World Order conspiracy! And I can not
see how he, Leadbeater, could make a prediction sourced in supernatural
perception, which could deliver such a glorification either. But, one
never knows though.
To your perception that I must be an Aquarius, I have to disappoint you again because I am a Sagittarius with Scorpio rising and Moon in Pisces and Mars in Aries. The rest I would have to look up though as I can't remember it off hand.
The mantra you formed with my name is interesting...if not strange. How did this get into your head like that? Maybe we have a subconscious connection as I feel it also strange that I am so determined to write to you with such an extensive letter! God does work in strange ways and so does the human mind....
Congratulations on having chosen to let Francis give you a reading. He is absolutely the best and I don't say that lightly because he is an old internet friend! I am sure that you won't be disappointed. There is NO better or more knowledgeable astrologer! Please do let me know what you think after he "gets through with you".
In the meantime, while you wait, I would strongly recommend for you to get my computerized "Sky Within" report. It is quite good but, of course, not comparable to Francis' reading. If you want it, just click on Astro Reports, fill out the data sheet, and I shall send it to you in minutes.
Well, Michael, my new Greek internet friend, I must stop writing now and
would like to also refer you to my web page with letters and my answers.
It should make interesting reading for you and also give you more
insight into my thoughts and "motivations". Just click on the picture of the
minister with roman collar, located on the main or "home" page and it
will get you there.
Your Gnostic "Reisekamerad" (Comrade on the journey through life),
Holger.
Letter from Holger to Michael:
My spiritual quest...Divine Light Mission, Bhagwan and In-Laws....
Dear Michael,
I have to respond to your latest letter right now!
You have no idea how close our experiences really are. First though, thanks for the funny stuff. I really laughed! How funny true innocence really is! And how sad that we can't see the world more through the innocent eyes of children. ---
To return to your story, I too found TM in 1970!!! And I have practiced
it at least once a day right up to today... A wonderfully simple technique which
truly does what it promises...relaxation and, what is even more important to me,
it helped my psychic abilities. I experienced so many visions during meditation
which at first just simply "pass me by". But later I learned that they were
indeed messages from my "subconscious" which if I could only interpret them
correctly would help me in my dealings with life.... So I bought a "dream book"
which seemed to be best suited for this purpose. A book which, like an
encyclopedia, lists all possible (well, not all but many) symbols and interprets
them. And you know what? This really worked and still works! Then I even got a
small tape recorder and every time I saw a vision during meditation, I spoke it
into to the recorder. Sometimes I would end up with up to twenty distinct
visions... Then, when coming out of my "trance", I would interpret the symbolic
visions with help of the dream book and .... bingo! The stuff really would come
true in the next few days.
And I too wanted to go to India! But that was later when I became
entranced by Bhagwan Shree Rajneesh. I first found him when I saw a book at
Walden's with the title "Only the Sky" published by Harper in 1977. After
reading the book, I got in touch with a Rajneesh meditation center in Manhattan
on 27th Street (not sure about the street). A lady there told me to come on down
and this I did. It was an apartment in the "garment district" with incense and
all that stuff and with many books by Bhagwan published in India. Of course, I
spent more than $200 there and still have those books. There I also met a
Psychiatrist who worked for the city of New York at various mental hospitals
there. Since I worked for the State of Connecticut in the "mental health" field,
he took a special interest in me and kept on, literally, begging me to go to
India and meet Bhagwan in person. Hell, I was ready to go and only the fact that
I was a single (divorced) father of a nine year old son kept me from going.
Nonetheless, he kept on urging me to "forsake all" and just do it...putting my
son into the care of relatives (my ex wife's mother) but I just couldn't do
that....Still, I was an avid "disciple" to the point where I would wear orange
(a kind girl at work colored all my clothing for me in her bath tub) or at least
off-orange colors...not bright orange. "Bhagwan" even sent me my sanyasin
certificate and gave me a disciple name "Prasthan". His books, based on
lectures, were superb spiritual discourses and I still believe that he was, if
not an "Avatar", at least a highly advanced soul. Despite all the stuff that
happened later in Oregon... Do you remember the newspaper accounts of him and
his disciples there?
Thank God I never made it even to go to Oregon because in the meantime I
met my present wife in 1977 also and she wasn't very interested...
I was even involved with the "Divine Light Mission" of Guru Maharaji in
1973. They had a kind of hippy commune in a house in Westport, CT and I went
there to check them out. Do you remember them? The 13 year old "Satguru"? Well,
there were lots of stories even in Time magazine at the time and I, as always,
needed to find out the truth. So, after a few phone calls, I found a "local"
address of their meeting place and went there. I was stunned! Really it was a
magical mystery place...a true spiritual commune... And they even had books by
my beloved "Avatar" Meher Baber on a makeshift bookshelf!
I stayed, with a friend, for their daily evening "satsang," after eating a vegetarian meal with them. They were all young kids, mostly younger than myself, who just were "aglow with the spirit". My God, they were like something out of a dream. Like I imagined the early disciples of Jesus, living together in such a spiritually charged atmosphere that one could not help it but be drawn right into... Even now, this jaded old Gnostic warrior gets chills running down his spine while reminiscing about them. Chills of joy that is, chills of a miraculous experience remembered!
And then people began to arrive, mostly
college kids, and around 7pm the official satsang began. There was this guy
named John, on visit from Boston, who carried the main satsang...which actually
means something like "divine discourse" and where everyone is invited to give a
spiritual testimony. The room was charged with a spirituality as I had never
experienced before or since!!!
I can not over-emphasize how I really felt being there. It was
incredible, unbelievable, incomprehensible and so much more. Well, John spoke of
Jesus where he draws a line (or was it a circle) in the sand while he answers a
trick question from the Pharisees who had challenged him about sin and
adultery....and John almost literally, really became Jesus to me...He was so
pure, innocent and aglow with a supernatural spirituality and the story was so
simply told as we were all sitting on the floor in a circle, that Jesus became a
distinct reality for me, and I'm certain, everybody there.
The room smelled of sandalwood incense and candles were flickering in the light summer evening's breathe...And it felt to me that time and space was somehow suspended and that I was right there with Jesus and his disciples....
Guru Maharaji didn't have any impact on me when I saw him, but his disciples, these hippy kids, they were real and they were of another time and dimension. Unfortunately a few years later everything became spoiled and turned sour. They had big plans...The Guru and his Mother and family from India came and the whole thing became a money making power trip.
I remember going to New York City with the whole bunch from Westport, in many cars, to the lower east side where the Filmore theater or rock hall was located and seeing Guru Maharaji there, as well as watching a movie about Guru Maharaji and his mission. The film was made by a famous French documentary film maker who had become a disciple. The Filmore was mobbed with people even sitting in the isles...Mobbed with young kids who probably were drawn there by the same spiritual experiences which had drawn me there. Then there was Rennie Davis, a former "member" of the Chicago 7 who also had become a disciple. And there at the Filmore they announce a new organization named "World Service Organization" which was to become something like a "relief" organization to alleviate hunger, starvation and other suffering.
We all cheered and great excitement "exploded" the hall. God, we felt that Christ had returned, re-incarnated as "Guru Maharaji"...
Did you ever see the rock opera "Tommy" by the Who? I am referring especially to the movie which came out in 1975. There is the scene where Tommy the deaf, dumb and blind new "Messiah" (this is based on Meher Baba who had a vow of silence---as Pete Townsend of the Who was a fan of Meher Baba's) appears at a meeting hall and the whole place "explodes" with the tumult and worship of his new disciples.... Well, this is exactly what took place at the Filmore theater....
I decided, with my friend Jimmy Fowler (an older black guy), to receive
"Knowledge," which meant that one would go through a knowledge session where a
representative of Guru Maharaji, a "mahatma" from India (later also from the
US), would give a long satsang and then teach one how to meditate with three
"techniques"...Techniques which would enable one to come into touch with the
Divine and receive Knowledge.
So Jimmy and I went to Bridgeport, CT, parked my car at the train station
there and left by train for the city (New York City). It was pouring rain and it
was still raining when we got there. From Grand Central Station we had to walk
in the rain to the Yorkville section, somewhere to a street in the 70's....An
apartment which was three flights up. We arrived soaking wet and had to wait
there for more than three hours for the Knowledge session to start. We were both
starving and the little Indian snacks we were offered didn't help much either.
But, "on the spiritual path no sacrifice is to great to attain
Gnosis-Knowledge-Wisdom"....at least this is how we felt and justified our
miserable situation.
There were eventually about twenty people in the room with us when
suddenly this little Indian man materialized. He wore Indian clothing and spoke
little English but seemed friendly enough, if not a little curt and sarcastic.
He began by first "weeding out the chaff", which he did by asking us
individually various questions.
After he had already told some of the people there that they weren't
ready, he came to me and asked me if I had ever done any meditating as taught by
another Guru. I told him honestly
that I did Transcendental Meditation....And
I still remember him looking at me somewhat angrily and then telling me that I
wasn't ready and to apply another time. What a hit in the face, my pride was
hurt! I thought myself a great candidate and definitely spiritually
qualified...but "humbly" kept my mouth shut waiting to see what was going to
happen with my friend Jimmy. And wouldn't you know it, since Jimmy had never
meditated before, he was accepted....I was devastated! How could they do this to
me! I had to leave the apartment and wait for Jimmy to get through the Knowledge
session.
It was still pouring rain and I didn't know what to do. By this time it was already about 8pm and dark and I had no place to go....Not having much money with me, I went into various cheap hamburger joints drinking coffee and smoking my Camels. And the time dragged on ever so slowly... At various times I went back to see if Jimmy was finished, curious to hear what this session was all about...But no Jimmy appeared....At eleven o'clock, by that time I was soaked even more than I had already been, I saw Jimmy from across the street and was, naturally, elated. We walked back to Grand Central Station together, while Jimmy told me what he could, since he was sworn to silence about the session per se...Disappointed, but understanding, I resigned myself to Jimmy's happiness and my colossal disappointment.
We got back to Bridgeport around 1am....to
find the car in the train station parking lot flooded right to the lower part of
the doors. Shit, I couldn't believe it! What a day and what a "misadventure" for
me.
I climbed on the cement partition wall which had parking meters embedded
in it to get closer to my little Toyota Corona Mark II, slipped and fell into
the water...speaking about being soaked before, now I was just as wet as one
could get to the height of my belt. Nothing could be done but to take a taxi
back to Newtown which is about 15 miles away. So we got a taxi making sure the
driver wouldn't notice how wet my bottom was, and arrived in Newtown at about
3am...
I attributed my misadventure to being "tested" and thus justified my "suffering" to the wisdom of a higher power.
Eventually I did receive "Knowledge" at a
session in New Haven, CT. I think, if I remember correctly, that it was in
November, 1974 at a rented mansion on either Whaley or Whitney Ave. close to
Branford, although I am not sure about the street anymore.
This time the Indian "mahatma" didn't do any "weeding" and took all
twenty, or so, of us upstairs into a small "meditation room." Sitting cross
legged almost on top of each other, we were told about Guru Maharaji and the
origin of the "Divine Light Mission" and a lot of other things which I have
forgotten by now. There was a lot of incense in the air along with the nervous
anticipation of what was going to happen....And there was excitement in the air
and so much more...mixed with sweat and body odor and the endless droning of the
"mahatma's" discourse.
I felt my legs falling asleep and my eyes getting blurry...when the
mahatma began to speak about the three meditation techniques.
The first one was about the divine sound which was basically a mantra "so-hung"
or "so-hum" and he told us NOT to start meditating with this "sound" yet. Of
course, I, having done TM for already four years, went into an immediate trance
when I started to repeat "so-hum" regulated by breathing-in with "so" and
exhaling with "hum"....
Suddenly I was no longer part of the scene, nor in that sweltering room,
but had transcended time and space....finding myself as part of the
Universe...part of a cosmic vision which showed me, nay, in which I was part of
a scene where I experienced in complete darkness what seemed to me like the
creation of the Universe!
I saw suns and exploding stars, constellations and comets, masses of
flowing lava and other colossal upheavals and I did not only watch all this
but was part of it...!
The whole experience is indescribable, but I do hope that I could give
you an idea of what transpired.
Suddenly I felt somebody shaking my shoulders...stunned I opened my eyes,
at first not knowing where or what I was, to see the mahatma leaning over me
from behind and telling me: " I told you not to meditate yet"! I know that I
mumbled something, still not quite "there", but he put his hands over my eyes
and I was again thrown back into my vision while feeling his hands like radiant
suns over my eyes, radiating a tremendous heat into my head which worked its way
through my entire body and "beingness".
Perhaps now I do understand why the other mahatma in New York didn't want
previous meditators in his session. He didn't want people to go into a "trance"
before they were touched by the mahatma...and thus "stealing" the effect.
Although I can see nothing wrong with my experience either.
Well, it's just a guess. The other
two "techniques" were of no great consequence to me. One, the one with the
"divine nectar" seemed banal, if not downright stupid. This is where you kind of
roll up your tongue and with it's tip taste something "sweetish" way back on the
upper part of your throat. And the other I have forgotten by now, unfortunately.
That there was "something to this Knowledge Session" is undeniable and I
don't think that it matters where it originated or who taught it. It was a valid
and truly "mind-blowing" experience which validated, to me at least, that
mysticism and mystical experiences are REAL, no matter what skeptics say and
Psychology tries to explain as simple brain-functions stimulated by excitement
or even mass-hypnosis. Certainly there are similarities, but I can not see how
my particular experience can be related to this, as it was much too REAL.
Even though, that I drifted away from the good Guru Maharaji after he married and I realized that it was a money making venture, I still look back on the original "Divine Light Mission" with great awe and deep gratitude. They had indeed something very, very special and human greed and lust, as usual, destroyed it!!!
I see all this and all the other
experiences I had, Spiritual and Political ones, as "stepping stones" towards
the true Gnosis-Knowledge and shall not ever denigrate their work nor condemn
them, for they are, as everything in life, important manifestations on the path.
The "Divine Light Mission" has almost evaporated due to what I mentioned
before. They lost something very precious while I gained so much from them and
others that I can only smile and say, "Be a passer-by", with the words from the
"Gospel of Thomas"... It's all in the experience and never in whoever
leads you to it!
Theo, I again drifted deeper into my letter to you than I originally anticipated. But that is good, for it brought something very secret and deep within me back into my consciousness.
Relating another similarity to your situation, I just want to mention that my "in-laws" never liked me either. To them I was just a hopeless kind of "never do good" because of my beliefs and my outspokenness about spiritual and political matters which they could never understand. They are Russian Orthodox and there is just no room in their soul to accommodate a rebel like me in their narrow little universe.
Nevertheless, I can not really blame them either because I am definitely a poor choice for a husband and "provider". My head is too far into the spiritual realm to make a good "family man" and "husband", and they could sense that clearly even from their limited perspective.
That is why true Gnostics and Idealists should never marry and have the burden of a family. It is not fair to the wife, children, and themselves.
It is a convoluted situation indeed and I don't know what the answer is either.
We have to consider sexuality and so many other material facts into the equation and there is just no simple solution, is there? "A prophet is never respected in his home town", isn't that what it says, or something like that?
Even Jesus was adamant about not seeing his mother and brothers when they wanted to see him during one of his discourses!
Not that I think that I am a "prophet", far from it, indeed... But my point is, that probably EVERY true spiritual aspirant has had to deal with this situation....
Another similarity with your
story is that I too went first to Washington DC after arriving in New York,
Idlewild airport (now Kennedy airport). My "sponsor" was a Lutheran minister
from Arlington, VA which, as you know, is just a suburb of Washington. And my
first job in the USA was at the "Hot-shoppe" (Mariott owned) restaurant right
across from the Pentagon!
I was a "car hop" there, serving drive in customers at their cars. A lot
of Pentagon staff, Officers and enlisted, came there for lunch and noticed my
German accent. Asking me about it, they often told me how much they had enjoyed
being stationed in Germany. Naturally, they felt sorry for me and left often
huge tips for me. Some even gave me as much as a twenty dollar bill, which would
probably be equal to between 150 and 200 dollars today!!!
People were so kind in those days, so generous and willing to help. I can not even imagine how I would fare today here as a recent immigrant. This was in 1963 and it was an "entirely different nation". May God bless America indeed! Can we ever return to innocence and simple kindness in this Nation? Of course not, when innocence is lost, it can never be retrieved...no matter what.
I am truly grateful to the American people
of that time and place, for they taught me more than I could have ever attained
had I remained in Germany. And after all, that is what it's all about, isn't it?
What in the world has ever happened to make this once truly great nation
into the crime-ridden, paranoid, crazed, hateful pariah it now is???
Well, that is what I'm exploring and documenting on my web site....
That's all for today, my three beloved dogs are getting very restless and I have to go into the back yard with them to play some "soccer".
Your Reisekamerad,
Holger.
Holger Responds to Michael:
the smiles are mutual! How is that for synchronicity?
"Bole shri satgurudev maharaj kee jay"!
Remember that? Wasn't that what we screamed and shouted at those "happenings"? Oh, Michael, I just loved this whole "movement" in it's hay-day. And yes, I agree, the real downfall came when Maharaji married his secretary...and his mother installed his brother as the new head of the Divine Light Mission. Followed by allowing those in leadership positions to marry also. And that is when all hell broke loose...At least in the New Haven ashram. Were you also at the Louis Armstrong stadium in Queens (not sure about Queens but it was on the way to the airport, at least somewhat)? I didn't drive there so I can't quite remember how we got there from Connecticut. The stadium was filled and there was the DLM band "blue Aquarius", and lots and lots of Indians in dhotis and all... And did you see the play "Krishna Lila"? I thought that that was really great, well done indeed... I saw it in Greenwich, CT at a playhouse. And then the Astrodome!!! What a display of power and disciples! And the glossy magazine they put out "And it is Divene"!
What glorious, heady days they were!
You know, Michael, that the Maharaji still has a following and that he lives in Florida (I think in the Miami area), surrounded by a remnant of followers. They had to change the name because his mother gained the "title" for Divine Light Mission and they are back in India. I found their web site a while ago but don't remember how I got it and what its name was) but a google search should lead you there, if you are interested.
And you were into Bhagwan too! We definitely lived "parallel lives". Yes, I agree with you that he was probably poisoned in India... His downfall was his head honcho Ma yoga ....... , I can't remember her name, but she was one of his first disciples in India and became the "mother" and unofficial leader of the whole movement. A Jewish woman, who discovered her roots, and started to make money the old fashioned way...By syphing it off the top for herself first and then for the rest of the movement.
She got him into the mess with drug dealing and smuggling and all the other scams. He was much too immersed in the spiritual path to deal with disciples and expansions... So he left it all to her, without oversight, to do the "dirty work". Ma yoga ... No I can't get the name yet...but all I would have to do is look in one of the many books... Well, it doesn't really matter...
The "google" boys are really something. I hate to keep on pointing to the fact that somebody is "Jewish", but it must be mentioned. Brilliant idea they had and all would be well, if they didn't play the Zionist fiddle... I refer you to Alex Jones' web site where he writes how they "screwed" with his viewer numbers to his video in order not to admit how many people were watching it. In order to degrade the impact. Others also have mentioned how google has cut them out from their listings, or put them way back in ratings.... No, they don't play fair at all. Not any more at least. In the beginning they were great. I started using google around 2000 and always liked them. Now though I am getting angry too. You know I get between 150 000 to 250 000 "hits" a month and yet their "meter" which shows the rating of importance of a web site (on the Google tool bar) I only get about a green arrow of one quarter rating... Well, I damn well know that there is something very wrong with that as it should be about one half. Plus, when some web site attacks me it is right on the first page when you type in "Gnostic Liberation Front" , but when I write a whole page of rebuttals, it is NOT shown when I type in the the web site which attacked me! Yes, strange goings on with Google indeed. Also the google tool bar registers every site you visit and keeps it in their files. So they are a truly invaluable source for the "New World Order".... I used to have more than one half rating in 2003 and then I went "off" for a year because I couldn't afford the Web Host (28 dollars) a month, anymore. Then I went back on when I got my Social Security and now I get only one quarter ratings even after more than a year back on line.... Also their compliance with Red China's demands to exclude undesirable listings and the same in Germany and France... You know I have about 15 steady "visitors" of my site from China, strange indeed..
You wrote:
They even wanted to kick John Lennon out for Christ's sake, they did it with Maharishi, I don't know whether you are aware how but I can tell you about it if you wish.
Please do tell me as I am very interested!!!
Holger.
Letter from Holger
to Michael:
Dear Michael the Terrible :)
thanks again for the children's jokes...I laughed
out loud when I read it. And I want to assure you that our correspondence is
NO strain on my time and other obligations. I am retired from work and toil,
and aside from having a heavy load to carry with my wife's suffering from
type 4 lung cancer and taking care of my beloved three dogs, can devote a
lot of time to correspond with you.
Indeed, it is with great pleasure and
excitement, that I have found you as a friend and Reisekamerad!!! Surely, I
will not always be able to write as much as I have previously due to a lot
of internet correspondence, but that should not ever be a problem between
us. The only thing is that I have to "beg your indulgence and
understanding," when I write to you stuff that I might have mentioned
before..:) as sometimes I do get mixed up with thoughts that I previously
wrote to somebody else. In other words: I find myself a little forgetful at
times.
As to my web site, 200 000 hits are just that, "hits". This only
means that the web site was "hit" by people, but does NOT mean that they
actually went there for reading or research. This can be accidental when
searching for something and doesn't mean that much. Nevertheless, I do have
quite a few readers all over the world.
You see, I have a "c/panel" with my
web host which shows me exactly how many people read my site and from where
in the world. It also tells me the extend of their reading by bandwidth
which usually hovers around 4000mb to 5000mb... Most of my readers are from
the US followed by fluctuation between Australia, Canada, England, Germany,
Netherlands, Denmark, Norway, Sweden, Us Government, India, Thailand, Israel
and so on and on with even some obscure countries I never heard of as some
islands somewhere.
I had a close relationship with "New Dawn" magazine in
Australia one time and even distributed (mailed out free copies they had
sent me) to people in the US here. But then I had to shut down my site
because of financial problems and our relationship kind of "fizzled out".
Nevertheless, we are still good friends, David their editor and owner, and
I, but they don't send me any more copies to distribute, although I paid for
the first class mailings to interested people...
Francis had a few articles,
I think two actually, published by them through my connection. Well, they
asked me to write an article about Astrology and Gnosticism and I told them
that I just simple "wasn't qualified", but that I knew of somebody who could
do the job with ease. They were interested and then I convinced Francis to
have a go at it...
And he did. And it turned out to be a great article...
One that is also on my web site as well.
Anyways, I have sent more than 7000
horoscopes all over the world, even to Israel. Kind of fascinating, isn't
it? As of lately I had some bitter "attacks" on me and my website from some
self appointed Gnostics, from a Jeremy Puma (who looks very Jewish to me)
and from a newly formed "Gnosis Institute", of which you can read on the
"letters to the Gnostic Liberation Front" page.
These people "piss me off"
not so much for their criticism, but for their "ignorant" criticism which
shows me that they didn't really explore my web site but were out to "get
me" because of what they perceived as my "right wing" anti-Semitism and
"fascism"...
Which is not founded on truthful evaluation but purely aimed at
slander for their own reasons...
And that is where good old "neutral" Google
comes in. You see, Michael, when these ill willed people write their "attacks",
it is right below my listing when you type in "Gnostic Liberation
Front"...but my "counter-attack" doesn't show up when you type in their site
names...
No, I am definitely certain that Google not only lists web sites,
but "censors" them by listing them in an unfavorable manner.
Well the truth shall prevail, no matter who or what
tries to interfere, I believe. I just keep on plodding along, hoping for the
best. At least I am at peace with myself as having done what I can with
complete honesty and integrity. "I'm me and I'm free" as David Icke says....
What more can anybody do. I despise secretiveness and "cloak and dagger"
type of nonsense. And I hat "attacking" others for their beliefs, as I know
that life is a journey and that we all go through many phases of awareness
and conclusions which are not only false but limited in time... Thus my
heart isn't really in it when I have to defend myself and my web site. But,
on the other hand, one must defend one's "honor" and hope to clarify what
others willingly or unwillingly write about you.
Dear Michael, I am in awe that you worked with the
legendary P.... ... and that you worked in the very artistic field of
animation and graphic arts!!! You must tell me more about that. My daughter
studied art at the ........................ and is struggling to find work
as an illustrator. Right now she is working in retail, as an assistant
manager, and is very unhappy and disappointed in life and her future, and it
breaks my heart.
She specializes in children's book type of illustrations
(she is an illustrator) and is working part time with a couple of people who
have written a children's book. God only knows what their chances are of
ever getting published, but who ever knows? She has a 40 000 dollar
government loan hanging over her head and doesn't know how to be able to
make the monthly payments working in retail....
What a world, ha! Perhaps
you have some tips to offer???
Are you retired now? Also please tell me more about your childhood and years in the ..... army. This is all such fascinating stuff to me. Are you married now, or divorced? I don't mean to be nosey but am genuinely interested in you as you are so close to me, in so many ways. I will send you some pictures of me (many are already on my website anyways) with my next letter. Perhaps, if it doesn't bother you, you can send me some of you also. That would be great, really! How are you doing with Francis and his Astro Reading? Have you touched base yet, or is he still working on it? He is such a "unique" person and "character"! One in a million, indeed.
Well, for now I must stop and eat "breakfast". I am diabetic type 2 and must take my pill with food. Since I had to write a letter to my Jewish friend whom I think I mentioned to you in another letter, this letter to you came a little late in the day and you are probably waiting for my response for some time now.. I have added his letter and my response to this letter because I think that you might find it interesting. Enjoy :)!
Hopefully more later,
Your Reisekamerad and friend,
Holger the Terrible.
Response from Holger:
Dear Michael,
this is truly fascinating stuff!!! I'm completely blown away by your
experiences and your knowledge! And I'm so excited that I simply MUST beg
for more and more and more...And I desperately hope that you will not get
tired of me and my in comparison "pedestrian" seeming life. Of course, I
remember all the good swamis' and mahatmas' names from reading about them,
but I had never any "personal" experience with any. I am simply envious :)
but proud to have made your acquaintance. Your comment: "Did you know that
the German race and the Jewish are all ruled by the First Ray ? That is why
they have been so creative and dominant." fascinates me deeply. Who made it
and how can I find out more about it???
And then your experiences with P.... ...! And all the other creative
artist and "entourage", is simply more than fascinating to me!
Michael, you
have indeed brought a new LIGHT into my boring life! What can I say, but
congratulate you and your wife on having lived such an exciting and
spiritually rewarding life...And you probably still do, no?
As to my friend Francis Donald "Bubba" Don Grabau, he is, like you, an
enlightened and beautiful soul....But you must be patient with him. Yes,
Francis is slow when it comes to make money or write articles....He is, like
you, an artist with an artistic temperament, moved by the moment of
inspiration and not sooner or later. But I promise you that when you do get
his report, you will be more than happy with it, and that is to say the
least. He is also a loving and kind spirit who would not ever be "put off"
by what you say to him. If he is in Canada, he must be with Judy, an admirer
of his who gave him room and board, so to speak, many years ago in Hawaii.
She left the US because she couldn't take "Dubya" anymore and thus sold her
property in Hawaii and move to Canada close to her daughter. One time, about
four years ago, I got so mad with Francis, because he just kept on ignoring
my e-mails to him, that I wrote him a very nasty, downright ugly letter. I
just didn't know him well then and felt very hurt since I got all kinds of
"mass-mailings" from him but no answer to my personal letter :) I was so
"outraged" that I even took all his writings off my web site (this is before
he had his own site)! Then Judy wrote me a long letter and "negotiated"
between us and then I understood what he was like and why and all was well
between us again... So, Theo, PLEASE don't be disappointed or even angry
with him. He will come to the fore....And you will be very pleased indeed!
More tomorrow morning. I have to heat up some dinner
and watch some television
to "come down" from my "high" over your letter and from having added a whole
slew of new web pages (articles).
Have a good night, my friend!
Your Reisekamerad,
Holger the Terrible.
More from Holger in Response:
Swami Muktananda,
Kundalini, "Panic Attacks," Schizophrenia
Meher Baba and Alice Baley's "Lucis Trust"
My First Wife and Racism...
Hi Michael,
this is Hi-Ho calling :)!
I like this Hi-Ho thing. It reminds me of "Hi Ho
Dadderio" on construction trucks in Connecticut... I don't know if they are in
...........also, but you touched my memory button.
The experience of Kundalini and "shakti" seems to me, from your and other
people's, description, comparable, in its early stages, with a "panic attack"...
Like you explained in a previous letter that after going to see swami Muktananda
you had to run up a mountain path...
I had "panic attack" experiences after smoking a
pipe of hash which my first wife had laced with something like LSD or this
mushroom stuff (can't think of the name).
After smoking, like a greedy fool, a whole regular sized tobacco pipe
filled with this lethal mixture, I found myself in a state of extreme panic,
heart racing and mind spinning with fear and the utter urge to run away...
because I couldn't remain in any kind of confinement (our apartment on the 5th
floor of a building in Bridgeport overlooking the Long Island Sound)
I just felt like I needed to run and run and run. Even now, reminiscing,
I break out in a slight sweat just thinking back... It was probably the most
frightening experience I have ever had and the fear of it coming back has been
with me all my life!
My wife, then, took me by the hand and kept on walking me around and
around the apartment which eventually calmed me and settled me back down
somewhat. Michael, I can not tell you how devastating this experience was for me as
it used to come back sometimes unexpectedly by my worry that it would...
What I mean to say is, that just the thought and worry that it could come
back, BROUGHT IT BACK...
Now, I do know that it is not actually the same as your experiences with "shakti"
because there at least, you knew what the reason was and that it was part and
parcel of the spiritual path...But in my case, I also knew where it was coming
from, drugs, but also knew that the possibility of these drugs remaining in my
system was real, even though I didn't know it it was applicable in my situation.
Anyways, just the fearful anticipation of it coming back would bring it back!!!
Not as drastic as in the original experience but bad enough to make me fearful
of being caught unaware on public transportation of any kind for some years....
My wife then, not my present wife, was deeply into drugs of any and all kinds. Especially LSD, hashish and pot. So my presumption that she laced my pipe full of pot and hashish with LSD is quite reasonable.
...She was a petite and very pretty black woman who
looked more Indian than black. I had met her after discharge from the Army in
1967... A very artistic and musically gifted soul, she was offered a scholarship
to Julliard and had turned it down because she couldn't see how she could afford
to live in New York while studying, as she came from an extremely poor family
(consisting of six children and a working mother).
She was in my nine month class at Fairfield State Hospital to become a
"Psychiatric Aide". And that is where we met and became lovers. And that is when
I experienced "racism" in its total ugliness for the first time. I blew it off
in typical Sagittarian fashion.. But, sub-consciously, it did a number on me and
her too.
At the Hospital people were quite "gracious", but
nevertheless, one could feel the tension, imagined or real, like an ever present
force. After a while of blissful togetherness, she discovered that she was
pregnant and thing became really oppressive. We had to prepare (she had told me
that she could never get pregnant because of injuries suffered in an automobile
accident) and find an apartment...as we were living in an apartment on the
Hospital grounds which had no room for children.
You can't imagine how many times we were turned down for phony reasons
.... or never received a call back. It was a horrendous experience. Finally we
were offered an apartment in a supervisor's (Nurse-Supervisor) two family house
in Danbury. It was like a miracle.
Anyways, to make a long story short, we moved and she delivered a boy by
"cesarean" section. And that is when all hell broke loose!
What I hadn't known was that she was a "latent"
schizophrenic... (her mother and psychiatrists later told me this) her mother
related some "strange" incidents throughout her late teen years, but said that
she didn't really connect it to mental illness.
Soo ... after delivery she went into a state of post partum depression which
also brought out her schizophrenic pre-disposition. Of course, I didn't know
what was happening as she became an entirely different person.
Trying to make ends meet I worked a lot of overtime, double-shifts at the hospital and even got a part time job as a Pinkerton guard at Danbury Hospital and Candlewood Isle (a gated community)... She stayed home with my infant son, Kenneth and she discovered, due to the "Aquarian" times,... drugs.
People were coming and going while I was at work.
Her older sister hung around all the time (she died later of a drug overdose)...
and eventually we were asked to move because of this. I was devastated! I had
had no idea of what was going on behind my back.
The supervisor who owned the house where we lived had been reluctant to tell me
because she didn't want to hurt my feelings (I was very well like at the
Hospital). So when she finally told me and asked me to move, it took me by
surprise. Although, I must admit that I did sense something very wrong all
along. But all that work and being so much away from home, kind of kept me too
busy to come to terms with my "feelings" in this regard.
The only place I could find an apartment was in
Bridgeport in a newly built "high-rise" which actually was a "semi-project" for
the poor. Since it was federal government supported, they couldn't turn us down
as a "mixed" couple (family).
I had to travel back and forth about 15 miles one way.
She was becoming more and more hostile to me due to my having to work so many
hours and due to the influence of her new-found friends, who were all black
druggies.
She discovered her black "roots" due to their influence and resented me
intensely.
Although I had very many black friends at Fairfield State Hospital, fellow
employees and patients...This new crowd in Bridgeport, hanging out at our
apartment when I was gone and even when I was there, was hostile to me because I
was white... and because I worked and tried to be responsible for my family.
My son, Kenneth, looked like an angel with blond wavy hair and hazel
eyes... and I felt so utterly helpless and guilty for having him brought into
this nightmare world of drugs and intense hatred.
Since I was all alone in this country, having no parents here nor relatives, I
didn't know what to do. Knowing, though, instinctively that the situation was
hopeless and that I had to get out of it, the sooner the better.
Still trying "to work things out" and trying to
relate to her, I started to smoke pot with her. And this is when I experienced
this incredible "panic attack".
So the background is set, and you probably can understand the how and why's of
this experience.
I got a room "on the grounds" again at the Hospital and stayed there most of the time. Or better, I slept there because I was working so many hours at two different jobs. Hoping, against hope, that she would come to her senses, I didn't file for divorce but supported her as I always had, keeping very little for myself.
After some time, she and my son were kicked out
of the apartment for not paying the rent...although I had given her just about
all my income. She moved close to lake Zoar into a converted school bus and
became a real "hippy".
This being close to Newtown, I found out about this move soon. She also stopped
by, to tell me where I could give her her money.
I couldn't stand it any more and went to some kind of social service
agency in Danbury...who told me that they would investigate, but never did.
I began having "panic attacks" in my dorm room at the Hospital. Afraid, that I
was going crazy, I approached a friend there about how to see a psychiatrist
after he once had mentioned to me that he was seeing one.
This friend, Jimmy Lawlor, saved my life, I believe...as I was toying with thoughts of suicide. He made a call to his doctor, who was also a high ranking psychiatrist at the Hospital, and arranged an appointment.
Dr. Thomas, God bless him, was a typical
Englishman, cool and reserved, but yet so very compassionate and willing to help
beyond his calling. After telling him my situation and about my "panic attacks",
he reassured me, very convincingly, that there was nothing "wrong" with me in a
psychiatric sense... But that I suffered from depression and "free-floating"
anxiety for obvious reasons... And that this was quite understandable in
relationship to my "hopeless" situation.
He put me on Elavil and Valium and within about two weeks, the attacks subsided
and I could sleep again. Also the constantly present feeling of nausea
disappeared almost magically.
He also suggested that he wanted to see Thelma, my wife, if at all
possible. I told him where she lived and that she would never come to see him
voluntarily... He said, after an evenings session, "let's go, well go to see
her".
I drove my little Toyota and he followed me in his huge Lincoln convertible. When we got there a guy who owned the property and various school buses there, tried to prevent us from seeing Thelme, but Dr. Thomas convinced him that he would call the police if he didn't and he allowed us on the property.
Dr. Thomas told me to wait outside as he wanted
to see her alone, and went inside....
When he came out, after about one hour with her, he was a different man, really.
He was so shook up and confused that he had a hard time getting to his
car and driving off, he waved me along to follow him.
At the same time I saw Thelme come running after us with his "doctors" bag in
her hands...
Dr Thomas had been so "unloosened" by her that he did the almost "sacrilegious"
thing and forgot to retrieve his "medicine bag", can you imagine?
He stopped, and she brought him his bag
blissfully smiling to the car. Thanking her, we took off... When we stopped at a
diner, he told me that he had never in his life and practice met anybody so sick
and yet so "pleasantly" crazy!
She had made him herbal tea, danced for him some kind of "spiritual"
dance, and had chatted with him like with an old friend without any kind of
hostility or even question, why he had come to see her. She had talked about me,
and referred to me as her "god" and then proceeded to ask him if he would like
some "pot brownies".... This was around 1972, I believe...
He also told me that he had no doubt that she was a "full blown"
schizophrenic and needed Hospitalization desperately. My son, being with her,
was in grave danger and I had to do something to get him out of there.
His advice was to "kidnap" him and file for divorce since otherwise she could not be placed in a state hospital without me having to pay for it in the long run. And a long run it would be, he assured me.
I went to see her at the bus, and somehow
convinced her (I still don't know how this "miracle" came about) to admit
herself at a state institution in Middletown, CT. She went there "voluntarily"
and I went there with her in support. I also filed for divorce telling her that
I had to do it in order to be able to pay for her stay there. It was awful, she
looked so pathetic and helpless... But what could I do?
Seeing her there twice a week and bringing her "goodies" like cigarettes
and snacks, I found out from other patients there that she gave the cigarettes
away to all the other patients. But that was her, very generous always, and in
her state of "blissful oblivion" even more so.
My son, Kenneth, was placed with a loving family from work. They had a son who was the same age and a grandmother who truly loved Kenny. I paid them 150 dollars a month for everything and was thus able to somehow work things out. Not the way I would have liked to, but, nevertheless, it was a solution in a time of desperate need.
My uncontested divorce came through quickly and Thelma, on Thorazine, began to get better, although with terrible side effects such as jerky movements and lolling tongue. I felt so bad, that I had had to do what seemed to be necessary and hopefully would help her in the long run...
Still, I was sick over her suffering and my part in it. Needless to say, she was hospitalized for quite a few years. First discharged from "Undercliff" Hospital...Living with her family for a while, she was re-hospitalized at Fairfield State where I worked, again. Still visiting her and bringing her cartons of cigarettes, she was always on my mind and soul.
In later years she was discharged and first
placed in "group homes" and later received an apartment in Danbury, supervised
and visited by social workers, where she still, to this day, lives.
I had to gradually distance myself because the whole thing became too
painful and traumatic for both of us. My son, who still lives in Branford, CT
has visited her occasionally and tells me that she doesn't recognize him as her
son but is very friendly but disoriented and confused.
How devastating this terrible disease is, not only to the afflicted, but to all involved!
I told you this long winded story to reminisce and
at the same time give you more background about my life and situation at that
terribly distressful and yet also magically great time of my life. And, also, to
relate "panic attacks" to receiving "shaktipath" when one isn't ready or
prepared. How acceptable this comparison is, I don't know. It's just my own
experience and thoughts on that matter.
Meher Baba describes similar experiences and a period of intense
disorientation, confusion and inability to cope, on his path to enlightenment
and self-realization. That is the reason, I believe, that he, throughout his
life remained attached to the spiritually lost, whom he calls "masts", who in
all possibility, would be considered "full blown" schizophrenics in our western
culture...but who are revered in India. (For more on this you can peruse my
Meher Baba pages).
I do believe strongly, that Thelme had this kind of "awakening" through LSD use and all the other drugs, and that somehow she "got stuck" in this state....as also the "masts" in India are. And it breaks my heart and tortures my soul that we here, in "western society", have so little understanding and so little compassion for this type of person stuck in both worlds.
This is the first time that I ever told this story to ANYONE, and I must say that it feels good to "talk" about it having mentally reconstructed all the events. Of course it is only an "outline" since the full story is much to long and, to others perhaps, even boring.
Now, dear Michael, I would like to ask you more about your
valued opinion in regards to Alice Bayley and the Lucis trust. I have always
been fascinated by and at the same time confused about this organization.
Having attempted to read one of her books, I can not remember the title
though, I must admit, with some shame, that I just couldn't get through it. It
put me to sleep. Too much with all those rays and masters and power....
Maybe I just don't have the intelligence to absorb and make sense of it.
Having read quite a few diatribes about and against them, I would like to know
what you, my dear friend, think about them. Especially for their role in the UN
and their connection to the New World Order conspiracy.
Your opinion would matter a whole lot to me as I don't want to accept something which might be entirely wrong or misconstrued. I just don't know. Perhaps even the New World Order conspiracy isn't quite as "monolithic" as I imagine it to be, meaning that this "Theosophical" branch or group is quite separate from the neo-con, Zionist one....I know of. Please do elaborate and perhaps even enlighten me, my friend.
Yeah, digital cameras are truly great. I have a couple and am very happy with them. Just read the instructions, put it into automatic, and you should have no problem. Really, they are quite easy to figure out and operate...And the pictures are stunning! In the newer versions of windows they will find their place on your computer automatically in the "my pictures" files. All you have to do is transfer them from the camera via a special cable which you should have to the computer. Newer computers even have slots for the "memory chip" where you just slide the chip in and windows will guide you further. Really, no sweat at all. With my hotmail the transfer to a letter is very easy, but with your yahoo I don't know, as I never used yahoo. Nevertheless, it shouldn't be difficult in today's age of digital photography.
Your friend and Reisekamerad,
Holger.
Letter from Michael:
Letter from Holger:
The American South,
Slavery, Jehovah
and the "Old Time" Religion
Dear Michael,
your late night thoughts are very much
appreciated. So you think that I have a carefree look on my face?
God, I thought that I looked like an old goat with a fat belly :)
In your travels you must have been here, in historic ........, GA...
Talking of historic places, this place here is charged with negative
history. By this I mean that it was a major slave harbor, if not THE major place
where slaves from Africa or the West Indies were discharged and auctioned off.
Any sensitive person can still feel the incredible suffering of these poor
people, and also the incredible cruelty of their "handlers".
Just think, what type of "human" being could do such a "job"?
What kind of beast could perpetrate such evil upon another human being, no
matter how lowly, ignorant and base???
This place here, Savannah, is cursed for ever by the unimaginable evil done to
these slaves.
My God, just think, what they must have felt like when arriving here after an
endless journey, on a small boat where they were stacked in like sardines... And
then to arrive here and be screamed at in a language they couldn't understand,
whipped just for the hell of it, and auctioned off to the highest bidder... Not
knowing what fate would await them at their new "home", although having tasted
already, in Savannah, what would await them, for the rest of their miserable
lives, no matter who their new "master" was.
And to think that these traders and "masters" were pious, "God-fearing"
Jews and Christians!!! No matter what the "culture" and circumstances of their
times were, it is just beyond my comprehension. Except, perhaps, that it proves
to me that "Religion" is nothing but a "veneer", a culturally adopted "thing"
and means very little in respect to people's actions.
Just about anything and everything can be excused and justified through
their "scriptures".
But it is this murderous, Old Testament God, this Jehovah, who permeates
most people's mentality and self justification and thus excuses even the most
evil, cruel and beastly behavior.
And it is, in my opinion, this
same kind of "Fundamentalism" whether Christian, Jewish or Islamic which even
today, in our "enlightened age", permeates the world and the incredibly
"un-enlightened" views and actions of peoples and governments.
Karl Marx, in his statement, that "religion is opium for the people", hit
the nail right on the head, although even Communism was ruled by the same
Jehovian mentality due to the Talmud-Torah upbringing of its "cadres" and
leaders.
Too bad, because, if truly Spiritual Gnostic people had prevailed in their
ranks, it could have been the answer to the ills of this world.
Damn this "Christianity" without Christ, this "law-ridden" Judaism of the
"chosen people", and this Islam without Sufi spirituality...!
America, this land of dreams and illusions for many NOT living here, is
the perfect expression of this Judeo-Christian deity of evil, lies and hypocrisy
-Jehovah.
And Judeo, it is, indeed! With all the American members of Masonic organizations, one would think that the population here would be more enlightened and spiritual, but quite the opposite seems to be true. Proving to me, not initiated into the "craft", that it is not what it claims to be, a liberator and enlightener, but just the opposite, a secretive cult of Jehovian enslavement.
How a true "Christian" can call
himself "Judeo" is incomprehensible to me. Have these people ever really read
the bible and have they ever even understood the words of Jesus? Oh, such
willful IGNORANCE, such love of hate, lies and cruelty permeating their little
lives! It is not the loving Jesus whom they adore and worship, it is the cruel,
murderous, blood-sacrifice craving Jehovah-Baal who was fed to them since birth
by their "believing" and "god-fearing" parents and society, and who thus rules
their hypocritical lives with self-righteous "patriotism" and murderous
condemnation of all that is true, honest and noble.
George W. Bush, this president of the American people, this symbol if you
will, seems to express to me, all what I tried to express about America per se.
What better example could I choose???
So, dear Michael, S....... here has plenty of "History", although, a history
of shame, fear and cruelty which even today finds it's expression in black-white
hostility, guilt and more hypocrisy.
Nay, this does not only go for ........, although it is one of the most
negatively charged places in the South-East, but also for the whole of the
Southern states.
Black crime and black "nihilism" is beyond imagination. And whites hiding in
"gated" communities lying to themselves and the world, that all is well. But all
is not well and the tension between the two races is escalating and escalating
and only God knows what will happen...Nay, we do know what can happen and very
well might happen..
And that's why whites flee the cities, hiding where they can and if they
have the means, behind material well-being and gated "communities"...
And one feels this incredible force of Hatred coming from blacks of all classes.
Oh, it is there, hidden behind smiles and "Sir's" and "Ma'am's", behind Southern
politeness and Southern twang.
Churches and "Religion" are a way
of life here, filled on Sundays to overflow, blacks and whites in separate
churches "worship" the "god of hate" Jehovah in the form of a misunderstood
Jesus. This Jesus being white in white churches and black in black churches!
And no matter how I feel about this "old-time" Religion, I dare not
imagine what these people would be like without this influence, at this point in
time.
What I mean is, that as much as I blame "Religion" for the ills of the
world, I must praise the lesser evil of the temporary need to keep these
ignorant, mentally sluggish angry people "in line". And I apply "ignorant and
sluggish" to both, white and black people.
Living here, one has the feeling that there is no hope to ever have an
"assimilated" black-white society of just Americans.
It seems even ludicrous that people talk and act as if this was already the
case, never mind it becoming a hope for a better future. And never mind living
in a "beautiful" land of "diversity".
What an asinine joke, of the "powers that are," the ideologues, sociologists and
politicians!
Diversity means clannishness and tribalism, all for the race, as "Hispanics"
call their "Astlan" in America. No more "us" as a unified nation, but only "us"
as a rallying cry of greed and entitlement to those of "our" race (whatever that
race may be), clan and tribe and corrupt politicians catering to the largest
"minority" in their districts...
"Brave New World, Brave New USA" indeed, we have no other choice but to be
"brave". What can we do? All is lost and all is gone...
There is no more hope for a "better world", as there is no hope period.
We are entangled in a spider-web and the insidious, self-centered, tribalist
Zionist conspiracy watches our every move as to when to devour us, like a fat,
ugly spider, when the time is right...Sacrificing us all to their god of hatred
and oppression, Jehovah, in a "drunken" orgy of "chosen" self-righteousness and
"Religious" fanaticism, in yet another war "to end all wars"....
Only this time it just as well might be the "war to end all life on this
planet"...
So, my dear friend Michael, I don't think I'm very "optimistic" about anything. And yet, you are right in some ways, "despite it all", I have an inner peace that "passeth all understanding" and even my own comprehension....
On a different note, the stuff you sent me, the material on the energy vibration "machine" led me on a little quest to find out more about it. I did some "googeling" and found an interesting, if not fascinating, article on Rense about this incredible "Dr." (I can't remember his name while writing this letter). This would be truly worth exploring!!! Except that the "pamphlet" of the device you sent me, makes me a little uneasy as they don't even list their real address on their web-site!!! Be-aware! It smells like a scam to me. But, who knows, maybe they really are okay? Germany seems quite involved with the research and manufacture of these devices also. This man, this Dr. reminds me a lot of Otto Reich and his "orgone" generator... He went through hell with his discoveries and research ending up dead in a federal prison. But, be that as it may, I'm definitely going to do some more research on him and his inventions. Thank you, for making me aware of him!
The other article you sent me, by Michael Russ, I had read already on the internet. I am not sure about him and his intentions though. Seems to much of a "goody two shoes" to me. Although, I must admit, that I didn't research his site and his material very thoroughly. Maybe I give him another shot...:)
Your pictures are nice and your wife looks so young and pretty...as well as tired from shopping. But I wanted to see YOU :) This audio stuff, sorry, leaves me cold. I am not an audiophile but do appreciate classical music and some rock even... Aren't record players kind of "out"? :) I know though that you as a former audiophile, along with many others, must have a huge record collection and are thus motivated to create the "perfect" player. You must have put a hell of a lot of planning and designing into it. Too bad that you never even tested it out. Or did you?
Well, dear Michael, I must "take a breather" and do some work around the yard. Perhaps, I will write more later, if you, or the spirit, moves me :)
Your Reisekamerad,
Holger the Terrible.
Letter from Holger to Michael:
Skwierzyna, Computers, "Silve Mind Control"
and Sam Weiser's Occult Book Store in NYC
Dear Michael,
it's about 60 degrees this morning and
it feels cold to me. Nevertheless, I'm "braving" the cold and sitting on my
front porch thinking and corresponding.
The English fellow, who now lives in Poland with his Polish wife, sent me
some great pictures of my place of birth, Schwerin. I'm so glad that he found my
web site and wrote to me.
He sent me more pictures yesterday, some of which even seem to show my
father marching in formation. But I can't be sure. He did train recruits in
Schwerin before being sent to fight in Norway and Finland. So my assumption
could be true. The pictures of the soldiers are not clear enough to be certain
though and I just wonder.
He is going to send me some material he has on cd with stories of German
refugees from Schwerin telling their ordeals in German. He would like me to
translate them and I would certainly be happy to give it a shot.
Isn't it fascinating how things
sometimes work?
God, I wished we had had computers when I was a child and young adult.
What incredible resource for information! And what incredible source for people
like us, Michael!
I bought my first computer in 1993, an IBM, just to do horoscopes and
other programs. It was never connected to the internet though. I don't know why
I didn't want to deal with the internet then, except perhaps because I was
intimidated by the whole thing.
Then in 1999 I bought a Compact computer and signed up with AOL. And I was
so overwhelmed with trying to connect it and trying to make sense of all the new
words, which seemed like a new language, forbidding and frightening!
Since I only had a 14 inch screen then, I couldn't get to some of the
buttons to click on and had to call AOL for help. What an ordeal! The people
seemed friendly enough but used words which didn't mean anything to me...
Finally getting things right, I was so overwhelmed by all the web sites on the
internet that I would spend days on end searching for all the material which I
had been curious about all my life.
And it seemed like manna from heaven to find answers to so many questions at my
fingertips.
Then in 2001 I bought a much more powerful Compac computer and a 17 inch
monitor. And I also signed up for Comcast cable broadband. What a difference!
Then I bought a program, Front Page 2000, to create my own web site.
Somehow, Front Page and I "clicked" and I managed to come up with a web
page which gradually developed into a web site.
At first I named it "Astrology for the People" planning to make horoscopes
available at a very cheap rate. But there was so much competition, literally
thousands of web sites offering horoscopes for sale, that I knew that my efforts
were hopeless.
I then decided to make horoscopes available to everybody for free and use
my web site for my personal interests.
I changed the name from "Astrology for the People" to "Gnostic Liberation
Front" just for the sound of it, and because of my life-long fascination with Gnosticism.
The old name remained and I used GLF as a sub-title. And so on it goes....
Finally changing the title completely to GLF.
Thus my web site is the work of five years, growing from 38 MB to almost
400 MB today.
This Front Page program has served me well and I count myself lucky that I was
able to configure it and work with it so easily. My daughter had a boy friend
who was a student at SCAD majoring in Computer Animation, who tried to use this
program to make his own web site and he gave up because it seemed so difficult.
And yet, here I was, knowing next to nothing about computers, and I was able to
work with it easily. Strange, isn't it?
To change the subject, I meant to
tell you about a few experiences I had with "Silva Mind Control".
I took the course in 1980 and it was indeed all that it promised for me.
Even while practicing it at the Danbury Ramada Inn, I realized that this was
some potent stuff.
Of course, having done TM for already ten years then, it was easy for me
to go into a trance and work while in trance with the Silva Method of self
hypnosis.
Amazing stuff, Michael, but perhaps, and I suspect you did, you too explored
"Silva Mind Control". Doing things like diagnosing illnesses of other
participant's relatives was quite successful. Also visualization and putting
people or objects into the "white light" worked miracles.
One story, which my wife still tells people, happened during the winter
of 1980 to 81. She was at work at "Toys R Us" in Waterbury, CT and working till
about 11 at night and it was snowing like crazy.
I was sitting in my easy chair reading and looking out the window around
8 pm when the thought came to me to experiment with the Silve Method. I was
worried about Donna having to clean off the car and driving home in that
slippery mess. So I went into a trance and visualized her yellow little beatle
VW in the white light, protected from all snow.... and also her safe return
home.
When she came home eventually at about 11:20 pm, she was speechless and
excited. I thought that something bad had happened and asked her about it....
She excitedly told me that when they all had come out of the store to go home,
all the cars were loaded with snow and ice, Except her car. Nobody could believe
it. Everybody was stunned, amazed at the picture of her car sitting there
amongst all the other cars without any snow or ice as if in a summer's night.
Well, I knew why and told her
what I had done and that it had worked perfectly, even to my own amazement.....
I must admit that this is an incredulous tale and that I probably wouldn't
believe it if somebody else had told me the story.
But I KNOW that it is true because I played a big part in it :)
Michael, did you ever go to Sam Weiser's occult book store on lower Broadway NY? I must have spent thousands of dollars there over the years. Mainly the 70's and 80's. I understand that the store isn't there any more... (Just a flash of memory).
Well, that's all for now. Got some work
to do...Perhaps more later.
Your Reisekamerad,
Hi-Ho
Letter from Holger to Michael:
Christian Science, Visualization, Eckankar "Soul-Travel"
Dear Michael,
well, let me try to recapture
what I lost in the last letter. Somehow I'm not as inspired as I was
yesterday and just hope to regain my "spirit".
To your question about Brzezinski, I can only affirm that he is indeed
part of the conspiracy. He is an important member of the CFR and has
openly spoken to the One World Goals of the New World Order. And I
believe that, no matter what he publicly declares in regards to the US
presence in Iraq, he is just "shadow-boxing". Since public support of
the war in Iraq and George W. Bush regime here in the US is obviously
fading, I believe that he is just bending with the wind.... He is just
"the other side" the side of "reason" of the same coin... He is a
Neo-Con through and through and I have no doubt in my mind that is
opposition to the war is just the CFR playing both sides in order to be
able to run the show as they always have, -behind the scenes.
You wrote me in regards to my
experimenting with the Light:
" Mit dem Licht spielen ist nicht fuer Kinder!"
And you are so right!
Of course, when I did these kind of "experiments", I didn't know better,
but learned soon from reading about it and from my own experiences.
Now I would only do it in a general sense by surrounding someone with
the light of peace and love, out of love. But never with specific goals!
Because I don't feel qualified to interfere with somebody else's life
and destiny. Although I don't believe that physical suffering, mental
illness and pain are part of our learning process here on earth....meted
out by a wrathful god. So the whole thing of "interfering" is difficult
to judge and even more difficult to understand. Nevertheless, I do
believe that an unseasoned person, an occult dilettantes, could do much
more harm then good by using "Visualization" techniques for themselves
and others. Any kind of "psychic" experimentation, be it with
Ouija
boards or "visualization" are very dangerous and can lead to disaster.
Not because it is "occult" and thus of "Satan", but because we are
playing with very real forces, with uncontrolled (if a dilettante gets
involved with them) Energy released which can cause terrible harm to the
manipulator and the person it is released upon, as in "visualization"
for another's recovery of "health" and well being.
I have, since my teen years, been attracted to Christian Science. In
Germany I came across "Science and Health" and thought it would be
"neat" if all illness could be conquered through "prayer". Unfortunately
the book itself seemed quite confusing as I could never figure out how
it was done exactly. True, I got an idea about this "scientific prayer"
but just couldn't grasp any details...
Then, over here in America, I came to read the extensive, three volume
biography of Mary Baker Eddy by Robert Peele, who was himself a
Christian Scientist and is now in "disgrace" by the Boston Mother Church.
And this woman and her fascinating life-story re-kindled my interest in
CS. Meeting some interesting people who were Christian Scientists, I
learned a lot about CS. But I still didn't quite understand "how it was
done". After knowing them awhile, I became aware of "hidden CS
literature", banned by the Mother Church. Thus I was introduced to
"Christian Science Class Instructions" by Arthur Corey. The same book
which I have now on my web site. And with Arthur Corey's "guidance" I
finally began to understand what Christian Science and Mrs. Eddy were
all about. Then I learned that the author of "Jonathan Livingston
Seagull" Bach was a former CS "practitioner" as well as Joel Goldsmith
author of many "metaphysical" works still available in reprints.
Jonathan Livingston Seagull, as you probably remember, was made into a
movie which I also very much enjoyed and which I now have on dvd. I
liked Bach because he could cut through all the "metaphysical crap"
right to the point. Especially in his other, later book "Illusions" (The
adventures of a reluctant Messiah), he manages to explain the "secrets"
of Christian Science and other metaphysical systems in strikingly clear
and concise language... So that even a "simpleton" like me could
understand it.
My point in going through all this is, that I would like to show you what
I understand under Christian Science healing as compared to
"visualization".
Both are in the realm of "metaphysics" and both have done some excellent
Healing work and both have had terrible failures. The difference,
though, being that the "practitioner" who visualizes, works on the
patient by visualizing, in the light, the patients body and organs to be
healed.
While the Christian Science Practitioner heals himself from the idea
that anybody, including himself, could be sick and suffering. So the
practitioner heals his own state of awareness while confronted with a
patient. He does not visualize, but REALIZE that God is All in All and
that, therefore the patient is a perfect expression of God. God being
perfect Spirit, equals man being perfectly Spiritual, no matter what he
or she appears like in the material form which is an Illusion. And if
the practitioner is able to conquer his own doubt and truly REALIZES
this truth about HIMSELF, thus will the "other", the patient, be healed
instantaneously.... Of course, since ALL IS ONE, the "other" is not the
other at all, but is he (the practitioner) HIMSELF. Thus he, through
mental denial and affirmation, rises above the material perception and heals
himself from the illusion of a "sick patient" and thus heals
"metaphysically" the other who is really himself. Thus the first lesson
of Christian Science healing and understanding is always based on ONE
and NEVER on two or more.... As only YOU are the Experiencer AND the
Experience (patient or whatever else). Always ONE and NO Other.....
In 1977 while discovering Bhagwan
through his book "Only the Sky", I also flirted with Twitchell's Eckankar
movement. Of course, I discovered soon that Twitchell's teachings were based on
Ruhani Satsang, a very severe and disciplined organization in India with groups
around the world. But as I never throw out the baby with the bath-water, I
figured that I could never be involved with Ruhani Satsang, but that Twitchell's
teachings could, nevertheless, be of value to me.
What fascinated me especially, was that the meditations and spiritual
exercises he taught in relations to one's ability to "soul-travel", was based on
the same mantra, "So-hum", as the Divine Light Mission's "Knowledge".
In one book he describes quite clearly how to do "soul-travel". I
remember that it involved very deep, rhythmic breathing for about 5 or 10
minute... Then one would speak out aloud "So" while reverberating the "O"
through one's whole body ..... take a deep breath again and aloud reverberate
the "hum" with emphasis on the "um".... and continue doing this and gradually
lowering ones voice to eventually do these two sounds only internally....
After a few aborted attempts I
was indeed able to "cut loose" and "soul travel". To describe this experience,
which I had quite a few times, I must mention that it can a frightening
experience because one looses total control over ones existence so to speak.
Well, it went like this, after having done the exercise for about 10 or
more minutes, I suddenly heard, but not with my ears, a very loud "Crack",
almost like the sound of a heavy tree-branch coming loose and breaking off a
tree. At that point is when I experienced a sudden fear to let go and I stopped
and opened my eyes to re-affirm "reality".
Having gone through quite a few attempts, I finally made up my mind that
I would "step through the gate" no matter what.
The next exercise, when I heard
the sound again, I kept my cool and continued....
And suddenly found myself in a similar experience to the one I had at the
Divine Light Mission's knowledge session. -I saw the "Creation of the Universe"
with stars and planets exploding, vaporizing gasses and massive volcanic
activity going on and I was part of it all. Not separate and not an observer as
in a vision, but experiencing it all as an intrinsic part of it ALL. The whole
thing was visual but not auditory. Being part of it all, I felt as if I was
propelled with incredible speed through the realm of the whole universe....The
colors of everything I experienced were indescribably beautiful, brilliantly
clear and uncontaminated...reminding one of those "Claritin" commercials where
the landscape projected become so clear and pure..... Then, having experienced
this actually indescribable "soul-travel" as an intrinsic participant, I felt
the sudden urge, almost like an invisible barrier, to stop and return to normal
consciousness. Not that I heard a voice, as there was no sound, just an inner
compulsion to "return" because I was reaching a point of NO return.....
When I met my present wife, also
in 1977, I introduced her to this "technique" and she too had an incredible
experience...Actually, we both had this experience together as we were
"meditating" together.
For a while she too had problems going beyond the "crack" but one day she
also was able to go "through the gate" and have a tremendous experience.
Well, I meditated with her, sitting cross-legged on the floor, and was
after going beyond the "crack", on a most beautiful "Elysian" field with knee
high grass and the most beautiful flowers...As always the colors were of an
intensity which I had never seen in the normal state of consciousness.... When I
suddenly saw a pretty little girl about 9 years of age run playfully through the
meadows... There was no one else with her and I just observed her with
curiosity. This was the first and only time that I would ever see a person
during these "travels"....
Coming back from this trip, I asked my
wife what she had experienced and she told me that she had seen a beautiful
little girl running through a field.. In other words, Michael, she had exactly the
same experience as I did.
About three days later my mother called me from Berlin, Germany, telling
me that she was very concerned because every time she "opened the cards" (She
always read playing cards for herself) there was a little girl in my future...
She hadn't even known about my new girlfriend who was to become my wife at that
time...
A little while after that, Donna (my future wife) missed her period, bought one of those "pregnancy test-kits" and knew that she was pregnant indeed. A doctor confirmed it a little later. Thus, we both saw our beloved daughter Kristen, before she was born on this planet, in a another state of consciousness and in "another world"
Well, dear Michael, this is about half what I had written much better in my lost letter.... More the next time.
As to your question where I live, it's in S....... We moved here from Vermont in 1998 to be with Kristen where she went to college, and to get away from the cold Vermont winters. But I did write you that before, you just forgot...
Your friend and Reisekamerad
Holger.
White Supremacists, Nazis or Ashkenazis?
Eric Hufschmid, Wing TV, Attacks on Rense,
Jones, ...Hufschmid vs. Wing TV
Will the "Exposers" be "Exposed"?
| Brett ........ <> |
| Friday, October 20, 2006 1:45 PM |
| <discoverer73@hotmail.com>, "John Kaminski" <skylax@comcast.net>, <wrh@whatreallyhappened.com> |
| white supremacists, nazis or ashkenazis? |
None of the White Supremacists provide the truth about the 9/11 attack, the Federal Reserve System, the attack on the USS Liberty, the world wars, the mysterious breaking of the New Orleans levees, or much else.More shocking, some White Supremacists imply that the Zionist story of 9-11 is correct. For example, in October 2004 David Duke wrote about 9-11, but instead of exposing it as a Zionist crime, he writes as if he employed by Newsweek:
If Osama bin Laden is the man behind the attack...
Holger Responds to Brett:
Dear Brett,
PLEASE don't be deceived by Eric
Hufschmid!!!!
You worry me with this mailing. I thought from your previous e-mails that you
had it all together. Hufschmid is nothing but trouble, a malicious worm and
perhaps EXACTLY THAT what he accuses so many others of being.... He even got
Christopher Bollyn all screwed up, so that Bollyn lost his job with APF
(American Free Press). Hufschmid is either a "shill" Zionist or Neo-Con, or just
a psychopathic person with a desire to draw attention to himself in order to
make himself look like the "grand exposer"....
Whipping David Duke with David's article about 911 and making it look like he
agreed with the government version of "Arabs" doing the job is WRONG. David Duke
only said,".. IF the government version is true...", meaning it in a sarcastic
manner.... Not to agree with the government version, but to lead right into the
real SOURCE, the Zionist and Neo-Cons!!!!! So then, WHAT DID HE DO WRONG? And
no, David Duke hasn't devoted much of his writings to 911, because it is already
being done so successfully by so many others perhaps better equipped to do the
cumbersome RESEARCH and write about it in detail! David Duke is completely
dedicated to fight ZIONISM and I for one shall always be grateful to his
COMPLETE DEDICATION and personal sacrifice in pursuit of THE TRUTH...
Hufschmid is WRONG, WRONG, WRONG and should not be take seriously by anybody
who is the least familiar with the facts and troubles of the movement...
His condemnation of just about EVERYBODY in the Truth movement is the sign of
Cain...Of an evil entity trying desperately do destroy what others have wrought
with so much sacrifice and dedication.
Along with this, what I wrote about Hufschmid, goes for Wing Tv's Lisa and ...(I
can't think of his name this moment) who are also doing a hell of a job
"Exposing" Jeff Rense and Alex Jones and HUFSCHMID!!! These two have published a
total "smear" job about Alex Jones on their web site which made me so angry that
I had to re-produce it on my web site with an introduction, an angry
introduction written by me.
http://www.gnosticliberationfront.com/wing_tv_friend_or_foe.htm
Having often wondered about this pair so hell bent
of "Exposing" people who are held in high esteem by the "movement", I was kind
of "sitting on the fence" until I read this article written by some crazed,
"white-males" hating woman... It outraged me (not so much the article in
itself), but that Wing Tv would stoop so low in reproducing it GLEEFULLY....
Now, Brett, do you get it? Here is Eric Hufschmid condemning Rense, Jones and
many others amongst whom is Wing TV, and there is Wing TV condemning Eric
Hufschmidt, Rense, Jones, Bollyn and many others..... What do you have? Total
confusion in the "camp of the saints" :)
I, for one, am grateful for Rense.com and Jones' websites. There is a lot of
information and perhaps even "disinformation" there. But I can't blame Rense or
Jones, because, like myself, they are not perfect and never claimed to be. We
all do what we can, based on what we understand and are Aware of. Rense and
Jones do have to be more careful because they make their living off their
sites...And that's okay with me and UNDERSTOOD. Rense publishes many, many
articles written by many, many people with different perceptions and different
viewpoints. And to me, this is what makes his site great..... Are we not
intelligent enough to "separate the wheat from the chaff"? If Jeff Rense feels
that some article is not "right" to publish, that is HIS decision and should be
respected by all, because HE is ultimately responsible for his survival on the
internet and as a business.... And I can just go and look somewhere else for
this information. But, in general, I have found more at Rense and Jones' web
sites than ANYWHERE else.... And re-produced a lot of their material on my web
site. So it shouldn't come as a surprise that people like Eric Hufschmid and Web
TV's Lisa and "Victor", would ALL attack Rense and Jones .... and each other!!!!
So what am I trying to say? That the REAL ENEMY is ZIONISM PERIOD!!!! Not
individuals who are trying to get the information out. Everybody had
shortcomings and even misperceptions and thus makes mistakes of judgment.... But
isn't it to be appreciated what wonderful work these people, accused so
carelessly and superficially by Hufschmid and Wing TV's Lisa and "Victor", have
done in the past years and will hopefully also do in the future...?
Well, Brett, that is my opinion and you are welcome to "take it" or "leave it". Remember: "I'm me and I'm free"!
Your Gnostic friend,
Holger.
Brett Responds:
Thanks for writing, I agree with most of your arguments, and I agree that there is too much backbiting, but perhaps that helps one to identify those who don't have the proper "allegiances"
Holger Responds to Brett:
Dear Brett,
thank you for your response. I do agree with you also, nevertheless, I have
read Wing Tv's web site extensively and have come to the conclusion that there
is more suspicion on THEM, on my part at least, than on those whom Lisa and
Victor accuse so vehemently... Sorry, I didn't want to oppose your views on the
matter but feel that I must speak up when I see their rantings.
Here is a link on my web site dealing with Wing Tv and their material in debth (I hope):
http://www.gnosticliberationfront.com/wing_tv_friend_or_foe.htm#update%2010-21-06
Please read it and also Ernst Zundel's letter from jail in Germany which seems
to point in the direction of my opinion. The Letter is re-produced on the same
page.
Please let me know what you think.
With a "Gnostic Salute",
Holger.
Brett Responds:
Holger Responds to Brett
Dear Brett,
thanks so very much for the links to "megahistory" site. Really and truly I
like their articles very much and am grateful to you for sending me the info. In
fact I would like to reproduce some of their articles but don't know if it's
okay with them. I could write them an e-mail but just don't feel like they would
appreciate my web site. They seem to be deeply into the "gaia" movement and
liberal, left politics. Maybe I fear their rejection? Perhaps some other time
I'll ask.
Brett, you are an interesting guy and I would like to know more about you. You
told me that your spent time in Germany. Were you there in the Army or Air
Force? Please don't mistake my interest as being nosy. It's just human interest
and nothing else. I'm not a "spy" or "shill" wanting to know who you are. And I
guess that you can see that already. So please do tell me more about you and
your journey through life.
I am located in ..........., where are you? If you are uncomfortable with my
asking, please feel free not to tell me anything.
You send me a lot of links that lead to this Laura Knight ...... (can't
remember her very last name).. I like some of her stuff, but don't trust her.
What I mean is her psychological material, which in my opinion is nonsense. But,
nevertheless, I agree that she has some keen insight. Only that she seems to run
a "mind-fuck" cult in line with Ayn Rand's psycho group.... Do you get what I
mean? And in many ways I also like Ayn Rand....but her cult turns me off.
This Laura group, with their various web sites is also in close with Lisa and
Victor from Web TV "fame"... Lisa is a regular contributor to their forum on the
"signs of the times" web site which seems to be run by this Laure Knight
woman.... And when you follow some of their forum topics see how contributors
are banned!!! Because they accuse them of being "disinformation" agents. You
know, this all smells of a cult to me similar to Larouge's political cult.
Almost like a bunch of Trotskyist condemning each other for failing to follow
the dialectic line. It's subtle stuff, I admit, but if you pay close attention,
you'll easily become aware of it. Anyways, despite their excellent articles,
these people give me the creeps!!! Are you originally from Utah? A mormon by
birth perhaps?
Your Reisekamerad,
Holger
Brett Responds:
Letter from Brett:
Thursday, October 26, 2006 1:00 PM
Nothings stops you from being a gnani here and now, except fear. You are afraid of being impersonal, of impersonal being. It is all quite simple. Turn away from your desires and fears and from the thoughts they create and you are at once in your natural state. (349)
[If you are still dreaming] it is because you have not really understood that you are dreaming. This is the essence of bondage - the mixing of the real with the unreal. In your present state, only the sense "I am" refers to reality; the "what" and the "how I am" are illusions imposed by destiny, or accident. (506)
At present, you are moved by the pleasure-pain principle which is the ego. You are going along with the ego, you are not fighting it. You are not even aware how totally you are swayed by personal considerations. A man should be always in revolt against himself, for the ego, like a crooked mirror, narrows down and distorts. It is the worst of all the tyrants, it dominates you absolutely
Letter from Holger to Michael:
Is it our human nature to be so critical
of and ready to "hang" people who have proven
their worth over many years with few "blemishes"?
Dear Michael,
below is an e-mail I received from
someone who has written to me before. As you will see from this fellow's letter,
there is a lot of "disinformation" going on and a lot of accusing...
Dreadful situation to say the least, but understandable in light of "shills"
actively engaging in information "warfare" and throwing confusion around like
what I answered this fellow below.
Michael, I had to "set this guy straight" right away. I know, I could have waited,
but I have to use my "inner momentum" to nip this shit right in the butt while
I'm still angry from reading this nonsense.
Why are people so ready to accuse and condemn people in the forefront of the
information war? I mean "average people" in search of Truth, not "shills"
engaged in this activity with a motive!
This fellow, Brett, why would he be so drawn to a deceitful psychopath like
this Hufschmid guy? Is it our human nature to be so critical of and ready to
"hang" people who have proven their worth over many years with few "blemishes"?
Why do they fall for such demagoguery and malignant distortion of their
motivation and sincerity?
Another fellow, David, with whom I have corresponded quite a bit, also, a while
ago, sent me an e-mail in the same vain as Brett's. Only his letter related to
Wing TV's accusation of Jones, Rense and Bollyn and Hufschmid. In his case I too
wrote him a long letter in an attempt to diffuse his new found "truth".
Unfortunately he never responded...... Perhaps he will later, or perhaps he
thinks that, having told him my honest opinion, I'm part of the "bad guys"? It's
so frustrating that people seem to have this kind of willingness to believe such
obvious lies, deceit and disinformation.... My approach is always: "Nobody is
perfect, including myself"! From there I ask myself WHY are these accusers doing
SO MUCH ACCUSING! Why are they so un-compromisingly accusatory? Can anybody
claim to have the WHOLE TRUTH and nothing but the Truth? Of course NOT, unless
they are fanatical nut jobs or worse "shills". How can people like this Hufschmid and Lisa and "Victor" from Wing TV be so sure of their "truth" to
accuse such icons as Jeff Rense and Alex Jones of being "closet Zionists" and
worse? But they do succeed in reaching a lot of un-discriminating people on the
internet, don't they? So they are successful because people support their ugly
activities, by creating doubt and more doubt as well as chaos and CONFUSION
amongst the susceptible..... Of which there seems to be an awful lot!
Anyways, Michael, I hope you are not disappointed, but I'm just about ready to watch "Fox News":) and give my heated mind a much needed rest.
More tomorrow!
Your friend and Reisekamerad,
Holger the Terrible.
The Process Church of the Final Judgement, Scientology,
Robert DeGrimston, the "Animal Sanctuary", Satanism...
Letter from a Researcher into The Process:
From: "L.... ........." <>
To:,
discoverer73@hotmail.com
Subject: Best Friends Animal Society, aka The Process Church...from
Jade/...............
Date: Thu, 19 Oct 2006 22:48:23 -0700 (PDT)
Best Friends has been up to no good and
climbed into bed with Joe Trippi. I am in a panic to expose them at "the
............
before their "dangerous dogs summit" on the 27th...Too much scary research
material to organize.
I'm worried about making an error. You have the best stuff. Please proof the
following excerpt and correct my errors?
With Best Friends, who needs enemies?
Best Friends has Katie Couric and the CBS evening news to help solicit donations.
Best Friends wants laws to criminalize dog breeding.
Best Friends wants laws to grant citizen “rescuers” the power to steal your animals.
Best Friends is promoted on the Animal Liberation Front website.
Best Friends claims that some dog breeds are inherently dangerous.
Best Friends is no friend of mine.
Besides being the richest, and self-proclaimed "largest animal sanctuary in the United States", what is Best Friends Animal Society? (aka: The Process, Church of the Final Judgment, aka: the Four-P Movement, aka: The Foundation Church of the Millenium, aka:The Foundation Faith of God, aka: Best Friends Animal Sanctuary.)
The book “Best Friends - The True Story of the World's Most Beloved Animal Sanctuary” is for sale on their web site and professes to be a complete history - but the religious incarnations are never mentioned. Why do you suppose that is? President Michael Mountain (born Hugh Mountain) has been a Processean since the early days. He claims the omission was the author's idea, and not a marketing decision. Yeah, right.
Thank dog for the internet! Where buried treasure may be discovered by even the amateur archaeologist. Let’s start by unearthing the skeletons in their closet. The sordid past they would rather keep buried. A passport may be in order for this globe trotting expedition. Grab a shovel and let’s start digging.
Once upon a time, over a half century ago, three friends were avowed pseudo-Satanists*; Lafayette Ronald Hubbard (aka: L. Ron Hubbard) – the founder of Scientology, John W. “Jack” Parsons (aka: Marvel Whitesides Parsons)– leader of the California branch of the Ordo Templi Orientis (OTO)**and a physicist who played a major role in founding the aero-space department at Cal Tech University, and Aleister Crowley (aka: The Great Beast)*** and head of the “OTO” in England.
Not surprising, this tale doesn’t have a happy ending. Crowley, addicted to heroin for the latter part of his life and bankrupt from a lost libel suit, passed away in 1947 at age 71. L. Ron Hubbard absconded with Parsons’ woman and his money, bought a yacht and eventually landed in England. Parsons would later self-immolate in a rocket fuel accident in his garage laboratory in 1952. His mother Ruth committed suicide the next day. Home movies would reveal sex with mom and the family dog.
Fast forward to 1963. Our first stop on the Best Friends magical mystery tour begins in London. While auditing at the L. Ron Hubbard Institute on Fitzroy Street, architect Robert DeGrimston Moore (aka “the Teacher”) met S&M prostitute/madame (and ex wife of boxer Sugar Ray Robinson) Mary Ann McClean (aka “The Oracle”). They eventually left Scientology, and twisting it with Adler’s post Freudian ideas created “Compulsions Analysis”. Mary Ann convinced Robert to drop Moore (they only used the name to travel incognito) and adopt DeGrimston when they married in 1964 and they were declared "suppressive persons" by L. Ron Hubbard in December 1965.
After initiates would undergo “the process”, they began initiating others – at a steep fee paid to the “Founders”. This allowed them to rent an office on Wigmore Street where the group began to experience the mind effects of the collective. It was in 1965, that they officially became The Process Church of the Final Judgement. (Nicknamed “the mind benders”, "Process" meant "pro-cessation," or "for the end" and, according to doctrine, the Final Judgment will bring "the purifying presence of fire in the world... ") Processeans did not know exactly when the end would come, but they expected it before the turn of the century. I hope they weren’t too disappointed.
When a member inherited, they secured a lease on a mansion on Balfour Place, in Londons exclusive Mayfair district where they first hung the official logo on the front door. Their young followers were ordered to leave home and turn over all assets to the DeGrimstons. Shortly after, Bob and Mary Ann each acquired a large Alsatian (German Shepherd) Dog. Others followed suit. As one member of the Church explained, "Dogs are much more high-level beings than we are...They're pure.... Animals don't have conflicts of choice. They do as they're supposed to. They're not conflicted." Apparently, Process members also believed that the dogs could sense the coming apocalypse. Just imagine the intimidation factor of an orchestrated entrance by “The Teacher” and “The Oracle”, as they descended the stairs from their penthouse - with their dogs on silver chains!
As members withdrew further, the rest of society was starting to feel like a bad trip. In June of 1966, the deGrimstons, about 30 Processeans, and 6 Alsatian dogs took the show on the road in search of a retreat. After 3 months in Nassau (Bahamas) they traveled to Mexico City where they were divinely inspired to follow the Yucatan coast to the Eden envisioned in meditation. A place of Mayan ruins called Xtul; pronounced 'Shtul' the word meant 'terminus' or 'end' in Mayan.
They set up camp in an abandoned salt factory. Mountain claims that the property owner had dreamt they were coming the night before. "So if there was any time when we felt that there was probably something mystical there, that was probably it." If Processeans had contemplated the end times, then the concept must have really hit home in September when Hurricane Inez pummeled the Yucatan for three days straight and the “shtul” hit the proverbial fan.
Members had sought shelter at one end of the building and the wall at the other end collapsed in the 200 mph winds. "The idea that we would abandon Xtul was out of the question," said Mountain. “If the storm meant the end, so be it. “ They must have felt a sense of empowerment to be chosen as survivors of a disaster that killed over a thousand people. A spiritual transformation had taken place. The God forces had spoken.
In “Sympathy for the Devil”, Gary Lachman wrote “They returned to London filled with a sense of purpose. Their return, however, wasn't a total triumph. While at Xtul, the parents of some underaged Processeans sent a solicitor to retrieve their children. In paradise, the solicitor encountered a bikini-clad Mary Ann DeGrimston, fawned on by ragged and underfed Processeans; he made a note of her long, silver-polished fingernails, and talked to the press. The Sunday Telegraph ran a negative story on the "Mind Benders of Mayfair." The 'alternative' press wasn't too keen on them either; a highly critical article appeared in the counterculture gazette, Oz. But the DeGrimstons weren't deterred. Back at Balfour Place they opened a 24-hour coffee bar called Satan's Cave. The group had made a sudden shift. They began to wear black capes and black turtle necks, and to sport shiny silver crosses. They also wore badges featuring the sinister Goat of Mendes, the devil headed demon of the witches' sabbath. The Process symbol too was prominent. Divine intervention continued. They set up a lecture hall and bookshop, and an Alpha Room, where they held their Sabbath Assemblies. (Novelist Robert Irwin, whose Satan Wants Me is set against the backdrop of occult 1960s London, recalls some deflowered virgins at Process gatherings, but doubts if there were any virgins in London then.) A movie theatre ran films dominated by destruction and violence. They gave classes in telepathy, self-expression and communication, and got on their soap-box in Hyde Park to preach the apocalypse trip. Processeans hit the streets asking for donations. Mary Ann was a fanatical anti-vivisectionist; cult members were told to say the money was going to 'animal welfare,' although most of it landed in the DeGrimstons' pocket.” Mary Ann authored a Processean tract against animal vivisection entitled “The Ultimate sin”. It would seem that the modern PeTA/H$U$ animal rights movement which reviles mankind while simultaneously extolling the virtue of the other animals, and which has also spread to America like a plague from the English shores, was conceptualized early on by the Process. I wonder if Ingrid or Peter ever attended some of their Satuday night Sabbath Assemblies? At conspiracyarchive.com, Mark Owens details how: “Robert Degrimston published several books on war (his favorite theme) and commanded his followers ‘THOU SHALT KILL!’ Another Process publication urged readers to experience the pleasures of grave robbing and necrophilia.” Lachman wrote “the main organ of Process theology was their glossy magazine,The Process. Sporting blaring red, purple and black psychedelic graphics, the editorial policy favoured Hitler, Satan and gore. "Humanity is doomed" was the brief. The Tide of the End had come. "The Earth is prepared for the ultimate devastation; The scene is set." While publicly courting celebrities such as Marianne Faithfull, Paul McCartney, and Mick Jaggar, Bob and May Ann became more reclusive. As if fused into one psychic entity, senior Processeans, “the Teacher” and “The Oracle” became known as “The Omega”. Their secret rituals became a matter of speculation among the lower ranks. Although strict sexual abstinence was enforced upon the new initiates, the same rules did not apply to the Omega. "Robert advised to 'release the fiend that lies within you'; he had several ideas about how to go about that, some of which may have included bestiality” according to Lachman.
...and ends with:
Michael Mountain and the others are calculatingly dismissive of the Process Church as nothing more than some counter-culture social exploration from the innocent youth of current Board members and that Satan was just a metaphor. Talk about making a “mole hill” out of a Mountain! Hey “Hughey”, you can hire Joe Trippi to sell it to the masses, but I’m not buying it.
"We're not saying that the Process is the only way. It isn't. Whatever works for you is valid. That's how we know what validity is-it works." - Sister Lyssandra
“Tabling” 32 million dollars last year must then be extremely valid. And remember, this is what worked for them: “So rise and prepare for the final battle. Stand proud in the monstrous presence of violent death, and sound the trumpets of WAR. Invoke the cataclysm! And on the signal, when the heavens burst and a burning, blinding, raging, all-enveloping fury sweeps the earth: Release the Fiend! And stride with SATAN'S army to the End.” http://www.abrupt.org/LOGOS/sow/sowtit.html from “Satan on War” by Robert DeGrimston
Holger Responds:
Dear Jade,
sorry for not writing sooner, but I got so far behind due to a lot of
correspondence and sending out horoscopes...
Your letter is interesting and I appreciate your faith in my "knowledge"
regarding the Process Church and the Best Friends Animal Society. What I would
like to emphasize first is, that there definitely was a true schism in the
Process in 1974! Robert DeGrimston aka Robert Moore was ousted by his wife
Mary Ann...no doubt about it. Robert even attempted to start his own church after
the schism, in Boston. But it didn't work out due to the "low quality" of the
disciples who sided with him and were thus willing to start up a new group with
him. Thus he gave up all attempts to revive the original Process and went into
"civilian life" with his new girlfriend who became his second wife... I
personally think of him as a tragic "hero", as I believe that he was much to
"removed" from the rank and file membership to have known about the dark side of
The Process. He was a mystic and dreamer, a religious, spiritual idealist who
couldn't quite understand what dark influence his writings could possibly have
on people with a "satanic bent.. People who were psychopaths and perhaps
sociopaths even before coming to find The Process...
Having said this, I do think that the "Foundation Church" et al, emerging
gradually into the Animal Sanctuary can not be understood as being the original
Process Church as such, but as an offspring under the leadership of Mary, with a
very different religious philosophy. Whether they can be still considered to be
a "cult" with a religious agenda, I can not say for certain.
I do know that from two different sources, I heard that the "employees",
those of the original Process and newer ones in positions of authority at the
Animal Sanctuary, have appeared to visitors who were once connected to The
Process as "zombie like" in their response to them as former friends in The
Process. How true these statements are, I don't know. But I suspect them as
factual since these two people wrote to me as former Processeans who didn't want
to see The Process as such revived and could as such be considered "neutral" in
their opinion of the Animal Sanctuary. Or even more so as protective of the
Animal Sanctuary because of their opinion that a revival of The Process would
shed unwanted attention to the Sanctuary's "forgotten" origin... I used to have
correspondence with someone who wanted to "expose" the Animal Sanctuary and who
claimed to have been there and found evidence that it was still some kind of
"mind-control" cult with the now aging former wife of DeGrimston revered like a
prophet. Unfortunately this man's website and e-mail address have suddenly
disappeared and I have had no more contact with him. You have probably seen his
letter to me on my website....
Why he suddenly stopped his very active campaign should give anyone, who does
research in this area, serious thought!
The Animal Sanctuary is a multi-million dollar operation with serious
donations coming from "celebrities" and the general animal-loving public. With
tax exemptions and the humanitarian "limelight" for their fund raising
activities, you must understand that any interference by people "exposing" and
bringing unwanted attention to their past, will be counter-acted vigorously by
them... Meaning, that they they have the money and means to litigate and do
whatever is necessary to protect their operation!!!
I do not ever claim to be an expert in
either The Process or the Animal Sanctuary. You must have read on my web site
what I wrote about my interest and search for them in the 1970's and my
attempts, however naive, to revive The Process with two former low level
Processeans. Through this effort, I had quite a lot of correspondence with
former Processeans and others "in the know", even with Prof. Bainbridge who
wrote a definitive book on The Process which is now out of print. Nevertheless,
research into The Process and it's eventual schismatic offspring, The Animal
Sanctuary, is a journey into a realm which even today is fraught with danger and
disinformation on a large scale... Thus I must tell you, in all honesty, that I
have only been able to penetrate the surface and nothing more....
What you wrote is in MY OPINION correct. But again, I must CAUTION you that I
really, in the final analysis, know NOTHING. So what I consider correct
doesn't necessarily mean that it IS correct :)
Also please be aware of that with your correct connection of Hubbard with
Parsons you tread on dangerous territory, as now you are not only tackling The
Process/Animal Sanctuary, but the very powerful and LITIGIOUS Church of
Scientology which isn't known to "play fair" and abide by the rules... Whatever
you are planning to do in your "expose'", please consider first if it's worth
all the trouble (serious trouble) you might find your self in with all of them
after you :)
Nevertheless, again, I do agree with the article and find it correct, to the
best of my knowledge.
All my best wishes, in hope that my letter was helpful to you,
Holger.
Letter from Simon of "Skwierzyna Net":
Saturday, October 14, 2006 8:24 PM
Letter from Holger to Simon of Skwierzyna Net:
Hi Simon,
thank you for the compliment! I have
just sent you an e-mail thanking you for the link and telling you, not
knowing your name of course, how happy I was to have received your e-mail
with the link to your wonderful site. Really, perhaps you don't realize it,
but Schwerin-Skwierzyna has always had a special place in my heart. Perhaps,
if you have the time and inclination, you can tell me a little more about
you. I'm truly curious what made you create this site and where did you get
all those postcards of Schwerin? And where are you located, I don't mean to
pry, but I am curious if you are in Poland or the USA. Your English though
is excellent, so I assume that you are in an English speaking country???
Please do stay in touch!
Thanks again, for the gift of your wonderful web site,
Holger.
Letter from Simon:
More from Simon of Skwierzyna Net:
It may be that the Schwerin expellee organisation you describe still meets. The one in Landsberg Warthe (25 kms north of Schwerin) is still fairly active.
"What I was specifically interested in are some new pictures, or more recent pictures, of the apartment complex which was relatively newly built during the third Reich, in which I was born. Yes, I was born at home with assistance of a midwife. You see the complex in a photo on my web page about Schwerin. I was wondering if it was still there and what it looked like now."
Also I am somewhat curious as to how you met your wife... My mother used to always tell me that Polish women were very pretty and very sexy (although she didn't use THAT word :)) But she said that many German soldiers had fallen in love with Polish women because they were so desirable! Please don't take my curiosity as being nosy, but I am always a sucker for "human interest" stories...
I love the English, always did. Even as a child I was drawn to English authors of translated books. Thus Enid Blyton was always high on my reading list. She resembled, in her writings, everything that I admired about the English people. But unfortunately the England of today doesn't much resemble the England of yesterday, the England that I found so fascinating and mentally stimulating...
The England of Chesterton and Jerome Jerome... I remember laughing so much that tears were pouring out of my eyes reading a story by Jerom Jerome about a journey he and some friends took up the Thames...He being such a hypochondriac and than when I traveled by train with an old cheese that somebody had given him, which was stinking up the whole compartment...
Simon
Letter from Holger to Michael:
Dear Michael, I just read your letter and thought immediately of Henry Makow!
Dear Michael, I just read your letter and thought immediately of Henry Makow, a Jew who converted to Christianity. He is a very prolific author whom I hold a little "suspect" because of his attempts to blame a lot of what is going on on "rogue" elements within Judaism and Zionism... Nevertheless, he is a good man who means well (I think). He is the perfect candidate in your "cause" to convince your Jewish friend that the "party line" of Judaism, the perfect innocence of Jews and the never ending hatred of the Goyems ending in "pogroms" isn't necessarily the truth...."Good luck" though Michael, because I don't think it will work for you. You are just going to make an enemy of this old "bone-head" :). Really, Theo, you and I, down deep, KNOW that your attempt of bringing the truth to any Jew is an attempt at futility, a hopeless undertaking which will only make you suspect as a "closet" anti-Semite to him or them... And what good is it going to do for either of you? He is too old to change his cherished belief system and you will become his enemy... Is it worth it? Just my thoughts....
Read the article by Henry Makow. His web
site is: www.savethemales.ca
More later, Holger.
Holger to Michael:
But I don't think it is so extraordinary
that I could predict your Jewish friends reaction....
Dear Michael,
I am neglecting you and I do feel bad about it. Unfortunately a lot of stuff is
coming up regarding material on my web site and I have to do so much time
consuming research that my head spins... I just ate breakfast at 3:00pm, can you
imagine, and have been working the computer since 8am.... Also had to do a lot
of letter writing to people who sent me material related to my Web Tv and
Process Church research. You know, time does fly when one has to research and
write on the computer no matter how fast the computer is, the human element
still requires more time to accomplish what one needs to do.
I appreciate your sentiment in regards to my ability to focus, shoot and hit
the target. It is flattering and to some degree true perhaps. But I don't think
it is so extraordinary that I could predict your Jewish friends reaction.... as
I have dealt with this same problem on the internet for quite some time. It's
just human nature, Michael, you blew this fellow's biggest and most cherished
bubble, and he just can't get over it.
Any criticism voiced towards a Jew, an
ordinary, run of the mill, Jew, about Judaism and their most cherished bond, the
bond of "persecution", be it the Holocaust or just "pogroms", is taken very
personal. Thus you have "shown your color" and are an "anti-Semite" :).
This is
the very reason why I refer to them as "Tribalists", plain and simple... It is
almost like they are still living with a "group-identity" manifesting itself
from a "group-soul". You criticize an individual and they see it as an attack on
all Jews and "the Jewish experience". And you criticize Judaism as a religion,
or Jewish involvement in Bolshevism, or even worse Zionism, and you have
attacked the Jew whom you voiced your opinion to!
Now you are an anti-Semite, an outcast, an uppity goyem who doesn't know his
place....
It's okay for them to criticize and condemn at will any and all goyems, but may
God help you if you say anything negative, no matter how well proven, about
ANYTHING Jewish, individuals or in "organized form", like the ADL, Israel or
what have you....
Thus, I have come to the conclusion, however faulty perhaps, that no matter
how "enlightened" and "open-minded" Jewish individuals appear, they
nevertheless, with very few exceptions, will turn on you with an unexpected
viciousness if you ever DARE TO defy the "politically correct" barrier of our
"polite" society and use the words Jew, Judaism and Zionism in less than the
most flattering manner! "They are a 'race apart', and don't you ever forget
it"!!! And no matter how "self-deprecating" they come across to you, don't you
ever feel free to speak to them in agreement :).
So, there you are, Michael.
Have you heard from Francis? I hope he will come across with your stuff soon...
I have been working making a new page for "Letters to the Gnostic Liberation
Front" in which you are strongly represented :). Also had to update my "Attacks
on the GLF" page with an article by a former Processean with whom I once, about
three years ago, corresponded and who is angered by my "turning against" The
Process. Somebody sent me his blog "Holger's Nightmare" and, of course, I had to
respond instantly :).
We fell out over the "holocaust" and my "revisionist"
articles on my web site. I was angry and disappointed because I really liked him
(still do). I just was turned off by his dismissive attitude towards
"revisionism" and couldn't believe that such an intelligent and erudite person
could be so close-minded to my need to research this issue. He blames it all on
a German guilt-complex and now calls me something like a narcissistic,
psyche-traumatized German who has focused his anger and hatr