THE PROCESS:
THE
FINAL JUDGEMENT
BY R.N. TAYLOR

Process Founder and Prophet
Robert Moore De Grimston
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Apocalypse was in the air; an impending feeling of doom. The
multi-colored dreams of psychedelia had begun to fade, and for
those of us who had crossed it's rainbow bridge, there would be
no turning back. The world as we had known and experienced it
would never quite seem the same again.
The prevailing order of things; the sterile dogmas of organized
religion; the Protestant work ethic; the open-ended pursuit of
material things, these and a host of other similar assumptions,
formerly taken for granted with simple- minded acceptance, now
came into question, were scrutinized, dissected and exposed for
the " frauds" we felt them to be.
But what were these mainstays of our civilization to be replaced
with? The music of sixties had served as a simplistic prop for
the newly emergent " counter-culture" and it's ill-defined
aspirations. But what had gone wrong? We had all sung along with
'All you need is love - love - love,' and joined the chorus
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of ' Strawberry
Fields Forever' in joyful defiance. We had turned on, tuned in and dropped
out - but where would we go from there?
The much lauded creativity and freedom of this counter-culture; from it's
hedonistic sex, it's drug induced visions, day-glow posters, tye-dye
clothing, massive musical gatherings and a ' do your own thing' philosophy,
had run it's meteoric course and had burned itself out.
The early 1970s were to be it's anti-climax, as run-away inflation, growing
corruption and cynicism began to penetrate most segments of society.
American boys were still fighting and dying in this nation's second
no-win-war in Asia; the secret police by-way of their COINTELPRO operations
( infiltration, agent provocateurs, frames-ups, armed raids and
assassinations ) had been successful in rendering any revolutionary
activity, right or left, ineffective and null. Tricky-Dick was our chief
administrator and about to live-up to his bad name. Psychedelics had begun
to be replaced by other addictive drugs such as heroine, morphine, and
cocaine. The recording industry was about to experience it's lowest margin
of profits in decades. The Psychedelic head-shops began to fold up business.
The so-called ' Age of Aquarius' had grinded to a halt, and along with it
and entire generation was left floundering in it's confusion and despair.
Into this void came the cults. Ready and eager to fill the existing
spiritual vacuum with new visions, new perimeters, new rules and directions.
And they were many and they were varied.
Zen Buddhism had already made it's debut in the West in the preceding decade
by way of the writings of Suzuki and popular writings of Kerouac and Watts.
It was further enhanced by a growing interest in various Oriental martial
arts. But it did not have the makings of a mass-style movement, and so
remained relatively small in numbers and defused.
But the late sixties and early seventies saw a proliferation of odd sects
and cults; Christian salvation groups such as the 'Children Of God' and '
The Jesus People'; Hari-Krishnas and transcendental mediators, Baba Lovers,
and other Guru-cults; home-grown psycho-analytical methods such as
Scientology and EST, all of which alluded to some sort of rational and
scientific methods; long-time dormant fringe sects and elitist occult
societies began to revive, expand and attract new adherents.
By the early 1970s a virtual smorgasbord of religious persuasions could be
found on the spiritual menu, ready to to be served-up piping-hot for the
lost, the lonely and confused.
The guru-cults appealed principally to the burned-out post-hippie remnants,
who suffering psychological displacement and a diminished sense of self,
wished only to bury their frayed minds and psyches in some balmy cloud of
mysticism, thereby loosing themselves in a vision of the aglamorous Godhead.
Conversely, the psychoanalytical cults appealed to that group of youth and
young adults with an in-born predilection for entrepreneurship. They were
most often the ones who had but recently been small-time drug dealers who "
only sold a little to their good friends". They were the ones who wanted all
the success and material baubles of the preceding generation, but didn't
want to work too hard or wait too long in fulfilling these aspirations.
Their personal quest was in pursuit of finding 'sure-fire' methods for
realizing these goals of romance, money and social status. The cult leaders
of these groups understood the mind-set and aspirations of these types only
to well, and knew just how to play these marks for all they were worth. The
wheels of their system were to be well oiled with the capital of ambitious,
but naive aspirants. Cost for initiate-hood didn't come cheaply. It was
measured out in dollars and cents. The aspirant could, however, defray a
large portion of these daunting costs by recruiting other fodder for the
cult, who would in turn help to make-up the deficit of their own tuitions
and costs. All of this was just another variant of the pyramid- scam, a scam
that seems to have an almost unflagging and magical appeal to America's
middle-class.
These psycho-analytical cults usually worked out of an almost corporate
setting. No beards, no bare-feet or other anti-social trappings. Theirs was
instead a professional front intended to appeal to and to generate
confidence in the eager and ambitious near-do-wells which they attracted.
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" The Malicious have a dark Happiness." - Victor Hugo
But not all who passed through the proverbial " doors of perception " were
of the same disposition. Not all were the jaded children of middle-class
affluence, not all lacked a will to power. There were also others of the
post-sixties generation whose existence was made less visible in the media
or the public eye. This segment of disaffected beings were not thinking the
same thoughts or seeing the same visions, nor were they intent upon the same
goals as their lost and listless counter-parts were. These were the
outsiders. During the preceding decade they had no more upheld the statism
and status quo of the conservative-right any more than they had joined in
the contagion of the New-Left. These were the metaphysical rebels, Anarchs,
Anarchists, occultists and nihilists, who wished a plague on all house!
Their visions were not those of Utopia or Nirvana, but were instead those of
Apocalypse and ' End Time.' For them it was not the golden-age of Aquarius,
but the dark-age of the Kali-Yuga. Most preferred Buck-knives and revolvers
to that of beads and flowers. Initially they were scattered individuals,
lacking a leader or an organizational structure, a coherent philosophy or
plan of action.
Within the ranks of these disaffected 'outsiders ' were several distinct
types best described as Anarcho / individualist and Romantic/Nihilists.
Often individuals would share a combination of these basic traits.
The Anarcho / individualists seemed most concerned with their personal
liberty and freedoms which might allow them the freedom to ' do their own
thing ', unimpeded by restrictive laws imposed by the state. Laws which they
felt repressive to their lives and liberty. Theirs was a distrust for
authority in particular and a disdain for civilization and it's decadence
and complexities in general. Most shared a concern for survival in the not
so distant future; nuclear war; revolution; civil or racial strife or
domestic tyranny. Most felt by-way of acquired skills and preparations that
they would one day crawl out from their survival compounds and retreats as
survivors of a new day under the sun. Many of them stock-piled weapons and
supplies, trained with firearms and cultivated other military and survival
skills and awaited " The Day " of civilizations eminent demise, and it's
post-apocalyptic aftermath.
Drawn primarily from urban and rural working class segments of the
population, they envisioned a life more basic and less complex. Most viewed
the federal government as corrupt and meddling at best. Others believed and
proffered conspiratorial theories concerning Mason. Jews, International
Bankers or Trilateralist One-Worlders, who they saw as a hidden-hand behind
all that was wrong with life as they perceived and experienced it.
Over the next several decades the majority of those of this persuasion would
be content to plan, train and prepare. A smaller number would grow impatient
and more strident, and move on to more militant, and sometimes revolutionary
activity.
The other grouping, the Romantic / Nihilists, would be attracted to the a-
morality of occultism, the so-called black arts, and Satanism. This
predilection differed little from what many prominent poets, artists and
other creative romantics of the previous century had done.
Satanism and occultism have often served as a proverbial loadstone for
creative genius, ( i.e.); Charles Baudelaire, J.K. Huysman, William Butler
Yeats, August Strindberg, Antonin Artaud, to mention just a few, who have
succumbed to it's dark siren call. Reasons for this attraction can be
largely found in the diminished or absence of true spirituality in organized
religion, as well as a striving for something in closer proximity to the
Western Zeitgeist. Add to these factors the sexual and emotional suppression
and it is not difficult to understand the allure of such " underground "
religion.
One can already detect in the late romantics a growing disposition toward
nihilism. Little is left of the soothing melancholia of Keats, or the
visionary soaring of Shelley, and it is not difficult to understand why.
If romantics of the past age had felt estrangement and antagonism to the
prevailing reality in which they lived, how then might the romantic of this
our present age of dialectical materialism and compulsive consumerism react?
The logical outcome of such contraries, of ones inner ideal as opposed to
the outer-reality we live in, can hardly lead to anything short of
rebellion, world hatred and nihilism. Culminating in an inversion of
feelings and thought, in which evil becomes good, power, hatred and
resentment supplant faith, hope and charity, and all the attributes of the
bourgeois-democratic existence; comfort, conformity, selfishness and
cowardice, are viewed with disdain and addressed with invective. This then
becomes the world of the outsider and confirmed elitist.
However, this antagonism and elitist mentality manifests itself in
rebellion, not revolution. The true revolutionary has a creed and a program
that generates and guides his actions. He wishes to catharize the
malignancies he perceives, and proceeds to find the tactics and strategies
for attaining power. For he realizes that only through the attainment of
power will he be able to reshape or revitalize society or the world in
accordance with his visions and beliefs.
Satanism, on the contrary, is largely a personal rebellion. It is an anti-
theology. Antithetical to the tenets and beliefs of it's antagonist,
Christianity. In it's original form, it would not exist save for the
existence of Christianity. In this regard it is reactionary to the utmost.
It shares similar prophecies and revelations, an identical time table of
linear progression of events all culminating in some grand finale of
Apocalypse!
The historical roots of Satanism are largely traceable to the later half of
the last century. As a theology or philosophy, Satanism does not draw upon
any long-standing tradition or ties with antiquity in the same sense as neo-
heathen & pagan beliefs do. Prior to the existence of any organized Satanic
sects, many hapless individuals no doubt were the victims of being labeled "
Satanic " or in league with the Devil, by the ruling Christian
establishment. But such accusations should not be taken seriously, for these
sort of labels served as all purpose catch-phrases directed to anyone who
threatened or challenged Christianity's parochial views or secular power. It
was a ready epithet of derision and approbation for one's enemies and
competitors.
Most modern-day Satanists know all of this well enough. So why Satanism as
an alternative to Christianity? Why not a return to a more natural healthy
heathenism, one totally divorced from the framework of Christian thinking?
Because the classic Satanist is not a healthy pagan, Nietzsche's proverbial
" yea sayer to life ", but is instead an inverted Christian whose innocence
has been wounded, whose romanticism has been betrayed; asceticism degraded,
saintliness gone sour, idealism made cynicism. It is not difficult to
recognize resentment at the root of this metaphysical rebellion. A
resentment born of the realization of 'ones" own singularity and rights as
an inviolable individual. This same realization is of course at the root of
all rebellion as well as revolution. But in the case of the Satanist this
rebellion is born of a realization of 'ones' own impotence in doing anything
to actively alleviate whatever inequities or injustices which are felt to
exist.
Resentment was perhaps best defined by Friedrich Schiller as an auto-
intoxication; the evil secretions in a sealed vessel of prolonged impotence.
It is resentment of this type which usually leads to the types of excesses
witnessed in the French, Bolshevik and National Socialist Revolutions.
Schiller goes on to say further, that resentment always turns into either
unscrupulous ambition or bitterness, depending on whether it is implanted in
a strong person or a weak one.
It is the nature of the resentful to take delight ( in advance ) of the
hoped for pain that it would inflict upon the object of it's hatred. Torture
and cruelty have always been the violence of the impotent and cowardly.
This impotence is most apparent in the working of curses against one's
enemies. It is a safe substitute for really doing anything actively,
directly or boldly. To a certain degree it no doubt serves as a purgative or
safety valve for this " vessel of sealed resentment and hatred ", which
might otherwise manifest itself in destructive or suicidal acts.
And who is it that best personifies this resentful actor who fights his
enemies from the make-believe battle-field of his ritual chamber, who
arrogantly endeavors to command Gods and fate to to do his bidding an
fulfill his desires? It is usually the artistic dandy, that narcissistic
play-actor who chooses for his command performance that ultimate of all
stages - real life!
To live and die before a mirror - that according to The French Poet
Baudelaire, is the slogan of the Dandy, For he can only exist by defiance
and opposition. And like all who exist without a measure of standards,
lacking rules or ethics, he can only be coherent to himself, as well as to
others, in some role he has chosen to act out. And that role can only be
played before an audience for which to applaud or decry his performance. For
his own existence and sense of being or self, can only be established in the
expression on other peoples faces. Others must serve as his mirror, a mirror
that quickly grows clouded. Therefore he is constantly compelled to astonish
and to shock. Singularity his vocation, excess, his road to perfection.
Prominent in his ranks is to be found that seminal figure of the Satanic,
the Marquis de Sade, who has commanded so great an influence upon most
subsequent Satanists. If ever there was an archetypal personification of the
" vessel of sealed resentment" which Schiller so eloquently described, De
Sade was it.
De Sade's epic masturbatory novels may at first seem intended for little
more than his own, as well as his readers, sexual titillation. Upon closer
inspection, however, one quickly realizes that for every couple of pages of
lurid sexual escapades, there are a dozen or more other pages devoted to
outlining his Satanic philosophy and invective toward society. It becomes
apparent that de Sade's novels are primarily a lure for the reader to be
indoctrinated into his nihilism and world hatred.
Even after de Sade, the literati continue to dominate the Satanic scene. The
rebellion of the man of letters is singular in it's preference for evil, and
forbidden things above all else! When rebellion reaches this junction it is
often at the expense of forgetting all positive content. Since God reigns
over a world full of death, injustice and inequity, thinks the Satanist, it
certainly vindicates, if not the exercise of evil, then certainly the
applauding of evil and murder.
It is between Satan and death, in John Milton's Paradise Lost ( That
favorite poem of the Romantics ) that symbolizes this struggle. In order to
combat the evil of existence, the metaphysical rebel renounces good and once
more gives birth to evil. In this way the Satanic hero brings about a
religious blending of good and evil. He becomes that most attractive figure
( to the individualistic West ) The fatal hero.
Fate leaves no room for value judgements - it instead replaces any
responsibility for them by simply declaring something to the effect of " It
is so ", and being so, it becomes a moot point, ethically and morally,
thereby excusing everything - everything except of course the creator who
from the very start is responsible for the mess that life and the state the
world are perceived to be in.
The romantic artist and literati cry-out with Milton's Satan: " So farewell
hope, farewell fear, farewell remorse...evil be thou my good." The final cry
of outraged innocence. Since violence and injustice are seen as the ultimate
root of all creation - violence and injustice shall be it's answer. Ad here
at last, once and for all, any distinction between good and evil is laid to
rest.
With these moralistic questions resolved and disposed of, no longer can one
derive any intellectual, spiritual or emotional stimulation toying with such
abstractions as good and evil. Thus is nihilism born out of this
psychological vacuum; thus is murder and mayhem authorized as a necessary
vehicle for attaining that frenetic state of mind, which alone can alleviate
this boredom born of a-morality.
Frenzy is the reverse of boredom. Exquisite sensibilities evoke the fury of
the beast! Exaltation takes the place of truth, and so the Apocalypse
becomes an absolute value in which all things are confounded: love, death,
conscience and culpability. In a chaotic universe no other life exists than
that of the abyss.
At this stage the Satanic rebel has by logical extension chosen the
metaphysic of inevitable evil. All is drawn toward the void. Terror and
torture, murder and catastrophe become collector's items to be savored
vicariously and exalted to the status of revolutionary acts in some vague
and defuse revolt against society and God. The serial-killer, the sexual
outlaw, the mass-murderer and an endless procession and sociopaths and
psychotics become cult-heroes and heroines of the Satanic rebel. Until
recent times such thinking was restricted to a small segment of isolated
individuals, and was employed primarily for the subject matter of art, drama
and literature.
But it was to come to pass in these lesser days of the late
Twentieth-Century, that a movement would begin to bring this scattered and
disparate force into a semblance of order and action.
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"
Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the law." - Aleister
Crowley
The groundwork for the present day Occult / Satanic movement had been laid
many decades ago. Though there does not appear to exist anything like an
unbroken line of descent, there has been a noticeable and consistent process
of cross- fertilization. As Schisms and rivalries occur often ( due, no
doubt, to the unstable nature of many of those involved and attracted to
Satanism and Occultism in general ) new or existent groups will pick-up the
remnants of a dissolving group, and continue on with them till the next
schism or power struggle occurs. The links between individual personalities
is far more pronounced and apparent.
The late 1930s saw a minor occult revival in the U. S.. This revival was
focused primarily in that incubator of the absurd and eccentric, southern
California. Madame Blavatsky's Theosophical Society, the Rosicrucians and
other similar meta[physical and mystical groups became high profile during
this period. Most relevant to modern occultism and Satanism was the founding
of the Agape Lodge of The Ordo Templis Orientis ( The Temple Of The East ).
The OTO was originally founded sometime between 1895 and 1900, by two high
ranking German Freemasons, Karl Kellner and Theodor Ruess. The OTO had
formed from the Masonic Rites Of Memphis and the Miraim, which had in turn
been founded by one John Yarker. Yarker had authorized the foundation of a
German lodge of this Masonic Rite by contact with Kellner, Ruess and one Dr.
Franz Hartman. Hartman was a prominent occultist who had started the German
Theosophical Society in 1896, and was linked with various neo-Rosicrucian
orders.
The official OTO history claimed that's it's Tantric, or sexual magic
practices had been given to it's founders by three eastern adepts.
Furthermore that these doctrines were the key which opens all the secrets of
Freemasonry, as well as all other religions. Kellner died in 1905 leaving
the leadership in the hands of Ruess. Within a short time branches of the
order were founded outside of Germany in France, England and Scandinavia.
What is known about the background of Ruess is almost archetypal of the many
personalities who become leaders of such occult societies.
As a young man he was reputed to have worked as a spy for the Prussian
Secret Service. He relocated to London where his mission was to spy on
socialist German exiles. He became a member of the Socialist League, whose
members included Friedrich Engels and Utopian socialist William Morris. He
was eventually exposed and forced to resign from the group.
There were also some connections between the OTO and the Hermetic Order Of
The Golden Dawn, whose members included such notables as W.B. Yeats,
Macgregor Mathers and other notable personages. One other member of The
Golden Dawn was Aleister Crowley, who was to become the OTO leader in
England. Crowley however reputedly revealed the inner secrets of the OTO in
his writings in ' The Book Of Lies ', which Ruess claimed were coded
descriptions of various magico / mystical sexual- rites Crowley replied to
Ruess's charges by claiming that the rituals he had described in his book
had originated in documents which had once belonged to Adam Weishaupt,
founder of the Bavarian Illuminati. Ruess accepted Crowley's defense, and
all was apparently forgiven.
Crowley's checkered career has been exhaustively chronicled in many books
and articles, as well as by Crowley himself in " The Confessions Of Aleister
Crowley ", a 900-plus page volume of vanity, arrogance, exaggeration and
Satanic philosophy.
Crowley was given to exploiting weak-willed and troubled individuals for his
financial aggrandizement and sexual gratification. His last years were spent
in a seedy-English boarding house, and as a victim of a double addiction to
heroin and morphine. An odd fate for one who had dubbed himself " The Great
Beast 666 " and had entertained aristocratic and elitist pretensions
throughout his life. Crowley was however not without talents; as a writer, a
mountaineer, a poet and investigator of the arcane - but despite his various
aptitudes the totality of his life seemed an ignoble and tragic waste.
The full Chronicle of Crowley is beyond the scope of this article, but
sometime after the turn of the century he founded several lodges of the OTO
group in the U.S.. Leadership was initially sporadic and changed often.
Eventually John Whitesides Parsons, a physical scientist who played a major
role in founding the aero-space department at Cal Tech University, was
conferred with the leadership of the California OTO lodge.
Eventually, John Whiteside Parsons, a physical scientist who played a major
role in founding the Aero-Space Department at Cal-Tech University, was
conferred the leadership of the California Lodge of the OTO. Parsons, a
native of California, born in 1914, became connected with a fledgling young
Sci-Fi writer, L. Ron Hubbard. Hubbard moved in with Parsons, eventually
absconding with his wife Maggie. L.. Ron, with Maggies complicity used a
large portion of Parsons savings account in purchasing a new yacht. Though
understandably angered and upset, Parsons somehow forgave them both their
transgressions.
Hubbard himself went on to become a fairly successful Sci-Fi writer and
eventually founded the psychoanalytical cult know as Scientology. After
Crowley's death, California remained the Mecca of his followers activities.
Parson continued on with the Agape Lodge until his rather dramatic death in
1952, when he was blown-up in his garage laboratory after accidentally
fumbling a case of mercuric fulminate while in the process of hose moving.
An interesting side note is that Parsons had a leading role in perfecting
the rocket fuel which lead to the first successful lunar landing, and much
of the other space exploration of our age. In tribute to his contribution, a
lunar crater ( appropriately situated on the dark side of the moon ) was
named after him. It can be found approximately at a longitude of 168
degrees, and a latitude of 370 degrees.
Following Parsons abrupt exit, another Crowley stalwart, Karl Germer, became
the international head of the OTO, as well as inheriting the copyrights to
Crowley's numerous books. Germer was responsible for publishing many of
Crowley's out of print and unpublished books. Along with the publishing
rights came the inheritance of Crowley's ashes. Eventually leadership of the
OTO went to another German national, Herr Metzger.
Another Crowley follower was gerald Gardner, the man most responsible for
the modern emergence of Witchcraft or Wicca ( as many of it's present day
adherents prefer to call it. Gardner himself had been a fourth-degree
initiate of the OTO.
Still another Crowleyan organization ( that was not regarded as orthodox by
the official OTO ) was " The Great Brotherhood Of God ", and occult
fraternity which owed it's existence to the activities of C.F. Russel, an
ex-naval officer who had once resided at Crowley's Thelema Abbey in Cefalu,
Italy. This group had originally begun as the Coronzon Club, a society whose
advertisements had begun to appear in the occult press as early as the
1930s.
The Choronzon club, named after one of Crowley's devils whom he had invoked
in the Algerian desert, changed it's name to the Great Brotherhood of God in
the 1930s. They combined a melding of Oto and Golden Dawn rituals, many
which were inverted by Russell. Russell was reputed to have been a dabbler
in Satanism. Most of the groups teachings and practices were concerned with
sexual magik, similar to tantrik practices. Louis T. Culling, a former
astrologer and performer on the electric organ published the techniques and
practices of he group in two books ' The complete Magik Curriculum of the
Secret Order G.B.G." and in ' A manual Of Sex Magik '. Both books had a
surprisingly wide sale and influenced other groups and individuals, most
them young, who organized under Mr. Culling's leadership, or formed their
own groups to study Sex-Magik'. Between 1969 and 1971 the G.B. G. enjoyed a
resurgence in activity.
Also during this same period another un-orthodox Crowleyan group became
active in the U.S. This was the so-called ' Solar-Lodge of the OTO '. A
group led by Georgiana ( jean ) Brayton, the wife of a University of
California professor of philosophy. Jean Brayton was born in 1921, and had a
long-lasting interest in the occult. At about forty-years old she discovered
the writings of Crowley and fell under their influence to such an extent
that she began to practice his rituals with a particular fixation upon their
darker aspects, which she began to emulate.
The leadership of the Solar-Lodge was apparently eager to gain recruits
among the young. In pursuit of that goal they opened ' The Eye Of Horus'
bookstore at 947 West Jefferson Boulevard, in close proximity to the
university of Southern California campus. It was a small shop, but it's
decoration in red and yellow, and it's stylized Egyptian eye in a triangle
painted on the outside, attracted a brisk walk-in trade. Some who frequented
the store were eventually recruited into the lodge. Before too long the
group grew to about fifty members, the majority young and impressionable,
but also some older people with respectable professions and jobs. These
included Jerry Kay, the art director of the popular cult-film "easy Rider'.
and others connected with the arts and entertainment world.
Brayton was reputed to cultivate relationships with dental students, making
money off of them through loan-sharking; lending small amounts of cash at
exorbitant interest rates and using their easy accessibility to drugs Ed
Saunders, former member of the rock band 'The Fugs ' and author of ' The
Family' , a book which chronicles the Manson Family and Tate La Bianca
murders, claims to have carried out extensive investigation into the
activities of the Solar Lodge. Among is alleged charges were the groups use
of almost every known form of psychedelic drugs in an effort to expand the
consciousness of the initiates. These included marijuana, LSD, demerol,
scopolamine, datura, jimson weed, ether and belladonna. Aside from their
conscious expanding properties, Brayton allegedly used many of these drugs
to gain dominance over them and programming them. Further, for the sake of
extracting information for possible blackmail purposes.
The stories of self-mutilation, child abuse, chicken sacrifices, and drug
use abound. At one of her properties at 1251 West Thirteenth street in L.A.,
Charles Manson and his family were reputed to have been frequent visitors.
The lodge also owned a ranch about four miles from the Colorado River where
it conducted it's more secret rituals. On June 10th, 1969 a fire broke out
on the ranch. This single event was to prove the demise of the Solar Lodge.
The fire was supposedly started by a six year old son of one of the lodges
members Beverly Gibbons. In addition to the main building being burned down
a number of animals where also burnt alive in the fire, as well as a number
of rare Crowley manuscripts. The boy had his finger-tips burnt with matches
and was afterwards placed in a wooden crate in the blistering summer sun of
110 degrees.
Two men who had visited the ranch with the intention of purchasing some
horses noticed the child lying in the crate, and outraged telephoned the
police. Police raided the ranch and eleven of the lodge members were
arrested. Further investigation uncovered the body of a man at first
believed to have been murdered, but forensic exams conducted later proved he
had died from an overdose of drugs, most probably jimson-weed tea imbibed
not doubt, during a cult ritual.
By November 1969 all eleven members of the lodge arrested that June were
convicted of felony child abuse charges. Warrants were issued for Jean
Brayton and several other high-ranking members of the group who had not been
present at the ranch. They fled prosecution and were thought to be
hiding-out in Mexico where the lodge supposedly owned property.
Crowley's legacy also began to find it's way into popular culture and
entertainment as well. In Robert Heinlein's ' Stranger In A Strange Land '
and in other sci-fi and fantasy fiction. The Beatles put his photo among the
collage of famous on their 'Sergeant Peppers Lonely Hearts Club Band' ' LP
cover, as " one of the people we like ". Jimmy Page, lead guitarist of the
popular Led Zeppelin rock-band bought a Scottish manor, Buskin House, where
Crowley had once lived, which overlooks the brooding waters of Loch Ness.
Page also purchased Crowley's ceremonial robe as well. Much of Led Zepplin's
early music was infused with occult and Satanic subject matter. During this
same period various rock groups such as H.P. Lovecraft, King Crimson and
Funkadelic used music with occult and Satanic subject matter.
Do what thou wilt - is the whole of the law " Crowley's famous adage, found
ready acceptance in a growing atmosphere of a-morality and nihilism. The
evil Crowley had spent most of his life promoting had begun to bear it's
poisoned fruit.
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" Lex Talionis " - Anton LaVey
On April 30th ( Wulpurgisnacht - 1966, Anton LaVey, the father of modern
Satanism, founded his Church Of Satan in San Francisco, California. The
Church of Satan was the outgrowth of a small grouping of friends and
students with an interest in the occult and paranormal, who formed around
LaVey. Among this group were underground filmmaker Kenneth Anger and
novelist Steven Schneck. So, in 1966 LaVey declared the dawn of the Satanic
age and set-up shop in his ' Black House ' ( a Victorian building which had
formerly been a speakeasy and brothel.) Thus, the church of Satan became a
legally incorporated religious organization, with LeVay as it's high priest
and his, then, wife, Diane as high priestess.
Through a series of astute public relations moves The Church Of Satan became
Internationally known almost overnight. It began to draw celebrity status in
the attraction LaVey and his organization seemed to elicit from such
show-biz personalities as singer Barbara McNair and Sammy Davis Jr.. Around
this time LaVey conferred an honorary priesthood upon actor Keenan Wynn.
Most the Hollywood notables, however, wished to keep their affiliations with
the Church secret. Buxom blonde bombshell Jayne Mansfield felt no such
reluctance.
Most of the activities, personalities and the chronicling of events of this
period of LaVey's church have been covered adequately in numerous books and
articles. Likewise with LaVey's own background as a organist, circus
performer and so forth. I will instead attempt to deal with the theology or
philosophy of LaVey and his creation.
Many of the early applicants were logically attracted to COS based upon the
prospects of sex, naughtiness and an abundance of females in the group. Such
however was not the modus operandi of the Church. Aside from the nude woman
employed as an altar-piece, all else was in the minds eye of the aspirant.
Not only was The Church Of Satan not a vehicle for personal lusts, LaVey
went so far as to state that the ' Devil ' or ' Satan ', was not a literal
deity, but merely a symbolic metaphor for that which the Christian religion
called sin, and which were in LaVey's estimation, nothing more than the
healthy and instinctual urges of mankind.
LaVey's teachings can be more accurately described as philosophic and
psychological rather than religious. The outward trappings and rituals can
be somewhat misleading, in so much as they are not some simple reversal of
Christian practices, as was described earlier in this article in reference
to classic Satanism. The Church Of Satan, explains LaVey, was designed to
fill the void between religion and psychiatry, meeting man's inherent need
to ritualize, while at the same time providing an honest and rational set of
beliefs upon which to base one's life. Likewise his basic approach to magik
is not really of the Crowleyite vintage. He has never engaged in extravagant
claims on a par with Crowley. His is essentially the magic of knowing and
awareness. Knowing how to manipulate one's environmental factors by way of
analyzing people, places and things; saying the right thing at the right
time. Techniques, as it were, for gaining ones material and emotional goals.
Satan in the LaVey philosophy is commensurate with man's primal instincts
and urges, rather than in a super-natural sense. It is more a philosophy of
Social Darwinism coupled with various dictums of taste in music, cinema, and
art.
Throughout the early 1970s LaVey's church continued to grow. By 1973 many
Grottoes ( as local chapters were called ) were active in many cities in the
U.S. and Canada. Most of those attracted to the Church of Satan were no
doubt little different form those attracted to elitist and occult societies
in general. For those who find their worth within such groups, it often
becomes a surrogate reality that supplants th larger mundane world around
them. Achievements become based upon titles and pecking order games and
controversies create a rich emotional and social life.. These things in turn
set the stage for rivalries, animosities and schisms with the larger body or
group. Lavey's Church of Satan was to be no exception to this human all too
human factor.
Two former Detroit Michigan members, Michael Grumbowski and John Amend
founded two splinter groups out of the Church of Satan. The Order of the
Black Ram ( OBR ) and The Shrine Of The Little Mother. Both endeavored to
combine Satanism with quasi-mystical ideas of Aryan racial superiority. The
" Shrine " took a more radical departure from it's parent groups doctrines.
They employed sacrifices of chickens as a part of their rituals. It is
alleged that the late James Madole, founder and leader of the neo-fascist
National Renaissance Party attempted to establish ties with the OBR. He also
used Church Of satan materials in his occult study units adjacent to his
political objectives.
Other politically extreme rightists have seen an ally in LaVey and his
Church. LaVey however has distanced himself from most of them and blunted
their advances with sarcasm and invective for the most part.
Other schisms have occurred over the years, but few of them have had much
longevity. One of the few exceptions has been that of the temple of Set
founded and led by Michael Aquino and his wife Lillith Sinclair.
After returning from military duty in Vietnam in 1971, Aquino was ordained
into the priesthood of the Church of Satan. Aquino first met LaVey while
attending one of LaVey's lectures. He was a U.S. Army intelligence officer
specializing in psychological warfare. Shortly after encountering LaVey he
and his first wife both joined the Church Of Satan. He organized a Grotto in
Kentucky, where he was stationed at the time. He proceeded to give lectures
on Satanism at the University of Louisville and eventually built up his
group to about a dozen followers who regularly attended rituals at his home.
Being a prolific writer, Aquino became a major contributor to the church's
official publication of the time, The Cloven Hoof. LaVey was obviously so
impressed with Aquino that he promoted him to the rank of Magister IV, one
rank below LaVey himself. LaVey commissioned Aquino to author a series of
rituals based on the works of horror story writer H.P. Lovecraft.
Traditionalist elements criticized these and other rituals invoking gods
that did not exist. LaVey countered this by saying that " The purpose of
ritual is to invoke emotion. Because there are virtually no satanic rites
over one- hundred years old that elicit sufficient response from today's
practitioners, if the rites are presented in their original form. LaVey
stated further that these critics had missed the point" All gods are
fictitious."
Other rituals with similar t sources of inspiration were authored by La Vey
from H.G. Wells " The Island Of Dr. Moreau " and Fritz Lang's "
Metropolis. "But, in the final analysis, this is not Satanism in the classic
Miltonian or Biblical sense, it is instead performance art, intended to
create an atmosphere or to entertain. Add to this LaVey's essentially
Libertarian philosophy and we are left with something like Aynn Rand's
Virtue of Selfishness clothed in Gothic costumes and stage props. LaVey
continues to be a personality of sorts doing occasional interviews articles
and recordings. Perhaps his greatest significance has been in the overall
effect his writings and pronouncements have had upon more independent and
obscure individuals and groups who have borrowed from him in organizing
their own thoughts and activities.
By 1972, a personal and philosophical rift had occurred between LaVey and
his understudy Michael Aquino.
On the eve of the North Solstice, June 21st, 1975, Aquino performed a "
magical working " and claimed that Satan appeared to him in the guise of
Set, the oryx-headed god of death and destruction, of which Aquino claims is
the earliest manifestation of the Christian devil, dating back to 3400 B,C.E..
The outcome, of course, was a document " The Book Of The Coming Forth By
Night ", in which Set, according to Aquino, declared " The Aeon Of Set ".
The beginning of this Aeon is then traced to 1904, when Set appeared to
Aleister Crowley in Cairo, Egypt, in the image of his guardian angel, Aiwass,
who declared Crowley the herald of the dawning of the age of Horus. LaVey,
according to Aquino, ushered in the the age of Satan, which was but an
intermediate stage symbolizing indulgence and was for the purpose of
preparing the way for the Aeon of Set, which would become a age of
enlightenment.
In true megalomaniac fashion, Aquino was anointed worldwide leader for the
new age, as well as being consecrated by Set, as the second incarnation of
the Beast 666 ( as prophesized by Crowley in The Book Of The Law).
Aquino accepted this heavy burden from the God ( obviously feeling it was an
offer he couldn't refuse.) As a token of his intentions he cut his hair into
a widows peak, plucked out his eye-brows and had the numerals 666 tattooed
under his scalp An inverted pentagram ( originally a Pythagorean symbol for
Phi or the golden ratio ) became the groups symbol. Grottoes became Pylons
and degrees similar to the Golden Dawn were adopted. Aquino became Ipssimus,
and Lilith Sinclair became Magus. A committee of nine composed of former
Church Of Satan Priests was given the power of administrative affairs. The
primary difference between The temple of set and The Church Of Satan, was
that Set, or Satan, was believed in as a literal reality. Absent from this
new world leader was any taint of humor. Aquino's adventures in wonderland
had begun.
Aquino and the Temple of Set mark a new shift in emphasis in Satanic
theology. The appropriation of a deity completely divorced from the
Judeo-Christian complex. Instead of the classic Devil or Satan we are now
introduced to the Egyptian God of the underworld, Set. others, in time,
would appropriate the dark deities of other mythos. For many Loki, the
trickster of the Norse pantheon has supplanted Satan. This is of course a
further move away from the Biblical "bad guy " Satan. And Ragnorok elbows
out the Apocalypse. At this stage the lines between Teutonic tribal religion
and Satanism begin to blur. But this is neither the Satan of the Bible or
Milton' Paradise Lost. This is no longer the Satan of the French Decadents,
which we discussed and dissected earlier in this article.
But there was one group that did fulfill all the attributes of a true
Satanic metaphysical rebellion. It was largely independent of these other
groups, and it did formulate a truly Satanic theology coupled with a true
apocalyptical vision. It was The Process, Church Of The Final Judgement. It
is within the corpus of their beliefs that we must look to find a true
compounding and melding of Christian / Satanic theology.
Article first appeared in EsoTerra #6, 1996
www.esoterra.org/process.html
THE
PROCESS:
THE FINAL JUDGMENT
PART TWO
By R. N. Taylor
-Birth of an Urban Legend-
“AS IT IS – SO BE IT”
(Processean greeting and
salutation)
There is little doubt that The Process:
Church of the Final Judgment has left an indelible watermark upon the
pop-culture mindscape of the past three decades. To a large extent this mystique
has been predicated by the even greater interest generated by the Manson Family
saga and the ongoing mythos of Helter Skelter.
The late ‘60s and ‘70s saw an amazing
array of strange and exotic cults. The Process was in fact just one lesser cult
among many. It never reached what could be described as a mass stage in its
existence or development. Its initiates probably never numbered more than
several hundred visible adherents. Its initial incarnation was, even by occult
movement standards, a brief and seemingly uneventful sojourn into the mystical.
Yet despite these cultic inadequacies, it alone continues to stir up controversy
and intense interest among many of today’s underground or alternative culture
magazines, journalistic researchers, commentators, musical bands and
sociologists.
The Process has been epitomized by some
as a cult that never quite made it, and characterized by more sensationalized
accounts as being the seed of some vast Satanic underground network dealing in
murder, mayhem and arson. In the final analysis, we are at the mercy of these
radically opposed and polarized versions. Generally speaking, the truth usually
lies somewhere in-between.
Though much has been hinted or alluded
to, most of that which has appeared in books, magazines and other mediums has
simply been presented in spasms of regurgitated information gleaned from the
same Process magazines, pamphlets and books that somehow survived the vestiges
of nearly three decades.
As for the hard facts and insider
information, very few new insights concerning the group have surfaced. No known
leaders or members of the organization have come forth to tell their stories, or
if they have, their identities have always been withheld by authors claiming
such. Yet despite this paucity of hard facts or trustworthy testimony, The
Process has become a never-ending story that keeps growing in true urban legend
style.
We have the brief mentions of The
Process that appear in Vincent Bugliosi’s best seller Helter Skelter (read the
book, see the movie) and Ed Sanders’ The Family (for which there once was an
entire chapter on The Process that was deleted after The Process took legal
action).
Maury Terry’s long journalistic tome,
The Ultimate Evil, contains a chapter on the group, but he never quite makes the
case of its connection to all the heinous serial killings, executions, blood
drinking rituals, dope dealings, prostitution rings and snuff movies. His rather
convoluted account attempts to connect everything from the Manson family to
David Berkowitz (the “Son of Sam” murderer) and a plethora of other high profile
crimes against society stretching across several decades. It is an intriguing
book that is guaranteed to keep you looking over your shoulder, but lacking any
real evidence or substantiation.
Some earlier as well as subsequent books
have touched upon the subject of The Process, such as Painted Black by Carl A.
Raschke. His book touches upon The Process but fails to say anything new or
insightful. The rest of his book is an attempt to paint a picture alleging a
widespread and active Satanic underground. It has the same smell as a Geraldo
television special in its sweeping cheap journalistic gimmickry. His chapters
titled “The Aesthetics of Terror” and “The Strange World of Michael Aquino” are
about as good as it gets - and then, only because of those whom he has taken the
liberty to quote at length, such as Adam Parfrey and Aquino.
Satan’s Power by William Bainbridge is a
sociologist’s view of the group, shrouded in pseudonyms (to protect, if not the
innocent, at least the author and publisher from legal suits, or more likely as
a pre-agreement made in order to solicit the aid of his informants). It has the
style and format of a casebook type treatment and deals primarily with the
social dynamics of the group simply as a cult phenomenon. It was not intended s
a sensationalist inquiry and there are no wild allegations or accusations. It is
scholarly and sober. Best of all, it is written by an author who wrote it purely
from the academic standpoint of one who did, in fact, have close contacts with
the cult and access to private and unpublished papers, as well as contact and
correspondence with one of the two Process founders, Robert De Grimston.
1987 saw the publication of Apocalypse
Culture, an anthology of articles and various writings that more than adequately
encapsulated the Fin de Siecle atmosphere and madness of these lesser days of
the later 20th century. Adam Parfrey edited the book and was a major
contribution to it. Among the various inclusions in the book was a brief chapter
titled “The Time of the End Is Now: Texts from The Process”. It consisted of
strident but articulate quotations that had been extracted from various Process
publications. This was a contribution of that inveterate archeologist of arcane
quotations, Boyd Rice. Though brief in scope, the quotes were powerful polemical
condemnations of humanity and society at large. Thoughts out of context were
guaranteed to coincide with the overall Apocalyptic themes presented in the
book, as well as obviously articulating Rice’s own Social Darwinist and
Nihilistic perceptions and predilections.
I had been in touch with Adam Parfrey
for a number of years previous to the publication of Apocalypse Culture. We had
briefly spoken by phone and corresponded through the mail. The Manson saga and
The Process had been discussed between us. I had some Process literature still
in my possession and sent Adam my copy of the so-called “Death Issue” and
xeroxed several of the Process texts I still had. I had described my own
encounters with the group back in the early ‘70s and he suggested that I write a
chapter for inclusion in a second revised edition of Apocalypse Culture, which
he was then organizing and planning to publish. This was a period in which I
found myself in the technological netherworld of having a typewriter that didn’t
perform properly, so I ended up writing the chapter in long-hand on lined paper.
The fact that Adam was able to decipher my scrawl and make the necessary
editorial changes and fine-tuning certainly spoke well of his editorial skills.
The chapter appeared under the title of “The Process: A Personal Reminiscence”.
It basically covered my own experiences in meeting with and participating with
certain Process personalities in Chicago in the early ‘70s as well as my
impressions of them, their doctrines and the times surrounding it all. Writing
that chapter was like going back in a time-machine to another day and place far
removed from my present one. It was simply a First Person account from a
subjective perspective; I never intended it to be definitive or all-inclusive.
At the time I thought that little would come of what I wrote. I was mistaken.
There were many others out there who
also had a fascination with the subject. John Aes-Nihil, a collector and
archivist of taboo subjects and cast-away cultural memorabilia, had begun to
build up his Archives of Aesthetic Nihilism. The Process figured large in his
collection. Much of that material and subsequent items were offered for sale in
John’s catalog. John and I shared thoughts and materials for several years; this
enriched both of our collections and knowledge on the subject.
I began to occasionally receive letters
from people who had read the chapter in Apocalypse Culture and even a number of
persons who visited me personally to ask questions about it all. There seemed to
be a continuing interest in the subject – something about the enigmatic nature
of The Process seemed to appeal to the Sherlock Holmes in many. Others from whom
I heard (world-haters, nihilists, Satanists) seemed to harbor the wish or hope
that some sinister death-cult wreaking havoc against society with near absolute
impunity was out there doing their thing and thumbing their noses at the powers
that be and the establishment.
Other articles and books touching upon
The Process began to appear with persistent frequency. The urban legend had been
born and began to grow and invade the psyche of the underground culture. Veiled
references and innuendos began to appear in music and cultural venues. Several
music groups attempted to play off its growing popularity and image.
Rants and Incendiary Tracts: Voices of
Desperate Illumination 1558 to Present, co-edited by Adam Parfrey, were somewhat
similar to his Apocalypse Culture. Incendiary Tracts contained a chapter titled
“Fear” that was extracted from the Process magazine issue of the same name.
Nikolas Schreck supposedly interviewed De Grimston in the late ‘80s and this was
reported to be included in a book called The Demonic Revolution.
The English journal Rapid Eye has had
something of an affixation with the subject of The Process and related matters.
Rapid Eye #3 featured Stephen Sennett’s “Game of the Gods: An Introduction to
The Process”. Sennett began researching The Process many years before Rapid Eye
was first published. Originally, he wrote a short booklet titled The Process
that was issued by Nox Press in a limited edition in October 1989. Sennett’s
piece is neither sensational nor academic in nature. It is an honest attempt to
theorize exactly what The Process was all about.
Many other books on the Manson family
and Satanism contain brief mentions of The Process as well (the majority
borrowing heavily upon Sanders’, Bugliosi’s and Terry’s books to compensate for
their lack of originality with more lurid pronouncements).
Numerous articles relating to and about
The Process have become a mainstay in both mainstream and underground magazines.
An article appeared in Alternative Press entitled “Fear is the Mind of the
Killer: Secrets of The Process Church” by Anne Kugler. This article attempts to
chronicle Process influences in contemporary rock music and includes bands such
as Skinny Puppy and Genesis P-Orridge of Psychic Television.
Despite this plethora of commentary in
the form of books, articles and mimicry, we are left with little more facts or
hard evidence than we had twenty-odd years ago when the phenomena called The
Process came to public attention. Perhaps it is time that we lay all the known
facts, insinuations, rumors and accusations out on the table before us so we
might seriously consider them, dissect, analyze and perhaps pose the questions
that have never before been raised. To do this, we must start at the source,
with the known facts, and then branch out into other areas more rife for
speculation.
THE
KNOWN HISTORY OF THE PROCESS
“CONTACT
IS CONTROL”
(Process Adage)
In the beginning was Robert De Grimston
Moore and Mary Ann MacLean: Two individuals from very different situations in
life, or so the given biographies seem to indicate.
Robert Sylvester Moore (his actual given
name) was born in Shanghai, China on August 10, 1935. He returned to England
with his mother before he was a year old. He was the son of an engineer and the
grandson of a Member of Parliament and an Anglican Vicar. Various other
relatives achieved success in a variety of fields. His upbringing was a fairly
conventional middle-class affair, content and uneventful. Robert was the second
of four children. In addition to an older sister and two younger brothers, he
enjoyed the proximity of many relatives – a number of them fairly well
connected. One great uncle was an Earl, and the family was of the untitled
blood-line of the English aristocracy.
Robert’s sister married and moved to
Canada where she operated an equestrian academy. His two brothers became
professional cultists (one joining The Process after it had been founded and the
other allegedly becoming a Scientologist).
Robert received strict Christian
training at an exclusive Anglican private school. Upon completion, he was
offered admittance to a leading university to study toward an engineering
degree, but he decided instead to join the military.
In 1954, he began training for the elite
Lifeguards Display Calvary Unit and then transferred to the more active 15th –
19th King’s Royal Hussars. He was stationed for six months with the Hussars in
Malaysia, where the British were successfully fighting a communist insurgent
movement in the jungle. He was eventually transferred back to England where he
completed his military service as an officer in a transport unit in 1958.
Robert’s elite cavalry experience served
as excellent training and helped him develop an aristocratic poise and bearing –
something that would serve him well later as founder and prophet of the cult.
After the military service, Robert spent
the next three years studying at an architectural institute. He completed the
training necessary for his intermediate certificate but did not go the full five
years to get an architectural license. He learned the basic principles of design
and geometry, which served him well in designing various cult symbols. This same
architectural training was transferable in designing doctrinal structures in an
archaic diction and mode. It is the logical, repetitive manner of building one’s
theorems one brick at a time.
His first marriage did not last, though
he fathered several daughters during its duration. By 1962 he was divorced and
ready for a major change in his life.
Mary Ann MacLean’s background was the
flip-side of Robert’s. She was the illegitimate daughter of an impoverished
Scottish woman in Glasgow, that bustling Scottish city replete with slums, high
crime rates and poverty. She was born on November 10, 1931 and was raised by a
succession of relatives. Essentially, she grew up on her own wits. She was
poorly treated as a child and quickly learned how to survive. She is reputed to
have served time in a reformatory. Mary Ann boasted that she came from the
wretched Gorbals section of Glasgow and never had a single day of formal
education. From her own accounts, the only person to ever show her any love or
respect in those years was an older man who died of exposure sleeping off a
drunk behind a warehouse. He had vainly wrapped himself in newspapers against
the cold.
Whatever Mary Ann lacked in formal
education, she more than made up for in street sense. In time she would learn
well the skills of giving men what they desired, at her price, and eventually
rose to become the favorite companion of a number of prominent Londoners. Among
her conquests were a famous actor and a world-renowned comedian. At one time she
entered the United States, where she managed to meet former boxing champion
Sugar Ray Robinson and became engaged to him. The relationship ended, however,
and she returned to England where she worked as a dance hall hostess.
At a house in London, she became
romantically involved with a number of prominent British citizens during the
John Profumo – Christine Keeler prostitution scandal that rocked the British
government to its foundations in the early 1960s. One of the people linked to
the case was Dr. Stephen Ward, an occult adept. Ward died of what was described
as an apparent suicide. Most of the evidence and facts of the case were kept
under a twenty-five-year national security censorship. This was ostensibly to
protect certain high-ranking politicians and intelligence people. Several years
ago, the official suppression on information concerning the case was up, but
only a part of the official files were released. The rest were kept secret by
government fiat.
It was during this period that Mary Ann
MacLean and Robert Moore met while immersed in mental exercises at London’s
Hubbard Institute of Scientology.
Robert, in an autobiographical sketch
written in New Orleans in the summer of 1974, gives this apocryphal account of
their first quasi-encounter:
“Piccadilly, London, England, 1960:
Around midnight, maybe later, I wanted to cross over to Green Park, so I found a
pedestrian crossing. There wasn’t much traffic. I stepped off the curb onto the
street, assumed serenity of black and white lines. The law says that a vehicle
must stop for a pedestrian who has already placed his foot on the sacred black
lines. But the voice of the law is no guarantee whatever, particularly around
midnight in Piccadilly.
“I can’t remember how far I was across,
or even which way I glanced by some irrelevant whim. I could say ‘sixth sense’
but I prefer ‘irrelevant whim’. It’s more in character. Anyway, I did glance and
there was this car speeding towards me. I saw no driver – only a gleaming shiny
monster that seemed to be inflating at an enormous rate. In fact that was an
optical illusion. It got closer, which made it seem to get larger. That had
occurred to you, of course. It’s amazing how quickly the mind works in an
emergency. Mine is no exception. The difference is that mine produces about a
dozen totally irrelevant considerations within the space of two seconds, and
usually fails to grasp the real requirements of the situation until it’s almost
too late. I say ‘almost’ because even on this occasion I did eventually make the
appropriate move, but not before I had thought such things as: ‘I wonder why the
glass on the car head lamps has lines in it’ and ‘I think that car was made in
Germany. The Germans make the best cars in the world’ and ‘I could do a lot of
damage to the fender of this car.’
“Then I did see the driver; a woman,
young, handsome, angry, with red hair – I jumped backwards. The woman drove past
without turning her head.
“Now was it coincidence that I jumped
after noticing the driver? Or was it that the car I was willing to meet head-on
and take my chances, but not the angry red-haired woman?
“Was it simply that my irrelevancies had
run out and it was time for action? Or was it that the woman was a challenge
that I didn’t feel ready to meet right then? It probably doesn’t matter. But the
whole situation was undoubtedly significant, if it happened at all, because that
was Mary Ann.
“Who Mary Ann is doesn’t matter very
much. But what she is, that’s a question that deserves an answer. What’s Mary
Ann: She’s unforgettable. When you meet her, whether you like her or not, you
don’t forget her. Her personality is something like a thunderstorm, a heat wave
and a blizzard all rolled into one. You can’t pin her down and it’s a mistake to
try. She has too many facets to be categorizable. Most people finally – or
immediately – settle on one of them for security and live to regret it. But to
relate to Mary Ann, you have to remain ambivalent, because she does. You have to
keep your options open; don’t settle for one emotional attitude and try to
solidify it. Allow the full range, because she does. And don’t be mystified by
your own ambivalence toward her. It’s inevitable, because in answer to the
question ‘What is Mary Ann’, I could validly and truthfully list every human
characteristic imaginable, both positive and negative, and everyone would answer
the question. Living with Mary Ann is like living with the whole human race.
“Well, that incident in Piccadilly
wasn’t what you’d call a meeting – more on, a non-encounter. We passed in the
night, as it were, like those proverbial ships. She was a motor torpedo boat and
I was the row boat. I suppose that’s what they call Karma. And nobody quarrels
with Karma and gets away with it, so I wasn’t complaining. After all, being
drenched by the bow wave is nothing when you might have been cut in two by the
bow.”
De Grimston goes on to describe their
different tastes in music and their mutual interests. Mary Anne was very much
into spiritualism, astrology and the occult. Robert knew little about such
things but she easily got him interested in it all, being a person with the
faculty to generate enthusiasm in others in relation to their own interests.
Robert goes on to say that the closest
knowledge or approximate interests he had were in the fields of religion and
philosophy. Their common interest above all was that they both had a lively
interest in the workings of the human mind. Robert’s interests were mostly
abstract and subjective; Mary Ann’s interest was more that of a practical
psychologist looking for a handle on others so they might be successfully
manipulated by her. For Mary Ann, life had always been a contest of survival.
There had always been an opponent and enemy or potential enemy. She was a player
in the game of life – a player who intended to win, a gambler at life for which
no challenge was too great, no odds too long. For her, studying the human mind
was simply a great enterprise, another challenge to be beaten, and she
approached it with zest and strategy.
Conversely, for Robert, with his
methodical, multi-level and digressive intellect, the mind was a labyrinth, a
torturous maze of ambiguities, anomalies and incomprehensibilities that could
lead one back one of three ways: In a complex circle back to where one began,
deep into a chasm of futility and despair, or to freedom and transcendence. But
wherever it may have led, the mind itself remained. Surely there was something
within it, an opening, an answer, perhaps at the very center where all could be
resolved and explained.
Nothing in Robert’s Anglican religious
upbringing had equipped him for his quest. As he wrote:
“Religion was simple. You swallowed the
story, shelved the mysticism, reserved judgment on the doctrine, partook with
dignity but no emotion in the ritual, adhered to the accepted moral code, and
behaved at all times like a gentleman. It wasn’t that questions were not to be
asked; it was more like there were no questions to be asked. What’s to
question?”
The overwhelming impression Robert got
as to what religion was all about was that religion was there to prevent sex.
The two were irrevocably incompatible. This was the polarity between religion
and sex. You couldn’t have one with the other, so for Robert, the mind had no
such dichotomy with religion. Religion had not erected a barricade to studying
the mind, so with Mary Ann began their joint study of the human mind.
Robert read psychology but felt he did
not absorb most of it. Mary Ann, on the contrary, was an observer with a probing
eye. She was very adept at analyzing gestures, modes of dress, facial
expressions, verbal expressions, every outward manifestation of inner
motivation. Her observations, as Robert attests, were “poignant and accurate,
her judgments were sharp and severe, her conclusions uncompromising and seldom
favorable. This kind of vision was her primary weapon in the mind game. Her aim
was to know more about people than they knew about themselves. That gave her the
advantage and it ensured victory in the event of a contest.”
The common ground they both shared was
that she was after success and victory and he was after knowledge and discovery.
They both believed it was within the mind that they would each find what they
sought.
There was a psychologist, a disciple of
Freud, Alfred Adler, whose theories appealed to them both. Alder’s approach was
a compulsive goal theory. He believed that every human being was in pursuit of
something. These were not conscious goals or ambitions, but unconscious motive
forces that drove an individual’s actions. Both Robert and Mary Ann believed
that these unconscious goals be brought to the surface in the conscious self so
as to relieve tensions, pressures, conflicts, and the sense of failure to which
every person is in some way subject.
Both independently became interested in
the theories of L. Ron Hubbard. Hubbard had taken the investigation of the mind
from the esoteric adjunct of conventional medicine and framed it in a popular
scientific manner. He had written copiously on most every facet of the human
psyche. Unlike Adler’s theories on compulsive behavior, Hubbard had devised a
method for relieving one of such pressures through a precise and practical
therapy.
So Robert and Mary Ann took
Scientology’s course, became acquainted with others in the organization and
advanced to a level of “clear”, a status which implied they had vanquished their
own compulsive behavior and could now go on to helping others vanquish theirs.
They did this work for some six weeks at
the institute. It was during this period of 1963 that Robert and Mary Ann really
began to know one another on a deeper level. Robert, in his autobiographical
sketch, waxes and rhapsodizes on this period:
“During the last few weeks of our
training with Scientology, Mary Ann had been my therapist and transference took
place which probably never dissolved until we separated eleven years later.
Initially I hadn’t liked Mary Ann. Her brash exterior and her general air of
supreme confidence had offended me and probably threatened my masculinity. But
needless to say, I’d been impressed by her. From the time that she began to be
my therapist, however, I became obsessed with her, fixated on her. I felt the
warmth that had been hidden behind the arrogant façade. I saw the gentle
delicate femininity that had been covered by a cloak of masculine aggression. I
saw humor, I saw vulnerability and uncertainty, I saw beauty and a touching
self-consciousness. I’d found real contact, perhaps for the first time in my
life, and I was in love.”
Robert goes on to tell of the quiet
hours they spent together in these sessions facing one another across a small
table: She the therapist, he the patient. A great warmth grew between them, a
relationship throughout which Robert remained obsessed with her. Mary Ann, on
the other hand, felt at ease with this growing dependency she perceived in
Robert. This was nothing new to her as a woman of the world. This was, however,
predicated upon the submitting to her will, desires and interests. As soon as
Robert’s own individuality broke through this submission some eleven years
later, disaster and separation would occur. This was insightfully summed up by
him in the following passage from the sketch:
“This may sound like ruthless egotism,
and maybe that’s a way of describing it, but if so, it’s a crude and inadequate
way. Mary Ann is an extremely able person with a psychic strength and confidence
that I’ve not seen equaled. For those who submit to her will and continue to do
so, she provides enormous security. She makes their decisions for them (once
they’ve made their moral decision to submit) and gives them a black and white
code to live by, supports them in pressure situations, rescues them from
disasters, encourages them, gives them purpose, direction, protection, and
consolation when they need it. The only thing she takes from them is their
individuality.”
Robert self-analyzed that he had always
sought God within but never was able to find him. In a sense, Mary had become
something of a surrogate God figure to him, at least initially. He also wanted
Mary Ann herself, and as a result, he was willing to play along on this level
with her.
Apparently, Mary Ann was thought highly
of by the Scientologist staff as she was offered almost any high-level position
in the group that she wanted, but she turned these offers down. Most of the
therapists followed the rules laid down by the organization for their procedures
of therapy. Robert did so initially, resisting the temptations to branch out
into other possibilities. Mary Ann, however, followed her own leads, made
evaluations independently. She seemed in complete control of what she was doing
at all times. At some time, Mary Ann discovered that the room in which she
worked was being bugged. She was furious but coldly methodical when she went to
the director’s office and objected. Here is a portrait of Mary Ann’s basic
tactics and methods when dealing with others as told once again by Robert:
“There’s a psychological strategy behind
all of this, needless to say. I’ve never been quite sure how conscious it is
with her, but I suspect not very. She knows she plays games around people, but I
think part of the effectiveness of the games actually depends on her not knowing
quite what they are. One example is to make someone feel tremendously good. That
draws him in. Then she makes him feel equally bad. That drives him down, but not
away. He remembers how good she made him feel. Then she lays down conditions
whereby he will be made to feel good again. When he fulfills the conditions, she
fulfills her promises. It sounds crude when stated so boldly, but the subtlety
to which it’s put into operation is an inspiration to watch and both sides end
up satisfied. Every dogmatic religion in history has operated by this method in
order to keep its following in line: The whip followed by the carrot, followed
by the whip, followed by the carrot, with precise requirements stated or implied
to point the direction. It’s an ancient and tried technique that goes back to
the Garden of Eden, and Mary Ann was a master of it.”
All of this technique, of course, is
predicated on the power of suggestion, and this, too, was her ability. She had
the analytical insight to know what would make a given person act in accordance
to her wishes – to know which whip to employ and which carrot to offer as
reward.
Both Robert and Mary Ann discovered the
e-meters used by Scientologists in their work. They felt they could be
interesting to try and found that they were. The e-meter is a simple whetstone
bridge device that is highly sensitive to every minute change in skin
resistance. Normal models are constructed so that electrodes are tied around two
fingers of one hand and when the subject thinks of something emotionally
important (consciously or unconsciously), the needle on the dial reacts
dramatically.
They found the meter to be useful. It
gave indication of when the subject was thinking of some meaningful area to
investigate further. It served as a Geiger counter for divining and rooting out
problem areas in the subject. Later, the DeGrimstons would use a similar meter
in their Compulsion Analysis Group.
Robert, after his separation from his
wife, was living with his parents. He was a short distance from Mary Ann’s
apartment, above a shop on Kensington Church Street, and began spending most of
his time with her there. During this period, the relationship changed from
obsession to simply being in love with her.
He was still legally married but
separated for all intents and purposes. For Mary Ann, the very fact that he had
had another woman was cause for consternation with Robert. Mary Ann did her best
to imbue Robert with a sense of guilt and wrong doing. She saw him as having
wedged his way into her confidence under false pretenses. Robert balked at this
reality that she attempted to impose on him. The fact that Robert never
surrendered his will or individuality to her was the seed of future problems
that would arise between them. He had kept his own personality despite her
attempts to make him adopt her realities.
She attempted to break off the
relationship at one point, but Robert’s will prevailed. Eventually she relented
and they remained together, but her disapproval of him became a constant test of
his resolve and love for her. No matter how much emotional pain she had visited
upon him, as soon as it was gone, it was forgotten. All that seemed to matter
was the joy of being with her and the magic she exuded.
Reading over Robert’s account, one is
left with a feeling that Mary Ann’s love for Robert was of an all-consuming
nature. Hers was a desire to completely own Robert on every level, to ferret out
his deepest self and his own very soul. Though he admits at times to nearly
capitulating to her domination, somehow he retained his own sense of self.
Besides these personal emotional
struggles, there was also the work they were doing together in the area of
discovering the secrets of the mind. From Adler they had taken the theory, and
from Hubbard the technique. They felt the key was to help individuals to know
themselves in terms of their chronic compulsions that are the motivating force
behind their desires and actions, but how to proceed on this basis was still
something that they had not altogether found the method or means for.
They quit the Scientology group with
good will on both sides and moved on toward their own approach. They got
together with four other persons who were also working on the theory of goals
and using Hubbard’s machine to track them down.
An old friend of Mary Ann’s, an
attorney, became their inspiration and financial backer. He dabbled in
metaphysics, psychology and parapsychology. His goal was instant and total
illumination, so he backed the group so as to work out some of his own ideas.
The group of six began to pick each
other’s brains as the attorney friend waited on the sidelines for results, but
nothing was forthcoming - only a depressing futility set in among the group.
Robert described this period in his sketch:
“There’s an old saying that says: ‘It
has to get worse before it gets better.’ It sounds trite, and when put to the
test, I think very few people believe it. But in fact it has a profound
significance which should never be forgotten. There’s a Process Precept which
makes the same point, though perhaps more dramatically – or more pretentiously,
depending on how you stand in relation to the Process! The only road to life
passes through the Valley of the Shadow of Death. Well, we didn’t know that in
those days, but what we did know was that you don’t give up because the going
gets tough. Even Scientology subscribed to the aim that the way out is the way
through, and we were in full agreement with them on that score.”
The foursome who had joined them decided
to move on to safer ground as conflicts began to occur in dramatic ways between
them until they all went their separate ways. These conflicts poured into the
lives of Mary Ann and Robert as well, who seemed to be at opposite polarities
from one another on most issues. In the end, they decided that they had a theory
that seemed to work. How it worked they were not sure, but that it worked they
felt confident. That was good enough for them.
One thing they never examined was the
sheer power of suggestion. Later they were to decide that it permeates
everything, that it cannot be avoided, that none of us are entirely free of its
influence, and that they, too, were no doubt influenced by it in their course of
beliefs.
At any rate, they jumped into action.
Mary Ann was the real driving force. Robert was the intellect. She had the
certainty; he had the answers and justifications. She had the eye for openings;
he had the means to navigate it. She knew the move to make and he knew how to
execute the move. Without her, he would have been uncertain to plunge ahead, and
without him, she would have been too ill-equipped, but between the two of them,
they had the essential elements and it was no time before they were back in
business.
They rented an apartment on Wimpole
Street in London. In order to meet the expenses of the rent, they leased two of
the rooms to borders. The other two rooms were used for their intensive therapy
of their clients’ compulsive motivations.
Bernard, the attorney friend of Mary
Ann, was their first client. Another was Jerry Cohen from the east end of
London: A sharp and polished individual who signed up for six sessions with Mary
Ann, with whom he was obviously quite infatuated with. He was the first to
finish the six sessions and quickly signed up for six more.
Robert describes Mary Ann at this period
as: “…a total enigma to all the men who sought her favors, of which there were
many. They never had the faintest idea what she was after. The extremity of her
emotional demands made them wilt with terror. The sharpness of her intelligence
made them feel inadequate. Her complete irresistibility as a woman made them
unable to go away. She’d discovered her power over men at a very early age and
she used it well.”
Eventually Jerry and others who followed
enrolled and then disappeared just as suddenly. Acquaintances of Robert’s -
Peter and Tim, who had attended classes with him at the architectural school -
became interested in Robert’s and Mary Ann’s process. Peter would later become
Father John and Tim became Father Aaron of The Process Church. These two friends
knew somehow that Robert had the answers. In their wake came other friends and
associates - a whole group of them, male and female, eager to discover what they
had discovered.
Out of his network of friends a group
began to form. Social ties within the group grew stronger, and at the same time,
members of the group began to withdraw from the outside world. This eventually
led to social implosion in 1965 – 66, which separated the group from the larger
society and put it in opposition to the surrounding culture. Originally born as
a therapy process, the group matured and became the seeds for The Process:
Church of the Final Judgment.
Most of what The Process would stand
for, believe in, its temper and its style, would have origins in the basic
personalities of its founders, Robert and Mary Ann DeGrimston. Robert’s and Mary
Ann’s meeting would be a catalyst, for they both possessed skills and native
intelligence that in combination made them an extremely effective team. Their
minds had been educated in opposing directions, yet were complimentary for the
work they had cut out for themselves. Mary Ann’s techniques at analysis of
others’ needs and weaknesses and her ability to exploit them was balanced by
Robert’s elegant writing abilities, poise and appearance. His skills made for
the perfect doctrinal teacher and prophet – hers, the charisma necessary toward
binding and controlling the first rank of members.
They were driven by intense
complimentary needs, which resulted in a highly creative synthesis: One to
judge, one to execute the judgment, so to speak.
End of Part II
THE
PROCESS:
THE FINAL JUDGMENT
PART
THREE
By R. N. Taylor
-The
Road to Xtul-
“My prophesy upon this wasted earth, and
upon the corrupt creation that squats upon its ruined surface, is THOU SHALT
KILL.”
- Robert De Grimston, from Jehovah On
War
The 1960s was a tumultuous decade to be certain. It was
a ten-year period jam-packed with portentous events. In gazing back at that
decade nearly thirty years later, one is struck by the sheer madness of it all.
The second thing that becomes obvious is how much those events of that decade
have defined the remainder of this millennium. The following thirty years seem
in many ways to be little more than a lineal continuation of the ‘60s, but not
simply in a chronological order. The threads of certain events seem to have
tenaciously woven their way through the warp and woof of time, and continue to
be dominant strands in the fabric of the present. We are still reeling from the
ripples of repeated shock-waves that the ‘60s sent forth across the waters of
time.
It was the decade of the Cold War, a term coined by
British novelist George Orwell. The 1960s were to witness a heightening in Cold
War tensions that would peak with the Cuban Missile Crisis. Most of us who were
young teens at the beginning of the ‘60s had more or less been living with the
ominous threat of nuclear extinction hanging over our heads for more than a
decade. I’m sure that this real fear, though seldom discussed or spoken of, must
certainly have had some effect upon the character, beliefs and perceptions of
the generation that grew up in that period under its impress.
Human history as we know it is a long, almost
monotonous series of wars, invasions and annihilation. What, however, makes a
qualified difference between past times and the nuclear age is that nuclear
warfare is an imposing threat for any average individual to respond to in any
normal human way. In the past, one could trust in their own strength, courage,
weapons and wits to survive. But suddenly, a generation was confronted with a
threat for which the only answer was to dig a hole in the ground, cower, pray,
and not come up for air until they tell you the coast is clear! How powerless,
how dependent upon factors far beyond one’s understanding and control. How
emasculating in effect.
Nuclear warfare, for all its technological wonders and
wizardry, effectively relegates warfare to a level of abject Nihilism. Gone is
any sense of heroism, courage, or honor. Even dying and sacrifice have lost any
meaning. Nihilism is, in fact, negation of any belief or certainty, and the
Nihilism of the Cold War can logically be seen as a major contributing factor to
the spiritual malaise that would ensue. The advent of Atomized or Nihilistic
philosophies and feelings in any civilization is a clear indication of an
impending spiritual crisis. How could it be otherwise?
For those of us growing up in the ‘60s, the
assassinations, race riots, missile crisis, Vietnam, lower-spectrum guerilla
warfare and a plethora of other outstanding and outrageous events were sure to
feed the already festering spiritual crisis that had been gaining momentum over
the preceding hundred years in the West. America, with its economic prosperity,
was long overdue for this spiritual crisis to arrive. The events of the 1950s
and 1960s would effectively kick-start the crisis.
This spiritual void would soon serve as a ready
receptacle and medium for various cultic formations: Hindu fakirs,
psychoanalytical cults and various prophets of doom from distant shores would
leave their calling cards on America’s door step.
In retrospect, it appears that Robert and Mary Ann De
Grimston had completed their less-than-formal studies and experiments with
Adlerian psychology and Scientology, and had formed their Compulsion Analysis
Group in 1963 just in time. By 1966, when they were ready to make their
appearance on the cult scene, the spiritual crisis was in full drone and they
could hear the plaintive call from far Columbia’s shore. They would soon answer
it by making North America the focus of their interests and activities. America
was over-ripe for the picking. One could already detect the signs of its
spiritual and cultural rot and decay everywhere. It has oft been repeated that
America is the only country that has gone straight from barbarism to decadence
with nothing occurring in-between.
So it was in this social setting of the mid-sixties
that a former cavalry officer of aristocratic lineage with three years of
university study in architecture and a former street waif, call girl and
street-wise psychologist would meet and join as a husband and wife team in
founding an apocalyptic cult.
Most cults are founded by men. It is usually men who
are at the center of cults and their activities. In this sense, The Process
differed from most cults. It had two founders and two leaders, but it was
Robert, with his photogenic poses and often eloquent and strident teachings, who
fulfilled this male prophet role. Mary Ann was the sounding board and advisor to
the Prophet. She concentrated on the personalities of the movement’s leadership.
She was the power behind the throne. Robert would apparently be content to
record his dire pronouncements “on a debased humanity” far from the maddening
crowd and in the comfort of his ivory tower existence. This arrangement seemed
to work well for them. Probably neither of them acting independently could have
effectively marshaled a following into a cult on their own. They obviously
needed one another’s participation and complimentary talents in combination to
make it work. But wherever and whenever a group is founded and run by two
separate people, the seeds of schism, splintering or infighting are a distinct
and present possibility. In the case of The Process, this was apparently its
major cause of undoing: The break-up of Robert and Mary Ann’s marriage. But
there is much more to the saga both during and after its known existence, so
let’s take a look and consider the known facts as well as some pretty far-flung
theories.
Much of the interest and continuing mystique of The
Process can no doubt be attributed to the conflicting reports, innuendoes, and
sketchy second-hand knowledge that exists. In this sense, it is the stuff of
detective novels and sleuthing to uncover the facts, so let me describe
something about what we have to work with here.
Picture a puzzle in which we do not as yet have all the
pieces. In fact, the only pieces that we have fitted together are those that
form only the outline or periphery of our puzzle, leaving the center blank.
Besides these known and interlocking pieces are a lot of other pieces that may
or may not belong to this puzzle, and still other pieces that may be
counterfeit, manufactured and intended to sell books and entertain or to mislead
and confuse.
Let us firstly look at what we do in fact know about
The Process, while at the same time digressing when necessary to pursue a tip,
rumor, enigmatic connection or other qualifying comment.
“Come to Xtul, cries the voice of angels
in the wind.
Come to Xtul, where the wonders of this
world begin.
For you the glory of Xtul. For you the
glory of Xtul.”
- Process Hymn.
The group’s original name, Compulsion Analysis, a name
that reeks of pseudo-scientific pretensions, was discarded in 1964 in favor of
the more catchy and mystic sounding name, The Process. This was a name without
tight boundaries, open-ended in meaning. One could discover numerous ways of
interpreting so ambiguous a name. What is a process? It’s a steady, graduated,
unfolding and developing dynamic. By adding “The”, we have the implication
established that there can only be one true process, and “The Process” is it.
The term “Process” can also have the implication of a way or technique.
Apparently, origins of the name are more likely to be
found in a less prosaic source, like the terminology of Scientology from which
both of the De Grimstons had emerged. It is probably derived from the
Scientology term that describes the psychological journey of the individual from
a “normal” state to a “clear” state. Perhaps it alludes to the group being the
processing agent of transformation in the individual. Whatever its true
derivation was, it became the official title of the group in 1965. It also would
assume a highly mystical significance to those who would follow its teachings.
Late in 1964, De Grimston was quoted as saying, “We are
not offering super powers, but a means by which people can live on this side
more effectively.” A modest goal, to be sure. Perhaps the key and most important
part of that quote is the reference being made to “this side”. Certainly there
is a glimmer of religiosity apparent – an assumption that there is more than one
side to reality or existence. This was before the group had officially become a
religion in all its outward aspects.
In March of 1966, The Process emerged from the shadows
and assumed a public face. This public inauguration of the group coincided with
their purchasing a lease on Two Balfour Place in London’s exclusive Mayfair
District. This base of operation was part of a plan by Robert and Mary Ann to
begin proselytizing their beliefs and organizing the believers. This is the
official story as told by The Process. We have other stories from writers such
as Ed Sanders in his book The Family, which alleges that all that the De
Grimstons were intent on doing was cynically bleeding their followers of their
bank accounts and setting themselves up as a sort of Royal Family.
When one scrutinizes the lifestyle of the group’s
leaders, the type of properties leased, the constant travel costs and such, one
can assume a fairly large budget for operating costs, considering the actual
number of people involved. So if Sanders and others are not absolutely right,
there is good evidence to support some of these claims, although such
victimizing of members might well have occurred only later, once the group had
established themselves. In the beginning, however, most of the funds did seem to
originate in the fortunes of wealthy members who voluntarily surrendered their
money to the cult.
Apparently, the take, outside of these large donations,
was not so great in the beginning (if it ever really was). By May of ‘66, the De
Grimstons sent one of the faithful to scout the possibility of finding a
suitable living place for the group that was outside of England. The group had
already been attracting less-than-enthusiastic response from the press, which
began to mock and satirize the De Grimstons and their flock.
In June of that same year, a group of inner-core
Processeans, accompanied by the De Grimstons themselves, embarked on a
pilgrimage that would first take them to Nassau in the British Bahamas. Once
there, after encountering quarantine problems as a result of a pack of six
wolf-like Alsatian Shepherds that they had brought along from England, they
rented a large colonial-style house. It was a big house, like the Balfour house
in London. At this stage, there was little group cohesion. It was more a case of
individuals sharing space and little more. For the most part, they were
strangers to one another. Most of the members acquired local jobs. They stayed
in Nassau for about three months. An island had been located for sale, but they
never acted upon acquiring it. Perhaps they did not have the funds necessary for
the purchase, or plans had changed. In any event, they had thought of going to
Caracas, Venezuela or Mexico City. Both locations were of approximately equal
distance from Nassau. At this point, many of the group’s major decisions were
made in meditation circles in which each member articulated whatever images came
to mind during these sessions. Mexico seemed to have the most positive
projections.
Mexico City was their next port of call. They stayed
there only three days before wandering off in a rickety old bus as they followed
portents and hunches in regards to where to go next. Eventually they came to
Sisal, a small coastal village on the Yucatan coast.
Sisal lies near the town of Merida, which is the
largest town in the state of Yucatan. The group of thirty cultists arrived there
in early September, ‘66. Apparently, by some stroke of blind fate, the group
located a sizable property along the coast. It was an abandoned plantation with
several ramshackle buildings and a large ruined building consisting of four
walls but no roof. This all came about by a number of coincidences and
synchronicities. The lease cost $175 a year. It afforded them with four miles of
beaches, a lagoon, a stand of palm tree jungle and plenty of privacy.
The grounds where they settled were surrounded by
coconut palms called Xtul (pronounced Sh-tool). For some reason, they believed
erroneously that the name Xtul was an ancient Mayan word meaning terminus or
arrival. In fact, it meant nothing of the kind as one cultural anthropologist
was later to make clear to them. However, this was ignored as the legend of Xtul
had already become an integral part of their mythos. It seems that there were an
amazing and inexplicable number of coincidences of the magical thinking variety.
Something mystical and spiritual began to blossom among the group’s thinking.
Isolate several or more individuals. Reduce them to
largely interacting with one another in a sort of void, and they begin to mirror
beliefs and behavior back and forth between them. When it is only two people,
the phenomenon is known as folie a du (folly of two). In this case, it seemed a
folly of many. As events would occur and transpire, a new motive force was
projected – that of some sort of divine presence in it all. Perhaps there are
more synchronicities and fateful coincidences, more entwining of events than are
generally noticed or acknowledged. Take away the distractions of civilization
and urban life, clear the mind and simplify the tasks. Allow them to have a
certain ambient state in which to muse or engage in reverie, while at the same
time re-enforcing the magical thinking of the group.
Until this time, the group was not a religion, but a
psychoanalytical group. Xtul became the turning point. This is where they would
instead metamorphose into a religious sect with a new theology and a new mandate
straight from the Gods themselves!
It is perhaps not so unique that a group of urban
people suddenly amid a veritable wilderness and isolated from the larger world
with few distractions and constant reinforcement of the group’s reality would,
in short time, begin to revert to pantheistic perceptions and feelings.
The events that would occur at Xtul would serve as
another element or impulse behind the group becoming convinced of divine
guidance and a mysterious purpose. Paramount among these events was a tremendous
hurricane that swept through their dwellings in late September, just a few weeks
after their arrival at Xtul. Winds raging at forces as much as 200 miles per
hour tore through the community and left a path of destruction. One can imagine
the psychological effects of young urban Londonites face-to-face with the
awe-inducing force of raw, untamed nature. And it apparently became a propitious
time, a shared and memorable experience for those who were there. It served as
the bonding for this core group of adherents. It also marked the beginning of
their new identity as a religion.
Initially, the group found itself primarily preoccupied
with finding a way to eat. There were coconuts free for the picking but such
food stuffs became boring and tasteless in time. Some of the group went out with
local fisherman and shared in the catch. Others planted a vegetable garden.
Drinking water was a daily necessity and had to be brought in from the nearby
village. The water in a nearby well was saline. Eventually a spring was located,
and with the aid of bamboo, it was piped down to a convenient location. The
weather was so mild that most of the group slept out of doors in hammocks or on
mats. During rain storms, they would all cram into the shelter of the house.
Relations with the nearby village seemed to be amicable and even-handed.
From all accounts, the group stayed very busy and did a
lot of work. Evenings were spent in what was to become religious practices –
meditation, vigils, prayer, fasting, lengthy discussions and dreaming. Someone
concocted a makeshift instrument with a coconut shell and gut strings. They
began to compose songs that the group could sing. They began to discover the
beauties and miracles of nature and a natural existence.
Near the end of September, Mr. MacMillan, the British
consul stationed in nearby Merida, paid the encampment a surprise visit. He had
come to warn them that a great hurricane named Inez was headed right their way
and it would sweep them all away if they did not pack up and go inland. He
further offered his home as a haven for the group.
The group gathered to hear the news. In only a few
minutes, they had decided that they would stay right where they were. They
thanked Mr. MacMillan but politely declined his offer. Instead, they began to
fortify the place and construct a lean-to against the north wall facing the sea
and the direction that the hurricane would be coming from.
True to the dire warning, the skies began to darken and
the wind began to rise in force. Palm trees bent and refuse began to fill the
air. The winds increased in ferocity and velocity. The south wall collapsed in
an avalanche, but no one was situated there at the time. The fear of the walls
collapsing on them drove everyone out into the open where they huddled beneath
blankets, soaked from the rain. They chanted and sang songs to boost one
another’s spirits. Hurricane Inez ravaged Xtul for two straight days.
Inez began to pass and the weather cleared. All were
safe, if a little worse for wear. In the hurricane’s wake, litter lay scattered
on the beaches. A fishing boat from nearby Vera Cruz had washed ashore. The
group helped secure the boat and shared in some of the fish in its hold. Shortly
after things settled down, members of the group went to town and helped the
local villagers to repair their homes and such. The villagers showed them their
gratitude with thanks and food. No injuries had occurred among the villagers, so
the rebuilding was a happy affair.
The cult shared in the disaster relief sent by the Red
Cross from the United States by way of the Mexican government. This amounted to
bulk quantities of tortilla flour and black beans, as well as some building
supplies. The locals gave them roasted ducks in thanks for their help in
rebuilding their hamlet out of the wreckage. The cult began putting things back
in order at Xtul.
The hurricane, as a shared group experience, had helped
to define the group’s future religious direction. They had experienced both the
benevolent and wrathful sides of God and nature. One of them later explained it
this way: “Xtul was the place where we met God face-to-face. It was the
experience that led to the establishment of The Church. It was the point at
which the group, or most of the group, felt they had a mission and a calling.
This post-hurricane period was a fruitful time for the cult. It was a time of
preparation and planning for the future of their mission.”
Several of their number decided to take leave and went
home, but the body of the group stayed. In October of 1966, Robert began writing
the first of his prophetic books, eventually to be titled Xtul Dialogues. These
were writings that only real insiders of the group were ever allowed to read in
later years. It is composed of eight separate conversations between student and
teacher in a sort of Socratic exchange. These dialogues were said to be inspired
and collaborated on by Mary Ann. This type of writing was to be both a source of
ideas as well as a style in De Grimston’s subsequent and more public works.
As to the authorship of De Grimston’s writings, he felt
that he was merely a medium or channel for them. The Gods were speaking through
him. He gave his technique as a process of storing up impressions, phrases and
ideas and writing them down in long, intensive bouts of writing. Robert always
spoke of his writing as simply a channeling of thoughts into words from some
higher source outside himself, though he never stated that it was, in fact, God
or Gods speaking through him.
At this junction in the cult’s continuing development,
only one God is mentioned: Jehovah, God of strength, wrath and nature (or so
Robert interpreted this archetype). It would still be several years before his
doctrine of the great Gods of the universe would be publicly expounded. At this
point, Lucifer, Satan and Christ had not joined the cult’s pantheon of powers
(at least this is the official Process account).
Stephen Sennett tells the story somewhat differently in
his article in the book Rapid Eye #3. He claims they had already begun to
express their beliefs in terms of four facets or forces of God – Jehovah,
Lucifer, Satan, and Christ as the reconciler of the first three – but then all
of this is merely academic.
Ed Sanders, in his now expurgated chapters of his book
The Family, claims that it was in fact at Xtul that the cult got into Satanism.
At Xtul they coined a new phrase, Xtummie, which Sanders defines as meaning a
sort of satanic preparedness.
William Simms Bainbridge’s academic study of the group
titled The Power gives a slightly different definition to the phrase: “This is
an important concept defined in the notes to a series of essays that Robert
wrote at Xtul. To Xtumm is to kill – either physically, spiritually or mentally,
depending on the context.”
Another cult word invented at Xtul that also began with
an “X” was Xpiel, which was just a fancy spelling of the Yiddish or German word
that means a verbal flow of words. The use of an “X” seems to have been a
popular practice among the group during and following the Xtul adventure. In
fact, in true cultic mode, a whole nonsense lexicon of words was derived in this
manner. Here, one is reminded of Charles Manson and his followers carving Xs on
their foreheads during the Manson trial as a symbolic way of “X-ing themselves
out of society”.
One conspicuously missing chapter in the official
Process tale of Xtul is the matter of several minors with the group whose
parents had sent a solicitor to return them home. One wealthy father got
together with several other parents who had children staying with the group at
Xtul. Under the law they were still minors, subject to parental control. The
cult was to learn the all-too-real truth that no matter how far you flee from
civilization, it always finds a way to cast a shadow in your life.
The solicitor arrived at Xtul accompanied by an
official of the British Embassy as well as a Mexican immigration officer. Three
persons, one nineteen and two of them twenty years, respectively, left with the
officials. The solicitor told the London scandal newspaper reporters that he had
encountered twenty-two of the cultists – fifteen men and seven women. All were
shabbily dressed, except for Mary Ann De Grimston who was clad in a stylish
bikini with her fingernails polished silver. According to the solicitor, she
seemed to be treated by the others in the group like some sort of high priestess
(or is it dominatrix, if we are to believe Sanders’ book?). All in all, Xtul
offended his strict sense of middle-class propriety. One must keep in mind the
time period. The long hair and beards that the men cultivated certainly were out
of the ordinary. The Hippie movement had not yet fully burgeoned to become an
international phenomenon. When it finally did blossom, attitudes like the
solicitor’s and worse were waiting around every corner for everyone with that
sort of lifestyle or look.
There were still a number of underage members with the
group. It was decided after much discussion and meditation that most of the
group would return to London for a while so as to rescue the members who had
been taken away by the solicitor, as well as to elude any efforts that might be
made to abduct the remaining teenagers.
Upon return to London, one of those abducted was
brought back and he became one of the leading figures of the group several years
afterwards. Eight members stayed at Xtul while the rest returned to London. At
this point, the cult intended to maintain the camp at Xtul as its long-term
headquarters. A short time later, three more of the remaining eight also decided
to return to London. The last five stayed on for a total of one year after they
had first arrived. One of the women gave birth to a child before she and the
remaining members left.
Meanwhile, those of the group who returned to London
began to spruce up the Balfour headquarters which was still on lease to them. In
a few months, they opened a coffee house. In addition, they were actively
running courses and having lectures and other services. Next, they began
publishing a magazine, The Common Market. Here they began to criticize Britain’s
proposed entry into the European Economic Community. This was based on the
prophesy in the Bible’s Book of Revelations concerning something about a
ten-headed beast, which many interpreters relate to being symbolic of the EEC.
Several members even interviewed members of the House of Commons for this first
issue of their magazine. It seemed a strange choice of issues for the time, as
did the publication’s name, but then so did many of their subsequent interests
and pursuits prove equally strange.
As for the whereabouts of Mary Ann and Robert during
this period, there are differing stories. At some time they probably returned to
London after the Xtul expedition. Sanders has them accepting a mammoth donation
from a member who had recently inherited a fortune. He claims that they used
$80,000 of this money to purchase a yacht in Greece, which they used in secret
travel between the Mayfair mansion and their paradise lagoon in Mexico.
Robert, in his public writings, would now present his
concept of the four archetypal Gods. Additionally, he would perfect his theory
of ending all enmity between the forces of Satan and those of Christ. This
somewhat novel concept was summed up as follows:
“Christ said: Love your enemies. Christ’s enemy was
Satan and Satan’s enemy was Christ. Through love, enmity is destroyed. Through
love, saint and sinner destroy the enmity between them. Through love, Christ and
Satan have destroyed their enmity and come together for the end: Christ to
judge, Satan to execute the judgment. The judgment is wisdom; the execution of
the judgment is love.”
How simple, yet how verbally diabolic in a real sense.
Is it just prosaic speech intended to sound profound? Is it a twisting of a
previous doctrine to the extent that this doctrine is forced to bite its own
tail in contradiction of itself? Or is it just the plaintive aspiration of some
dreamy-eyed mystic and poet yearning for some peaceful reconciliation of
opposites so as to dispense with life’s paradoxes? I’m sure more than a few
followers mused on that oft-used statement of policy for a while.
Also during this period, De Grimston began to teach his
doctrine of The Games of the Gods. Also at this time, somewhere in the wings
off-stage, was Mary Ann who was formalizing her concept of fear. She is credited
with being the sculptress of this concept and teaching.
For the time being, they were all back in London
feeling renewed from the Xtul retreat. Many a rhapsody was written in
remembrance of Xtul. The name of their official publication was changed to The
Process. A photo in one of these issues of this period depicts a group of nine
black-clad Processean adepts, including De Grimston, sitting at a large
conference table contemplating a large globe. One can only wonder at the inner
thoughts. Were they perplexed to how they would deliver their new message and
glad tidings about the impending end of the world? Or were they plotting some
fantastic strategy of diabolic proportions to assist in its ultimate demise? We
will probably never know for sure. What we do know for sure is that they had
resolved the question of whether they wanted to bring new people into their
group or keep others out. They apparently decided to reach out and touch
someone, as the next phase of the cult’s development will prove.
End of Part III
More to come.....
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