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Just wanted to give you the gnostic salute: "thanks for being yourself"
| Brett S...... <l.........@comcast.net> |
| Tuesday, October 17, 2006 11:14 PM |
| <discoverer73@hotmail.com> |
| I love GLF |
Just wanted to give you the gnostic salute: "thanks for being yourself".
Holger Responds to Brett:
Hi Brett, I return the "Gnostic
Salute" to you, my friend.
Your comments are so right and your "Gnostic BS Detective" is working well
indeed!
Thanks for taking the time to write me your letter of support. I appreciate
it very much.
Your Gnostic Reisekamerad,
Holger.
From Francis Donald Grabau...
To Holger W. Haffke....Gnostic
Liberation Front
Amfortas To Parzifal Concerning Fruitcakes
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Howdy, Holger
Brother, comrade, and old friend. How "funny" you should write me saying how I should write you. I've been immersed in a combination of Rachel Corrie, "Holocaust Denial", Nuremberg Trials, Norman Finklestein, Ernst Zundel, Germar Rudolph, Alfred Lilienthal, David Irving, and YOU! Plus, of course, the Black Hole of Censorship engulfing Planet Earth while the Grail fills up with cheap Thunderbird wine and the vulgarity of Condi Rice's filthy underwear full of baby vermin like Bush, Cheney, Rumsfeld, Negroponte, Gonzales, Chertof, and Rove fills the air. What a shit hole. What is Evil ?
Then, I took a whole day to read all over again -a whole day because I like to read slowly and feel and smell and taste what I read- your story of your Gnostic Childhood. Then came an email from Judy Marshall asking me if I knew what had become of John Kaminski and sending me a link to his tale concerning what that was (his sudden disappearance from Rense and elsewhere) and asking for money lest he be altogether "disappeared". And of course, Baby Jaye Beldo sprinkled me with lots of obtuse emails concerning esoteric issues concerned with his latest entourage of "alien-mind-control-invasions" by sinister astral forces lodging in all his private parts! His father's legacy of aspartame addiction; fake sweetness. And I think I may safely say I'm nuttier than a fruit cake and twice as stale. Mouldy, even. Ready to be canned away to wait for another eternal Christmas delivery. But let's not go there right away.
Let's talk about your writing, shall we? I really enjoyed reading your Gnostic Childhood ... if "enjoyed" is the right word for it. I mean, certainly watching you run around the room with your friends marching to old miltary trumpet tunes after carting a "victrola" in a wagon to your house was rollicking fun and quite enjoyable. I thought of how you and I have that in common: a love of rousing, stirring, pompous music! The more grandiose and blood stirring, the better! It's all that Sagittarius-Jupiter BRASS! Wagner sure knew how to handle it, -Tchaikovsky and Mahler did too. Beethoven was certainly no slouch! Eroica! Freude schone gotterfunken tochter aus Eliseum! Sumptuous vortices of sound swirling down the inner ear canal rousing all the red corpuscles of the blood! O passionate intensity, etc. The scenes you write so well -the outdoor "cafe" so close to the band/orchestra you didn't even hear the protests- are a joy to read. Vomiting all over yourself on that forlorn looking island in the North Sea (or somewhere!) hauling your tail over the sand dunes wanting so much to find folks of like mind. Idealists, hoping to change the world for the better. All of them coming down with food poisoning in the old barracks buildings. Your special concrete bunker by the sea. That odd object you found wedged in the rock that turned out to be what? I forget, an umbrella? A bicycle pump?
No, it was a magic baton and you waved it toward the sea, and the waves rose up in a gnostic dance carrying the Holy Grail to shore!
But suddenly the whole seaside is filthy with trash strewn about by poor black folk speaking foul language to each other in Georgia while you are landing in Peyton Place and some kind body gives you a job! Then this obnoxious street music starts up full of cheap sentimental lyrics which you confess you detest, lyrics all about how you lost your respect for your mother after Uncle Ali disappeared behind a kiosk and you rolled on the floor with Helga in juvenile bliss! You are condemned by Mom for your lust in puberty or pre-puberty (I can never tell exactly how old you are as these scenes unfold). Some bizarre voice emerges claiming it wishes you could be black for a week. But you are busy getting a couple of Schneken from the nearby bakery and can't even imagine where this voice came from. And, besides, your grandfather keeps calling you a Jew. But you give away all your reichsmark shekels and become a follower of Jesus till you die on the cross as the cursed outsider! The curtain falls with the grail descending in the guise of an etheric bicycle pump to the rousing tunes of socialist marches. All men are Brothers, comrades. Grace Metalios. Holger and Helga. Peyton Place.
Yet, just before the curtain begins that final descent we see rapidly unfolding before our startled eyes a vision of the Klu Klux Klan chasing Paul Robeson across the stage straight into the waiting arms of Diana Varsi. The two elope hurriedly in mutual bliss to the Jugendheim Bauer where they roll in ecstasy over endless juicy fruit wrappers mixed with the fallen feathers of Donald Duck strewn over the barrack's floor. Then, far in the background, we see the ghosts of Holger & Helga embracing as they ascend to heaven over the tossing waves of the North Sea to the majestic chords of Der Fliegende Hollander! At last, the thick velvet curtain really falls. It's Blood Red. The audience riots.
When it rises next, I find myself wandering with you over bombed out streets with scarce food, jumping into jeeps for a ride, begging for chewing gum and chocolate while our poor mother looks on terrified lest some GI Joe shoot us in the head so as not to be accused of "fraternizing" with the Nazi enemy! Then comes that mysterious voice repeating again, wishing this time that we could be black or jewish for a week so we could have all he chewing gum, the chocolate, and the jeeps. Russians are raping people right and left and Günter Grass sits by with a notebook writing it all down as his Blechtrommel Tin Drum. But hark, what's that other sound? Why, it's Uncle Ali's voice simply saying "Geh zu Ihm." We are once again in some dark hallway where the Golem appears offering us a mystical book full of abstruse squiggles drawn by Huckleberry Finn and a few stray Tibetans giving us the inside scoop on the Ahnenberg and the Vogelsang causing our sacredly confused blood to boil in a new frenzy of brass trumpets while The Protocols Of The Elders Of Zion unfolds revealing even darker conspiracies just around the corner. Shit, it's not easy being a suspect Nazi Gnostic even if we did grow up in downtown Baltimore-Berlin and thought we were One as children and brothers ...
Nothing I cared, in the lamb white days, that time would take me Up to the swallow thronged loft by the shadow of my hand, In the moon that is always rising, Nor that riding to sleep I should hear him fly with the high fields And wake to the farm forever fled from the childless land. Oh as I was young and easy in the mercy of his means, Time held me green and dying Though I sang in my chains like the sea.
I'm just getting my feet wet, ... more later, I must go now and make some food for my sick friend, Terry, out here in Atascadero California where I presently reside safe in my tin disguised as a fruitcake
Love to you, Brother Holger, from Donaldo...
"I know he's no such thing; but I'm
talking about how he 'sounds',
his 'tone' -how he may come across to others trained
(brain-washed) to hear the horrid judgement,
"ANTI-SEMITIC JEW-HATER" whenever the Holy Shoah is questioned"
Uh-oh, Brother Holger ...here comes Mister 'Nuance' !
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Brother Holger,
As I am never sure how my 'flight of fancy' or literary self might be taken, I shall refrain for the moment from commenting further upon your Gnostic Childhood lest you read into it some imagined slight. I do recall how you are born with Mars in Aries making you prone to haste and somewhat quick on the draw! Instead, Good Brother, I should like to take up some of the other themes you spoke of in your recent missive to me. To begin with, there is the theme of Brother John Kaminski and the 'Jewish' issue. What can I say ? Immersed as I have been in the writings of Germar Rudolph and Norman Finkelstein, I have also been noticing these last 6 months how Brother John inched ever closer toward the tendency to use the word 'Jew" in a grab-bag, catch-all kind of way not discriminating between factions or individual persons who are Jews or Jewish but using the word more and more inclusively to refer to all Jewish people as if the whole race were evil sluts bent upon exploiting the world for their own demented aims and profit. Let me say, right away, that I do not for even one minute think that Brother John is "anti-semitic" but I was becoming ever more worried at his increasingly sloppy (because imprecise) use of language and his ever angrier and more frustrated tone. Personally, I love John's writing especially because of his willingness to be forceful and direct. But I noticed, month after month, how his furious IMPATIENCE (which I know both You and I share) with the current global-political-psychic-monetary situation was driving him to cut corners, so to speak, seemingly hoping that by doing so HE COULD WAKE US ALL UP TO THE 'MAFIA' RUNNING THE PLANET! Arouse us, cause us to DO something useful that might change what looks surely to be our increasingly dire future. I appreciate that work on his part. Nevertheless, I worried.
Why did I worry? Because in my probings into the Historical Revisionists' efforts to clarify what's been going on in our collective History, -especially the last 300 years of that history, I was LISTENING to their writings, to their 'tone of voice' and their choice of words trying to discover what it is that seems to 'block' their message from being universally heard. [ Aside, of course, from the Mass Holocaust Propaganda. ] To do this, I had to also read many furious Zionists's (plus Zionist sympathizers') negative reviews and angry condemnations of their works. I am speaking here primarily about David Irving's work and Robert Faurisson's work as well as Ernst Zundel's work and several others. I noticed a lot of 'cheap shots' being taken on both sides of the argument, for example -even though some few facts occasionally get straightened out, as in the case of Anne Frank's notorious Diary, wherein ALL the original pages are published in facsimile side by side with translations into English, and the ball-point pen objection turns out to be merely a matter of ball-point NOTES appended by readers-publishers to the original pages- some revisionists persist in refusing to accept those facts. Not even mentioning those facts. Pretending that portions of it were written in ball-point pen. Nor will the 'Zionist' types give up their absurd claims to the 6 million number even though Finkelstein brilliantly 'disproves' it in The Holocaust Industry! [I know he doesn't claim to literally, factually disprove it, but he does ridicule the figure and shoots it full of holes by quoting Israeli-Holocaust documents.] You know how HOT that area of attempted 'dialogue' has been and still is, and WE both know how criminal and cowardly are the laws in place in Germany, France, and Switzerland (not to mention all the other countries) which prosecute & persecute Revisionists for even daring to express their opinions regarding the sacrosanct 6 million number and the hallowed DOGMA of the mass executions in 'gas chambers'! Kaminski has spoken out boldly condemning and mocking all this for which he has my undying gratitude and admiration. But Brother John eschews the studious, careful, 'scholarly' approach and in his zeal to denounce the obscenity of these unjust censorship laws he cuts corners. As I have said earlier, he's been increasingly cutting corners and therefore, increasingly 'sounding' to others ( I suspect -especially those newcomers who haven't read his earlier body of essays but simply stumble upon one or more of his most recent ones ) like a 'cheap shot' con-artist. I know he's no such thing; but I'm talking about how he 'sounds', his 'tone' -how he may come across to others trained (brain-washed) to hear the horrid judgement, "ANTI-SEMITIC JEW-HATER" whenever the Holy Shoah is questioned. I'm sure he knows this, but he persists in thumping away at it in his bludgeoningly direct way. He rails against the zionist lobby of holocaust hate-speech legislation which makes it practically impossible for anybody anywhere to say the words 'holocaust' or 'jew' without first praising the 'Chosen People' of dumb-dumb Yahweh the bugaboo Old Testament ONLY GOD!
Lately, Brother John has been summing up literally everything that's wrong on the Planet Earth with the word, "JEW". This will never do. This is crude, ignorant, and far too simplistic. Yet I repeat, Brother John is NOT a scholar, could never be called ignorant of history but does seem to be too impatient with that scholarly, detailed, and often tedious mode of communicating. And he rightly suspects it of 'hedging' or of often needlessly confusing issues which are otherwise in their central essence quite clear! I agree with him there, and I think he's a fine writer exactly as he writes. I don't think he should change his writing at all, as long as it serves him in his burning quest to get the truth (as he sees it) out to others. But it appears now as if this approach has ceased to serve him well and is beginning to alienate him from his global internet support base if it has not already done so.
Mind you, Brother Holger, all these thoughts were passing through my skull BEFORE your recent email reached me. I swear, it's enough to make one's head swim and one's heart shrivel when one dips into the history of Israel, Zionism, and the Israeli-Palestinian debacle. But, when one adds to that attempts to distinguish the historical evolution of the words ZIONIST from Zionist, or Zionist from Jewish, or Jewish from Jew one is almost certain to develop chronic brain fever! It's all very complex and subtle and I've come to see the word 'Jew', for example, as similar to the word 'Fire'; if you say 'Fire' in some places, at some times, in certain tones it's perfectly common place and not alarming at all, but if you say it in other tones in other places at other times it's enough to cause the panic of a stampede! Then, the "Powers That Be" simply arrest you. So it is, I think, with the word 'Jew'. And I further think that if any of us are going to get anywhere with the much needed REVISION of history we absolutely MUST take these differences and distinctions into account. We just cannot afford to go shooting off our mouths (at least not ALL the time and publicly) as if all these subtleties are meaningless or irrelevant. I don't think Irving, Rudolph, Zundel or Kaminski want to pass their precious time wasting away as 'martyrs' in Yahweh's jails! ( Am I driving you nuts yet? )
'Average' Americans taken 'en masse' or as a whole are NOT, I think, fond of subtlety and distinctly not gifted with attention to nuance. Certainly not in the way average Germans or the French seem to be. Americans tend to feel that their cowboy, rough shod ways are somehow more honest and true than 'European' nuance could ever be. Americans pride themselves, I think, on their BLUNTNESS. They celebrate their very lack of refinement, their brash and often simplistic-bumbling ways. I mean it's all about crude, down-home, hot dog, action in America, -the Nation of the Aries cry: "JUST DO IT!" Or, "Awe, shucks, just do it man ...don't be a botherin me wif all dem goddam phony details. I got needer da time nor da patience for dat BULLSHIT!" Americans, I fear, think subtlety and nuance are synonymous with insincere, pretentious, and hypocritical.
Lately, in my opinion, Brother John Kaminski has been lured out of his right mind (which is not at all averse to nuance or subtlety -though not particularly gifted in such areas, either) into the All-American-Just-Say-It headset. He's become something of a John Wayne of the Radical Left. He seems to think his unabashed sincerity confers upon him the right to linguistically swagger about waving a six shooter! Some of his verbal shots are ricocheting off the resistant steel walls of brainwashed Americans and moving in his direction. And of course he no doubt has the vile Mossad on his trail because other shots of his have hit their targets dead-on -in bullseye fashion- and begun to draw blood. I take it that Jeff Rense is high-tailin it up into the far hills ... and others, too. I'm worried about Brother John and would wish that he might let his six shooter cool off a bit for awhile. But Kaminski feels we have no time to beat around the bush what with weirdo anonymous phone calls plaguing his girl friend and a no doubt Zionist agenda to smear his good name and drive him down the same path the same folks designed for Gary Webb ... the "suicide" path. The more desperate Brother John allows himself to sound in his public writings the easier it will be for these killers to "off" him. He has (almost) single handedly pulled back the veil masking the "Arc of the Covenant" revealing that there's nothing inside except Hollywood and a grinning Indiana Jones!
Which brings up my concern for you after spending a few days again exploring your website... but it's 5:51 AM now and I must off to bed ... with warm greetings and hardy blessings ( I'll talk to you more, soon )
I remain -I hope- your friend, comrade, and brother Francis
From Holger:
May I publish them on my site? Without your name if you wish?
You are absolutely correct and I agree with you completely
about Brother Kaminski.
you don't know how very, very happy your letters have made me. God, you read me like a book and the love and comfort your word give me are like balsam on my heated soul. Well, let me not get too mushy...But really and truly, if there ever is such a thing as a soul-mate or soul-brother, somebody that loves you no matter what and who understands you no matter how crazy you are, YOU are to me that very ONE. Never ever have I found anybody so tuned in to who I am (or seem to be) than YOU. My heart flows over and my soul is charged with new energy and light whenever you communicate with me....Therefore if I ever Loved somebody through all the 65 years of my ragged life, it is YOU, dear Francis! Thank you for your insight and balanced understanding of me as I don't even understand my self as well... I only thank whatever kind spirit brought you into my life and of which you have been such an important part and influence and grounding anchor for so many years now. Please do continue your wonderful "letters" as they have brought tears of immense joy and laughter into my "jaded" soul.... I'm waiting with great anticipation for the next installment... May I publish them on my site? Without your name if you wish? You are absolutely correct and I agree with you completely about Brother Kaminski. I, being a little "mentally challenged" took his increasing condemnation of ALL Jews, as his evolved natural awareness....and actually thought that he really had "balls" to go into an "all out offensive"...even though I, deep within, don't agree with it either. Just thought in my Mars-Aries state of mind, that it "served the bastards right" after all the shit they pulled on quite a few generations of Germans...No, that is not nice! And Holger shouldn't think that way..., but I can not always be a "nice German boy" and eat my chicken soup without protest....Hell, I actually really like, if not even love, Jews. I did have many Jewish friends through the course of my life and was always drawn to their intellect and rebellious spirit. And they too were drawn to me as well. In a round and about way I believe that if any type of people are natural Gnostics, it is the Jews. But, but, but... and here comes the "if" and "but" stuff: why in God's name do they hate Germans so much and why do they form such a tribal united front when it comes to protecting "their own"? What I mean to express is: Why can't they be as individualistic and rebellious when it comes to the "tribe" and why do they cling together like a "persecuted minority", when in fact THEY themselves have all the "power and the glory" now as Jews everywhere, except in Arab lands? Why the lies and distortions and why the need for an Israel as a "home base" but living with dual citizenship all around the world? Nevertheless, I do prefer the "company" of Jews to the company of "Gentiles" anytime!!! Just like Wiesel preferred to flee with his German oppressors from the concentration camp, instead of waiting to be liberated at the camp by the Russian "liberators". If only they could see me as an individual and NOT first and foremost as an evil German. And to top it all off, oh gosh, A GENTILE....! So my love for Jews is something like a forbidden love:). Well, anyhow, when I was once in the 1970's flirting with the Communist Party USA in New Haven, CT, I met more Jews than I had ever encountered consciously before or since. And these were perhaps the nicest, warmest, kindest and most welcoming strangers I have ever found anywhere....Never was there any expression of Germanophobia, criticism or stigma sensed by me. We had meetings at a Marxist-Leninist book store which had a lot of space below the store for meeting and lectures. ALL of my "handlers" were Jewish and all of them had been in federal prisons during the McCarthy years....I was invited to their private homes and to meetings in NYC without reservation or stigmatism of any possible kind. But, of course, they were required by party "discipline" to renounce their "Jewishness" and their pesky religion and were thus free to be just like any other "comrade." In fact they all reminded me of Pete Seeger the folk singer whom I like immensely. That type of person and personality right down to the jeans and blue work-shirt. So I think there is hope for Jews and Gentiles to become just human beings :)
All my LOVE,
your devoted disciple, dear Bubba Don,
Holger the terrible
Francis responds:
Dear Brother Holger,
Well thank you for your very warm letter. Actually, it was hot! I'm glad you
feel that I understand and love you but I'm embarrassed to tears that you'd call
yourself my "disciple"!!!
I can't stand gurus, disciples, followers -that whole gamut of inanity, but your
sentiment I really do appreciate. I guess we two just have some hard to figure
out or name connection, and as I think we've speculated about 3-4 years ago it
might be through
previous lives as Cathars in Southern France. I don't know what it is, but it is
there. Here. Thanks again for your warm/hot letter.
It's fine with me if you post what I've written about Kaminski, and I'm
forwarding you in this email now something I wrote to Judy Marshall awhile back
after she called my attention to the sudden disappearance of Kaminski from the
Jeff Rense pages.
As I think I've told you, I noticed it ...but sort of like "out of the corner of
my eye". I hadn't really "grasped" it, thought I might just be "hallucinating"
or something. I mean, correct me if I'm wrong, but Rense rather prominently
displayed Kaminski as one of his LIST of regular writers until suddenly he was
not there. Just vanished. Rather like the way the Israelis surreptitiously swept
Mordecai Vanunu out of Europe after he blew the whistle on Israeli Nuclear
Weapons & Facilities! The kind of thing that really offends any descent
person's sense of justice or fairness. Sweeping people under the rug;
"disappearing" them. Doesn't Jeff Rense owe his readers at least some kind of
explanation as to why Kaminski is suddenly banished from his pages? But Rense
has increasingly become suspect for me as he has for you. Not only have I
noticed increasing amounts of "neo-con" crap cropping up on his website but he's
violated a promise he used to state and reiterate a few years back, -the
"promise" that he'd keep his radio show "free" and its archives, too. Yet, in
the last few years he's "quietly" gone ahead and made such access by
"subscription" only. And not just archived shows but daily live broadcasts. If I
try to listen live all I'm offered is a 20 minute stream if I can get it to work
properly and play! Mister Jeff Rense, I'm afraid, has simply become another
money lender in the Temple, right up there with Coast To Coast and its trivia of
distraction-disinformation!
Anyway, Brother Holger, I'm thinking maybe you've hit on a good idea with this
notion of posting our dialogue around Kaminski on your website. I think it might
help those who otherwise don't really know what to make of your very large
collection of information and articles and are "shocked" to find "words from
the Gospel of Thomas on the same page as a huge defense of Joe McCarthy! "
That's a quote you sent me from some pseudo-gnostic who found your Gnostic
Liberation Front to be an offense to his rather simple nature. Your webpage is
such a rich tapestry of articles woven about the theme of QUESTIONING so central
to the original Gnostic position on Life that it easily "offends" the modern day
internet, computer lounge lizard posers who claim they are "Gnostics" because
they "belong" to some little "gnostic" club or another. The very idea of
Gnostics conforming to ANY little Boy Scout Club Agenda with ANY protocols of
membership or ANY set dogma is ludicrous as you well know but, unfortunately,
many of those who stumble upon your pages do not! The fellow who wrote
objecting to the Gospel of Thomas being placed beside a defense of McCarthy
ought to broaden his horizons by familiaring himself (perhaps) with the
Surrealists Poets like Tzara, Duchamp, Valaoritis -all those who claimed
Lautreamont and his Maldoror as their own. The pataphysics of Alfred Jarry and
Ubu Roi! I wouldn't take this guy's rantings to heart if I were you because he's
simply about feeble mindedness and name calling -I mean he did have the nerve to
write: "...bigoted assholes have been using spirituality to defend their
exclusionist nonsense for years. The Theosophical Society essentially (some
argue purposefully) spawned the myth of the Aryan Super Race, and let’s not
forget how many modern white-separatist militias and other jerkoffs claim a
Christian basis for their exclusionist delusions." Now somebody please tell
me if that sort of writing isn't itself exactly what it purports to condemn!
You are born with Jupiter in Gemini squaring both the Nodes of your Moon in
Virgo and Pisces, so any astrologer can easily see that you delight in including
and posting via your Jupiter function all the Gemini data and information you
can find relevant to the theme of the GNOSTIC LIBERATION FRONT. I don't think
you are claiming to be perfect, nor that everything posted on your website is
ABSOLUTELY your point of view. You are merely offering information from various
unified points of view by innumerable authors on the universal Gnostic theme:
AWAKEN, QUESTION AUTHORITY! Yet your tendency to be "all-inclusive" may confuse
others who cannot live with apparent contradictions and seek to reduce your
entire website to some "hidden" central message about "white-seperatist
militias" and/or similar absurdities. Therefore, think I, your idea of
posting our mutual dialogue -which is certainly open to comments from others-
regarding speculations as to what's happening these days with John Kaminski
might be helpful for such folks to see and read so that they might come to a
better, clearer understanding of your work and your webpage. Though you,
yourself, have posted quite a clear statement of your purpose in creating the
Gnostic Liberation Front on your site, the site is so large that many, perhaps,
never see that message. They simply become overwhelmed at the surreal
juxtaposition of so much seemingly contradictory information in one place that
they shift into panic mode and may draw snap-quick conclusions such as the ones
cited above by a superficial reader who clearly doesn't want to question his own
"position" on the late Senator McCarthy. I, personally, find it difficult to
"like" McCarthy at all, but I do appreciate the insights that those who defend
him offer for our consideration. And I think we need to strive to keep our minds
open to new ways of looking at things, particularly these days when so much of
what we were taught in schools concerning the history of our past is proving to
have been false or to have been highly propagandized. Your Gnostic Liberation
Front like many other amazing web sites is part of the new democratic internet
tool that allows scholars and others to exchange and post information,
documents, or simply opinions that have never been available in the past due to
the limits of establishment media and publishing. People seeking to understand
the obtuseness of our modern world welcome the kind of questioning you do, a
kind of deep questioning innate to your nature, and the kind of questioning
which reveals you to be, in my opinion, a Natural Gnostic. Keep up your
wonderful work and please don't let the frightened, cheap, name callers distract
you.
Warmly Yours,
Brother Francis.
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From a friend who wishes to remain anonymous:
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My dear brother Holger: I have visited that website 3x in the last month, I found it juvenile and quite frankly so typical of these pseudo-gnostics we find so commonly in America. I went to the diatribe and saw but 3 responses, was yours taken down?
======= 3 Responses
1. Bogomil Says: March 29th, 2006 at
This’s universal problem - in Russia too… 2. bing Says: March 29th, 2006 at
heh–”Little Gnostic Footballs” 3. Dan Says: March 30th, 2006 at
This is weird, because I was actually gonna write a post called Gnostic Front on April 1st as a joke. The content was gonna be exactly the kind of thing on that site.
======== I rediscovered your site just yesterday and have been imbibing to my soul's content. May I tell you that I had all but given up any hope that your site would return, I asked and asked and no one would reply nor did they seem to know anything. I lamented its loss as it was, truly, unique. It was as if some genie had prepared for me a cornucopia of all the spiritual topics of which I have an interest. So as I was reading yesterday I came across the name of Otto Rahn and it brought to mind your outstanding archive. So I was determined to see if somehow or other somewhere on the web some worthy materials of Rahn were still online. Lo and behold on the search engine came up your website and with great trepidation I clicked the link and to my ecstatic joy GLF was up and functional.
What are the odds one wonders...to me it was Jungian synchronicity which is nothing more than the leading of the soul, the guidance of the Almighty Himself.
I have long learned that telling the truth is considered "anti-semitic", to what possible response would our enemies react with fairness and consideration---none.
These fashionable nouveau-gnostics are far, far from that which is depicted in the learned articles on GLF or amongst the martyrs of Montsegur.
You know, as well as I do, that there is something very wrong with this world and as Professor Kevin MacDonald had DOCUMENTED, it is primarily of a Jewish nature. Most recently, Holger, a Harvard Dean of The Kennedy School of Government was forced to step down due to Jewish pressure. SEE: http://www.antiwar.com/justin/?articleid=8787
What did they say about Jesus? All the false accusations, and against our brethrern of the Cathari and on and on. Did you think, for a moment, that you would be able, in your purity of dedication to TRUTH and SPIRITUALITY, to escape the same smears from the same gang or the mouthpieces?
Our gnosis is being hijacked by both dilettantes and agents of the Enemy of Humanity.
The humbleness, the humility, the spirituality which permeates your personal writings and is evinced in the selections on GLF, are demonstrably that of a soul of the Light in the eyes of those who KNOW.
That we are sheep amongst the wolves is certain. If we embrace and espouse the Light do we think the Darkness and its forces will not also seek to counter? That is why your work is so important, it is an oasis for true gnosis, that we can drink from its clear well.
So, my brother, do not allow those who bear false witness against you, to trouble you. It is a sign that you are doing the work of the Lord.
Was it not noted long ago John 7:24 judge not by the appearance. Those who ostensibly are "gnostics" may be something OTHER than that. I have noted that the genuine students of gnosis that have encountered your website came away, as I did, with a very positive view of it and that is what matters. Are we reaching those we are MEANT to reach; that is all that matters. They can delete your response, they can jail Ernst, Germar, David, and Siegfried Verbeke yet they call us the "bad ones." They accuse US of what they ARE, classic. There is no hate on GLF, there is, however, plenty of evidence and truth, and truth is the People of the LIe's greatest enemy.
This poppinjay that runs that pseudo-gnostic website filled with irrelevancies and distractions, is not going to stop those who are MEANT to find GLF and profit from its goodness.
I have read in the past and have been doing much reading since yesterday of the site and I can affirm that GLF is a rare jewel and a blessing to those who seek the Light of Gnosis.
I noticed that you remarked you had some trouble with the Process pages. There is a fellow Bainbridge, who used to have valuable photos and information about the 4P but it was a lure to his distasteful attempt to form a cult of his own something about UFOs but not of any worth but of a means of aggrandizing his own ego, when he learnt that the 4P material made his shabby second-hand goods look VERY bad he withdrew the 4P material. I often thought of Moore as a Prophet, misunderstood, but a prophet nevertheless and for some reason some fear his words. The Dawn of the Age of Truth draws near, lucky is the man who sees it. My prayers will be with you my brother. You are a rare individual in today's darkened world.
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Letter from another friend and
comrade
in response on the Jeremy Puma attack on Holger
Response
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Sent.
These reviews, in my opinion, typify the thinking of children. To illustrate :
First religous emotionalist : "God himself spoke to me last night, in a dream."
Second religious emotionalist : "I did no such thing."
People subconsciously get as far into the Bible as "And God said . . . And it was so." Then (having read enough for their purpose) they close the book and begin acting out this role. It is a game they play with each other, one diagnostic of their level of development.
Gnosis is a matter of direct, immediate, first-hand experience. Not of opinions, and still less of pseudo-words like "anti-semitism." No one can perform surgery with chainsaws.
An "anti-semite" is what ?
1) Anyone who hates Jews - even one, and with a good reason.
2) Anyone hated BY Jews - even by one, and for no reason.
This is purely and simply what politicians and propagandists call a buzz-word, used to bypass rational thought, creating an emotional impact which stampedes the herd in the direction desired by the manipulators.
To the extent that this term means anything at all, it does actually describe one group of people : Zionist Jews and their fellow-travelers. None of whom are, in any meaningful sense, "Semitic" at all (being descendants, in the main, of Ashkinazim - Khazars from Eastern Europe. See Alexander Koestler's "The Thirteenth Tribe"). These very people treat the Arab population of Israel - and even their own Sephardic co-religionists - both of whom are genuine Semites, like dirt.
It probably does not occur to the people who sling the term "anti-semite" around that there are Jews in the world who are having no part of this calculated deception. One who comes to mind immediately is Henry Mackow ( www.savethemales.ca ) Is he also an "anti-semite" ? As it turns out, probably yes - by definition number three :
3)A Jew who does not pledge allegiance to Zionist objectives and programs (defined by Zionism as a "self-hating Jew").
Which, curiously enough, brings us back to where we started : the supposed obligation of everybody everywhere to accept propaganda delivered in a tone of intense self-righteousness as the very voice of God himself. (And, of course it is - just ask the propagandists themselves. To whom "I think" = "God says").
Gnosticism, people, is a matter so entirely "other" than this ! When you taste something sweet for the first time, you know what sugar is. Gnosticism is this nuts-&-bolts practical. Until then, there is only wrangling and posturing - children's games.
Letter from Holger to "Skip":
WING tv, Rense, Jones and the "Chapel Perilous"....
Hey Skip,
thanks for the info, although I must admit that I already am familiar with wing tv and their expose' of Rense and Jones and Szymanski. In fact my friend the "Gnostic Astrologer" Francis Donald Grabau sent me this very same material a few month ago after an e-mail exchange concerning Kaminski and why he was removed from Rense.
In fact, I even mailed my very knowledgeable internet acquaintance "D...", author, amongst other articles, of my ........ article, about this and he related to me that he was on a phone interview with Jeff Rense when half way through it, the connection was suddenly cut. He called them back and couldn't get anywhere with them (I forgot what they told him) but it was an outrageous "excuse"...
He told me that he would never deal with rense again.... The reason that I still go to rense for research and material is that many of their contributors are nevertheless genuine. You just have to know whom to trust and read the material carefully!
You know many authors who send their material to Rense know what we know, but are doing so because Rense has a huge readership. So they keep on sending him their research and articles. I am not a radio or television person so I don't know about their radio program.
Jones too puts out some good research and polemical material, but I reproduce very little from them because I don't know if it's okay or not to do so.
Szymanski, I don't like because his nonsense is so obvious....
Quite
naturally, in this time of intense political warfare, internally and externally,
the "alternative" media is under special scrutiny by the powers that are....
In
order for Rense and Jones to stay afloat and to remain on the internet, they
have to play with the "big boys"...at least to a certain point. Like Jesus said:
"Give to Cesar what is Cesar's"...
The more you are involved, the deeper you
become enwrapped into the power plays of disinformation and power structures.
This is like the "oppressed" becoming the "oppressors" after a revolution...
It's always ego and other "unsavory" aspects of our human nature which come to
the fore during stressful times and character tests.
I don't believe that either Rense nor Jones are willing disinformation peddlers, in cahoots with the powers that are. I believe that they have to dance a tightrope to maintain their status in the "alternative" media as well as their reputation. Thus they might do some censoring when they feel that things mentioned might be dangerous to their status or their ability to remain on the internet...
As to Wing tv and Victor
and Lisa, I'm not so sure that they are angels either. I have never read their
book about 911 and thus don't know why neither Rense nor Jones want to promote
it.
It could be just competition and financial concerns, or that there is
something in it which indeed might be too revealing in regards to the truth.
But
I do know that these two don't give me a good feeling either...
To me, even a
little truth published is better than NO truth at all.
Why these two are so
active in besmirching the two main sources of "truth" on the internet, is, to
me, a source of deep concern (to say the least)...
Anyone involved in the search
for truth and into conspiracy theories should know that this field of knowledge
is like a mine-field and that he has to "dance" through it with utmost care and
often just rely on his or her intuition as a main source for discernment...at
their own peril.
Somebody called it the "Chapel Perilous"!
Nobody REALLY KNOWS
THE TRUTH with complete certainty and only a mentally deranged fanatic would
claim to have all the answers.
Thus, I personally, take everything with a grain
of salt and publish what I think might HELP TO LEAD TO THE TRUTH. Even if I know
that something sounds a little "off" and I have some suspicions about a piece, I
would still put it up because I like something, just something and not all of
it, about it.
Rense is afraid of the Jews. And I don't blame him because their power is beyond our imagination! If I wasn't retired and thus somewhat "independent", I too would be much more circumspect about what I publish concerning them, even though I knew better.
I'm 65 and figure "what the hell". But people in the "mainstream" must be cautious to survive financially and probably also physically. D...... is, as I have noticed, also quite cautious when it comes to "their" influence... And I assume that Jones too has felt the subtle threat of their "displeasure", to put it mildly...
Wing tv can not even remotely be compared to those two "giants" in the field. Their articles and news are very limited and I would damn the day that I would have to go to them to find the latest information.
So I am always rooting for Rense and Jones, no matter what their "shortcomings" are or might be.
Sometimes, (only sometimes), I
even believe WING tv to be what they accuse Rense and Jones of being...disinformation
agents of the power that is....
Just a gut feeling, intuition if you will, and I
have no proof as this is no accusation...just a gut feeling.
It's a perilous mind-field, my friend!!!
Welcome to the world of "CONSPIRACY" and intrigue...
Where NOTHING means anything and where EVERYTHING means something!
Accusations
and counter-accusations, personal egos and TRUTH, all thrown into a "grab bag"
for us to discern.
Just take all information as stepping stones and trust only
your intuition as the final arbiter and you won't go wrong, no matter where the
info is coming from and how limited or even muddled it is.
David, I got myself a lap top computer
and I can now sit on my front porch and do all my correspondence and even web
site work while smoking cigarettes and drinking strong coffee. This makes it so
much more "inspiring" to write and read. Before, inside, I couldn't smoke and I
felt always rushed to get done and back outside.
Silly, ha! Well, smoking has
always increased my ability to do mental work. Just recently I read some
material on a web site which dealt exactly with this phenomenon as not just a
mental thing but as a physical fact.
http://www.serendipity.li/_home.html This is a good web site run by
Peter Meyer (I think that's how he spells his name) who has some brilliant
material and research on "The Protocols" on his other website
http://users.cyberone.com.au/myers/toolkit.html
Of course, this
purchase on my visa card throws me even more in debt. But as I'm going down
already, I figure I might as well go down "in style".
My beloved dogs (I hate to call them that as I think of them more as my children) are with me on the porch and I love that a lot.
Well, time to go and eat some cereal for breakfast!
Your Reisecamerad and friend,
Holger, Jerry or HH
A neglected friend who is dead wrong about The Process
From: "Guy and Bebe" <guy_and_bebe@blacksheepmuseum.org>
To: "Holger W. Haffke" <discoverer73@hotmail.com>
Subject: Good item about thought crimes
Date: Sat, 25 Feb 2006 21:07:52 +0100
But you can't tolerate criticism about the Process, Hmmmmmm.
Response from Holger:
Dear Guy,
I am deeply sorry that I have not communicated with you and thus made you feel not only frustrated but downright angry. Really and truly, I am very sorry for being so neglectful of a good friend as you deserve better. Frankly, my life through my wife's illness seems to be spinning out of control and I just kept on delaying writing to you. The situation in this world, politically and spiritually, adds to my inner despair. The only thing that I have been doing is adding articles to my web site because an inner compulsion is prompting me to continue against all the odds. I have written very few e-mails in the last couple years and have responded to even less. It seems that I can not find the right words or thoughts to communicate with anyone. Of course this is wrong and again I can only express my being sorry to you. Please, Guy, do forgive me and try to understand! It's absolutely not personal as I like you very much. Concerning The Process I must tell you that on that account and accusation you really are dead wrong. True, I did have hope to help revive The Process with two former Processeans a few years ago...and only because at one point in my life, many years ago, in the seventies, I was quite obsessed with their mystique and philosophy as I then understood it...But, thank God, I then never could get hold of them...Well, you read that story on my Process page. When I started my website in about 2000, I decided to follow up on them and try to find out what REALLY happened with them and if there were any splinter groups still alive so to speak. I put up some Process material that I had still in my possession and sure enough, some people responded. This is how it started and my conclusions which I published some month ago are added to the Process article. You must not have read this, since if you had, you wouldn't think that I am some kind of secret Processean or what have you. I was contacted by some very strange characters who tried to dissuade me from persuing my Processean search and from bringing new attention to them. So obviously they are very much alive and involved in some very dark business indeed. Also involved is the Animal Sanctuary in Utah which is run by the former wife of DeGrimston, Mary, and the rest of the group which split away from DeGrimston. They do some incredibly good work, but it is also a multi million dollar business...from donations...and God only knows what else is going on there since they move heaven and earth to keep attention away from their Processean past. Anyhow, I began to realize that I was being deceived and that there was a real danger coming from these people...Also I have a strong feeling that Intelligence is involved with them and their activities. I have not had contact with any Processean in over two years and don't want any contact either. My intuitive feeling is that there is truly something evil going on which reaches far beyond Satanism...
So you are really wrong there Guy! As to not wanting to publish material relating to your beliefs, is only a personal dislike of tribalism and tribal religion related to Old Testament --- Torah-- beliefs. I just don't like it. Whoever the real "chosen people" are leaves me cold. I don't like Judaism, Islam and even orthodox Hinduism either. To me these are all instruments of our oppressors to keep mankind in line....So nothing personal, and I would even be willing to publish something of your belief system if you can give me some material which I can at least appreciate. As a Gnostic I believe in freedom and following one's intuition. All the rest is just people trying to have power over others by means of superstition and brain-washing. I have lots of material on my website with which I don't completely agree, but where I believe that there is redeeming value in it despite some disagreements on my side. Also I must tell you that I never removed any links to your web site...they are there and have been there for years on the Links pages.
I hope that all is well with you and Bebe and your child.
Your friend,
Holger.
Letter regarding Spirit-Possession and "Ascended Masters"
From: ANew........@aol.com
To: discoverer73@hotmail.com
Subject: (no subject)
Date: Sun, 2 Apr 2006 03:31:17 EDT
Hey I was reading up on your page and I had a few questions if thats ok. I was wondering if the Higher Self or an Ascended Master could cast out and protect you from spirit possession. Or does it have to be someone on Earth? Do they always have the power to help you in any situation? I read a part about the dark forces trying to trap people in 3rd dimension. How exactly could they do that? By continuing to hide their true nature? Is that the only way? Hope to hear from you soon. Thank you and God Bless.Austin
Letter from Holger:
you sent me a real tough bundle of questions which have bedeviled (no pun intended) me just about all my life. I have read a lot of material on possession and spiritual bondage to the third and lower fourth dimensions and have, after more than forty years of research, still not found a definitive answer.
From what I have gleaned though, it seems
that in general possession happens mostly to people who are pre-disposed to
it. This meaning, that I, as an example, can "walk where angels fear to tread,"
and you, as an example, might become possessed or obsessed doing the same
thing. Like, if I did use the Ouija board frequently, I might be "protected"
and nothing negative will come to me.
Now you might start doing the same thing
and you become obsessed by spirits, or even worse, possessed. I would say that
your Higher Self would be the main source of protection but also your
"guardian spirits" or "guardian angels," if you will , are, if permitted, going
to protect you also.
As to "Ascended Masters" I must admit that I don't
believe in them and would be very weary to take any advice from an entity
proclaiming itself as an "Ascended Master."
You can, in theory, be bound into re-incarnating into the third dimension,
which would be this earth plane, through diverse factors...such as Satanic
mind control (if you are dealing with Satanists) or through having a
completely materialistic mind set which makes it impossible for your Higher
Self or True Self or Spiritual Self to influence, guide and protect you.
Mainly, it is YOUR spiritual awareness of God as being ALL that is, and that
you are an eternal expression of God who is Good, and knows no evil, which
will, with some practice on your part, keep you balanced and in harmony with
the Ultimate Truth of God Being All in All, and thus liberate you from
negative influences and temptations.
This would be called "Self Realization". As evil or negative entities who have remained in disharmony are thought to "reside" mainly in the fourth dimension or in an earth bound state in the third dimension, they will attempt to obsess or possess those with whom they sense an affinity.
Thus to protect yourself from them you need to be in a
state of spiritual "grace" through your mental and physical life style
and Awareness.
As in
today's world you are exposed to so much subliminal, as well as open, mind
control in advertising, propaganda and spiritual manipulation by "illuminati"
thought control experts who work through intelligence organizations, cults and
even organized Religion, it is not an easy task to counter-act and neutralize
their aggressive workings to keep mankind in bondage to the third and lower
fourth dimensions.
But it is also not impossible. David Icke has done superb work in his books and articles and I would highly recommend them even if the "reptilian agenda" which he promotes so fearlessly doesn't appeal to you at this point in time. Also the mind-control material on my web site might help you in attaining a better sense of these factors which are aimed at all of us from so many directions. Brad Steiger also has done some superb research on the subject....Also Fritz Springmeier's and Cisco Wheeler's books on my web site are invaluable for your quest.
Well, I hope I was able to help you and hope that I didn't unwittingly add to your problem.
Sincerely,
Holger.
P.S. I have just read a new article by Brad Steiger relating to the Ouija board and have added it to this letter
To:
.........@fastmail.fm
Letter from Holger to Elaine:
Dear Elaine, I'm sorry to have gotten cranky on your comment about Germans and Germany. I really don't mind criticism of either, but your comment seemed so flippant and unfounded to me at the moment that I felt like I had wasted a lot of time corresponding with somebody whom I had misjudged completely. The comment just didn't seem in line with your intelligence and awareness. And that is what kind of upset me.
As to Germans, they, like any other people, come as all kinds. Some are nice and flexible and others are stoic and self-righteous, if not arrogant. I much rather deal with Americans than with most Europeans as well as Germans. My destiny has always been America and I don't feel very comfortable when visiting Germany. By Germany I mean actually Berlin since that was the place of my childhood and young adulthood, before coming to this country with 200 bucks in my pocket in 1963. And Berliners are as different from the rest of Germans as New Yorkers are from the rest of Americans.
Berlin is, and always has been, the center of culture and everything that goes with it, good and bad, of Germany. Just like New York in many ways. Not as big, of course, but big enough. It even is in a sense the heart of Europe and has a history of being as bohemian as Paris. Many Germans that I have run into in this country or at other places in the world, are not my kind of people. They seem to be loud, boisterous and even arrogant. My wife despises them when they come as tourists into her store because they make a mess and are very demanding. So I am not upset at your comment per se, but was taken aback by the flippant manner in which you seemed to express them.
I know that I could have never
evolved as a person to the degree that I feel I have, had I remained in Germany
or Europe. I have been in Amsterdam, in the 60's and felt the same way there as I did in Germany. The same goes for any other country in
Europe. They always felt stifling to me.
Still, I always am aware of my roots, so
to speak. For one thing, I am aware, more than most Americans and even most
Germans, of the importance, the geo-political importance, of Germany through the
last couple centuries. You see, Elaine, with all the negatives, Germany has an
inner spirit and discipline which has made her into the envy of England and
France.
I'm talking about industriousness and the market for trade which is all
important to any nation. When all the small German kingdoms, were united under
Bismarck she became a threat to English trade and colonial rule. The same goes
for France. England and France are "Atlanticist" nations with orientation towards
the Atlantic, westward reaching, in culture and spirit. Germany is Eurasian.
Eastward reaching, in culture and spirit. Eastward means Poland, Russia, and even
China.
Thus, being located in the heart of Europe, with borders in all
directions, Germany has been, and still is, the battleground between East and
West. Culturally this is wonderful and has produced such great poets, thinkers,
philosophers and composers as no other nation or culture.
Of course, in today's
capitalist democracies, this means very little, as most people in the world have
no need for classical music, operas and deep philosophical thinking.
Nevertheless, both, America and Russia, have been and still are, to this day,
fighting for the German soul.
Because they know very well, that without having
Germany's support their grip on Europe is lost. With few exceptions the Poles
despise Germany with a hatred based on their fanatical Catholicism which leaves
no room for flexibility. Although Germany has many Catholics, they are mostly
located in the southern and south-western parts. Poland borders on Prussia
though, which is mostly Protestant.
Also there have been endless fights over
land by both, Poland and Germany. So Poland is the weak link, to the eastern
outreach of Germany. Thus Poland, in order to remain independent, has often
played their weak, but nevertheless unique, power over Germany as a trump card. Like
forging alliances with Britain and France against German "aggression.'
Yet, there
are so many connections between Poles and Germans that this is almost laughable.
For example, I read that 60% of all Berliners had Polish blood in them with even
Polish family-names. I too probably have some Polish blood in me since my grandparents
on my mother's side came from a fought over region which changed hands
uncountable times, "west-prussia".
Many of my friends in school had Polish sounding names also. Anyways, it
all leads to the fact that to
understand what happened during the first and second World War, is based on so
much more than we think and are told.
Communist Russia (or should I say Zionist-Jewish
Russia) knew that in order to take over the world, they first needed Germany
under their control...
But I can't go any further because it would lead me
deeper and deeper into a realm which I can't tackle right now. The reason I went
into this stuff in the first place, is to make you understand why, what I
perceived as a flippant remark, really disappointed me.
Otherwise I don't mind
at all what anybody says about Germany or the German people as long as it is
reasonable. We all have our experiences
which form our views, correct or incorrect, we shouldn't worry about expressing
them.
This is enough for now though, I have to go shopping (which I hate with a passion) and take care of news for the web site.
All my best, Holger.
Jeffrey Mylett, the movie "Godspell" and Meher Baba...
From: velvetfog0001@comcast.net
Subject: Jeffrey Mylett Date: Fri, 30 Jun 2006 01:51:14 +0000
To whom it may concern, Hello! I found
your email address at the bottom of this website:
http://www.gnosticliberationfront.com/meher_baba.htm I thought I'd
contact you, since I noticed that the late actor Jeffrey Mylett was mentioned in
this article. You see, I run a tribute site on Jeff Mylett, and I'm aware that
he was a devoted follower of Meher Baba. I was just wondering if you could
possibly tell me about him at all, or if there's anything you'd like to
contribute to the site. The link to my Jeffrey site is at
http://itsayskeds.bravehost.com
if you're interested. Thank you so much for all of your time.
All the best!
Sincerely, Annette
Response from Holger:
Hi Annette,
what a wonderful job you did with your
memorial web site for Jeffrey Mylett!
I'm so grateful that you did this labor of
love for him, because he was a great artist and great soul who very much
deserves to be remembered.
Of course, it came as a great shock to me to hear
that he died of Aids in 1986... I often wondered what became of him but have
never attempted to search the internet.
God, it made me so sad when I read on
your web site that he died so young. And that Jenniffer his sister died so young
too...
I met Jeff in 1973 after contacting the Meher Baba House in New York City
by phone asking if there were any Baba Lovers (that's how we called ourselves
then) in the Danbury, CT area. They gave me the name of Jeffrey Mylett and his
phone number.
At that time I had no idea who he was and I didn't even know
anything about the movie Godspell either. -Don't forget in those days there was
not as much movie hype and television advertisement as today. And there were no
videos, video stores nor dvd's.
Anyhow, I called his number and he answered and
I explained the reason for my call to him and that the Meher Baba House had
given me his phone number. He was very gracious and invited me over to his home
in Ridgefield, CT.
Now, Ridgefield is a rather small, upper-class, New England
town about 10 miles south east of Danbury on route 7 going to Norwalk and easy
to find.
So we agreed to a meeting the next day and I went there. Jeffrey met me
at the door and invited me in. The house was an unassuming colonial and he told
me that he had just recently bought it. We settled down at his kitchen table and
he made me a cup of coffee. He pulled out a pack of Lucky Strike, non-filter,
cigarettes and asked me if I minded him smoking. Of course I was delighted
because I was itching to smoke one of my, non filter, Camels with my coffee.
After
some small talk and exchange of cigarettes, he told me about his love for Baba
and about the movie Godspell of which I hadn't heard yet.
He spoke of the cast
of the movie and that many of it's members were also Baba Lovers and that the
movie, as he saw it, was dedicated to Meher Baba spiritually.
I was "blown away" by the fact
that I was in an actor's home and speaking to him in person...
He was so natural
and un-assuming that it just seemed totally unreal...something only Baba could
have concocted. (Please don't forget those were the days when mysticism, the New
Age and unlimited possibilities seemed so incredibly realistic).
You see it also
in my e-mail address, "discoverer73" ...What a wonderful, magical year it was
for me!!! Not because of meeting Jeffrey alone, but just with so many things
opening up in my life spiritually).
I also had no idea that he was gay and thus
there was no possibility of feeling awkward or inhibited on my part.
Jeffrey
told me to make sure to go and see the movie and watch for "the taxi-driver with
the flute" (his role in the movie) .... Naturally I couldn't wait to go and see it.
After some more talk
about how he bought the house with money from the movie and how others from the
cast had bought houses in Ridgefield also, he told me that he had worked as a
shoe salesman in Ohio, when he found out that he had gotten the part in the
play. I thought that he was talking about the movie part, but after reading on
your web site that he was already in the off Broadway production, I believe now
that he meant the play and not the movie.
So, after a couple hours I said "goodbye" and drove back to Danbury still under the intoxicating influence of this great, exuberant and charismatic guy whom I had met through Meher Baba. I believe that I went the next day to see the movie and was, of course, blown away by it and the great songs, the love and joy and also the deep sadness of it's anti establishment crucifixion scene of Jesus on the fence surrounded by police cars with lights flashing....
Oh those were the wonderful early seventies!
Anything seemed possible and the world seemed to open up into the depth of the
divine realm. I remember having tears run down my face, tears of joy and of
infinite sadness when I left the theater... Yes, I remember Jeffrey with joy and
with infinite sadness now also.
"Farewell, Jeffrey! I'm sure that Baba was
waiting for you on the other side of consciousness with a big hug and approving
smile".
And thank you, Jeffrey, for being so kind to a complete stranger and thank you
for the joy you brought through Godspell to millions!
You shall never be
forgotten!
PS Annette, thanks again for contacting
me!!! You don't know how sad and yet also Happy I am for having received your
e-mail.
Oh, memories...sweet memories... If you want to, you may gladly add my little "homage to Jeffrey" to your web site. I would be honored and I think Jeffrey would approve :)
Love,
Holger.
A friendly letter from the Pacific Northwest:
|
Hello D....,
thank you so much for your kind letter! And greetings from ......... in the deep south. Well, Gnostic type people come with the same type of "baggage" as everybody else. Some are deeply into politics and those usually negate the spiritual aspects of life and some are "spiritual" and negate the political....The quest for Knowledge - Wisdom - Gnosis should eventually lead into the realms and depth of both. Have you read any of David Icke's books? Also William Bramley's "The Gods of Eden" is, in my opinion, one of the best. But, the true Gnostics journey through life is a lonely one indeed....
Have you ordered any of the Astro Reports? I would especially recommend the "Sky Within" report which can help you in self understanding...It's free, so you have nothing to loose.
Thanks again,
Holger.
| From : | D.... C....... <d........@comcast.net> |
| Sent : | Tuesday, April 18, 2006 3:59 PM |
| To : | "Holger W. Haffke" <discoverer73@hotmail.com> |
| Subject : | Re: Enjoying Your Website |
Letter from Holger to Dorie:
Mary Baker Eddy, the Bhagavat Gita and the Old Testament
thank you for your detailed letter. You surely are an accomplished writer and I enjoy reading about your many spiritual pursuits. Right now I only want to quickly answer some of your questions to the best of my limited ability.
Yes, I agree with you about Mary
Baker Eddy's use of the old testament in her teachings. I also had a hard time
with that. But I have come to understand that she only did what she felt she
needed to do to get her message across to an "audience" steeped in "old time
religion."
In other words, she compromised....
Most likely, had she lived in
today's world she would have formulated the framework of her concepts in a
much different language and religious basis.
For one thing, I believe, she would probably have avoided the old testament like the plague. People today would be much more receptive to her work if she would be much more up front about what she really believed without the need of drawing upon such negative source.
One thing though, I don't think that she ever equated the god of the old testament...Jehovah..or Yahweh, with her all good God which is Spirit and Love and of whom all that is is an expression.
Meaning that God is All in All and therefore expresses himself through his spiritual Idea which is creation. Thus God expresses himself as D.... or Holger or whatever there is....as Spiritual Idea but never material expression.
So the old testament quotes Christian Science uses could as well be quotes from the Bhagavat Gita or from the "Aquarian Gospel of Jesus the Christ". Her concept of God is definitely NOT that of organized Christianity or Judaism but is the Gnostic concept of the All Good God who is the Beyond, Beyond God who is totally oblivious to our earthly material existence and who because of Him being All Good, can not know evil.
Since matter is evil...because it is an illusion...a Mesmeric (Hypnotic) condition of solid matter...Mary Baker Eddy came to the solution that man must learn how to overcome matter and its inherent corruption through Knowledge, Wisdom, Gnosis and understand the unreality of matter through disciplined thinking and constant awareness of the Truth.
This could be considered as a form of mental yoga to compare it to eastern religions.
The first few editions of her "Science and Health," had in its
introduction and heading all subsequent chapters, quotations from the Gita and
other Vedic texts.
So she had been exposed to eastern philosophy...perhaps
through her first husband's membership in a Masonic order and I think she also
was a member of the women's auxiliary.
This was when she had moved with her
husband to Charleston, SC and lived there for a short while until he died, I
believe.
Of course, South Carolina, and especially Charleston was a hotbed of
Scottish Rite Masonry, home to Albert Pike's Southern Jurisdiction at the
time. So MBE was not as naive as she perhaps comes across in Science and
Health and in popular Christian Science myth.
She most definitely was exposed
to Gnostic thought and accepted it as her spiritual basis.
Dorie, I also agree with your thoughts about the meat eating comments in CS. That is something which MBE didn't quite have time to work out, or she was unwilling to deal with it's implications. Perhaps she thought in terms of matter and death as an illusion, it didn't really matter what one ate? Of course, had she been exposed to the suffering and painful death of animals in slaughter houses, she would have given vegetarianism more consideration...I hated to eat meat as far back as I can remember as a child and only ate meat in the form of Wieners and Bratwurst (growing up in Germany). Now I still eat meat only if I have to as it repulses me still....But I smoke cigarettes like a chimney (only outside) and drink black sweet coffee by the gallons :)...It stimulates my thinking ability as a ritual as well as from the caffeine and nicotine. So I am definitely not an angel or saint...and definitely not in sync with all her teachings, as she was opposed to both. But as David Icke says, "I'm me and I'm free..."
My daughter who is 27 years old is a vegan and she quit smoking before it became too much of a habit to her. My wife is battling cancer right now and it is a horrendous experience for her and me. As I feel so helpless in view of what she is going though with chemo treatments and constant pain. She had one lung removed in February 2005 but cancer had already spread to other areas....She is not a very spiritually inclined person and therefore I feel even more helpless because any suggestions coming from me fall on deaf ears....So I'm somewhat stressed-out not knowing what the next day could bring. I do understand your situation quite well. The battle with doctors and orthodox medicine is more than just frustrating. Diagnosing an illness and getting the proper treatment is difficult to obtain in this day and age. Doctors have no time and no inclination to heal anymore. All they want to do is, give you some pills and get you out of the office within minutes after waiting for hours to seem him. Thank God I have excellent Insurance coverage as a retired state employee of the state of Connecticut where I worked for 22 years. And the coverage is free...with 5 dollars deductible for doctors visits and three dollars for prescription medications. I can not even imagine how some people can see doctors and get medications and pay sky high insurance costs...
My gardening experience is very limited. What I meant by yard-work was cutting grass and raking leaves which here in the deep South come down from November to May or June even. I have one half of an acre to take care of and that is quite a bit of work. Also I have three wonderful dogs whom I love more than most people...
Please do send me links to your web-sites as I would love to take a look at them.
Sincerely,
Holger.
Letter from Holger to Dorie:
Christian Science, Vedanta, Israel Regardie and the "Supreme Gnosis"....
Dear Dorie,
yes, the birth time is so important
for a correct astrological report. But I think, just for "entertainment," an
Astro Report like "Sky Within" could give you some insight if I set your
birth time arbitrarily at 11: 55 am. Steven Forest (name might be misspelled
by me) is one of the best astrologers around with a deep spiritual insight
to boot and he wrote the interpretation for the computer program.
Really,
you might be surprised at what you get even without the correct birth time.
You are correct, Mary Baker Eddy didn't believe in astrology but that is
only in relationship of Christian Science as the "crown" of understanding.
I
call it the "Supreme Gnosis". ...Meaning, that as a final understanding, and ONLY
as such, Christian Science in it's original teaching supersedes all other
teachings including astrology, spiritualism and even Gnostic theories and
sophistries.
This does not mean that astrology is worthless or untrue on
it's level of understanding or better put, human understanding.
What I
believe is: that Christian Science is basically western Vedanta, which was
confirmed by Israel Regardie, the long time secretary of Aleister Crowley (I
don't like him or his ideas).
Regardie is a very intelligent and open
Gnostic and as you probably know, he wrote many books relating to the
"occult".
He, in one of his last books before his death, called: "Teachers
of Fulfillment", deals very admiringly with Mary Baker Eddy and her
teachings and compares them as almost identical to the higher aspects of
Vedanta.
So what I'm saying is, that in the light of "quantum physics" and
even more evolved physics, matter isn't really matter as we have come to
understand it to be....but in its final analysis illusion...
Which
shows that Mary Baker Eddy truly attained something very precious...perhaps
even "the pearl of great price", which I call "Supreme Gnosis", way ahead of
her time and understanding.
The only problem with her Christian Science is
the "healing aspect", which she, I think, over-emphasized.
Yes, marvelous
healings have been reported and verified, but there were also many
failures.... But let's face it, even though there were some great souls who
served as healers, called "practitioners", there were also many who didn't
quite measure up.
Some of the great ones were Joel Goldsmith who left the "Church" and went on his own, writing many deep, insightful books and also lecturing on "metaphysics," Richard Bach the author of "Jonathan Livingston Seagull" and many other works, and, of course, the author of "Christian Science Class Instructions", Arthur Corey.
Unfortunately too many people took up Christian Science to find healing without learning and comprehending the deeper aspects of its metaphysics.
Healing should be a secondary consideration
since by necessity it is a possible "by-product" and not the main teaching.
LIBERATION should be the goal of becoming involved with such a demanding
spiritual discipline as Christian Science, with healing as a secondary
possibility....
Thus, I believe strongly that as we evolve spiritually and
attain deeper insight into The Supreme Gnosis, astrology, medicine,
holistic-medicine, spiritualism, numerology etc., all have a valuable place
as guides and steps helping us advance to the point where we understand, and
I mean Truly Understand, that matter indeed is an illusion and that we have
the power to overcome and correct what we still perceive as solid reality
until we reach that moment of realization which will be our Liberation.
This would also go into the realm of alien control and even our possibly hybrid nature and possible creation by aliens...We can only find Liberation from all of this in the truth of The Supreme Gnosis.
I'm sure you can figure all
this out as you seem to have quite a grasp on all of these subjects already.
What amazes me is that David Icke has come to just about the same spiritual
conclusions as those taught by Mary Baker Eddy....
I only wished that he
would acknowledge it, if he is at all aware of the similarity.
Dorie, on my
web site you probably have seen a lot of material which some people would
call anti this or that...I have been accused of being a nazi, a communist,
an anti-Semite and an asshole...
Yet these accusers don't understand that all
this material is only presented on my web site to raise people's
consciousness!
Yes, I have strong opinions and am quite sensitive to conspiracies and the so called New World Order. But I don't hate any one! People judge me severely because I present, unhesitatingly, what I consider to be the facts about what is really going on in this world. As I know that in the final analysis it is all nothing but "maya", Illusion, and that the NWO only has the power which mankind allows it to have.
I believe strongly that
it is important to show and document the evils of material existence coming
from mankind's material mental state. I want to demonstrate, more or less
effectively, that no matter what political or spiritual system or philosophy
rules on this material plane, it always turns into oppression...
And that
"good" has existed even in the most maligned political-spiritual
concepts...such as National Socialism, Communism, Capitalism-Democracy,
Zionism...As well as unmitigated EVIL.
And I think it is important for people on the path to know what is going on in this world in order to be somewhat forced to rise above the material conception of matter. Showing that matter, if seen as the ONLY reality, is evil by its very nature and that it is NOTHING when seen from the higher perspective of The Supreme Gnosis.
And that Liberation can ONLY come through our inner struggle with these theories and through our Final Rejection of it all as just "maya" - illusion.
We must break free from the hypnotic acceptance of "reality" as it is "drummed" into us from birth to grave and from generation to generation. We must free ourselves from all hypnotic suggestions which we are bombarded with from parents, children, family, government, race, nationality, tribe, television, movies...and on and on it goes....
Mary Baker Eddy calls these
hypnotic suggestions "Animal Magnetism" in the language of her time. And she
teaches how to overcome these "malicious" suggestions. This teaching has
been used to malign her teaching and was rejected by the Filmores of Unity
and by Ernest Holmes of Science of Mind...and by almost all so called New
Age teachers who have emerged from Christian Science.
Yet it is, in my
opinion, one of her most valuable tools, mental tools, for overcoming the
malicious attempts the establish the New World Order dictatorship.
And I
also believe, that this teaching was the reason the Christian Science Church
in Boston was subverted from within and virtually destroyed....
Dorie, I thank you for your last letter and hope that my "rant" didn't overwhelm you. I am sorry to hear of you being house-bound and virtually shut in. Would you feel comfortable about letting me know more about your situation? Please feel free to write anytime. Sometimes it might take a while for me to respond because my web site requires constant updating and work and I must also do a lot of yard work...So I'm not always in the right frame of mind to write letters.
Sincerely,
Holger.
Response from Holger:
An Inquiry about Hanussen
and my journey into the Communist Party USA...
Hi David,
you probably expect me to know a bit about